"Evil Mind" -- Past Post on Breaking Bejamin

 Yes, sometimes I misattribte things to other people. That cliche doesn't mean others aren't involved.  

For example, he's shown his true face in songs like, "Polyamours."

"Pour some salt into the open wound." That's why I blamed him for making me jealous.  Then he sees our true colors.  I can't work through emotions and thoughts anymore because I'm evil, and he's retarded, not like us, however.  

Yes, it would have been nice to get to be like the people in HS and not have had to fight for small gains.  

All of the psychotronc people become my fault, I know.  They become our problems.

666 -- You don't like me, so you kill me... The whining, The whining... the agony of 12 years now..Poor baby... fix it, fix it... don't make me have to appreciate democracy in the bedroom Again? And human rights?

The usual?  

Annoying Girl From Satan

 For many years, I had serious problems.  One, I was harassed, assaulted a bunch, and stalked. I attributed all of this to Putin, who yes, made me mad by breaking my heart.  Hissy, bitchy.  Then I was killed again for it.  I'm like Kenny. Shit, well, sorry.

I get treated like crap most of the time, and I get that I am kind of young.  I don't think I'm important, but do you have to go out of your way to make things worse?  This is from the people who try to rob me or call me an evolutionary failure.  If I simply explain, I don't matter, and they rip me apart.

And the gold, money, or whatever???  I figured out that they made us worship it. They do good deeds, as Blue Stahli says.  They have everything I wanted.  Nope. They scolded me for jealousy and other crimes and thoughts that are normal.  I just hid and went in reverse.  They get mad when I say I don't have to be part of society and to please circumcise me.  They aren't aware.  I know I'm weird.  Want to be my special friend?  That's a bad idea because they will do anything to hurt me.  I set them off now because I can barely think and can't worship their godly opinion.  

If you think I'm all evil because I said I wanted to fuck Putin and take his money, I was still mad at him for breaking my heart.  I live in a hallucination and am not used to real people showing up.

 I had to address the poison in my veins.  My sin was lying about my desires, if you read the Quran.  Not exactly, Blue Stahli, I split from my desire, which is horrible.  It ended up in screaming torment of, "I don't want what I want!!"  

I didn't develop properly because I was so hated and oppressed that I kind of shook like a rat in a box as it pondered its fate with teenage boys.  I wasn't taught to think with my emotions, just withdraw, and look like what they think is rational when it's simply withdrawn, too.  I get to watch my inevitable death every day. 

I looked at the music and was like, well, this will be unfortunate for me.  I'm used to extreme punishments for little things. That's why I was terrified.  Of course, Britney Spears, who wants people out of her business despite creating more hype, should have stayed out of mine.  Again, they've never been tased like cops do to each other. Their mom didn't bite them when they bit her. It's fun to make us bleed to death for some jackass up in "heaven" or Babel.  I'm not worshiping them.  

I hate you.

2016 "Living Life Shattered

 sometimes, I try to compromise or worship abuse. It's evident that I'm doing so in my post.  It's the denial-to-acceptance thing.  Also, I cannot weed out the lobotomy from all the other damage, one of which is shown in "Hellhounds."  And when you use that, or you try to kill us, follow the next paragraph.  While out of it, I blamed Putin when he tried to help with the initial picture.  

I do think that psychotronics might help the insane. Then again, so would housing, safety, food, and medicine. They seem to forget that in many mentally ill people.  I think it would be a better world if humans would admit that they are animals, too, not machines.  

We're jealous... and that was one annoying manipulation of society.  Do you want to go on a 15-mile bicycle ride in the heat, cold, sleet, and rain?  We all know who is the winner. 

I hated jealousy and not belonging or having real friends.

Don't think you get off that easily...

 I didn't get a trial. I would have been not guilty because I didn't break the law for high treason, and I was tortured.  I know you guys have no life and if you catch anything, it's like a wiggle fest.  Fuck with a real criminal, FBI. I know it's difficult.  You entrapped me 4+ times.  You also had me worshipping Putin on the ground.

