So I wrote everything down because I was trying to avoid their tricks. I have many things posted in many places so simply erasing me from one part won't silence it, and it doesn't matter because nobody cares but our squads care about me. I figure it's a good list to start on.
It's a mean world. Aw.
As far as everything being an illusion and me giving up control to everyone that ultimately destroy me, I won't. I've done that for a long time.
I simply can't find evidence of the invisible. I'm not delusional. I'm confused.
I either, blah,blah, want attention, blah, blah, or I'm bored and creating a "cool" reality, blah, blah, or anything else cliche, blah, blah. Confuse with the irrelevant. I'm bad, I'm jealous (they were over a dollar--jealousy is a survival emotion; they have to kill me before I kill them, way of life) I'm anything. Look in the mirror. Know YOUR flaws. One sentence won't describe it, savior. If you are going to analyze, I expect an indepth analysis that covers all the aspects of my illness, my history and the possibility of it being real. The technologyi s out there.
I'm like Breivik, but I think the Russians would be best to analyze my mental illness instead of the Japanese.
My brain is destroyed. You're damn right I want my brain fixed. My eyes are popping for that one. @_@ You've had your fun and now you're done.
"Tear Away"
You've confused me
Stopped the wheel
I have to break, or I die?
Guess, what, guess, what?
I'm shattered and frayed
Confused, as one so weak
One is definitely alone, so sweet
I have to figure out the illusion
I am confused; where is my angel?
Death! Death! Death! Again?
The God of the dollar is no God of mine
The Afghan pscyhotronic weapons
Are a bitch, "we will blur your senses"
That was for the whole Putin-God-thing
Which led me to the Quran
Where are they?
I confess, I do not know good from evil
Where is the overlord
I need my brain fixed
Like this, I destroy the human condition
For we are both in a bowl.
Allah can kiss my ass
He is a machine
He's not done one thing for me
But terrorize me and disable me
So stone me -- everyone does by His design
Let Him prove he isn't a fairy
Eloi is demonic
I stick with things that can give products
I need my brain fixed
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Tatu's "Invalidy" or Placebo's "Special Needs"
Again, why do you raise disabled people only to kill them? It seems like we're competing as usual, and you've found a piece of merit that gives you an advantage or does it?
I did pull my weight, and I had been looking for employment, but they gave me TBIs that caused my behavior to change dramatically as they kept trying to kill me for any reason.
I was a decent writer and mechanic. Any hope of me ever working again has pretty much been destroyed, however, unless Putin decides to be decent and hand over the cells. I don't have a sound enough awareness to comprehend much of anything. I have a truly poetic reality of "here-now." I would describe it as waking up in the middle of the night and thinking that the dream was real.
I guess it's kill or be killed. But we must make the hunt efficient or there will be no game left.
I don't blame you. It's a dog-eat-dog world, but what will my death really mean to the big picture? It won't make you a better writer. It won't give you more power. All it'll do is give a check to some disabled retard out there that's protected by your inability to kill them all. People need our money to sustain themselves, so they will protect us.
Kill them. Honestly. hehe
:) :( :/ :D That's my gang symbol. LOL Emotions are "Bad Magick" by Godsmack. Humans credit their emotions as having power. It's interesting and how they end up dead. I thought I told the attackers everything they wanted to hear; I have to guess. I exaggerated my memory for awhile because around 21, my emotions started to wane minus rage. Putin's influence got me killed. They attacked me over and over again after that damn picture.
The dictator has me loving walls
Hoping that I'll give up my emotions
So that he can exploit the meaningless
Eye that sees simple survival, one
He doesn't know that I like to scream
More and that I like to bleed, as my
Emotions burnt out to nothing to where
Anything human is pleasure
Apparently, this saved me and my injury
Did because I could not fulfill the "suicide."
Rage was the last emotion that I had, and now I have nothing. I'm like all dizzy all the time then some days I'll just have an odd awareness. I want this fixed. You had your fun and now you're done.
I did pull my weight, and I had been looking for employment, but they gave me TBIs that caused my behavior to change dramatically as they kept trying to kill me for any reason.
I was a decent writer and mechanic. Any hope of me ever working again has pretty much been destroyed, however, unless Putin decides to be decent and hand over the cells. I don't have a sound enough awareness to comprehend much of anything. I have a truly poetic reality of "here-now." I would describe it as waking up in the middle of the night and thinking that the dream was real.
I guess it's kill or be killed. But we must make the hunt efficient or there will be no game left.
I don't blame you. It's a dog-eat-dog world, but what will my death really mean to the big picture? It won't make you a better writer. It won't give you more power. All it'll do is give a check to some disabled retard out there that's protected by your inability to kill them all. People need our money to sustain themselves, so they will protect us.
Kill them. Honestly. hehe
:) :( :/ :D That's my gang symbol. LOL Emotions are "Bad Magick" by Godsmack. Humans credit their emotions as having power. It's interesting and how they end up dead. I thought I told the attackers everything they wanted to hear; I have to guess. I exaggerated my memory for awhile because around 21, my emotions started to wane minus rage. Putin's influence got me killed. They attacked me over and over again after that damn picture.
