Again, why do you raise disabled people only to kill them? It seems like we're competing as usual, and you've found a piece of merit that gives you an advantage or does it?
I did pull my weight, and I had been looking for employment, but they gave me TBIs that caused my behavior to change dramatically as they kept trying to kill me for any reason.
I was a decent writer and mechanic. Any hope of me ever working again has pretty much been destroyed, however, unless Putin decides to be decent and hand over the cells. I don't have a sound enough awareness to comprehend much of anything. I have a truly poetic reality of "here-now." I would describe it as waking up in the middle of the night and thinking that the dream was real.
I guess it's kill or be killed. But we must make the hunt efficient or there will be no game left.
I don't blame you. It's a dog-eat-dog world, but what will my death really mean to the big picture? It won't make you a better writer. It won't give you more power. All it'll do is give a check to some disabled retard out there that's protected by your inability to kill them all. People need our money to sustain themselves, so they will protect us.
Kill them. Honestly. hehe
:) :( :/ :D That's my gang symbol. LOL Emotions are "Bad Magick" by Godsmack. Humans credit their emotions as having power. It's interesting and how they end up dead. I thought I told the attackers everything they wanted to hear; I have to guess. I exaggerated my memory for awhile because around 21, my emotions started to wane minus rage. Putin's influence got me killed. They attacked me over and over again after that damn picture.
The dictator has me loving walls
Hoping that I'll give up my emotions
So that he can exploit the meaningless
Eye that sees simple survival, one
He doesn't know that I like to scream
More and that I like to bleed, as my
Emotions burnt out to nothing to where
Anything human is pleasure
Apparently, this saved me and my injury
Did because I could not fulfill the "suicide."
Rage was the last emotion that I had, and now I have nothing. I'm like all dizzy all the time then some days I'll just have an odd awareness. I want this fixed. You had your fun and now you're done.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
I Used To Be A Decent Writer
But my memory is so destroyed. It's so I can't believe in anything. I am incredibly weak minded these days. If you told me the moon is made of cheese, it would take me a minute to figure out that it is not made out of cheese. I can't trust any information I receive. I assume they did this to me so that I could not disagree with their mind programming. They've made all information analogous and short-lived. I have an interesting reality. Now they're trying to program in their wisdom which is humorous.
Disorganized Youth
Is my opinion right?
It was from your reality
The one I see
I react and say, are you
Superior-that's your decree
I need to know who you are
Who has the biggest gun
It's for another you, why
I fight the invisible demon
I believe this to be true
Do you not see the tangling
My youth betrays me
Give me a minute?
Tell me again the answer
In a way I can understand
Why are you screaming?
I can't hear you if you confuse
K.I.S.S. Keep it simple stupid
So that I don't go astray
But it's a trick, you see
To make me deceive
I'm not really talking
When that's all I can do
In this reality of ours
Is follow you as you
Fight a dragon stronger
Why do you pick on pawns
When the flames are
Consuming you?
This fight is not your fight
What can I do?
Monkey see, monkey do
Monkey climb higher than you
Pretty soon all you get is screeching
Climb the actions
Leave the words to dust
They were never real
No, I won't tell them the answer. i just stick out my tongue and laugh as I go to increasingly stupid realities. I like this life of not having to do anything. It's what they wanted. My brain feels like it's filled with water but abilify makes that feeling go away, disturbing as it is. hehe
Of course, this is really because I'm a traitor that has to choke or something else ridiculous. We all know that Patriot Missiles don't work. Academia has been saying it for centuries. I just screamed that out to mock them labeling me a traitor for other things. They were fishing for anything as usual. I get flip-tricked. I have no redeeming qualities.
If you guys are so powerful, why can't you just take my money? :P
She said I was trying to get in on her good by writing. I didn't even write for money. That's what I was trained to do in school, which must be some pointless abstract to them? Like I said, I like slavery. They've got us in this damn status system that is inhumane. We have too many masters and conflicting interests. I need a protector. They make everything Hellish for a few individuals. It doesn't have to be this way. Hey, I'll work for nothing if I have stable food and shelter. Who needs a big house or a car or glittering things? Unnecessary accessories.
Glitter and gold
Still gets old
Shine for time
A dime's sin
Once minted
To descend
Into fine dirt
Way of Earth
Disorganized Youth
Is my opinion right?
It was from your reality
The one I see
I react and say, are you
Superior-that's your decree
I need to know who you are
Who has the biggest gun
It's for another you, why
I fight the invisible demon
I believe this to be true
Do you not see the tangling
My youth betrays me
Give me a minute?
Tell me again the answer
In a way I can understand
Why are you screaming?
