You can only hate who you love. Sorry. I get so confused.
Demon's Fruit
The apple fell from the Tree
That's my real reality
It came from up and held me down
Without a sound to the ground
I could not trace its infinite lines
Behind the masks of my lies
I self-deceived with forbidden fruit
Taken from a rotten root.
If you know me, I was just claiming responsibility for what I allowed them to do, though they are the rotten root. There's obviously some self-deceiving in there somewhere if they were able to exploit it. I just have to find what they manipulated to prevent them from doing it again. I rarely if ever believe in innocence.
ReplyDeleteApparently, I'm jealous of their school, even though it isn't much. That was behind the wall of my conscious mind. I'm also angry about the way several have treated me, especially DW, like black racism against whites. I felt really betrayed by Campbell. Not that anyone cares. I just talk to myself and hope that I can save at least one person from going through this if they ever look up this kind of stuff.
ReplyDeleteI realize now that was just so that Marilyn Manson could use his "Blank and White" machine on me. I've been hit so many times. I'm dizzy a lot of the time now among other things. With billions of people, it's pointless to even try something like that.
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