"Bad Mind and Beetard Land"

  If you know me, and you don't, and I just comment here.  I was reading the whole Campbell thing. She's black and so there are "not allowed" thoughts here. We are indirectly racist or raised to let blacks bypass us and then get mad inside.  It keeps us at each other.  I met many racist blacks in the army. They have a whole different kind of parenting. My mom is a drunk and let us be wild or had/has serious issues.  She saved my life with the psychotronic thing. I was like, wait a minute, mommy doesn't like me and wouldn't ever say that. It was too nice. She recently told me to stop calling her. I can only imagine what her confessions would be. Quincy was fried.  He told me at a family gathering, 'my brain' is pickled. And I don't drink. The life had fallen from his heart.  I'm trapped, right? We all help mom now even though she lies about our upbringing or is mean.  We don't need songs like, "Call Me When You're Sober" by Evanescence.  That's nice, and one sister goes to clean up the house, as she likes to do that anyway. 

 My dad is a piece of shit who loves to destroy people and others' problems he can exploit. He's a drunk and has bipolar really bad. I have it, too, and you can ask Campbell about that one and "Spanish Lady."  I'm happy when I get a mania and get a lot done.  He's like, the darkness has descended.  Special ed also crushed me and him, even though they didn't used to put people in to the retard class unless they were severely disabled, like the palsy kids and retarded children.  He always gets mad over money and gifts. He does it on purpose to harass my mother.  They share things with me, too.  

I've had a lot of physical and health problems over the years, several from being attacked, poisoned, you name it. Swollen brain, but heart problems were the worst. Pinuwaka heard the murmur, and they should have seen my vitals around that time.  I left her office not feeling so hot, if you can imagine.  I feel bad for anyone who has permanent damage. One nurse told me I'd be fine even with the one I had, that it would go away, and the murmur did.  And yes, they have agents in the hospitals.  They missed my head injury.  I don't know how, but they found a way.

  My evil thoughts were not bad besides being pissed about not having healthcare (trust me, this is nice), and I couldn't go to school, which I'd been trained to explain my drain... I have issues with boys/men whatever because of how I've been treated by them and my dad.  I also like rich men--not trying (fantasy), but it won't happen.  I'd be stuck with tantrum boy now, perhaps a younger version.   I get sexually assaulted a bunch.  Sorry, Durov, I know you love me. Would you like to be matched with me? Don't be successful. I don't even have front teeth. The rest are falling out.  Well, draw your own conclusions, nobody.  Eventually, and I'm not speaking for Zheani, but we end up getting sick from the training and programming they do.  A little out of context but, "drink some of this" or whatever. It's the blood of the holy.  Then come one hundred voices.  They're mad and want to justify themselves, since all of the spooks.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whfQf3Pd5bU  I couldn't get back in time--had to be tortured, so some of my relatives became entrepreneurs for a while.  It makes me laugh.  If you do a, we have to do b.  It gets to the point where they can't control it anymore.  The psycho ops people in the army made me a hypersexual pedophile and bragged about being able to mess with a brain. They don't heal or help. Just wait until paying you guys will be in bribes, and people will pay them to have naughty confessions like that my goal in life is to give Putin an erection and that I have to make room for new life by killing Putin's daughters and that there are Russians at the window.  I told my mother, "but I want to be good."  When she responded, I was like, she wouldn't ever say that. That was nice.

Good luck!  If I don't stay in my current prison, I'll end up in prison after they rob me, saying whatever.  I already had to dodge the pedophile thing from them. A trip the doctor.  They've already learned that I'm expensive. A lot of cuts were to stop us from moving to such ends because I'm expensive :P

I used to be a Beetard, which made me crazy. It is okay to think. It is okay to not like someone. You don't have to give up everything, you have choices.  No more gaslighting.

"Evil Mind" -- Past Post on Breaking Bejamin

 Yes, sometimes I misattribte things to other people. That cliche doesn't mean others aren't involved.  

For example, he's shown his true face in songs like, "Polyamours."

"Pour some salt into the open wound." That's why I blamed him for making me jealous.  Then he sees our true colors.  I can't work through emotions and thoughts anymore because I'm evil, and he's retarded, not like us, however.  

Yes, it would have been nice to get to be like the people in HS and not have had to fight for small gains.  

All of the psychotronc people become my fault, I know.  They become our problems.

666 -- You don't like me, so you kill me... The whining, The whining... the agony of 12 years now..Poor baby... fix it, fix it... don't make me have to appreciate democracy in the bedroom Again? And human rights?

The usual?  

Annoying Girl From Satan

 For many years, I had serious problems.  One, I was harassed, assaulted a bunch, and stalked. I attributed all of this to Putin, who yes, made me mad by breaking my heart.  Hissy, bitchy.  Then I was killed again for it.  I'm like Kenny. Shit, well, sorry.