I can't hear you if you confuse
K.I.S.S. Keep it simple stupid
So that I don't go astray
But it's a trick, you see
To make me deceive
I'm not really talking
When that's all I can do
In this reality of ours
Is follow you as you
Fight a dragon stronger
Why do you pick on pawns
When the flames are
Consuming you?
This fight is not your fight
What can I do?
Monkey see, monkey do
Monkey climb higher than you
Pretty soon all you get is screeching
Climb the actions
Leave the words to dust
They were never real
No, I won't tell them the answer. i just stick out my tongue and laugh as I go to increasingly stupid realities. I like this life of not having to do anything. It's what they wanted. My brain feels like it's filled with water but abilify makes that feeling go away, disturbing as it is. hehe
Of course, this is really because I'm a traitor that has to choke or something else ridiculous. We all know that Patriot Missiles don't work. Academia has been saying it for centuries. I just screamed that out to mock them labeling me a traitor for other things. They were fishing for anything as usual. I get flip-tricked. I have no redeeming qualities.
If you guys are so powerful, why can't you just take my money? :P
She said I was trying to get in on her good by writing. I didn't even write for money. That's what I was trained to do in school, which must be some pointless abstract to them? Like I said, I like slavery. They've got us in this damn status system that is inhumane. We have too many masters and conflicting interests. I need a protector. They make everything Hellish for a few individuals. It doesn't have to be this way. Hey, I'll work for nothing if I have stable food and shelter. Who needs a big house or a car or glittering things? Unnecessary accessories.
Glitter and gold
Still gets old
Shine for time
A dime's sin
Once minted
To descend
Into fine dirt
Way of Earth
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Get Stupid
That's Madonna's song. It looks like, "share your view and make the world a better place," but we all know that they're dumbing us down, making us confess to various sins so that they can trap us. A few people are vain and think that they can, with their limited awareness of one and no army, know anything "big." I find this comical. And I'm saying it to Breaking Benjamin as well. They don't want world peace; they want world piece. I just want to spit out realizations to conform to time. I'm not talking to anyone, am I? I don't want anything but survival. I have no influence, just putters across a keyboard as I state my plea for survival. It's difficult for me to make sense because my mind is all messed up.
The information
Stone henge has 56 lunar cycles
The moon smiles away
Blue, 53, flowers, up
There are letters in the alphabet
Couch, pillow, kill, tree
There is a President
It's October one month
There are four seasons
I don't believe in telling them anything, fine, just laughing at them because they'll figure it out. They have no choice but to add realizations to things. No, I won't tell you how it should be, Breaking Benjamin, I'll watch as everything goes down and then we all fly away again. Good will prevail because there is a drive for survival that is stronger than any force be it greed or anything else.
A Piece of the World
I want world peace
For me to sleep
For me to seek
Let me write crappy poems
without form
Let me speak
For my world piece
The reason I didn't go to Russia is because I didn't know anyone over there. I didn't trust that picture that Putin put up because it looked like doublespeak (originally, Putin was smiling at me dying and there was a picture of a firesquad next to him), and it caused a lot of people to notice me, and I still want Putin to fix the brain. They don't have a program for me to start over there and I don't speak their language. Sure, they're hunting "ghosts," but I would probably have better luck over here with my skill set. Nobody wants a low skilled female. Worthlessness sucks. Use me, abuse me. I'm insane. I don't care either.
Things always work out because they have to.
Today's song is from Godsmack, "Spiral." A real Band.
"Sometimes we only live for the here and now
Sometimes we're lonely
Sometimes we feel like we need somplace
to be grounded or to fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I feel rain pouring down
I wait to rot away, live again, here forever...
The spiral neverends
Always we search for the answers
But nothing is found
We fly away again"
Humans are strange creatures. I think our "religion" has lost its mind, the killing of invalids for moral reasons. Why do you raise us if only to die? Surely, you could have created a slot for us somewhere... I cannot conform to that which I cannot see. How clever. Let me go to the one with the most control, the biggest gun.
They used their sex rays on me (a screaming female), cyanide and a bunch of other things, including framing me hitting on Putin. I'm a ghost rose. It appears, looking back through my old blog, that my heart stopped or did something due to a potassium imbalance (which caused me to get uber delusional with angels and stuff) and my brain exploded or something in the end of myself. I can't really remember much. That seems to have preserved me from the sex ray (Beck's Mellow Gold Album) because I have no desire. I have no mind though. This sucks and is hard to explain.
These things happen, and I look back for evidence.
You? or Me? -- They Say
Why would I matter
When I'm in chains
The world has me
Choke, it commands
And I have to obey
Survival
Incite my anger
When jealousy becomes
A sea that consumes
Blood is salt
See? we are connected
When Bread Rises
You box me to nothing
I'm a honey ham?