The dictator has me loving walls
Hoping that I'll give up my emotions
So that he can exploit the meaningless
Eye that sees simple survival, one
He doesn't know that I like to scream
More and that I like to bleed, as my
Emotions burnt out to nothing to where
Anything human is pleasure
Apparently, this saved me and my injury
Did because I could not fulfill the "suicide."
Rage was the last emotion that I had, and now I have nothing. I'm like all dizzy all the time then some days I'll just have an odd awareness. I want this fixed. You had your fun and now you're done.
I Used To Be A Decent Writer
But my memory is so destroyed. It's so I can't believe in anything. I am incredibly weak minded these days. If you told me the moon is made of cheese, it would take me a minute to figure out that it is not made out of cheese. I can't trust any information I receive. I assume they did this to me so that I could not disagree with their mind programming. They've made all information analogous and short-lived. I have an interesting reality. Now they're trying to program in their wisdom which is humorous.
Disorganized Youth
Is my opinion right?
It was from your reality
The one I see
I react and say, are you
Superior-that's your decree
I need to know who you are
Who has the biggest gun
It's for another you, why
I fight the invisible demon
I believe this to be true
Do you not see the tangling
My youth betrays me
Give me a minute?
Tell me again the answer
In a way I can understand
Why are you screaming?
I can't hear you if you confuse
K.I.S.S. Keep it simple stupid
So that I don't go astray
But it's a trick, you see
To make me deceive
I'm not really talking
When that's all I can do
In this reality of ours
Is follow you as you
Fight a dragon stronger
Why do you pick on pawns
When the flames are
Consuming you?
This fight is not your fight
What can I do?
Monkey see, monkey do
Monkey climb higher than you
Pretty soon all you get is screeching
Climb the actions
Leave the words to dust
They were never real
No, I won't tell them the answer. i just stick out my tongue and laugh as I go to increasingly stupid realities. I like this life of not having to do anything. It's what they wanted. My brain feels like it's filled with water but abilify makes that feeling go away, disturbing as it is. hehe
Of course, this is really because I'm a traitor that has to choke or something else ridiculous. We all know that Patriot Missiles don't work. Academia has been saying it for centuries. I just screamed that out to mock them labeling me a traitor for other things. They were fishing for anything as usual. I get flip-tricked. I have no redeeming qualities.
If you guys are so powerful, why can't you just take my money? :P
She said I was trying to get in on her good by writing. I didn't even write for money. That's what I was trained to do in school, which must be some pointless abstract to them? Like I said, I like slavery. They've got us in this damn status system that is inhumane. We have too many masters and conflicting interests. I need a protector. They make everything Hellish for a few individuals. It doesn't have to be this way. Hey, I'll work for nothing if I have stable food and shelter. Who needs a big house or a car or glittering things? Unnecessary accessories.
Glitter and gold
Still gets old
Shine for time
A dime's sin
Once minted
To descend
Into fine dirt
Way of Earth
Disorganized Youth
Is my opinion right?
It was from your reality
The one I see
I react and say, are you
Superior-that's your decree
I need to know who you are
Who has the biggest gun
It's for another you, why
I fight the invisible demon
I believe this to be true
Do you not see the tangling
My youth betrays me
Give me a minute?
Tell me again the answer
In a way I can understand
Why are you screaming?
I can't hear you if you confuse
K.I.S.S. Keep it simple stupid
So that I don't go astray
But it's a trick, you see
To make me deceive
I'm not really talking
When that's all I can do
In this reality of ours
Is follow you as you
Fight a dragon stronger
Why do you pick on pawns
When the flames are
Consuming you?
This fight is not your fight
What can I do?
Monkey see, monkey do
Monkey climb higher than you
Pretty soon all you get is screeching
Climb the actions
Leave the words to dust
They were never real
No, I won't tell them the answer. i just stick out my tongue and laugh as I go to increasingly stupid realities. I like this life of not having to do anything. It's what they wanted. My brain feels like it's filled with water but abilify makes that feeling go away, disturbing as it is. hehe
Of course, this is really because I'm a traitor that has to choke or something else ridiculous. We all know that Patriot Missiles don't work. Academia has been saying it for centuries. I just screamed that out to mock them labeling me a traitor for other things. They were fishing for anything as usual. I get flip-tricked. I have no redeeming qualities.
If you guys are so powerful, why can't you just take my money? :P
She said I was trying to get in on her good by writing. I didn't even write for money. That's what I was trained to do in school, which must be some pointless abstract to them? Like I said, I like slavery. They've got us in this damn status system that is inhumane. We have too many masters and conflicting interests. I need a protector. They make everything Hellish for a few individuals. It doesn't have to be this way. Hey, I'll work for nothing if I have stable food and shelter. Who needs a big house or a car or glittering things? Unnecessary accessories.