You also did some "Minority Report," too, but I didn't have a dresser. It was pretty easy to see where I would go with the rent around me and the statement that I wanted to live near the ocean.  You wanted MM to blow my head off and kill me, but that failed, too.  Who is your Oracle now?

So, yeah.,, you are full of shit.

Okay, so this makes more sense... I was like, wtf, why is it me? I get it...

 Well, I don't remember much of what I do, but some days are better than others.  

They have rationalized attainder with my treason and took my rights. I'm not sure if I technically committed treason or a felony. Oh well, I've never had rights.  I thought that was continuing as a part of my horrid existence.  I know that I must be endlessly punished, "lessons." Beetard land.  That's how they justify doing bad things to me. Guilt is another emotion that incites them.  I don't even care about being dispossessed. My life has exploded several times.  I did get a nook this time. I will admit that.

I said that Patriot Missiles don't work.  I didn't have any contact with an officer. I'm pretty sure that just causes you to lose your security clearance forever.  I signed a page saying that I would not talk about weapons right before I got out.  Ah, yes, but draconian punishments are more fun.   I remember being in pain. Obviously, they do work. Ukraine said so.  We did a drill once, and I have no doubt we could have screwed it up. That poor mountain.  

How did I get the Director's cut of "I Want to Believe?"  You don't often put those in a PX (general store) or anywhere else. Also, I thought Putin was my father, and we all have weird family thoughts.  They did other actions that are very bad for the Hell of it. I'm either in pain every day, having weird chills in odd body parts, horrible headaches, or I can't think at all.  

Gitmo gets me, I know that. Don't mind the laughing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lmo0_1T3C2Y

I would like to leave the US. They can get a new chew toy.  

This is what the Philistine do to the slaves, and I'm tired of it... Oh, I'm going to die because I have a crush on a celebrity or look at someone... you guys aren't that important.

Programming: Bitch On a Leash

 So, I've said Campbell is stronger.  In many ways, black females are allowed to be strong. We weave and do all this strange stuff like we owe people or we must walk on eggshells.  If you do not, they'll all come at you with cliches. They can't think and are flat characters.  The middle-class, white male is a creature from Hell. They usually try to push me down or manipulate me on slightly higher levels.  Don't you want this? or that? No, I want the Hell away from you, or I'm going to have even more agony. No, I didn't look at you.

I've realized that I was shattered so much that I ceased to exist for a time, a void without desire or beliefs. It's not allowed in thoughts.  It makes you crazy.  I injured myself to hurt other people who were inside of me. Zheani didn't get it.  There is no dialogue with these people.  Mutilation is flattery to Marilyn Manson.  They used a lot of weapons on me, a young person...

White, middle-class, white girls have leashes on them for behavior.  Campbell was racist against me. I usually worship blacks. We all do, just like it's obvious that Asians are smarter than the other races. Thanks to all the people who said discrimination due to skin type is wrong while only ability matters.  I can say to be a bitch that I make the same test scores as black people. I would normally applaud the journey of the soul.  I also grew up in Hell without a release. Therefore, the fact that I went mad at them isn't a surprise.  We'll all turnout to out as little Cains.  Just start the tattoos like in Australia and in parts of Russia.  

I broke free but shattered still.  I do the opposite of my dad, and he put a lot of bad stuff into my mind when I grew up.  It's a sick joke, back to the white man who puts me with my dad.  We all hate him because of what he's done to us.  Even when Grandma was on her deathbed, she said he'd only mess it up.  She finally figured it out.  He didn't come to the memorial.  We don't know what makes him do psychopathic things that I live with now.  He is truly insane. Our whole family knows.

