Fear Factor Destroys the Mind

If something is unpleasant, ignore it.  Ignorance is bliss.  I don't blame you.  We don't have long to enjoy this planet.  We might as well spend time in the light, things that make us happy.  A shadow can't vanquish a flame.  It's better to be strong and alive.

And by the way, Putin is not a god, and we aren't dating, and I don't need any more psychopaths after me. We've had a couple of encounters, Putin and I, and since he is a grumpy old man, he was an asshole.  I will say it's not fair.  Men don't lose their looks until sixty.  As a woman, my youth has faded into hag mode.  

 Putin is a man who buys influence in our media and appeals to what people want then slides them over. We give him such power.  He is a mortal being on Earth.  Nothing is guaranteed.  It's a dangerous world, even if you know outcomes from paranoid schizophrenia.

 He ditches all who are not useful on RT.  I ditched him.  God, I need to marry a man who can trade drafts with me.  Since I'm a 2, so will he be, and I suppose I'll fuck him if he isn't too lazy.  We'll use a lot of oil.  We can kind of slide off each other.  Sounds fun.  Nah, I won't have a man.  But I would want one who is useful, not Putin.  

He isn't as aggressive as many others, imho.  For a Russian leader is a teddy bear.  He's going to go roar with the dinosaurs.  He did make pretty babies.  Other than that, totally useless.   

Song:  The Human Game by Lisa Gerrard...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PhZrOSZ7D0I

Rode the tide until it took me
It washed my body whole
The eyes couldn't see
I had everywhere to go
The waves told me to be
Free as a skeleton, so
The blood of the sea
Only death, I know

I'm not a writer, and I know it.  It's just a timewaster.  It helps my cognitive problems.


So who is cyberstalking me now?  Drama for the boring middle class.

Knock, Knock, Who's There?

I had a spook sent after me last night.  Go away.  It's very rude to wake someone up at 12 am.  You will get nothing from me either way.  I don't even exist.  Go do something else. 

BTW, I stopped going to Catholic Church.  My priest made a statement, and it was like, great, you, too.  The idols some worshipper destroyed in the Vatican were the same thing.  Nuns with guns. 

I'm not giving Jesus any more money.  He was printing fish in the sky, wine in the river, and he's probably still serving time in jail for printing money and that's where he's been the last 2000+ years.  Hope he gets parole soon.  He has a mess to clean up and a lot to explain.

Dear Perrettta/Louise Family

Dear A,

  You don't have to change your name to hide from me.  Trust me, they'd kill me way before they would touch someone successful and good and attractive. And they can and will love to because I am useless.  I've attracted this burden my whole life and usually ignore it. Special ed made me a bit psycho, but I'm not going to shoot anyone.  I don't need a girlfriend.

As far as fighting in life, I have battled many, and Putin + stars aren't the worst.  I'm not fond of fancy dinners with a relative.

 Wah, wah, we all have our troubles in life.

 You are safe, so take pride in that while I try to be a bum in peace.  I'm not allowed to succeed by Breaking Benjamin's creed. BTW, the music is a trap for those who think they matter or mentally ill.  They've been agents since Elvis.  Watch Love and Death's "The Abandoning."

 I was possessed by my instincts and became an animal.  Way to bring out the best in people.  Congrats, and you weren't the evilest.  I'm sure you won't be the last either.

  Annoyance.  MM was fascinated by my eyes like I cared, not.  It's like, the Russians only care because they can see brain development by my eyes, and they're looking to see what I am exactly and what to do with me.  I have light eyes, so it's easy to figure out what's going on upstairs. The Russians usually plead the fifth--minus Putin.

  Yes, Putin made me angry with his interference. He can't admit to it.  None of them can.  I had MM after me along with the entire carnival they made.   It's like, I don't think I'm going to recover from that.  Oh well, now I'm retired.

Don't worry, they could use the same tactics on school shooters that they use on me against you, but I am that lucky, vulnerable person. I'm annoyed YouTube blocked comments on some of my videos.  It's like, really?  I thought you didn't care... They're so stupid. Their kooky plans will not get them any fruit.  Scientists knew this would happen. It's a cliche in their world.  A lot of us are running around trying to keep the blood on the inside.  We're nothing more than sacrificial victims.

This is what they're starting to do to us.  Everyone knows how it is going to end.  People are not stupid.  In Virginia, they had cars follow me while I walked and yell horrible things to me. They spread rumors about me, and I became super popular with the locals.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KO3l733WRN0

Then they do this.  Keep your guns close and establish a neighborhood watch/cameras.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2KWpuVrRek4

They do the same thing to lower caste members in India.  Class wars.