I'm something to name
Something bad
I cannot earn a penny
I cannot have
A dollar for a beer
Just see bad
As I watch bread rise
As other say "tab"
That's what you get for using me, you bastards. i'm "youthless" by Beck or "useless." They kill them when they have nothing left or they steal all they have. I mean, I was smart enough to go to school, but they interferred so that they didn't have to pay. The guy in the song humps the couch until he dies or in my case wakes up and runs with a really bad headache. I think someone cares. That's my sin. I think sympathy matters... :) :( :/ Human emotion? I no longer have emotions, just the desperate grab of survival. I wish the soviets that ruled us would let us out of our cages once we learned all their traps. Of course, they blur Beck as some sort of extremist group to confuse us, but we'll learn that they use gangs to trap invalids and dissidents and political enemies and people they wish to drain and the gangs are government organized, whether they realize it or not.
The information
Stone henge has 56 lunar cycles
The moon smiles away
Blue, 53, flowers, up
There are letters in the alphabet
Couch, pillow, kill, tree
There is a President
It's October one month
There are four seasons
I don't believe in telling them anything, fine, just laughing at them because they'll figure it out. They have no choice but to add realizations to things. No, I won't tell you how it should be, Breaking Benjamin, I'll watch as everything goes down and then we all fly away again. Good will prevail because there is a drive for survival that is stronger than any force be it greed or anything else.
A Piece of the World
I want world peace
For me to sleep
For me to seek
Let me write crappy poems
without form
Let me speak
For my world piece
The reason I didn't go to Russia is because I didn't know anyone over there. I didn't trust that picture that Putin put up because it looked like doublespeak (originally, Putin was smiling at me dying and there was a picture of a firesquad next to him), and it caused a lot of people to notice me, and I still want Putin to fix the brain. They don't have a program for me to start over there and I don't speak their language. Sure, they're hunting "ghosts," but I would probably have better luck over here with my skill set. Nobody wants a low skilled female. Worthlessness sucks. Use me, abuse me. I'm insane. I don't care either.
Things always work out because they have to.
Today's song is from Godsmack, "Spiral." A real Band.
"Sometimes we only live for the here and now
Sometimes we're lonely
Sometimes we feel like we need somplace
to be grounded or to fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I will fly, fly away again
I feel rain pouring down
I wait to rot away, live again, here forever...
The spiral neverends
Always we search for the answers
But nothing is found
We fly away again"
Humans are strange creatures. I think our "religion" has lost its mind, the killing of invalids for moral reasons. Why do you raise us if only to die? Surely, you could have created a slot for us somewhere... I cannot conform to that which I cannot see. How clever. Let me go to the one with the most control, the biggest gun.
They used their sex rays on me (a screaming female), cyanide and a bunch of other things, including framing me hitting on Putin. I'm a ghost rose. It appears, looking back through my old blog, that my heart stopped or did something due to a potassium imbalance (which caused me to get uber delusional with angels and stuff) and my brain exploded or something in the end of myself. I can't really remember much. That seems to have preserved me from the sex ray (Beck's Mellow Gold Album) because I have no desire. I have no mind though. This sucks and is hard to explain.
These things happen, and I look back for evidence.
You? or Me? -- They Say
Why would I matter
When I'm in chains
The world has me
Choke, it commands
And I have to obey
Survival
Incite my anger
When jealousy becomes
A sea that consumes
Blood is salt
See? we are connected
When Bread Rises
You box me to nothing
I'm a honey ham?
I'm something to name
Something bad
I cannot earn a penny
I cannot have
A dollar for a beer
Just see bad
As I watch bread rise
As other say "tab"
That's what you get for using me, you bastards. i'm "youthless" by Beck or "useless." They kill them when they have nothing left or they steal all they have. I mean, I was smart enough to go to school, but they interferred so that they didn't have to pay. The guy in the song humps the couch until he dies or in my case wakes up and runs with a really bad headache. I think someone cares. That's my sin. I think sympathy matters... :) :( :/ Human emotion? I no longer have emotions, just the desperate grab of survival. I wish the soviets that ruled us would let us out of our cages once we learned all their traps. Of course, they blur Beck as some sort of extremist group to confuse us, but we'll learn that they use gangs to trap invalids and dissidents and political enemies and people they wish to drain and the gangs are government organized, whether they realize it or not.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Evil programming: You Don't See Them Asking for Help
I said I didn't want your help, but you boxed me so that you could be badass.
I am the epitome of evil.
I say, let's start up slavery again. :)
I want to go to a labor camp.
You'll be the one quietly begging then.
