More Pissing Contests with the Government

Quit it!  It's not my problem you can't solve simple problems.  Why are you blaming me?  Once again, I said I was sorry and did not understand at the time.  I didn't reveal anything major. Academia has been saying it for centuries along with all the other crap they pump into our heads.  No, I was not raised to respect our leaders but to rebel to show how free we are. It's stupid. Get into the goddamn schools if this bothers you and change it. Harming me does nothing. I'm merely annoying, which is why you want me to shut up, not because it matters. Ignore me. That's all you have to do.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ZIJvoeaJZQ she is my hero.

I know you're using the "everything is a lie" to get away with this garbage.  Make sense of it and be decent leaders, please.  End freedom of squeaks.  It's only letting the higher class individuals feast upon the lower. There's this idea that the winner takes all, but we have to function as a society and we can't all be zombies.  Art needs to, and is already being, watered down and nearly worthless.  They're jealous of us and twisting it.  Many of them pretend to be us to get views and likes and to relate when they never could. They're entitled and demonic.  Who has emotional problems?  I'll put them in a zindan, damn sociopath wannabes.

I can't write songs or poetry, but you'll get some of my garbage.  So is most of yours, even when your slaves write it for you or a machine does.  That will be my purpose today.

It's you or me, baby

You ain't no babe

It's you or me, baby

You'd rather be a slave

Your fate is decided

Don't think of fair

Your fate is decided

So cry in your heir

You mount a mountain

Your lust is a must

You mount a mountain

Turn rust to dust.

How To Make a Scarecrow

I have been chased for being disabled and taking funds.  As I've explained a million times, they usually pick someone innocent and naive to protect them from me. Can I go to prison and be left alone?

 Yes, I used to look up people online to see how they were doing. Aspen Perretta must have had software to know this and just kept blocking me.  I go through everyone, and I am happy for them, just to see them end up somewhere.  While I can't sue because I have no rights and no voice, she ought to sue them for putting her in danger -- or trying to.  "Sally's Song" Universal HallPass was one. I don't care what she said.

 Now Korn has a video out called, "Can You Hear Me" that shows the innocent being stalked.  The people you've really got to be scared of work for the government and have bad agendas.  All they care about is money and profit.

The government needs mental help.  It's easy to come forward and address these problems like rational people.  After everything, and with no one dead, Aspen was able to get rid of me.  Aspen doesn't want to be my special friend.  Others can use the same technology, just like you could have fixed me with the same technology but no, oh no, we have to play the hero's journey.

I was summoned like I've tried to explain... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=svYAxoZM0K8. Send a few thousand more through.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEablbtZ0_Y&t=33s "13 Ghosts". Fun and games.

My first video... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETC6PxDFTRQ. It's cool.  It was the director's cut.  They made me pick it up at the PX.  Good luck with a few thousand of us.  Someone will get through.  We're worthless and are going to keep dying anyway.  No issues for tissues.  We're not going to talk about my childhood or special education.

To Marilyn Manson... this took me 30 seconds.  It's for you.  I still like the "Savior/Save your ass" poem best.  I'll work on some good songs.  This one is lame, but I'm busy today.

In the heathen cities,

The wasteland wants.

Where the martyr died,

Who they hung up,

Who they hung up.

The notes played.

The children cried.

Deadheads fed

Up, up, UP! High!

Heaven steals.

Hell needs the steel,

You see.

Belong to the dollar,

And be smarter,

Harder

Smarter

Harder

Lard for hogs,

Lard of the free.

Review the Work of Dr. Ioannidis

I just finished reading Lies, Damned Lies, and Medical Science by David H. Freedman.  It is an article you desperately need to read.  I've dealt with this for a while thanks to you guys and in hospitals.  Medical research has been corrupted by special interests and bragging scientists.  If people had integrity and weren't afraid to peer review, I wouldn't be a sick rat.  I didn't even get a say in the psychotronic crap, and it didn't go through a court, and it doesn't work.  The more you damage me the more I become dependent on others, which may appear to make me nicer.  I was never terribly mean, just abused. I used to be happy writing simple poetry and working at Subway.  No, such a fate is too good for me, and I have to be a mechanical animal, as Marilyn Manson, my abuser, would say.

Like I said, no one cares about me in a protective way, and no one can see you yet -- or very few.  You'll see in the end how pointless this all is. I don't matter in society either way and due to definitions, you can't get the ones you want.  Keep suckling on each other's dicks.  Make sure to get your protein.  I hear it's good for your heart.

https://freedman.com/2010/10/20/lies-damned-lies-and-medical-science/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KKTBVhXRPUw the abuser before the patriot missiles, which are, yes, total pieces of crap.  Don't buy them.  They take too long to set up and require a lot of personnel to work. Plus, a lot goes wrong.  There, that's the most damaging thing I can do as a reaction to you.  It should be a blessing with THAAD getting more funding, but no, we rely on sucking dicks to function.  If you stand behind one, you won't ever have a heart attack.  It's a cure. If they lock onto your plane, the only thing they can damage, just hit the radar then kill the people in the hot crew vehicle.  It'll all fall apart.  Now stop giving people lobotomies to be robots and give funding to THAAD. Let the shitty Patriot Missiles go.  Let it go.