Glitter and gold
Still gets old
Shine for time
A dime's sin
Once minted
To descend
Into fine dirt
Way of Earth
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Get Stupid
That's Madonna's song. It looks like, "share your view and make the world a better place," but we all know that they're dumbing us down, making us confess to various sins so that they can trap us. A few people are vain and think that they can, with their limited awareness of one and no army, know anything "big." I find this comical. And I'm saying it to Breaking Benjamin as well. They don't want world peace; they want world piece. I just want to spit out realizations to conform to time. I'm not talking to anyone, am I? I don't want anything but survival. I have no influence, just putters across a keyboard as I state my plea for survival. It's difficult for me to make sense because my mind is all messed up.
The information
Stone henge has 56 lunar cycles
The moon smiles away
Blue, 53, flowers, up
There are letters in the alphabet
Couch, pillow, kill, tree
There is a President
It's October one month
There are four seasons
I don't believe in telling them anything, fine, just laughing at them because they'll figure it out. They have no choice but to add realizations to things. No, I won't tell you how it should be, Breaking Benjamin, I'll watch as everything goes down and then we all fly away again. Good will prevail because there is a drive for survival that is stronger than any force be it greed or anything else.
A Piece of the World
I want world peace
For me to sleep
For me to seek
Let me write crappy poems
without form
Let me speak
For my world piece
The reason I didn't go to Russia is because I didn't know anyone over there. I didn't trust that picture that Putin put up because it looked like doublespeak (originally, Putin was smiling at me dying and there was a picture of a firesquad next to him), and it caused a lot of people to notice me, and I still want Putin to fix the brain. They don't have a program for me to start over there and I don't speak their language. Sure, they're hunting "ghosts," but I would probably have better luck over here with my skill set. Nobody wants a low skilled female. Worthlessness sucks. Use me, abuse me. I'm insane. I don't care either.
Things always work out because they have to.
Today's song is from Godsmack, "Spiral." A real Band.
"Sometimes we only live for the here and now
Sometimes we're lonely
Sometimes we feel like we need somplace
to be grounded or to fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I feel rain pouring down
I wait to rot away, live again, here forever...
The spiral neverends
Always we search for the answers
But nothing is found
We fly away again"
Humans are strange creatures. I think our "religion" has lost its mind, the killing of invalids for moral reasons. Why do you raise us if only to die? Surely, you could have created a slot for us somewhere... I cannot conform to that which I cannot see. How clever. Let me go to the one with the most control, the biggest gun.
They used their sex rays on me (a screaming female), cyanide and a bunch of other things, including framing me hitting on Putin. I'm a ghost rose. It appears, looking back through my old blog, that my heart stopped or did something due to a potassium imbalance (which caused me to get uber delusional with angels and stuff) and my brain exploded or something in the end of myself. I can't really remember much. That seems to have preserved me from the sex ray (Beck's Mellow Gold Album) because I have no desire. I have no mind though. This sucks and is hard to explain.
These things happen, and I look back for evidence.
You? or Me? -- They Say
Why would I matter
When I'm in chains
The world has me
Choke, it commands
And I have to obey
Survival
Incite my anger
When jealousy becomes
A sea that consumes
Blood is salt
See? we are connected
When Bread Rises
You box me to nothing
I'm a honey ham?
I'm something to name
Something bad
I cannot earn a penny
I cannot have
A dollar for a beer
Just see bad
As I watch bread rise
As other say "tab"
That's what you get for using me, you bastards. i'm "youthless" by Beck or "useless." They kill them when they have nothing left or they steal all they have. I mean, I was smart enough to go to school, but they interferred so that they didn't have to pay. The guy in the song humps the couch until he dies or in my case wakes up and runs with a really bad headache. I think someone cares. That's my sin. I think sympathy matters... :) :( :/ Human emotion? I no longer have emotions, just the desperate grab of survival. I wish the soviets that ruled us would let us out of our cages once we learned all their traps. Of course, they blur Beck as some sort of extremist group to confuse us, but we'll learn that they use gangs to trap invalids and dissidents and political enemies and people they wish to drain and the gangs are government organized, whether they realize it or not.
The information
Stone henge has 56 lunar cycles
The moon smiles away
Blue, 53, flowers, up
There are letters in the alphabet
Couch, pillow, kill, tree
There is a President
It's October one month
There are four seasons
I don't believe in telling them anything, fine, just laughing at them because they'll figure it out. They have no choice but to add realizations to things. No, I won't tell you how it should be, Breaking Benjamin, I'll watch as everything goes down and then we all fly away again. Good will prevail because there is a drive for survival that is stronger than any force be it greed or anything else.
A Piece of the World
I want world peace
For me to sleep
For me to seek
Let me write crappy poems
without form
Let me speak
For my world piece
The reason I didn't go to Russia is because I didn't know anyone over there. I didn't trust that picture that Putin put up because it looked like doublespeak (originally, Putin was smiling at me dying and there was a picture of a firesquad next to him), and it caused a lot of people to notice me, and I still want Putin to fix the brain. They don't have a program for me to start over there and I don't speak their language. Sure, they're hunting "ghosts," but I would probably have better luck over here with my skill set. Nobody wants a low skilled female. Worthlessness sucks. Use me, abuse me. I'm insane. I don't care either.
Things always work out because they have to.
Today's song is from Godsmack, "Spiral." A real Band.
