So, I don't know if anyone reads my blog. I have no idea why I do it. Whatever, to the topic...
Anyway, today we're going to talk about the "evil eye" that they put in Love and Death's album as well as a few others, such as Breaking Benjamin's.
It's not going to work. They're little, baby attention whores, however. They want to scream and yell and change the world! This planet has been spinning for billions of years. It won't submit to that drastic of a change without killing us all.
The majority of people have no idea what they're doing. When they find out, they will panic and the lawsuits will soon follow.
I'm used to these sorts of things, being that I am a "failure" as Breaking Benjamin says. I'm "special ed." for Placebo's song, "Special needs." Tasty treat, I'm sure. Easy? The same breed of people are the reason I became a schizophrenic in the first place. Yeah, I used to hide and cry, keeping the mentality of a child. I know better these days. I confronted them. I will no longer tolerate the gibberish.
Go frolic into the sunset and praise that another day happened, and you couldn't stop the sun. Go follow the village idiot later. I hear you can bring in the tide yourself.
When they trashed me, I felt so free. No longer do I have so many burdens for them, so much toil without enjoyment, so much pain and regret.
Wednesday, December 30, 2015
White Privilege
I've done a lot of thinking on "white privilege." Sometimes, it's hard for us to see the ways we hurt each other or think of examples beyond our normal reality, our comfort zones.
I went to an assisted living place for seniors this Christmas. The halls are beautiful with pictures and lamps. They have a gym, a community room (bingo is where it's at), a place for those with memory problems, restaurant-style dining, a bistro and even a theatre!
Now, I've spent some time in group homes and hospitals, and let me tell you, whites aren't the only people who age or need help caring for themselves. The sad reality is that many families have to care for blacks, or they get dumped in Hell holes.
I asked my grandma if they've ever had a black, Hispanic or Asian resident. They have not had a single one. I know where they end up. Meanwhile, blacks, Hispanics and Asians staff the nursing home and barely make anything with no security for their own futures.
I went to an assisted living place for seniors this Christmas. The halls are beautiful with pictures and lamps. They have a gym, a community room (bingo is where it's at), a place for those with memory problems, restaurant-style dining, a bistro and even a theatre!
Now, I've spent some time in group homes and hospitals, and let me tell you, whites aren't the only people who age or need help caring for themselves. The sad reality is that many families have to care for blacks, or they get dumped in Hell holes.
I asked my grandma if they've ever had a black, Hispanic or Asian resident. They have not had a single one. I know where they end up. Meanwhile, blacks, Hispanics and Asians staff the nursing home and barely make anything with no security for their own futures.
Friday, December 11, 2015
Breaking Ranks & Dead Dinosaurs
http://news.yahoo.com/serial-bowe-bergdahl-season-2-podcast-154450892.html
"Bergdahl says he left his post because he wanted to create a crisis to alert high-level commanders to leadership problems within his unit, and had planned to trek 18 miles to Forward Operating Base Sharana, a larger military base, to voice his concerns. But when he realized he might not be welcomed there, he decided to try to gather intelligence on Taliban insurgents so his commanders wouldn’t treat him as a deserter.
“When I got back to the FOB, you know, they could say, ‘You left your position,’” Bergdahl said. “But I could say, ‘Well, I also got this information. So what are you going to do?’”
Don't tell anyone, but Bergdahl was in the special class, too, and, like me, he isn't acing spelling nor philosophy. I tried to save the world from e8 and dinosaurs. I didn't do that to get out of trouble. I told them about reality as well, but it was mixed in with my delusions.
It took me a long time to come to the conclusion that I'm stupid and don't have a lot of redeeming qualities. I'm an ordinary person or a peasant with a weak mind.
They say young people often think they know everything, too, which makes matters worse. He betrayed his own command and thought he would be rewarded if he had secret information. I'd take the info and fry his ass.
Anyone can be replaced, especially the worthless.
