A New Rule From Them: Don't Have a Crush On a Billionaire/Master/Slave Owner

 I have a new position in Hell.  I will now fight the damn lunatics who think they control the world and start to make laws that serve only instability.  Many people claim this, a few people have made it, but they always give it up in the end. It's not fun nor rewarding occupation. Everyone tries to kill you constantly. Everyone turns against you when they can.  I suppose it's more like climbing Mount Everest.  You get to the top, look at the dead bodies of those who fell, and then you go back down feeling accomplished.  

Many sycophants try to serve high-status people who don't even notice us most of the time. "You mean a girl has a crush on me? Poor thing, I'm ancient!" 

I spent a year asleep because I like Pavel Durov.  I know there was a boy in a South Korean show who told girls not to like him or it won't end well.

Is this not stupid?  They want to enhance the fear factor which will make it worse.  You can use sexuality in many ways and call it a cloud.  For example, in "Day I Die" by DeathbyRomy, the girls are screaming, supposedly burning in gowns.  Romy drinks the gasoline blood.  Wahoo.  Then everyone dies.  We have the infamous execution by the dial.  

Yes, U Kali will make everyone mad.  You get stuck with one of the men/gods who come into your awareness. We are wired to serve god, or the pack leader (won't get into higher levels here).  Kali makes Shiva smile, whichever one, and they fight as one.  Shiva wants you to do this or that.  It pops up into reality and is coated in dopamine. The reason dopamine is released is that we serve dominance as a species, good or bad. It will override logic. Demonic dopamine makes evil spirits. The mind caters to dark fears naturally.  Heavenly dopamine makes people higher than a kite.  It's truly horrible.  Something like a leaf will become the most important object in the world.

So, slave owners, prepare to enter upon this wall I talk to. 

Stupidity On My Part

 So, I was pretty upset last night.  I can't get angry. All I can do is cry.  My sister not only didn't want me to come to her baby shower, but she deleted my reply asking if she wanted something.  I've given my sister tons of money, been nice to her when she treats me like shit, and I've tried to help her.   I'm used to not being included, which is why I liked A so much in HS.  I mean, my siblings all threw a birthday party for my stepdad and didn't invite me.  

The problem for me is that I have to have connections, or I will be hunted down, thus, just for fun like Marilyn Manson did.  It doesn't matter what I say. They will put words into my mouth.  I've tried changing so many times.  People are like, do this, do that, and when I did those things, there was no change.  

I've tried to kill myself several times.  People try to kill me.  I've realized that the kind of people I let near me is a problem, but what do you do about family?  Since I don't bring anything to the table, as they say, I eat on the floor with the dogs.  It's this way for many of the disabled.  Just like I've been entrapped by the FBI 4 times, I will absorb all sin, the dark ONE.

Then I get all of these cliches thrown at me.  

America Compared: Why Other Countries Treat Their People So Much Better

America fooled me for a while.  I've been told how stupid I am since practically a toddler.  When I got older, I was like, I deserve nothing.  I've tried to kill myself several times.  Ironically a bottle of caffeine pills caused me to sleep for several days.  I woke up not knowing where I was, who I was, or anything until I saw my diet coke refillable cup. +shakes+ it's all I had left.

I worked at McDonalds, Braums, Subway, Charlie's Chicken, Town Cafe, and seasonal work. I was exploited heavily as usual.  I wasn't good at McDonalds and had two other jobs and school.  They didn't treat me poorly.  I collapsed in my apartment and didn't show up at work for several days, yet again.  They let me go slowly.  I don't have a problem with McDonalds, except they won't take my suggestion of using flavor packets to make different kinds of shakes because I no longer work there.

I've had the mark of Cain since kindergarten. 

Anyway, everyone hated me at school for being slow or ignoring me--as usual.  My "friends" did their life things, went into the worth of debt, which is some bullshit, I'm telling you.  It's impossible to earn things.  They were wiser.  When people like me have real resources, not billions, millions, but just don't have to go into debt for school or enter a credit trap, our "managers," "controllers," "supervisors for Earth," get angry because it messes our places up.  "Secret destroyers hold you up to the flames," -- Bullet With Butterfly Wings.  It's like, not effing again.  Eventually, at 22, it happened.  My microbes were like, "We're sick of this body. Bury us, and we'll do better in the dirt." Anyway, the reason you don't want to do that is because we are but bound by mortal chains.  

Now they're like, have babies?  One, mine won't be normal, fuck you for not listening to me try to explain this.  Two, there would be more babies in my family if I would have worked for them in my Hellish life.

Now I get to hear how lucky I was to be in the middle class.  lol  Really? You got free school, free food, free housing, free cellphones, sympathy, and more opportunities from that.  I go the opposite way, which caused my magical third eye to start to open.  Don't think I'm special.  The third eye came to those who used debt to succeed.  I'm a bit late.  I don't want to do some of the things they do either.

I tried to e-mail the CIA a few times during my abuse...

They only work for rich people and play stupid games.  They are unprofessional, and I think borderline retarded.  I know they torture people to show how unimportant they are, which I already knew. I'm special :P but not as special as they are. It gives me different dimensions, a type of undeserved freedom perhaps. I'm used to being ignored by everyone.  I type to myself.  This is why I started writing, actually.  I would have put more effort into video games.  I wrote to my parents trying to explain that they were wrong about what they accused me of, that they were being mean, and that I was sick of it.  

I couldn't get through.  I'm not valued.  That's why I usually stayed quiet growing up, but they put words into my mouth.  

I wrote Dawn of the Hives for the CIA as a joke and to say, really?  You can't get through to them. Are you really going to do this to us? I told them yet again that I was being hunted and used, look at my voices on another blog, "Sadam" and "I found the vessel." Nothing.  The only thing they did was harass me about MH17.  They laughed and said they'd killed my boyfriend or, Putin.

I've moved on to Durov.

Marilyn Manson - Eat Me, Drink Me [My Abuse Video]

Mass Entertainment With Us... You obviously can't handle it...

I'm Not helping You Defame or Drag Putin into the Street... I Hate You More...

 Just die.  Do.

Like I said, I will do nothing for you. You are terrible leaders.  I know I wrote about Putin, and those were the posts you pulled up.  Putin is busy and ignores what he doesn't have to deal with because he has a gusher coming at him 24/7.  He ended up being annoyed by Navalny's sneaker wave.  Did everyone forget Navalny?  Ukraine hit Putin harder.  

 You are the leaders of my country and tortured me for stupid reasons.  Then you chased me, and I had to keep going to the expensive hospital. I was blamed for that, too.  The doctors wouldn't help me.

You're killing young people.  If you want the money, then find a way to take it besides death.  What were you like between 18-25?  You have mass surveillance to catch cheaters. Anytime money is involved. Of course not. The righteous lead, right?  At least Putin isn't stupid and self-serving.  

Britney Spears, while I like her music, is an inconsiderate bitch. Sorry, girl, but I was recovering from Marilyn Manson's weapon and many others.  

Marilyn Manson likes to feel powerful and connected.  Wahoo.  Regimes change.  

Zheani throws temper tantrums all the time and lies about where she was from or has mixed opinions on "daddy."  Listen to "Dirt Bike" and then "Ghosts."  That Asian chick looks disgusted and surprised.  In her culture, it's different. I know I'm not number one, I grew up in a large family.  It wasn't always about me, rarely is.  They project, deflect, and do things they feel make them psychologically clever. Nope, you have the gun.  That's your wisdom.