And no, I'm not stalking you.  You came up in my suggestions.  You could have asked Facebook to block her new name.  I only knew that because I went through my messages. 

Nah, they want to make the bar lower

They teach kindergartens about sex not six--and tell them they don't know which gender they are.  They hunt us in our sleep and give many people lobotomies after shaming them with their painful memories.   "Evil Angel" Breaking Benjamin. They threaten and kill everyone who says the perps need help  They keep trying to get elites and governments to readily grasp these ideas , "Get the state to cooperate/capitulate, " Grimes, We Appreciate Power." I'm sure you do. You weren't elected, and you're anorexic and should feel your own device. They play games and turn the community against you "Outsider" by a Perfect Circle.  That I've dealt with a lot of that.  They told everyone I was a bum hooker in Virginia.  I'm also Putin's Queen.  These people's movements make NO sense, as their ideas don't work because of the way civilization is setup.  They're either too young or too dumb to do things properly.  They blame me.  I'm trying!

My respect for the FBI and CIA is in the toilet.

These two are already fighting over cash, which is petty and pointless. Don't talk until you get an army.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWUmw2ITaFA Deathstars, "Death dies Hard.

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Could you please 'give them something?' Perhaps they should fundraise... or do actual jobs.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HdZlAt1IyyA Deathstars, "All the Devil's Toys."

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He's not allowed to have pie, no deathstars.  No one can spend that amount of money, the old people.  It's power and people like deathstars are the greedy ones.  The old people climbed the ladder, and they are soon to be dead after so much dedication and building our nation.  And deathstars demands to be special.  Wah, wah.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VkCg-3nxT8E "Girl" Beck. This is what happens when I have a "crush."  This is so stupid, even for me!

F You, Too, Not Really

Putin killed my blog's traffic.  it's okay.  I'm talking to myself.  I should look at it as a gift that only feeds my delusions and such.  It's enabling.  

Love, 

      Kaela

I Go By Many Names: Kitten, Dragon, Rose, Dog, Ghost...

As far as being a 'suicidal imbecile,' I've spent years believing what others labeled me as.  I finally understand the gangs after me.  Did you not hear me admit to everything to make you go away?  I'm from the trash can, I know.  I have no power, and I will lose to the gun.  It's simple.  The moron and the genius understand this, the only thing can agree on.

 Going to therapy has helped me see that I am an animal, and only my ignorance is holding me back.  They'll use anything to harm you to distort...  I'm a little blunted and dead because of it.

Like I've said many times, the normal people aren't as tuned as I am.  The meds have helped calm me down and keep them from repeating whatever mantra they have decided to try.

And the goodies... so they promise them world peace and immortality.  I'd rather die than see their faces for eternity.  Not true.  Something will attack and you will die.  This planet is fierce.  I'm not going to waste my time with BS.  Tomorrow never comes today.

Putin tries to plant seeds then create obsessions, a reaction that destroys the enemy by making him eventually cower to Putin as a captive, stockholm syndrome..  One even sent him letters saying how he wanted to go back to Russia, and he was killed. 

You live, you learn!

Great Observations!

I am tired of Putin invading our networks with blatant hypocrisies and animated sentiments.  Yes, I know he is former KGB and thinks the rules the world but won't share his grades, the files he burned and the dishonest way he betrayed the USSR.  No, I am not a commie.  I'm just saying he doesn't eat his own shit.

.  He's a tiny economy with little to offer.  He has effectively trapped his people in an icy Hell and calls it patriotism.  He does not have control over his emotions and acts like someone stole his candy when it's stuck to his back!  Everyone said, "Fuck you."  He's a peon.

As far as the liberal agenda goes, yes, it a trick like Mao's steel.  I generally ignore these things.

Putin is banking on cheap arguments to gain the trust of the common man.  It's annoying.
What are his real values?  Himself.  This could be mended by giving up power to someone worthy.  Power corrupts, and he's had enough of it.

Time to go to the retirement home.  His judgment is not stellar.

This is the man who dealt with protests by saying, "The rich kids with smart phones are protesting because they want their money back, as their parents were discarded from stealing funds.'

What kind of crack is he smoking?  You're right.  Most of your population can't even afford meat thanks to your leadership with cyanide and fear.  Heaven forbid they get a smart phone.  Only you can decide the fate of mankind!  And peace, the hollow creature with death, that shows serious weakness.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rvP3dlIbwBU

Putin is Weak

I am banned from RT all the way now.   It's Putin's "power."  If anything doesn't go his way, he throws a tantrum and tries to hurt you.  Okay.  I've dealt with this for a good chunk of my life from people.  Not only am I the end of world peace, but I dared to ask for justice, which is a fallacy for him.  He's crying over the retarded schizophrenic.  Told you I was going to ruin his marriage with my awesome body and mind (just look at me and try not to laugh). Corpse brides.  It's like the "phone calls" he gives to his people. 