"Sometimes we only live for the here and now
Sometimes we're lonely
Sometimes we feel like we need somplace
to be grounded or to fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I feel rain pouring down
I wait to rot away, live again, here forever...
The spiral neverends
Always we search for the answers
But nothing is found
We fly away again"
Humans are strange creatures. I think our "religion" has lost its mind, the killing of invalids for moral reasons. Why do you raise us if only to die? Surely, you could have created a slot for us somewhere... I cannot conform to that which I cannot see. How clever. Let me go to the one with the most control, the biggest gun.
They used their sex rays on me (a screaming female), cyanide and a bunch of other things, including framing me hitting on Putin. I'm a ghost rose. It appears, looking back through my old blog, that my heart stopped or did something due to a potassium imbalance (which caused me to get uber delusional with angels and stuff) and my brain exploded or something in the end of myself. I can't really remember much. That seems to have preserved me from the sex ray (Beck's Mellow Gold Album) because I have no desire. I have no mind though. This sucks and is hard to explain.
These things happen, and I look back for evidence.
You? or Me? -- They Say
Why would I matter
When I'm in chains
The world has me
Choke, it commands
And I have to obey
Survival
Incite my anger
When jealousy becomes
A sea that consumes
Blood is salt
See? we are connected
When Bread Rises
You box me to nothing
I'm a honey ham?
I'm something to name
Something bad
I cannot earn a penny
I cannot have
A dollar for a beer
Just see bad
As I watch bread rise
As other say "tab"
That's what you get for using me, you bastards. i'm "youthless" by Beck or "useless." They kill them when they have nothing left or they steal all they have. I mean, I was smart enough to go to school, but they interferred so that they didn't have to pay. The guy in the song humps the couch until he dies or in my case wakes up and runs with a really bad headache. I think someone cares. That's my sin. I think sympathy matters... :) :( :/ Human emotion? I no longer have emotions, just the desperate grab of survival. I wish the soviets that ruled us would let us out of our cages once we learned all their traps. Of course, they blur Beck as some sort of extremist group to confuse us, but we'll learn that they use gangs to trap invalids and dissidents and political enemies and people they wish to drain and the gangs are government organized, whether they realize it or not.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Evil programming: You Don't See Them Asking for Help
I said I didn't want your help, but you boxed me so that you could be badass.
I am the epitome of evil.
I say, let's start up slavery again. :)
I want to go to a labor camp.
You'll be the one quietly begging then.
I am the epitome of evil.
I say, let's start up slavery again. :)
I want to go to a labor camp.
You'll be the one quietly begging then.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
I'm Not Playing Games
You force me on too much medicine, and I'll stop eating. I've been fairly compliant.
I've never killed anyone and my grandma lied about the clawing thing. Hey, I'm white trash with no redeeming qualities. Threaten an animal and see what happens. I was still in dizzy, disoriented land when that happened. I wasn't well, and it wsan't schizophrenia. That would be from the cyanide. Nobody wants to defend or help me or prove what really happened.
No, you should never claw your grandma, but she wouldn't let go of me, and I had to get away. I put slight pressure on her. She doesn't have any proof that I did more than that, no photos. The police didn't take her to the hospital. I've never done anything else, much as I'm accused. I sent a mean letter in HS to some girl (catfight), Campbell (or get the fuck away from me) and that's been about as vicious as I've been. Self-defense.
I've got the IQ of a wounded rat these days. I don't think I'm a threat to public safety. Thanks psychotronic warfare for preventing me from being a terrorist. I told him why I got angry, and he ignored me as usual. He's trying to box me now into unsafe doses.
It's me, my behavior, and I don't see any behavioral therapy attempts.
If you drug an elephant, will he learn calculus or will he just sit there and stare? Why not just kill me? I'll be easy to handle then. At least work for your money.
It's difficult for me to be sassy these days since I'm floating around. that's why I like to pump those emotions. I can feel something. A pulse of something. I don't think they can hear me on the moon. Scream louder.
Personally, I don't think I can handle civilization, so I'd like them to open camps and invite me. Fair warning, I become a puke monster at night. I get really disoriented and cannot remember simple instructions though, so be nice. I can write because I can collect myself, and I do most things automatically.
I had no history of hypochondria, and I'd like to tell the ER people that. I know you didn't have time for me, but I thought I was dying. I was smelling rotting flesh and my head hollowed out and I flipped out because I couldn't stop throwing up, and they said I was sticking my finger down my throat. I'm going to puke by the camera next time and sue you. Excuse me for caring once. I'm into self-preservation. Not that any doctor will listen to me, so fuck you all. You are wrong all the time. I'd never been to a hospital during my middle child and teenage years. I'd been in one for tubes and that was it. The first time was in 2009. There's something wrong with me. We're going to take some cognitive tests, and I'm going to show you that it's not family friendly in here. What's beautiful is that it affects everything, and I cannot escape it. I had a headache for 8 months and when the headache went away, I was dizzy and like really stupid but the pressure went away. I've improved since then but I still have issues. I'm no longer smelling odd things, but I still puke. I freak out because I get disoriented, and I can't feel my normal emotions to a degree that i have no instincts. There was nothing worse than that headache. It was in the morning, in noon and at night. No one would "believe" me. Look at my medical recorders. Look at when I've been in. I did have one "tantrum" when I screamed at Putin while they were still trying to kill me with the damn ray, and I used my name. I still had the headache then but I was determined to be angry because why does everyone feel like they own my life?