I get treated like crap most of the time, and I get that I am kind of young.  I don't think I'm important, but do you have to go out of your way to make things worse?  This is from the people who try to rob me or call me an evolutionary failure.  If I simply explain, I don't matter, and they rip me apart.

And the gold, money, or whatever???  I figured out that they made us worship it. They do good deeds, as Blue Stahli says.  They have everything I wanted.  Nope. They scolded me for jealousy and other crimes and thoughts that are normal.  I just hid and went in reverse.  They get mad when I say I don't have to be part of society and to please circumcise me.  They aren't aware.  I know I'm weird.  Want to be my special friend?  That's a bad idea because they will do anything to hurt me.  I set them off now because I can barely think and can't worship their godly opinion.  

If you think I'm all evil because I said I wanted to fuck Putin and take his money, I was still mad at him for breaking my heart.  I live in a hallucination and am not used to real people showing up.

 I had to address the poison in my veins.  My sin was lying about my desires, if you read the Quran.  Not exactly, Blue Stahli, I split from my desire, which is horrible.  It ended up in screaming torment of, "I don't want what I want!!"  

I didn't develop properly because I was so hated and oppressed that I kind of shook like a rat in a box as it pondered its fate with teenage boys.  I wasn't taught to think with my emotions, just withdraw, and look like what they think is rational when it's simply withdrawn, too.  I get to watch my inevitable death every day. 

I looked at the music and was like, well, this will be unfortunate for me.  I'm used to extreme punishments for little things. That's why I was terrified.  Of course, Britney Spears, who wants people out of her business despite creating more hype, should have stayed out of mine.  Again, they've never been tased like cops do to each other. Their mom didn't bite them when they bit her. It's fun to make us bleed to death for some jackass up in "heaven" or Babel.  I'm not worshiping them.  

I hate you.

2016 "Living Life Shattered

 sometimes, I try to compromise or worship abuse. It's evident that I'm doing so in my post.  It's the denial-to-acceptance thing.  Also, I cannot weed out the lobotomy from all the other damage, one of which is shown in "Hellhounds."  And when you use that, or you try to kill us, follow the next paragraph.  While out of it, I blamed Putin when he tried to help with the initial picture.  

I do think that psychotronics might help the insane. Then again, so would housing, safety, food, and medicine. They seem to forget that in many mentally ill people.  I think it would be a better world if humans would admit that they are animals, too, not machines.  

We're jealous... and that was one annoying manipulation of society.  Do you want to go on a 15-mile bicycle ride in the heat, cold, sleet, and rain?  We all know who is the winner. 

I hated jealousy and not belonging or having real friends.

Don't think you get off that easily...

 I didn't get a trial. I would have been not guilty because I didn't break the law for high treason, and I was tortured.  I know you guys have no life and if you catch anything, it's like a wiggle fest.  Fuck with a real criminal, FBI. I know it's difficult.  You entrapped me 4+ times.  You also had me worshipping Putin on the ground.

You also did some "Minority Report," too, but I didn't have a dresser. It was pretty easy to see where I would go with the rent around me and the statement that I wanted to live near the ocean.  You wanted MM to blow my head off and kill me, but that failed, too.  Who is your Oracle now?

So, yeah.,, you are full of shit.

Okay, so this makes more sense... I was like, wtf, why is it me? I get it...

 Well, I don't remember much of what I do, but some days are better than others.  

They have rationalized attainder with my treason and took my rights. I'm not sure if I technically committed treason or a felony. Oh well, I've never had rights.  I thought that was continuing as a part of my horrid existence.  I know that I must be endlessly punished, "lessons." Beetard land.  That's how they justify doing bad things to me. Guilt is another emotion that incites them.  I don't even care about being dispossessed. My life has exploded several times.  I did get a nook this time. I will admit that.

I said that Patriot Missiles don't work.  I didn't have any contact with an officer. I'm pretty sure that just causes you to lose your security clearance forever.  I signed a page saying that I would not talk about weapons right before I got out.  Ah, yes, but draconian punishments are more fun.   I remember being in pain. Obviously, they do work. Ukraine said so.  We did a drill once, and I have no doubt we could have screwed it up. That poor mountain.  

How did I get the Director's cut of "I Want to Believe?"  You don't often put those in a PX (general store) or anywhere else. Also, I thought Putin was my father, and we all have weird family thoughts.  They did other actions that are very bad for the Hell of it. I'm either in pain every day, having weird chills in odd body parts, horrible headaches, or I can't think at all.  

Gitmo gets me, I know that. Don't mind the laughing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lmo0_1T3C2Y

I would like to leave the US. They can get a new chew toy.