"Bergdahl says he left his post because he wanted to create a crisis to alert high-level commanders to leadership problems within his unit, and had planned to trek 18 miles to Forward Operating Base Sharana, a larger military base, to voice his concerns. But when he realized he might not be welcomed there, he decided to try to gather intelligence on Taliban insurgents so his commanders wouldn’t treat him as a deserter.
“When I got back to the FOB, you know, they could say, ‘You left your position,’” Bergdahl said. “But I could say, ‘Well, I also got this information. So what are you going to do?’”
Don't tell anyone, but Bergdahl was in the special class, too, and, like me, he isn't acing spelling nor philosophy. I tried to save the world from e8 and dinosaurs. I didn't do that to get out of trouble. I told them about reality as well, but it was mixed in with my delusions.
It took me a long time to come to the conclusion that I'm stupid and don't have a lot of redeeming qualities. I'm an ordinary person or a peasant with a weak mind.
They say young people often think they know everything, too, which makes matters worse. He betrayed his own command and thought he would be rewarded if he had secret information. I'd take the info and fry his ass.
Anyone can be replaced, especially the worthless.
Thursday, December 10, 2015
The Missing Link
So, I don't really keep this journal up for other people.
I had quite a few visitors yesterday and the day before. I've also had one nice comment. I think I'm up to three this time. Miss Popular right here. ^_^
I know it sounds like I'm whining a lot of times, and I am. As I've explained to some of the other ghosts who see me, I've gone through my programming, trying to deny it at times, as it's unpleasant.
As a schizophrenic, you get to see all your programming go haywire, like normal thoughts, relationships, having kids, dealing with people and those not-so-secret things we believe we hide in vain. It bubbles up. I wish Putin would have realized that. I've only gained control recently.
One example of the thoughts though: I've already mentioned how many people believe it's unfair for blacks to get this or that. They think they're lazy, the blacks, but the whites aren't racist, no, it's evil Kaela who is. Well, evil Kaela has a lot to say to this society.
Another thing I've learned is that the United States isn't that bad. I'm not going to put total blame on my liberal teachers, but they started the spark. They would always be like, "We're losing our freedoms," and "The US isn't great anymore." Half of these people have never had an ordinary job and have no sense. They were the dumb ones out of the college bunch who rack up 100K worth of debt then blame the system.
Speaking of blame I'm still mad at Putin. I've said some harsh words myself about him, but his words and actions caused people to hurt me. I can't do anything to him, and he has way more influence that he needs to be accountable for. He's untouchable from my class. For making me a target, I would like five million dollars from him (after taxes) and the house (after taxes).
I want to hide there with my broken self.
I had quite a few visitors yesterday and the day before. I've also had one nice comment. I think I'm up to three this time. Miss Popular right here. ^_^
I know it sounds like I'm whining a lot of times, and I am. As I've explained to some of the other ghosts who see me, I've gone through my programming, trying to deny it at times, as it's unpleasant.
As a schizophrenic, you get to see all your programming go haywire, like normal thoughts, relationships, having kids, dealing with people and those not-so-secret things we believe we hide in vain. It bubbles up. I wish Putin would have realized that. I've only gained control recently.
One example of the thoughts though: I've already mentioned how many people believe it's unfair for blacks to get this or that. They think they're lazy, the blacks, but the whites aren't racist, no, it's evil Kaela who is. Well, evil Kaela has a lot to say to this society.
Another thing I've learned is that the United States isn't that bad. I'm not going to put total blame on my liberal teachers, but they started the spark. They would always be like, "We're losing our freedoms," and "The US isn't great anymore." Half of these people have never had an ordinary job and have no sense. They were the dumb ones out of the college bunch who rack up 100K worth of debt then blame the system.
Speaking of blame I'm still mad at Putin. I've said some harsh words myself about him, but his words and actions caused people to hurt me. I can't do anything to him, and he has way more influence that he needs to be accountable for. He's untouchable from my class. For making me a target, I would like five million dollars from him (after taxes) and the house (after taxes).
I want to hide there with my broken self.
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