I Wasn't Even a Dissident Before

The video took me out of context, "I Want to Believe." Then I felt hurt and betrayed, so I betrayed. I tried worshipping my leaders, but it didn't work. People just want to hurt me. They never stop and now I'm trapped here, which is where they want me. I don't vote. I don't go to church (which is another no no according to Marilyn Manson). There is no direction here. I don't know who to follow or how to follow the rules.