I am the epitome of evil.
I say, let's start up slavery again. :)
I want to go to a labor camp.
You'll be the one quietly begging then.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
I'm Not Playing Games
You force me on too much medicine, and I'll stop eating. I've been fairly compliant.
I've never killed anyone and my grandma lied about the clawing thing. Hey, I'm white trash with no redeeming qualities. Threaten an animal and see what happens. I was still in dizzy, disoriented land when that happened. I wasn't well, and it wsan't schizophrenia. That would be from the cyanide. Nobody wants to defend or help me or prove what really happened.
No, you should never claw your grandma, but she wouldn't let go of me, and I had to get away. I put slight pressure on her. She doesn't have any proof that I did more than that, no photos. The police didn't take her to the hospital. I've never done anything else, much as I'm accused. I sent a mean letter in HS to some girl (catfight), Campbell (or get the fuck away from me) and that's been about as vicious as I've been. Self-defense.
I've got the IQ of a wounded rat these days. I don't think I'm a threat to public safety. Thanks psychotronic warfare for preventing me from being a terrorist. I told him why I got angry, and he ignored me as usual. He's trying to box me now into unsafe doses.
It's me, my behavior, and I don't see any behavioral therapy attempts.
If you drug an elephant, will he learn calculus or will he just sit there and stare? Why not just kill me? I'll be easy to handle then. At least work for your money.
It's difficult for me to be sassy these days since I'm floating around. that's why I like to pump those emotions. I can feel something. A pulse of something. I don't think they can hear me on the moon. Scream louder.
Personally, I don't think I can handle civilization, so I'd like them to open camps and invite me. Fair warning, I become a puke monster at night. I get really disoriented and cannot remember simple instructions though, so be nice. I can write because I can collect myself, and I do most things automatically.
I had no history of hypochondria, and I'd like to tell the ER people that. I know you didn't have time for me, but I thought I was dying. I was smelling rotting flesh and my head hollowed out and I flipped out because I couldn't stop throwing up, and they said I was sticking my finger down my throat. I'm going to puke by the camera next time and sue you. Excuse me for caring once. I'm into self-preservation. Not that any doctor will listen to me, so fuck you all. You are wrong all the time. I'd never been to a hospital during my middle child and teenage years. I'd been in one for tubes and that was it. The first time was in 2009. There's something wrong with me. We're going to take some cognitive tests, and I'm going to show you that it's not family friendly in here. What's beautiful is that it affects everything, and I cannot escape it. I had a headache for 8 months and when the headache went away, I was dizzy and like really stupid but the pressure went away. I've improved since then but I still have issues. I'm no longer smelling odd things, but I still puke. I freak out because I get disoriented, and I can't feel my normal emotions to a degree that i have no instincts. There was nothing worse than that headache. It was in the morning, in noon and at night. No one would "believe" me. Look at my medical recorders. Look at when I've been in. I did have one "tantrum" when I screamed at Putin while they were still trying to kill me with the damn ray, and I used my name. I still had the headache then but I was determined to be angry because why does everyone feel like they own my life?
Did you believe my blood shot eyes? It's cool. I don't need to give you my money or "your' money since that's how most of you feel. take it, you worthless pieces of shit. I know I am, and i'd love to go somewhere productive where I don't sin. I'm a sinner. I HATE FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labor camps.
Who wants a diagnosis of schizophrenia? Come on, it's fun.
I've never killed anyone and my grandma lied about the clawing thing. Hey, I'm white trash with no redeeming qualities. Threaten an animal and see what happens. I was still in dizzy, disoriented land when that happened. I wasn't well, and it wsan't schizophrenia. That would be from the cyanide. Nobody wants to defend or help me or prove what really happened.
No, you should never claw your grandma, but she wouldn't let go of me, and I had to get away. I put slight pressure on her. She doesn't have any proof that I did more than that, no photos. The police didn't take her to the hospital. I've never done anything else, much as I'm accused. I sent a mean letter in HS to some girl (catfight), Campbell (or get the fuck away from me) and that's been about as vicious as I've been. Self-defense.
I've got the IQ of a wounded rat these days. I don't think I'm a threat to public safety. Thanks psychotronic warfare for preventing me from being a terrorist. I told him why I got angry, and he ignored me as usual. He's trying to box me now into unsafe doses.
It's me, my behavior, and I don't see any behavioral therapy attempts.
If you drug an elephant, will he learn calculus or will he just sit there and stare? Why not just kill me? I'll be easy to handle then. At least work for your money.
It's difficult for me to be sassy these days since I'm floating around. that's why I like to pump those emotions. I can feel something. A pulse of something. I don't think they can hear me on the moon. Scream louder.
