In Creepy News: "We Are Always Watching"

Yes, I attracted yet another goon. This one said a bunch of lies about me so that he could find a weakness in the truth when I corrected him. He also tried to overshadow reality with a fault of mine, one mistake.

His lies were obvious, but he kept trying to dominate me so that I would panic and submit. He didn't mess with my nearly nonexistent emotions, however. That's usually their favorite thing to do.

I'm on happy pills. It would take a lot to shake me anyway.

Back in the day, I used to react to them because I was young and didn't know any better. Now, it's like, "I see you, too. Good. Neither of us are blind."

He claimed his victory without any facts. I refused to argue further and told him he was superior because he has a gun. That's all that matters in the world: who has the biggest gun. As the Romans would say, "Might makes right."

The goon might have not known that, thinking he was really some super hotshot and good at boxing people or exploiting their weaknesses.

They usually seek out the weak.

Anyway, he followed through with more lies and confusing facts and said, "We're always watching." Creepy. We all know.

Don't think you're smart.

Remember, whoever has the biggest gun has won.



It's annoying.

Schizophrenia Is Not a Pretty Disease

So, people expect certain behaviors from other people. They want others to greet them, to listen to them and to agree with them/have a civil conversation (usually about nothing). These behaviors do not show themselves when overruled by schizophrenia, however.

Many times, we are seen as being insane, not knowing good from evil, not good, whole, decent. We are told we are sick, and our opinions don't matter. We don't matter.

The sane people of the world find us annoying, and they try to hide us or harm us--depending on the person.

Never was there so dull a soul who wasn't insane.

Anyway, in the depth of psychosis, we are not logical, nor are we following expected behavior. A lot of people rise up against us, and try to correct us, when it's pointless. I say it over and over again. Yes, I hear voices (or cues), and I contradict myself. I live in a tornado. I can't help that. That's why I have headphones on when I'm alone in public. It keeps me focused, and it keeps people from annoying me. I didn't do that in Virginia (as I still thought the voices were real), and I would have people point and say in lowered voices, "She's crazy." I'm not going to go into my delusions. I still have them. I know they aren't real, but they embarrass me. They're woven into my thoughts. I'm just smile when they rise up.

I know I've made a lot of people mad with my thought process, and I am working on it.

I'm still not pretty though. I try to cloak it as much as I can, but I still offend others.

And there are others..

Take Monica Punk for example: she has some major cognitive problems, but people fail to recognize that and respect her as a fellow human being. Instead, they want to invade her world and set it straight by their measure. She's fun to hate, which is stupid.



People are lame.