Did you believe my blood shot eyes? It's cool. I don't need to give you my money or "your' money since that's how most of you feel. take it, you worthless pieces of shit. I know I am, and i'd love to go somewhere productive where I don't sin. I'm a sinner. I HATE FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labor camps.
Who wants a diagnosis of schizophrenia? Come on, it's fun.
I've never killed anyone and my grandma lied about the clawing thing. Hey, I'm white trash with no redeeming qualities. Threaten an animal and see what happens. I was still in dizzy, disoriented land when that happened. I wasn't well, and it wsan't schizophrenia. That would be from the cyanide. Nobody wants to defend or help me or prove what really happened.
No, you should never claw your grandma, but she wouldn't let go of me, and I had to get away. I put slight pressure on her. She doesn't have any proof that I did more than that, no photos. The police didn't take her to the hospital. I've never done anything else, much as I'm accused. I sent a mean letter in HS to some girl (catfight), Campbell (or get the fuck away from me) and that's been about as vicious as I've been. Self-defense.
I've got the IQ of a wounded rat these days. I don't think I'm a threat to public safety. Thanks psychotronic warfare for preventing me from being a terrorist. I told him why I got angry, and he ignored me as usual. He's trying to box me now into unsafe doses.
It's me, my behavior, and I don't see any behavioral therapy attempts.
If you drug an elephant, will he learn calculus or will he just sit there and stare? Why not just kill me? I'll be easy to handle then. At least work for your money.
It's difficult for me to be sassy these days since I'm floating around. that's why I like to pump those emotions. I can feel something. A pulse of something. I don't think they can hear me on the moon. Scream louder.
Personally, I don't think I can handle civilization, so I'd like them to open camps and invite me. Fair warning, I become a puke monster at night. I get really disoriented and cannot remember simple instructions though, so be nice. I can write because I can collect myself, and I do most things automatically.
I had no history of hypochondria, and I'd like to tell the ER people that. I know you didn't have time for me, but I thought I was dying. I was smelling rotting flesh and my head hollowed out and I flipped out because I couldn't stop throwing up, and they said I was sticking my finger down my throat. I'm going to puke by the camera next time and sue you. Excuse me for caring once. I'm into self-preservation. Not that any doctor will listen to me, so fuck you all. You are wrong all the time. I'd never been to a hospital during my middle child and teenage years. I'd been in one for tubes and that was it. The first time was in 2009. There's something wrong with me. We're going to take some cognitive tests, and I'm going to show you that it's not family friendly in here. What's beautiful is that it affects everything, and I cannot escape it. I had a headache for 8 months and when the headache went away, I was dizzy and like really stupid but the pressure went away. I've improved since then but I still have issues. I'm no longer smelling odd things, but I still puke. I freak out because I get disoriented, and I can't feel my normal emotions to a degree that i have no instincts. There was nothing worse than that headache. It was in the morning, in noon and at night. No one would "believe" me. Look at my medical recorders. Look at when I've been in. I did have one "tantrum" when I screamed at Putin while they were still trying to kill me with the damn ray, and I used my name. I still had the headache then but I was determined to be angry because why does everyone feel like they own my life?
Did you believe my blood shot eyes? It's cool. I don't need to give you my money or "your' money since that's how most of you feel. take it, you worthless pieces of shit. I know I am, and i'd love to go somewhere productive where I don't sin. I'm a sinner. I HATE FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labor camps.
Who wants a diagnosis of schizophrenia? Come on, it's fun.
Monday, October 17, 2011
I'm Learning a Lesson From a Child
Burps
Right, wrong, who the fuck cares? I have to figure out what you value and use it against you before you trap me and if you're trying to get me to do anything, you value something. And if this was Bush, I was a nice person, a desperate person, and you just, like eeryone else, couldn't resist. At least Putin showed his face. I'll let you kill me any day, sweetie. You know what I'd do to you or fag if I had the chance, both of you? Just for fun. I hat ethis place. Humans don't get a better world. They couldn't even handle this one and you couldn't even handle the power with me. Do you honestly think you can handle it on larger levels? Be mature, we all have to serve each to survive. And as for a crappy destiny, we've given them 10.000 years and they still haven't figured it out. We all die. No rose. You do that, and i will laugh at you. I don't follow people that haven't earned my respect. You can just cut me up or anything else "cute." I'm only one.
I don't serve you. You don't serve me. We're equal.
So I have to confess everything, and that'll mean things that I didn't do as well.
My mind is extremely weak now, so I don't have the awareness to really know what I'm doing -- if you know what I mean. hehe I'm going to take the IQ, scratch that. Is this just punishment? I just laugh at them and their laws. It's like, he'll do whatever he wants to, and he doesn't have any values. I'm going to try to escape. By the time he's done with me, I won't have one redeeming quality because he has CONTROL. He's going to flip me around, do all sorts of crazy things then disable me and there's not much I can do about it unless i kill him first.