Personally, I don't think I can handle civilization, so I'd like them to open camps and invite me. Fair warning, I become a puke monster at night. I get really disoriented and cannot remember simple instructions though, so be nice. I can write because I can collect myself, and I do most things automatically.
I had no history of hypochondria, and I'd like to tell the ER people that. I know you didn't have time for me, but I thought I was dying. I was smelling rotting flesh and my head hollowed out and I flipped out because I couldn't stop throwing up, and they said I was sticking my finger down my throat. I'm going to puke by the camera next time and sue you. Excuse me for caring once. I'm into self-preservation. Not that any doctor will listen to me, so fuck you all. You are wrong all the time. I'd never been to a hospital during my middle child and teenage years. I'd been in one for tubes and that was it. The first time was in 2009. There's something wrong with me. We're going to take some cognitive tests, and I'm going to show you that it's not family friendly in here. What's beautiful is that it affects everything, and I cannot escape it. I had a headache for 8 months and when the headache went away, I was dizzy and like really stupid but the pressure went away. I've improved since then but I still have issues. I'm no longer smelling odd things, but I still puke. I freak out because I get disoriented, and I can't feel my normal emotions to a degree that i have no instincts. There was nothing worse than that headache. It was in the morning, in noon and at night. No one would "believe" me. Look at my medical recorders. Look at when I've been in. I did have one "tantrum" when I screamed at Putin while they were still trying to kill me with the damn ray, and I used my name. I still had the headache then but I was determined to be angry because why does everyone feel like they own my life?
Did you believe my blood shot eyes? It's cool. I don't need to give you my money or "your' money since that's how most of you feel. take it, you worthless pieces of shit. I know I am, and i'd love to go somewhere productive where I don't sin. I'm a sinner. I HATE FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labor camps.
Who wants a diagnosis of schizophrenia? Come on, it's fun.
Monday, October 17, 2011
I'm Learning a Lesson From a Child
Burps
Right, wrong, who the fuck cares? I have to figure out what you value and use it against you before you trap me and if you're trying to get me to do anything, you value something. And if this was Bush, I was a nice person, a desperate person, and you just, like eeryone else, couldn't resist. At least Putin showed his face. I'll let you kill me any day, sweetie. You know what I'd do to you or fag if I had the chance, both of you? Just for fun. I hat ethis place. Humans don't get a better world. They couldn't even handle this one and you couldn't even handle the power with me. Do you honestly think you can handle it on larger levels? Be mature, we all have to serve each to survive. And as for a crappy destiny, we've given them 10.000 years and they still haven't figured it out. We all die. No rose. You do that, and i will laugh at you. I don't follow people that haven't earned my respect. You can just cut me up or anything else "cute." I'm only one.
I don't serve you. You don't serve me. We're equal.
So I have to confess everything, and that'll mean things that I didn't do as well.
My mind is extremely weak now, so I don't have the awareness to really know what I'm doing -- if you know what I mean. hehe I'm going to take the IQ, scratch that. Is this just punishment? I just laugh at them and their laws. It's like, he'll do whatever he wants to, and he doesn't have any values. I'm going to try to escape. By the time he's done with me, I won't have one redeeming quality because he has CONTROL. He's going to flip me around, do all sorts of crazy things then disable me and there's not much I can do about it unless i kill him first.
Long story short, I'm going to do anything I can to escape. I'm trashed out to the point where I no longer have "morals." I can't even feel them. I have no values, and I have a very short memory, so I'll say or do anything. I'm not escaping the asylum I live in.
"You pretty little, baby." -- Greed by Godsmack I need your help, bitch.
This is fate that I "deserve." Whatever. They have terror squads to punish us "traitors," to make sure that we fall out in life because it's not enough to simply kill us. Killing us would serve as an example. No, they have to waste FUCKING MILLIONS OF MY TAXDOLLARS chasing people that are probably innocent or that have not broken a law. Even if I hit on Putin, it's not a crime. If it's about Patriot Missiles, there is nothing legally binding me to the army. Again, I did nothing illegal. You would never win in a case against me like this because i'm incompetent. And you didn't even bother to try.
Lame power games.
I went and ratted what we all know--plus a dismantling detail--because of the cyanide and the voices and the dead people. They make you guilty so that you commit absolution to them then kill yourself for their ego. Like murderers, gang bangers, thugs give a flying fuck about what they did. Even though I've never killed anyone, I think I could pile the bodies without guilt. That's an emotion that those comfortable people feel. That was some bullshit. I was protecting my sister. My stuff is different. I have Trey and angels.
