Owning Up, Lessons and Outsiders

Musical gangs are setting up traps for us instead of using the technology in responsible ways.  They want to play Roman suicides with us and feel special and powerful themselves.  They give a few people goodies and leave the rest of us to "witches" and "wizards."  On that note, we are at a point in time where we're going to have to steer our destiny.  One of the main concerns is to forget they are machines and mistake them for reality.  They hunt people like me, the losers, to sell their product or gain influence.  It's ridiculous.  

They are trying to kill me.  That's how you pay off student debt in commie time.  Healthcare was Mao's steel and using free speech to get rid of free speech should be a crime, but even that contradicts itself.

Oh, great Lords of the sacrificial fire, hear my lament as I am hurled to Hell.

They are also invading our homes and using the excuse we have to be taught by our masters.  Not really, karma will come to you.  I have many flaws myself, and I've changed to reflect the new experiences I came into and will continue to find.  We're all on a journey in life.  

Has anyone gotten a letter from me?  It's how I used to deal.  No one would listen to my words, and my parents were unable to teach me or guide me through.  I was despised much of my school days, and I became demoralized due to stress and being powerless with no future or hope.  When I got out of the army, my former friends were like, "I don't know you" essentially.  They would hang out with each other.  I sent them messages about how I felt. Of course, they didn't care and disappeared. 

Now I stay away from most people because they deserve to have good lives and not be on the stone I am to justify whatever they do. 

The psychotronic people (Sally's Song Universal Hall Pass) told me what they said about me and tried to get me to act.  I was like, yeah, a sad song.  I don't belong.  Human interaction is not essential.  I kind of learned this before.  I didn't wake up then.  I bought into special ed making me a super special star.  If you complain, you will go to the room and face other fatal consequences.  I was certainly not an equal.  Oh well, I made it through and don't have to go back.

So we'll get to the gangs that try to teach us again.  For one, I don't crave fame, I'm not trying to marry Putin, and I've never touched a child.

They weren't even on the same wavelength of my real problems: I'm immature, slow and annoying to be around when I complain about my problems.  People want winners not losers.  Still, I do not like being on the sacrificial altar.  It's up to me to get down and beat the demons or live as I do, apart.

Just watch out for the people who say they care.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zv-sdTOw5cs tears from Madonna.  "God Control."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAVx9RKaLPU humanity.  It's our future, not just hers.  "Nothing really Matters" by Madonna.

 

What the Hell? Yeah, Hell I've been Through

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3gjDKrOku8 This is God apparently.

I had to deal with these people in Virginia.  I'm a crowd favorite.  One, I was in the middle class or just white (don't make me explain the white middle class and its habits).  Two, I live alone and do not socialize.  I am a pariah, and I don't conform because society has no place for me.  I went out for Chinese tonight and the waitress was surprised I would eat alone.  I can't associate with people.  I told her I cried myself to sleep every night and took a bite of nasty tofu.  I hope that was good for me because it was not good going down.  Get used to it, fatty, right?

They kept drilling for reasons and still do.  I was going to go to hell for stealing ice cream growing up from my mother.  Eventually they said they were going to kill my sister if I didn't kill myself.  Now I know better.  They'll do whatever they want.

The last thing they have on me is that I've smelled my underwear and like the scent.  Am I supposed to say I like the smell of pussy?   Okay, whatever. I'm an animal. Plenty of men will pay for that, but I've never had non-robot sex.  They jacked up my backthoughts in Virginia, which was interesting.  The reason I stayed in Virginia was because the agent in the mental ward said he was following me.  They did all sorts of odd things.  They tried to make me a pedophile.  That was so annoying.  I hate them, and I can't wait for this to end.

They played what other people said about me, and I was like, duh.  I know.  That's why I'm alone.  I don't fit in.  I know Marilyn Manson gets to slice and dice me later for whatever reason.  I can only suggest antipsychotics.  You need help. You are very sick.

I've been through a lot, and I feel sorry for these poor people who have strong emotions.  That was so mean to do to someone.  I might not get the video of "Outsiders" Directors cut.  I will try. Look it up or listen to the music.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KO3l733WRN0 "Outsiders" A Perfect Circle Director's cut.

In the end, it was like bring it on.  Like to see you survive 12 years (and relatives at home) of special education and test your self-esteem.  I'm used to this. It annoys me, and I was pissed I fell for the suicide thing.  One whisper of my emotion came back. I want to retire before I get dementia. I'm enjoying this decade.

Once every retard is dead, there will be world peace.  Listen to the retard call.  We're dangerous. ;) lol . I need a satellite of my own.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6SiyTs5pe5w Is it wrong?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CFzzKkhjnw awkward music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXUbExPxUvs all day, 1000s

Annoyance

So, when you have a clipped brain, much like a clipped bird, it's hard to show emotion.  They killed my personality and left with the IQ of a wounded rabbit for their "peace."

When all the retards are dead, there will be world peace.  I'm a stepping stone for most.  I've grown algae and am not going to make it even easier for them.

 I see plenty of others comment who have rage issues, who say the wrong things.  I am picked on due to Putin's influence. It's ridiculous.  I deserve to have feelings, even anger.  It's part of being human.

If I'm too sweet at work, I'll be taken advantage of or have a billion babies.  There is no mercy.  I used to be a very sweet girl anyway who saw the good in things, but they never stop coming after me.  Would it make you angry?

They've been hitting on SC lately to try to bother me.  I hate her, but I won't let it come into my soul like they want, a quick kill.  Stay away from me.

I hope they're happy with the unhappiness and suicide rate.  Killing all the retards failed.  They breed us in the US.  Many of us end up in the same place, and it's like???  No love him.  Bye.  I refuse to make the human gene pool even worse. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qUMGhUi1ETw&t=115s


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