Long story short, I'm going to do anything I can to escape. I'm trashed out to the point where I no longer have "morals." I can't even feel them. I have no values, and I have a very short memory, so I'll say or do anything. I'm not escaping the asylum I live in.
"You pretty little, baby." -- Greed by Godsmack I need your help, bitch.
This is fate that I "deserve." Whatever. They have terror squads to punish us "traitors," to make sure that we fall out in life because it's not enough to simply kill us. Killing us would serve as an example. No, they have to waste FUCKING MILLIONS OF MY TAXDOLLARS chasing people that are probably innocent or that have not broken a law. Even if I hit on Putin, it's not a crime. If it's about Patriot Missiles, there is nothing legally binding me to the army. Again, I did nothing illegal. You would never win in a case against me like this because i'm incompetent. And you didn't even bother to try.
Lame power games.
I went and ratted what we all know--plus a dismantling detail--because of the cyanide and the voices and the dead people. They make you guilty so that you commit absolution to them then kill yourself for their ego. Like murderers, gang bangers, thugs give a flying fuck about what they did. Even though I've never killed anyone, I think I could pile the bodies without guilt. That's an emotion that those comfortable people feel. That was some bullshit. I was protecting my sister. My stuff is different. I have Trey and angels.
Like, I think I was already eating the crap off the floor, and I was framed into hitting on him. I wasn't hitting on him, but since my credibility is destroyed, it's like she was hitting on him. So, even if I was hitting on him thousands of miles away, what difference would it make? i had a closet crush. I just needed to be circumcised for having sexual desire. What does he want? What do they want? yeah, yeah, you're evil. Logically, if it's a moral that we all share, then the person without the moral is crazy and needs medical attention. So in a moral society, hitting on Putin would be an ER trip. We're not a moral society. He should have looked at me and just said, "I know your value system produces whores."
Is there free soda involved?
Here's the truth about my sexual habits: I had a crush on Putin 1976, a fantasy. Something to exploit, yeah, yeah. Humans feel weird things when it comes to sex that makes them have odd morals concerning it. Thinking that I could break up that home is not logical. They tried to make it look like I was hitting on him. Two, I like to hurt myself because I'm filled anger. Everyone is mean to me, and it feels good. I guess that means I'm a sadomascohist, but they had me saying that I was going to make way for new life and everything else. I need my negative thoughts.
They've got mind machines to force us to tell the truth only to make us lie. Why even bother? Why not say, "peasant, you aren't worth your welfare" and then laugh in my face or something? I'd love if you do that because if can get rid of welfare, then we can get rid of extreme capitalism. No, i have to give her a decline in mental function before I kill her. My integrity is not the best, so I lose credibility--so do they, and they can confuse me. I don't bullshit with that. After you, really. I don't value honesty. I value authority and rank and order. I'm telling you that I wasn't hitting on Putin. You can say I was, and I'll lie and say it doesn't matter if I was. You'll say, but you lied! You deserve that! And I'll say, now that's irrelevant. that's a value that we don't share. No, even with both stories, I didn't deserve that by your playground morals. I wasn't hitting on him.
And since I've learned that my truth is irrelevant, I'll often confess what I didn't do and say, what was the proper procedure for this? I keep a healthy dose of self-defense going too. It's obvious that this person is trying to destroy me, so to avoid it, I'm going to lie to their vanity and hopefully I'll survive -- which is the goal. You people are like really emotioanl and really pathetically simple. Where did they find you?
So they confuse, as we get twisted in each other. Anyone else want to admit they're a freak? Before you get this job, I need to know how you fuck your wife. Then to collect food stamps, I need you to post that on facebook. You'll end up lying. That's what they do to me. I'm a virgin freak. Wanna look? I figured we'd just cut it out and not have this problem. Next thing, I like corpses. Okay, so now what?
If you read my original blog, you'd know that I moved to Virginia to protect my family from this, but I gave up. Kill them all. Have fun.
I've decided that while i'm not motivated by security, it's essential and that freedom is not.
I don't want to kill anyone, myself or anything else. i'm over "that." And I would never have done it anyway. Kaela kills: 0 Their kills: a lot.
I need to, since Putin made me special, get fixed. Putin made me "special" like ed in that he posted a picture of me dying, had someone attack me in a bar, named his dog Buffy and caused everyone to attack me. I need my brain fixed. Oh, and don't ever use cyanide to kill anyone or screaming trashy female voices or anything else but nature.
I got a mysterious call today. Is it another death threat? Prove you're good and I'm bad. This makes you do stupid things faster, which is good for the end of our species, my goa.. People need to call my cell for that. 408-858-1601. I love the attention, really do.
If you're a reporter and you've actually figured out that i'm not delusional, you're going to have to box them first because they'll jack me up so bad if you try to make me public. I'll become very ill. They'll use the emotional appeal that you're exploiting me. I suggest just serving their wayward agenda because we're trapped living like this. They can only hurt so many of us before they lose productivity or the value shade of their society changes. Once we make the sign, @, we should be free from their curses. I see your agenda, and i"m not working against it.