Putin, you are not fit to lead.

Owning Up, Lessons and Outsiders

Musical gangs are setting up traps for us instead of using the technology in responsible ways.  They want to play Roman suicides with us and feel special and powerful themselves.  They give a few people goodies and leave the rest of us to "witches" and "wizards."  On that note, we are at a point in time where we're going to have to steer our destiny.  One of the main concerns is to forget they are machines and mistake them for reality.  They hunt people like me, the losers, to sell their product or gain influence.  It's ridiculous.  

They are trying to kill me.  That's how you pay off student debt in commie time.  Healthcare was Mao's steel and using free speech to get rid of free speech should be a crime, but even that contradicts itself.

Oh, great Lords of the sacrificial fire, hear my lament as I am hurled to Hell.

They are also invading our homes and using the excuse we have to be taught by our masters.  Not really, karma will come to you.  I have many flaws myself, and I've changed to reflect the new experiences I came into and will continue to find.  We're all on a journey in life.  

Has anyone gotten a letter from me?  It's how I used to deal.  No one would listen to my words, and my parents were unable to teach me or guide me through.  I was despised much of my school days, and I became demoralized due to stress and being powerless with no future or hope.  When I got out of the army, my former friends were like, "I don't know you" essentially.  They would hang out with each other.  I sent them messages about how I felt. Of course, they didn't care and disappeared. 

Now I stay away from most people because they deserve to have good lives and not be on the stone I am to justify whatever they do. 

The psychotronic people (Sally's Song Universal Hall Pass) told me what they said about me and tried to get me to act.  I was like, yeah, a sad song.  I don't belong.  Human interaction is not essential.  I kind of learned this before.  I didn't wake up then.  I bought into special ed making me a super special star.  If you complain, you will go to the room and face other fatal consequences.  I was certainly not an equal.  Oh well, I made it through and don't have to go back.

So we'll get to the gangs that try to teach us again.  For one, I don't crave fame, I'm not trying to marry Putin, and I've never touched a child.

They weren't even on the same wavelength of my real problems: I'm immature, slow and annoying to be around when I complain about my problems.  People want winners not losers.  Still, I do not like being on the sacrificial altar.  It's up to me to get down and beat the demons or live as I do, apart.

Just watch out for the people who say they care.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zv-sdTOw5cs tears from Madonna.  "God Control."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAVx9RKaLPU humanity.  It's our future, not just hers.  "Nothing really Matters" by Madonna.

 

What the Hell? Yeah, Hell I've been Through

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3gjDKrOku8 This is God apparently.

I had to deal with these people in Virginia.  I'm a crowd favorite.  One, I was in the middle class or just white (don't make me explain the white middle class and its habits).  Two, I live alone and do not socialize.  I am a pariah, and I don't conform because society has no place for me.  I went out for Chinese tonight and the waitress was surprised I would eat alone.  I can't associate with people.  I told her I cried myself to sleep every night and took a bite of nasty tofu.  I hope that was good for me because it was not good going down.  Get used to it, fatty, right?

They kept drilling for reasons and still do.  I was going to go to hell for stealing ice cream growing up from my mother.  Eventually they said they were going to kill my sister if I didn't kill myself.  Now I know better.  They'll do whatever they want.

The last thing they have on me is that I've smelled my underwear and like the scent.  Am I supposed to say I like the smell of pussy?   Okay, whatever. I'm an animal. Plenty of men will pay for that, but I've never had non-robot sex.  They jacked up my backthoughts in Virginia, which was interesting.  The reason I stayed in Virginia was because the agent in the mental ward said he was following me.  They did all sorts of odd things.  They tried to make me a pedophile.  That was so annoying.  I hate them, and I can't wait for this to end.

They played what other people said about me, and I was like, duh.  I know.  That's why I'm alone.  I don't fit in.  I know Marilyn Manson gets to slice and dice me later for whatever reason.  I can only suggest antipsychotics.  You need help. You are very sick.

I've been through a lot, and I feel sorry for these poor people who have strong emotions.  That was so mean to do to someone.  I might not get the video of "Outsiders" Directors cut.  I will try. Look it up or listen to the music.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KO3l733WRN0 "Outsiders" A Perfect Circle Director's cut.