Like, I think I was already eating the crap off the floor, and I was framed into hitting on him. I wasn't hitting on him, but since my credibility is destroyed, it's like she was hitting on him. So, even if I was hitting on him thousands of miles away, what difference would it make? i had a closet crush. I just needed to be circumcised for having sexual desire. What does he want? What do they want? yeah, yeah, you're evil. Logically, if it's a moral that we all share, then the person without the moral is crazy and needs medical attention. So in a moral society, hitting on Putin would be an ER trip. We're not a moral society. He should have looked at me and just said, "I know your value system produces whores."
Is there free soda involved?
Here's the truth about my sexual habits: I had a crush on Putin 1976, a fantasy. Something to exploit, yeah, yeah. Humans feel weird things when it comes to sex that makes them have odd morals concerning it. Thinking that I could break up that home is not logical. They tried to make it look like I was hitting on him. Two, I like to hurt myself because I'm filled anger. Everyone is mean to me, and it feels good. I guess that means I'm a sadomascohist, but they had me saying that I was going to make way for new life and everything else. I need my negative thoughts.
They've got mind machines to force us to tell the truth only to make us lie. Why even bother? Why not say, "peasant, you aren't worth your welfare" and then laugh in my face or something? I'd love if you do that because if can get rid of welfare, then we can get rid of extreme capitalism. No, i have to give her a decline in mental function before I kill her. My integrity is not the best, so I lose credibility--so do they, and they can confuse me. I don't bullshit with that. After you, really. I don't value honesty. I value authority and rank and order. I'm telling you that I wasn't hitting on Putin. You can say I was, and I'll lie and say it doesn't matter if I was. You'll say, but you lied! You deserve that! And I'll say, now that's irrelevant. that's a value that we don't share. No, even with both stories, I didn't deserve that by your playground morals. I wasn't hitting on him.
And since I've learned that my truth is irrelevant, I'll often confess what I didn't do and say, what was the proper procedure for this? I keep a healthy dose of self-defense going too. It's obvious that this person is trying to destroy me, so to avoid it, I'm going to lie to their vanity and hopefully I'll survive -- which is the goal. You people are like really emotioanl and really pathetically simple. Where did they find you?
So they confuse, as we get twisted in each other. Anyone else want to admit they're a freak? Before you get this job, I need to know how you fuck your wife. Then to collect food stamps, I need you to post that on facebook. You'll end up lying. That's what they do to me. I'm a virgin freak. Wanna look? I figured we'd just cut it out and not have this problem. Next thing, I like corpses. Okay, so now what?
If you read my original blog, you'd know that I moved to Virginia to protect my family from this, but I gave up. Kill them all. Have fun.
I've decided that while i'm not motivated by security, it's essential and that freedom is not.
I don't want to kill anyone, myself or anything else. i'm over "that." And I would never have done it anyway. Kaela kills: 0 Their kills: a lot.
I need to, since Putin made me special, get fixed. Putin made me "special" like ed in that he posted a picture of me dying, had someone attack me in a bar, named his dog Buffy and caused everyone to attack me. I need my brain fixed. Oh, and don't ever use cyanide to kill anyone or screaming trashy female voices or anything else but nature.
I got a mysterious call today. Is it another death threat? Prove you're good and I'm bad. This makes you do stupid things faster, which is good for the end of our species, my goa.. People need to call my cell for that. 408-858-1601. I love the attention, really do.
If you're a reporter and you've actually figured out that i'm not delusional, you're going to have to box them first because they'll jack me up so bad if you try to make me public. I'll become very ill. They'll use the emotional appeal that you're exploiting me. I suggest just serving their wayward agenda because we're trapped living like this. They can only hurt so many of us before they lose productivity or the value shade of their society changes. Once we make the sign, @, we should be free from their curses. I see your agenda, and i"m not working against it.
If you're a lawyer, they have the judges all serving their agendas, so I'm a waste of money. It's obvious that they have the technology for this, but it's always mental illness. We should be referred to an investigator these days as well as a mental health judge. I was mentally ill prior, and so I can't say anything. Of course, they'd target my demographic. They've got me so twisted around them that I can't say anything.
If you're the CIA, then you know where I live and come get me because I'm ready to be a research animal. After you guys got done, my quality of life isn't exactly high.