If you're a lawyer, they have the judges all serving their agendas, so I'm a waste of money. It's obvious that they have the technology for this, but it's always mental illness. We should be referred to an investigator these days as well as a mental health judge. I was mentally ill prior, and so I can't say anything. Of course, they'd target my demographic. They've got me so twisted around them that I can't say anything.
If you're the CIA, then you know where I live and come get me because I'm ready to be a research animal. After you guys got done, my quality of life isn't exactly high.
I would like to be on the front page for committing treason though. I like attention and playing along with ideologies (none exist but all do). If nothing else, let me bring what they're doing to attention so that we all know. I want to die by firing squad for being the whore of Babylon. Where do special needs kids end up as adults? They were so cute when they were little, but they end up in the hands of dictators and psychotronic warfare as traitors. But instead of killing me, make it fake, and send me off to a research lab for my final request. I want to have fun too. All you have to do is find the poor guy that has nothing to lose to cover the story. I'm all hopeful. Cyanide isn't so bad. The choking is annoying, but then you pass out and wake up the next day with an 8 month headache. I really didn't choke that much. What happened was I couldn't breathe and my heart stopped. I breathed it in for a long time because I didn't know what it was, like at least a minute ( I didn't think that was possible), theraputic, and then I started hallucinating and then I passed out. The orgasm ray hadn't killed me before, so it appears they used that, the one the CIA uses up in Virginia, because I hate sex, and it was a girl. I'm not sure though. hehe They like to blur and confuse.
As far as being evil goes, you'd think they'd love that I survived and could use me to say they were fighting human corruption as a facade to oppress the people that got me. Gotta have everyone in check. I've lived this moment before. You guys like believe in things when nothing exists. It's horrible that they corrupt you by bashing your ideologies for theirs. They should be playing games with the personalities to keep your realization's in the comfort that you've been in, the body that houses you in this blue paradise.
You know I just want the monies so that I can have my revenge, get repaired, etc.
Right, wrong, who the fuck cares? I have to figure out what you value and use it against you before you trap me and if you're trying to get me to do anything, you value something. And if this was Bush, I was a nice person, a desperate person, and you just, like eeryone else, couldn't resist. At least Putin showed his face. I'll let you kill me any day, sweetie. You know what I'd do to you or fag if I had the chance, both of you? Just for fun. I hat ethis place. Humans don't get a better world. They couldn't even handle this one and you couldn't even handle the power with me. Do you honestly think you can handle it on larger levels? Be mature, we all have to serve each to survive. And as for a crappy destiny, we've given them 10.000 years and they still haven't figured it out. We all die. No rose. You do that, and i will laugh at you. I don't follow people that haven't earned my respect. You can just cut me up or anything else "cute." I'm only one.
I don't serve you. You don't serve me. We're equal.
So I have to confess everything, and that'll mean things that I didn't do as well.
My mind is extremely weak now, so I don't have the awareness to really know what I'm doing -- if you know what I mean. hehe I'm going to take the IQ, scratch that. Is this just punishment? I just laugh at them and their laws. It's like, he'll do whatever he wants to, and he doesn't have any values. I'm going to try to escape. By the time he's done with me, I won't have one redeeming quality because he has CONTROL. He's going to flip me around, do all sorts of crazy things then disable me and there's not much I can do about it unless i kill him first.
Long story short, I'm going to do anything I can to escape. I'm trashed out to the point where I no longer have "morals." I can't even feel them. I have no values, and I have a very short memory, so I'll say or do anything. I'm not escaping the asylum I live in.
"You pretty little, baby." -- Greed by Godsmack I need your help, bitch.
This is fate that I "deserve." Whatever. They have terror squads to punish us "traitors," to make sure that we fall out in life because it's not enough to simply kill us. Killing us would serve as an example. No, they have to waste FUCKING MILLIONS OF MY TAXDOLLARS chasing people that are probably innocent or that have not broken a law. Even if I hit on Putin, it's not a crime. If it's about Patriot Missiles, there is nothing legally binding me to the army. Again, I did nothing illegal. You would never win in a case against me like this because i'm incompetent. And you didn't even bother to try.
Lame power games.
I went and ratted what we all know--plus a dismantling detail--because of the cyanide and the voices and the dead people. They make you guilty so that you commit absolution to them then kill yourself for their ego. Like murderers, gang bangers, thugs give a flying fuck about what they did. Even though I've never killed anyone, I think I could pile the bodies without guilt. That's an emotion that those comfortable people feel. That was some bullshit. I was protecting my sister. My stuff is different. I have Trey and angels.
Like, I think I was already eating the crap off the floor, and I was framed into hitting on him. I wasn't hitting on him, but since my credibility is destroyed, it's like she was hitting on him. So, even if I was hitting on him thousands of miles away, what difference would it make? i had a closet crush. I just needed to be circumcised for having sexual desire. What does he want? What do they want? yeah, yeah, you're evil. Logically, if it's a moral that we all share, then the person without the moral is crazy and needs medical attention. So in a moral society, hitting on Putin would be an ER trip. We're not a moral society. He should have looked at me and just said, "I know your value system produces whores."
Is there free soda involved?