I was kind of angry at Campbell because she had choices like school or placement in less demeaning jobs.  I had no choice but the army. And my piece of shit father got in the way again. It's like, fuck, jon's back.  Most of my moves have been done due to desperation.  I'm simply destroyed as Blue Stahli would say. This is why I end up jealous and think it's wrong to be jealous.  The more desperate all of us become, we'll start the Cain business.  Go look at the last post before you rebuke me for being "racist." 

Getting over things isn't always a choice, I've learned.  I still go into defense and attack mode sometimes at night from Virginia.  Campbell would have cried there, too.  It's not fun, especially when they change your mood and put thoughts in, such as when I was a hypersexual pedophile.  There's a lot of pain from that or not getting back to Missouri due to the agent who said he was going to follow me.  

It's cool. I know that my brain is swelling again. They'll give me dementia eventually. I already have the start.  I'm going to try Alpha Prime.  

Boy, is she a bitch.  Destroys people. She's quite a napalmer, too. Of course, she must be better yet doesn't have a background in psychology or neurology.  My dream now is to get to a really, really good neurologist.

 This is not fair. I was okay before they burned into me.  Imagine, Zheani, if they didn't let you think and kept dominating you constantly.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UwnosFODMrE "Thought Criminal" by Zheani. Even Allah lets his followers have thoughts.  Here, they twist our instincts to yield products.  

Don't feel bad, black people.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZhSSLZpl-Vg  She's going to jail for getting upset, and I'll be put on the psych-ward where I will be so juiced up, I won't know my name. Afterward, I'll have to go through all of my history over and over again while the pressure is increasing in my body.  It's like, I have to be extra polite while this stuff is in me, or I'll end up in the ward.  

Fit For Rivals - Damage

 I've been reading through an old English book to study up on how to write papers better or essays.  I do this in my spare time, which is all my time. I have come across several articles of classes, and I will pour my hatred on how I get stuck  

One, I've been isolated for a long time.  No one wanted me as a friend or wife (long story of bows of force).  I started to exist without them.  I've watched them several times.  I was thrashed for jealousy, which is a poison they use.  It doesn't matter if you think it or write it.

I've had problems educating myself at times, especially in math because I wasn't taught like normal kids. Growing up, they did all these experiments on us, especially in the special ed room.  In there, you get to learn by doing 100s of packet work.  You won't be able to do or memorize them all before you get tested on all of them.  I remember in fifth grade I was like, what the Hell is sociology.  No one else had their brain tested every three years IQ wise, and loaded with more and more. Plus, we didn't get classroom time.  Any sort of outburst or wrong opinion resulted in extreme punishments like going to where Paris Hilton did or other alternative schools and camps. I don't even what to know what that gang is up to now?  Sorry about Corey Johnson.  

I was treated like absolute crap during my upbringing. I became jealous but was squashed and dissociated. I began to try to sit next to and become friends with AP because she was popular and the one the teachers liked. Meanwhile, we were given subtle hints that our lives were useless.  Yes, and all the kids in the school are doctors and lawyers now. 

Many parents at how do not like us either because it's like feeding a dead cat.  It's dead. It's not coming back, and it needs nothing but to be finally buried.  It eats too much. Factory farm.

I knew that would happen in Virginia. Over the years, I've learned that I can't have money. I've joked about it for years. It's like, Sorry, I'm earning other people's money.  

 I ended up on benefits, which pissed them off.  Thanks for the guidance and TLC.  Now many of us are going into floating classes like TikTok. They've gotten hold of it.  Pretty teenage girls will say what they want.

They tried to destroy all writing ability already.  Weird things happened with my nouns.  

Welcome to how I feel, which they don't care about.  We're falling into group think or a psychological phenomenon within decision, making groups in which loyal to the group has become more important than any other value, with the result that dissent and appraisal of alternative are suppressed."  I call them geniuses. I already know what you're going to say.  Do I think this applies to Putin?  Yes and no. They are at war with us, and you have to stick together and not look at our values while you're fighting. They don't exist except in candy land, To Putin, I think that he is too nice to his friends money-wise, and they didn't do their jobs.  Plus, he's too optimistic. They were fired and replaced. We can't get rid of our own shit like Zuckerberg.  Does he need a plunger up his ass? Deep Penetration because I don't like getting fucked in the butt-vagina (as Gail would say). Yay.  How many times?  And my heart like Gaga 2010 or so.  I don't find any of our celebrities attractive.  We're free sexually, aren't we?  