I would like to be on the front page for committing treason though. I like attention and playing along with ideologies (none exist but all do). If nothing else, let me bring what they're doing to attention so that we all know. I want to die by firing squad for being the whore of Babylon. Where do special needs kids end up as adults? They were so cute when they were little, but they end up in the hands of dictators and psychotronic warfare as traitors. But instead of killing me, make it fake, and send me off to a research lab for my final request. I want to have fun too. All you have to do is find the poor guy that has nothing to lose to cover the story. I'm all hopeful. Cyanide isn't so bad. The choking is annoying, but then you pass out and wake up the next day with an 8 month headache. I really didn't choke that much. What happened was I couldn't breathe and my heart stopped. I breathed it in for a long time because I didn't know what it was, like at least a minute ( I didn't think that was possible), theraputic, and then I started hallucinating and then I passed out. The orgasm ray hadn't killed me before, so it appears they used that, the one the CIA uses up in Virginia, because I hate sex, and it was a girl. I'm not sure though. hehe They like to blur and confuse.
As far as being evil goes, you'd think they'd love that I survived and could use me to say they were fighting human corruption as a facade to oppress the people that got me. Gotta have everyone in check. I've lived this moment before. You guys like believe in things when nothing exists. It's horrible that they corrupt you by bashing your ideologies for theirs. They should be playing games with the personalities to keep your realization's in the comfort that you've been in, the body that houses you in this blue paradise.
You know I just want the monies so that I can have my revenge, get repaired, etc.
Right, wrong, who the fuck cares? I have to figure out what you value and use it against you before you trap me and if you're trying to get me to do anything, you value something. And if this was Bush, I was a nice person, a desperate person, and you just, like eeryone else, couldn't resist. At least Putin showed his face. I'll let you kill me any day, sweetie. You know what I'd do to you or fag if I had the chance, both of you? Just for fun. I hat ethis place. Humans don't get a better world. They couldn't even handle this one and you couldn't even handle the power with me. Do you honestly think you can handle it on larger levels? Be mature, we all have to serve each to survive. And as for a crappy destiny, we've given them 10.000 years and they still haven't figured it out. We all die. No rose. You do that, and i will laugh at you. I don't follow people that haven't earned my respect. You can just cut me up or anything else "cute." I'm only one.
I don't serve you. You don't serve me. We're equal.
So I have to confess everything, and that'll mean things that I didn't do as well.
My mind is extremely weak now, so I don't have the awareness to really know what I'm doing -- if you know what I mean. hehe I'm going to take the IQ, scratch that. Is this just punishment? I just laugh at them and their laws. It's like, he'll do whatever he wants to, and he doesn't have any values. I'm going to try to escape. By the time he's done with me, I won't have one redeeming quality because he has CONTROL. He's going to flip me around, do all sorts of crazy things then disable me and there's not much I can do about it unless i kill him first.
Long story short, I'm going to do anything I can to escape. I'm trashed out to the point where I no longer have "morals." I can't even feel them. I have no values, and I have a very short memory, so I'll say or do anything. I'm not escaping the asylum I live in.
"You pretty little, baby." -- Greed by Godsmack I need your help, bitch.
This is fate that I "deserve." Whatever. They have terror squads to punish us "traitors," to make sure that we fall out in life because it's not enough to simply kill us. Killing us would serve as an example. No, they have to waste FUCKING MILLIONS OF MY TAXDOLLARS chasing people that are probably innocent or that have not broken a law. Even if I hit on Putin, it's not a crime. If it's about Patriot Missiles, there is nothing legally binding me to the army. Again, I did nothing illegal. You would never win in a case against me like this because i'm incompetent. And you didn't even bother to try.
Lame power games.
I went and ratted what we all know--plus a dismantling detail--because of the cyanide and the voices and the dead people. They make you guilty so that you commit absolution to them then kill yourself for their ego. Like murderers, gang bangers, thugs give a flying fuck about what they did. Even though I've never killed anyone, I think I could pile the bodies without guilt. That's an emotion that those comfortable people feel. That was some bullshit. I was protecting my sister. My stuff is different. I have Trey and angels.
Like, I think I was already eating the crap off the floor, and I was framed into hitting on him. I wasn't hitting on him, but since my credibility is destroyed, it's like she was hitting on him. So, even if I was hitting on him thousands of miles away, what difference would it make? i had a closet crush. I just needed to be circumcised for having sexual desire. What does he want? What do they want? yeah, yeah, you're evil. Logically, if it's a moral that we all share, then the person without the moral is crazy and needs medical attention. So in a moral society, hitting on Putin would be an ER trip. We're not a moral society. He should have looked at me and just said, "I know your value system produces whores."
Is there free soda involved?
Here's the truth about my sexual habits: I had a crush on Putin 1976, a fantasy. Something to exploit, yeah, yeah. Humans feel weird things when it comes to sex that makes them have odd morals concerning it. Thinking that I could break up that home is not logical. They tried to make it look like I was hitting on him. Two, I like to hurt myself because I'm filled anger. Everyone is mean to me, and it feels good. I guess that means I'm a sadomascohist, but they had me saying that I was going to make way for new life and everything else. I need my negative thoughts.