In the end, it was like bring it on.  Like to see you survive 12 years (and relatives at home) of special education and test your self-esteem.  I'm used to this. It annoys me, and I was pissed I fell for the suicide thing.  One whisper of my emotion came back. I want to retire before I get dementia. I'm enjoying this decade.

Once every retard is dead, there will be world peace.  Listen to the retard call.  We're dangerous. ;) lol . I need a satellite of my own.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6SiyTs5pe5w Is it wrong?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CFzzKkhjnw awkward music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXUbExPxUvs all day, 1000s

Annoyance

So, when you have a clipped brain, much like a clipped bird, it's hard to show emotion.  They killed my personality and left with the IQ of a wounded rabbit for their "peace."

When all the retards are dead, there will be world peace.  I'm a stepping stone for most.  I've grown algae and am not going to make it even easier for them.

 I see plenty of others comment who have rage issues, who say the wrong things.  I am picked on due to Putin's influence. It's ridiculous.  I deserve to have feelings, even anger.  It's part of being human.

If I'm too sweet at work, I'll be taken advantage of or have a billion babies.  There is no mercy.  I used to be a very sweet girl anyway who saw the good in things, but they never stop coming after me.  Would it make you angry?

They've been hitting on SC lately to try to bother me.  I hate her, but I won't let it come into my soul like they want, a quick kill.  Stay away from me.

I hope they're happy with the unhappiness and suicide rate.  Killing all the retards failed.  They breed us in the US.  Many of us end up in the same place, and it's like???  No love him.  Bye.  I refuse to make the human gene pool even worse. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qUMGhUi1ETw&t=115s


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Dear Chat Show

That is one way to battle him.  It's hard to get away from his simpleton morals and viewpoints that relate to the lower, less educated classes and youth/inexperience. Comedy reaches them. He is an incredibly good actor, but he's getting ugly. Bonus.  You have to get his villagers back. it's annoying. I used to play "Age of Empires," and I didn't slaughter my workers but chased the priests away. Go to the source. I got the cheat codes and brought a tank to my side of the river.  Of course, he'll say he wants dialogue, peace, understanding for nations while giving people phone calls that make them jump out of three story buildings and killing disabled people over $40 dollars a month (Tatu Invalidy).  yeah, you're really protecting them, Putin. The guy on the wheel chair got attention and now Putin suddenly cares about disabled people.  Fuck you, Putin.  The only good thing you're good for is fucking.

We need real leaders and a supercomputer at the UN.

Brief Chat by an Amateur

Putin: Welcome to Russia, land of the free and faithful to God.  We have beautiful country.
Guest: Who are those guys behind me?
Putin: They are your friends with AK47.  They are good friends, yes, agree?
Guest: um, sure, um, okay. Why are all your women on your webpage nearly naked?
Putin: You no like Russian women? very attractive. We have beautiful country and women. Wide and long.  Always happy in Russia.
The men with AK47s get closer.
Guest: Sounds great.
Putin: I did have slight problem at the office in the hotel where we met, see friend. They did not fill up vodka machine, only got water. A man cannot live on water alone.
Guest: I thought that was bread.. (looks nervous).
Putin: You no like vodka?  Vodka make a good nation.  It soul and spirit of the country.  We drink lot. You want?
Guest: I'm...
Putin: Get him some vodka, boys.
Guest: (Drinks the vodka and passes out.)
Putin: Ah, he liked cyanide, too.  Very funny, no?  Fill vodka machine.

Kaela and Putin

Putin: Oh no, retarded girl has crush on me, maybe break my wonderful marriage.  Very scared. +says prayer to God+
Kaela: Why can I think of nothing but his smile?  Hell's teeth.
Putin: We will find the terrorists, chase them down even in the bathroom.
Kaela: He ran into the bar and waved his hand in my face.  Are you kidding?  I'm not plucking my mustache this month.  I think I'll invest in some more KFC.
Putin: Spy no kidding, spy save marriage.
Kaela: Whatever.

Brain from Schizophrenia

I couldn't perceive properly with the video of Poppy.  On the night show, she shows what she's doing to us now.  

The video is about human nature and how we kill the environment.  I corrected it on YouTube, but I have blogged here.  I don't come often, so I forgot.

My brainz!

Banned From RT Again

So now I can't post on RT, yet again.  I was becoming too popular. Risky. I don't mind being alone. I truly do not want to be famous.  I like a quiet life.

I know that Putin's minions have tried to plant seeds of pain into me to grow and destroy me.  Take a number.  I'd like to see some new tricks.

Wimpy Putin.  Could you do anything but be a jackass?

My soap bottle approves of me and smiles are everywhere.