  MM has a serious problem with me.  Damn Nazis.  It didn't work for the nazis.  It won't work for us.  It's totally pointless.  Maybe you should lead people to logical ends.  I don't think I could have possibly been more desperate.  Just by having Placebo sing, "Special Needs," you make me a target. Do you have any idea what they do to us?  I rarely showed emotions but occasionally had outbursts.  Look at my yearbook photos in HS. I'm so happy. I didn't understand why people didn't want me around and just drifted around.  Now I'm a machine to be a slave to your interests.  I can't do anything.  God, you can't even lead a retard.  Who is the weak one now? I'm not committing suicide ever.  I made it through those 8.5 months.  I made it through massive amounts of abuse and special ed.  A hollow state, my sweet Suicide King, is boring, but it will be fixed in the future, and you will no longer be useful.  I hope you feel special that the CIA tried to recruit you as a kid.  I'm special like a rainbow. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwpDzJE4fc8 I'm trying to awaken her.  I have nothing better to do.  I know a lot are afraid, so it'll take forever, but it's my only hope.  It's so sad, isn't it?  You should cry. She'll probably be black because it's going to affect her a lot faster since you guys are forcing them to sin still, and they will be targets and have no choice but to fight you when you make the entire hood into zombies.  They'll enjoy your position on slavery just like the last time.  It doesn't help the economy and will slow us down, like this will.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Y1EmA2CU04 all us dead people will do this.  It's not like I care about a machine gun.  This state of mind sucks.

Plus, I don't have a choice because this affects everything.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2KWpuVrRek4. People will go crazy.  You don't realize how fragile they are.  We need to get him so help.  He needs help.  Give up your guns, ladies and gentlemen, and invite him over with an emo blog post.  BTW, stop sending us after people to get the guns.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73zdDKR4Cd0 I've been cranky since I got out of my eternal grave.  I went back to sleep but was reawakened. Boy, do I detest humans.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqWnOakYA1Q. This was my state of mind, and I was fine with it.  I'm a ghost/dead person who minded my own business, but no.  I might have been content. And world peace.

Oops on the Text

"Gentle affect?"  That was in my text but changed. I've never had much of an affect and neither does my mom.  It's the way our face is set up. I can't make creases on my forehead, for example.  It's impossible.  You morons. How could that possibly change?

I'm such a sweetheart.  Tell me how I'm going to deal with all the bitches and bastards when I'm totally sweet and docile? You're going to get me killed or exploited.

I'm not a bitch when I can process emotion like a human. Otherwise, I struggle because the cylinders aren't firing, or I'm going into delirium again. You guys left me for 8.5 months with a swollen brain and punished me for delirium.  You let Marilyn Manson have his way with me and raped me a bunch with the weapons.  I eventually became annoyed and said fuck you, too.  I also was immature for my age and name called, so sue me. You should have let me grow up like everyone else. They've done worse.  Amanda was ornery as Hell as a kid and selfish.  Aspen is the only innocent one.  I ignored them for the most part, even when you played them to me trying to get a reaction.  That's all you guys want: a reaction to justify your crappy budget.

Learn to spy better. It's so embarrassing.

Speaking of budgets, I would like to settle with you for five million dollars (after taxes).  You can sell some cocaine or flip a third world country.  It's not like you guys actually care about us.  It's all about cash, so hand it over.

And world peace. Do you guys ever think it's going to change? We die and each generation forgets. Plus, forced sin from certain classes is what you use to control them.  It's not like you're really going to stop the drug problem when you sell the stuff and make some in California.

I just want to write and learn, which I will continue to do as a veggie person.  I write children's stories. What could I possibly do with a low IQ of only 116 with severe memory problems?  Nothing. I can't do one damn thing.  Thanks for the POCD. I'm finally over it.  It will probably stop me from getting far.  I would never anyway.  Go find someone else to torment.

Silencing Dangerous Retards

Like I've said, my mind hasn't ever been sharp, but it's gotten a lot duller.  I can't brag about intellectual achievements or futures.  Instead, I have to deal with a lot of abuse because people enjoy picking on me, a vulnerable person in society.  They can get rid of freedom of speech.  I would like that because the upper classes know who is going to rise, like with art, and who isn't and who is a demon.  I wouldn't have risen, but I've seen them deaden many other people who were competing with them.  Why would Britney Spears care about my benefits?  She's rich and my money goes straight back into the economy.  She can give up all her money to charity. Little overprotected demon so coddled she can't handle reality.

