What I Did In The End--I Was Going Down Anyway

Yes, this is what I did. There's not much left of me, but it was worth it. I know I hit some nerves.



I think it's moral because it was me.

I just want to talk about it as a society. What they're doing is immoral.



Do you want these people around you? Do you trust their intents when there is NO accountability?

And then what's going to happen... And these crystal balls.

I Won't Do Anything For You After That

I would have preferred a laser if I was forced to. You people have no business coming into my life. If I want to live, I live. IF I want to die, I die. If I want to kill, I face justice. None of these happenings are your business. You did a great job of protecting me. I'd like to say that. Shove your love back up your ass where it belongs.

I refuse to do anything, mostly because I'm incapacitated. It was already hard enough for me, and you made it harder and took away all the fun, awe and joy of life. How dare you. You aren't anyone under the sun.




She doesn't even deserve this.

You saw what she did, the other girl who you guys are getting on YouTube.


Most just care about money. That's why 70% of them "hear voices," dough. You can't kill them all, so why don't you just say that you can see into our minds and open up clinics to help everyone? The kookiness will have to end along with the dark age. Mwhaha back to you and your lowness. I won't be crawling in shit along with all the other veterans you've killed, "Evil Angel," Breaking Benjamin. You will disappear in mind. Putin is going to bow to me along with all of you. I will never go through that again. You will make peace with me. You are nothing to me.

I could have used a small surgery, not eighty of them. Besides, we all know you were trying to kill me too because "she'll never do anything for you." Oh, look, he's right :P

She might be brainwashed by her doctor. She's a good person though.

I was fine before and I'm just "like that." I just keep going, and you people GET IN MY WAY! It's a trick and how they get ahead.

Admit it, you guys can't handle the power. You're infatuated with yourselves.

Thanks to drugs that increase serotonin and dopamine, I can talk and go to the store, but I can't do much.

I thought I was going to lose the ability to form words, but I still can and all of my voices are coming back. My brain is setup to be that way.

I went years "hearing voices" when I was perfectly healthy. A lot of people hear voices. Ironically, so does Bjork, Madonna's little friend. Look, she was immature too and no one came rushing in to destroy her in her moment of disgrace.



I've had a lot of other hallucinations too. "Voices" were the least of my problems. You've seen them now, so you know.



I have some strange problem. They were worse when I was a kid. They're called hypnagogic, but I can have them when I'm awake too. Sometimes.

Like I've said for a while, my MAIN problems are cognitive.

What you'll find out if you deal with a large group of people:





It makes sense to me why a lot of people think strange things, but it takes a ton of investigation.

Dear President Obama and the All-Knowing Wise

I don't like you. I don't like Romney either. I like Jill Stein.

Hopefully, during your second time as President, you'll do a better job of assessing your threats. I was "barking" because they wouldn't leave me alone. I puffed up my chest. A scared animal will bite.

I am a dissident. That was allowed prior. If you changed it, which you obviously did, then you should inform us, and I'd lie until I could escape "this."

I wanted to leave and be a slave in peace. You guys expect the world out of me, which is hilarious. When they were stalking me, they said, "She'll never do anything for you." What have they done for the world? Nothing. You know what you did, and it was dirty. I don't like America. I like Mexico, Thailand and Cuba much better. Libya was probably nicer to the disabled. All people do here is whine about how it's "their" money, as if taxes on their pathetic earnings really pays. Then they hurt us. Cuba is my favorite place though. It's like a dream.

Unlike this place...

So, if you haven't noticed, our "free" and loving intelligence agencies are making dissidents brain dead, as if that's going to help them. Now they have to support them... When did a 3 dollar bullet go so astray? They have to be badass though. Who got me? I bet it was NSA.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgxA6TyNm7g "We're not protestors, we're pirates."

I know they aren't all-knowing and wise, so I disregard them. I'm seeing if they'll be honest about what they did.

I don't like being an idiot. I'm getting better at dealing with it though. It's hard for me to deal with information. If someone tells me there are monkeys on the moon, I will believe them. Things are literal, and I have no ability to discern or any emotional process. I say off the wall things sometimes too. I can't come to the same, strong conclusions I could before. Information is analogous to me.

Are you a moron? +slaps chest+ We evolved millions of years and need those abilities to survive. They have to think about it. They have to process it. I am pathologically jealous because I wanted to go to school and everyone got to go but me, and they steal everything from me and torture me with that "school."

Yeah, that's what "she" said, "reptile brain." Fix my brain! I CAN'T DO ANYTHING! I wasn't racist in the traditional sense and it was only in the back of my mind; I wanted to go to school and they abused me first, which made me think about them in a negative way, school and W. Plus, my best friend betrayed me. And one girl was flat out racist towards white people. Don't think I'm for the Aryan brotherhood. I'm just a wounded animal. How would you feel? I wasn't like, white people are better than black people. I was like, I need to avoid conflict.

I'm jealous because I want to go to school most of all, however. The school gives them points for being black but not for being disabled. See where I'm going with this? It's an everlasting battle because they've hurt me that bad, school. Fix the world before you center all your arguments on one person. And the days go on and everyone is the same, but you drag me in more garbage. I like the 60 pounds my lobotomy caused me to gain too. I have no "future." All you're doing is a lobotomy. If you damage tissue in the brain, you get the same results. They've found crazy new regions to damage.

I hate you, and I don't care if you're black. I can't feel hate, but I know it.

I know they can see everything, so even if it wasn't them, they'll know who it was. Thanks for defending me again. Thanks. I also know that they did it because the voices I hear are totally different.

I'm a dissident because of how the disabled are treated in America. It sucks for most people, and they're trying to shove me to stupidity again, which won't ever happen. I will never sacrifice myself or do anything out of good nature again. I loved President Obama's comment about intellectually disabled people too, the "special Olympics" one, and I love the backlog on disability claims, and I love that you're trying to screw us all over. We know who it's all about. Just kill us, all disabled people, since that's what they're trying to do. Maybe then there'll be world peace.

You could fix us, but that would be... too good to be true.

Fuck all politicians. You better read this, you fags. I expect to be on the news, be a millionaire shortly (why not gift like all the other corrupt people--I cannot support myself all the way) or be a genius brain-wise with the genes I know you have if I have to bring humanity to its knees first.

I'm still running around screaming about that, so it still goes to show that I might one day rule the world.

Why don't you separate us? We'd lead better lives. You wanted to be cheap in the 1950s. Look, it's not working out.



All my "friends" have abandoned me for the same old reasons. I need broken friends like me.

Oh, and the 23andme thing was to garner attention to my "fix my brain" rant to that one girl, not the other argument. It didn't work, but I did get someone with a weapon to talk to me, not from that but another trap I put up. He didn't fix me.