I wish they'd stop tormenting us with "exceptionalism." They abhor me for this. It's like, I've just gone 22 miles on a bicycle, I've had 4 hours of sleep, and I think I feel weird, but I don't have a doctor.  Eff this place.

 Now I'm free, as the video noticed, which is not allowed.  I'm spinning to heaven.  God, the geniuses come back for more.  Here the computers shift the economy to rob us.  We're not allowed to leave society, or they try to trap us.  Thanks to special needs by Placebo, many of us are being destroyed, and we'll just become prostitutes and drug users. I recommend Alpha Stim.  

 I hate America.

Fucked to stupid.

The Story of Pavel Durov! He's Cuter... And a Lot Smarter

Night Club - "Candy Coated Suicide"

I was inevitably killed by anger that I needed to be released years ago, years of lies and cliches.  

I usually try to define what's happening to me. This was annoying.  They wouldn't fool me now.  Thanks for the help... You get to take all my stuff now.  I have a cat, a laptop, and a nook.  I value my cat.  I wouldn't put them past it though, anything to harm me.

Jack Teixeira, he's just so innocent and fake.

I was so weak, and they loved making fun of me in the hospital for my bulimia and inventing the numberline..  I am no longer puking unless sick.  The rage inside drove my mind.  I didn't flow with the water, sorry. Glad it was entertaining.  Tell them about Zombie boy...

"He's fit. He's strong. He's armed. He's trained. Just about everything you can expect out of some sort of crazy movie," the member said. Are they copying Durov? 

This isn't even logical. It's okay for a fit soldier who "controls" his group and looks at cool stuff about the government. Oh, it's real cool. Snowden knows about that. I'm sorry, Snowden, I was still programmed then. Why didn't you say exactly what they're doing, especially with the music?

https://www.yahoo.com/news/man-may-leaked-top-secret-052256508.html

I just want to leave and not come back here.

Bring it on--Two Wrongs Are Two Negatives

 

https://news.yahoo.com/alleged-source-us-intelligence-leaks-171925226.html?fr=sycsrp_catchall

"He's a good kid, not a troublemaker, just a quiet guy," Mr. Souza said. "It sounds like it was a stupid kid's mistake." 

I am sick of being Satan.  

They made me so terrified with their machines that I almost had a heart attack.  They also made me crawl everywhere, which was interesting.  'The Fallen' were lovely. Get out of your satellites and clean the barracks.  They're shamming.

    I was a quiet woman with issues while someone was hunting me and using that Oracle. No accountability, and they used Putin with me on the floor.  Uh oh.  It involved Marilyn Manson who saw where I would live in 2 years, that horrible apartment.  I have had a song from Britney Spears, too. It's like, well, I'm injured at the moment. Then I thought about myself, all those years I thought I deserved the torture.  In the end, I hate you more than you hate me.  And world peace. 

Oh, look, all my fellow villagers are getting the word.

 When I was in Virginia, I was tortured and was supposed to have my brain blown out by Marilyn Manson for saying that Patriot Missiles don't work and being a middle-class brat. They made me into a hypersexual pedophile, made my emotions go through roof and were stronger than words, and they would follow me with plates that said, "What slave?"  I tried to get circumcised.  You can't confess to any crime, not the blood.  

I have no face and am a slave.  Okay.

 Yes, I had issues growing up that were extreme.  All we needed was family therapy through a doctor.  I found my issues were fun to mess with.  I used to tell people my story and try to relate, but it becomes the game of suffering.  

Calling me a housewife meant that you know nothing about me or my reasons for doing things.