 As I've said before, killing and damaging the retards won't solve the world's problems either.  They don't understand this.

And dear Aspen, please sue the shit out of them for what they tried to do. I can't because they're determined to say I have no rights and rub it in my face. Fine. I don't like you because I'm jealous of you (can't feel it, many other people fall for envy, many emotions are normal), as I was treated like crap in high school (and pretty much everywhere else besides the army ironically), and you were Abel, so whatever.  I love math and science but am unfortunately unable to earn a degree in something useful.  I'm not going to shoot you.  I think your parents are wonderful for raising you properly while I was raised in special education and by wolves. That's why I was so angry back in the day. So much abuse. I've had to learn a lot the hard way and now can't think, but I'll still be annoying because it's what I do.  A lobotomy does nothing but takes away the quality of my life.  I know I hit my head, had brain swelling for 8.5 months, was poisoned by cyanide, Putin put a 'kick me' sign on my back and laughed (because he enjoys watching others suffer), which made them even more money-thirsty. Marilyn Manson has issues and needs desperate and urgent help, and Britney Spears is a spoiled brat.  Indeed, I have schizophrenia and PTSD and ADHD, I know. I don't have a lot going for me.  And world peace.

I just hope this yuga ends soon.  Psychotronics does nothing for people when they use it like this, and it's a waste of money.  You can only damage the brain so much, and people are in a reality that will bring out the same reactions.  Nothing changes for me.  I go in circles in life and that's my fate.

Being the Unpopular Woman -- Like the Rest of Them on One Side

+throws a few punches and falls over+

So, I know I talk to myself (it's so sad lol), but it's ridiculous. By having Grimes as an enemy, and she is for 'the fallen' and other attacks, I don't make many friends.  I just become angry about the treatment and how people won't leave me alone because I'm annoying or weak. I'm not going to kiss their asses. Putin will because he wants them to like him and further Russia with investments.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScnGKm06vx4

 Someone like me won't get much love. I hate them. Don't worry, the FBI is on the trail of many of my relatives who do this every day, all day.  I wanted to go to school and escape my fate, but that's over now.  I try to go the right way, but they don't care.  I'm easy to get to.

Edit: From what she broadcasts, Grimes is a good person, and she's pretty. I'm merely hurt and angry.  I didn't deserve 'the fallen,' the lobotomy, the chasing, the sexual harassment, etc.  Say 'sorry, stars.'  You are all my enemies.

Gaze into my peasant mind and be wowed by it

So, I learned one of my enemies, Grimes, is attached, figures, to Elon Musk (spits on him) who wants to read our minds and destroy them. The state will not cooperate, and the CIA already knows by my place, past, and present, what I think and believe.  They know I don't like them or anyone except for my cat, Keiko.  They know even before I say it that I'm going to be a dissident. It's because I'm low.   They hurt my feelings.  Even if I were to allow myself to be brainwashed by the programming, I would still hate them in different words. as;dlfjdaslfsa;lskdaf;laksdjfl; humans, pff.  They can make me attack aliens instead or whatever to keep me busy, stupid political shows that entertain.  I'm tired of these new people ripping us apart to their "definitions" without understanding.

Yes, I am pure evil.  My secret heart is that I want to fuck Putin really badly.  It's not a big secret.  You don't have to send the "black reciteries," as Lisa Gerrard calls them, to find this out.

Cracking the mind is nothing new.  Controllers, shamen, and sociopaths have been able to do it forever. Ever seen a "mind reader?" Magic. These new people, filled with conflicting and semi-irrelevant bits of literature think it's a big deal.  It's not.  I'll tell you flat out.  I'm not happy about my club to the head, but that's great, no one cares except to damage me.  I didn't matter before; why mess with me?

I want my five million dollars, Putin, after taxes.  I'd have your baby but no one else's, so screw yourself tonight and think of me. We can role-play the Patriot Missile thing.  I'll be thinking of your officer picture while I fuck myself.  It's all they want me to do with free head trauma: eat, fuck, and sleep.  Otherwise, if I have any hobbies, I have sluggishly progressive schizophrenia (Soviet Term for a way to hurt dissidents... The DSM does something similar by labeling everyone mentally ill, but the wannabes and slackers messed it up as a tool against dissidents because they all want schizophrenia).  The slug is on "A Perfect Circle's" album.  Poor girls...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ufqzK8OZJQE&list=RDMMfBZuPSE0UzI&index=4 you read my mind.  I just can't lie." It would be extremely difficult to lie to Putin, for example.  We kind of gauge what others think, too.  We don't need to be harassed.

https://www.trulia.com/p/mo/springfield/2908-e-avalon-dr-springfield-mo-65804--2106297445 here's my dream house.