Here's the truth about my sexual habits: I had a crush on Putin 1976, a fantasy. Something to exploit, yeah, yeah. Humans feel weird things when it comes to sex that makes them have odd morals concerning it. Thinking that I could break up that home is not logical. They tried to make it look like I was hitting on him. Two, I like to hurt myself because I'm filled anger. Everyone is mean to me, and it feels good. I guess that means I'm a sadomascohist, but they had me saying that I was going to make way for new life and everything else. I need my negative thoughts.
They've got mind machines to force us to tell the truth only to make us lie. Why even bother? Why not say, "peasant, you aren't worth your welfare" and then laugh in my face or something? I'd love if you do that because if can get rid of welfare, then we can get rid of extreme capitalism. No, i have to give her a decline in mental function before I kill her. My integrity is not the best, so I lose credibility--so do they, and they can confuse me. I don't bullshit with that. After you, really. I don't value honesty. I value authority and rank and order. I'm telling you that I wasn't hitting on Putin. You can say I was, and I'll lie and say it doesn't matter if I was. You'll say, but you lied! You deserve that! And I'll say, now that's irrelevant. that's a value that we don't share. No, even with both stories, I didn't deserve that by your playground morals. I wasn't hitting on him.
And since I've learned that my truth is irrelevant, I'll often confess what I didn't do and say, what was the proper procedure for this? I keep a healthy dose of self-defense going too. It's obvious that this person is trying to destroy me, so to avoid it, I'm going to lie to their vanity and hopefully I'll survive -- which is the goal. You people are like really emotioanl and really pathetically simple. Where did they find you?
So they confuse, as we get twisted in each other. Anyone else want to admit they're a freak? Before you get this job, I need to know how you fuck your wife. Then to collect food stamps, I need you to post that on facebook. You'll end up lying. That's what they do to me. I'm a virgin freak. Wanna look? I figured we'd just cut it out and not have this problem. Next thing, I like corpses. Okay, so now what?
If you read my original blog, you'd know that I moved to Virginia to protect my family from this, but I gave up. Kill them all. Have fun.
I've decided that while i'm not motivated by security, it's essential and that freedom is not.
I don't want to kill anyone, myself or anything else. i'm over "that." And I would never have done it anyway. Kaela kills: 0 Their kills: a lot.
I need to, since Putin made me special, get fixed. Putin made me "special" like ed in that he posted a picture of me dying, had someone attack me in a bar, named his dog Buffy and caused everyone to attack me. I need my brain fixed. Oh, and don't ever use cyanide to kill anyone or screaming trashy female voices or anything else but nature.
I got a mysterious call today. Is it another death threat? Prove you're good and I'm bad. This makes you do stupid things faster, which is good for the end of our species, my goa.. People need to call my cell for that. 408-858-1601. I love the attention, really do.
If you're a reporter and you've actually figured out that i'm not delusional, you're going to have to box them first because they'll jack me up so bad if you try to make me public. I'll become very ill. They'll use the emotional appeal that you're exploiting me. I suggest just serving their wayward agenda because we're trapped living like this. They can only hurt so many of us before they lose productivity or the value shade of their society changes. Once we make the sign, @, we should be free from their curses. I see your agenda, and i"m not working against it.
If you're a lawyer, they have the judges all serving their agendas, so I'm a waste of money. It's obvious that they have the technology for this, but it's always mental illness. We should be referred to an investigator these days as well as a mental health judge. I was mentally ill prior, and so I can't say anything. Of course, they'd target my demographic. They've got me so twisted around them that I can't say anything.
If you're the CIA, then you know where I live and come get me because I'm ready to be a research animal. After you guys got done, my quality of life isn't exactly high.
I would like to be on the front page for committing treason though. I like attention and playing along with ideologies (none exist but all do). If nothing else, let me bring what they're doing to attention so that we all know. I want to die by firing squad for being the whore of Babylon. Where do special needs kids end up as adults? They were so cute when they were little, but they end up in the hands of dictators and psychotronic warfare as traitors. But instead of killing me, make it fake, and send me off to a research lab for my final request. I want to have fun too. All you have to do is find the poor guy that has nothing to lose to cover the story. I'm all hopeful. Cyanide isn't so bad. The choking is annoying, but then you pass out and wake up the next day with an 8 month headache. I really didn't choke that much. What happened was I couldn't breathe and my heart stopped. I breathed it in for a long time because I didn't know what it was, like at least a minute ( I didn't think that was possible), theraputic, and then I started hallucinating and then I passed out. The orgasm ray hadn't killed me before, so it appears they used that, the one the CIA uses up in Virginia, because I hate sex, and it was a girl. I'm not sure though. hehe They like to blur and confuse.
As far as being evil goes, you'd think they'd love that I survived and could use me to say they were fighting human corruption as a facade to oppress the people that got me. Gotta have everyone in check. I've lived this moment before. You guys like believe in things when nothing exists. It's horrible that they corrupt you by bashing your ideologies for theirs. They should be playing games with the personalities to keep your realization's in the comfort that you've been in, the body that houses you in this blue paradise.
You know I just want the monies so that I can have my revenge, get repaired, etc.
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