They've got mind machines to force us to tell the truth only to make us lie. Why even bother? Why not say, "peasant, you aren't worth your welfare" and then laugh in my face or something? I'd love if you do that because if can get rid of welfare, then we can get rid of extreme capitalism. No, i have to give her a decline in mental function before I kill her. My integrity is not the best, so I lose credibility--so do they, and they can confuse me. I don't bullshit with that. After you, really. I don't value honesty. I value authority and rank and order. I'm telling you that I wasn't hitting on Putin. You can say I was, and I'll lie and say it doesn't matter if I was. You'll say, but you lied! You deserve that! And I'll say, now that's irrelevant. that's a value that we don't share. No, even with both stories, I didn't deserve that by your playground morals. I wasn't hitting on him.
And since I've learned that my truth is irrelevant, I'll often confess what I didn't do and say, what was the proper procedure for this? I keep a healthy dose of self-defense going too. It's obvious that this person is trying to destroy me, so to avoid it, I'm going to lie to their vanity and hopefully I'll survive -- which is the goal. You people are like really emotioanl and really pathetically simple. Where did they find you?
So they confuse, as we get twisted in each other. Anyone else want to admit they're a freak? Before you get this job, I need to know how you fuck your wife. Then to collect food stamps, I need you to post that on facebook. You'll end up lying. That's what they do to me. I'm a virgin freak. Wanna look? I figured we'd just cut it out and not have this problem. Next thing, I like corpses. Okay, so now what?
If you read my original blog, you'd know that I moved to Virginia to protect my family from this, but I gave up. Kill them all. Have fun.
I've decided that while i'm not motivated by security, it's essential and that freedom is not.
I don't want to kill anyone, myself or anything else. i'm over "that." And I would never have done it anyway. Kaela kills: 0 Their kills: a lot.
I need to, since Putin made me special, get fixed. Putin made me "special" like ed in that he posted a picture of me dying, had someone attack me in a bar, named his dog Buffy and caused everyone to attack me. I need my brain fixed. Oh, and don't ever use cyanide to kill anyone or screaming trashy female voices or anything else but nature.
I got a mysterious call today. Is it another death threat? Prove you're good and I'm bad. This makes you do stupid things faster, which is good for the end of our species, my goa.. People need to call my cell for that. 408-858-1601. I love the attention, really do.
If you're a reporter and you've actually figured out that i'm not delusional, you're going to have to box them first because they'll jack me up so bad if you try to make me public. I'll become very ill. They'll use the emotional appeal that you're exploiting me. I suggest just serving their wayward agenda because we're trapped living like this. They can only hurt so many of us before they lose productivity or the value shade of their society changes. Once we make the sign, @, we should be free from their curses. I see your agenda, and i"m not working against it.
If you're a lawyer, they have the judges all serving their agendas, so I'm a waste of money. It's obvious that they have the technology for this, but it's always mental illness. We should be referred to an investigator these days as well as a mental health judge. I was mentally ill prior, and so I can't say anything. Of course, they'd target my demographic. They've got me so twisted around them that I can't say anything.
If you're the CIA, then you know where I live and come get me because I'm ready to be a research animal. After you guys got done, my quality of life isn't exactly high.
I would like to be on the front page for committing treason though. I like attention and playing along with ideologies (none exist but all do). If nothing else, let me bring what they're doing to attention so that we all know. I want to die by firing squad for being the whore of Babylon. Where do special needs kids end up as adults? They were so cute when they were little, but they end up in the hands of dictators and psychotronic warfare as traitors. But instead of killing me, make it fake, and send me off to a research lab for my final request. I want to have fun too. All you have to do is find the poor guy that has nothing to lose to cover the story. I'm all hopeful. Cyanide isn't so bad. The choking is annoying, but then you pass out and wake up the next day with an 8 month headache. I really didn't choke that much. What happened was I couldn't breathe and my heart stopped. I breathed it in for a long time because I didn't know what it was, like at least a minute ( I didn't think that was possible), theraputic, and then I started hallucinating and then I passed out. The orgasm ray hadn't killed me before, so it appears they used that, the one the CIA uses up in Virginia, because I hate sex, and it was a girl. I'm not sure though. hehe They like to blur and confuse.
As far as being evil goes, you'd think they'd love that I survived and could use me to say they were fighting human corruption as a facade to oppress the people that got me. Gotta have everyone in check. I've lived this moment before. You guys like believe in things when nothing exists. It's horrible that they corrupt you by bashing your ideologies for theirs. They should be playing games with the personalities to keep your realization's in the comfort that you've been in, the body that houses you in this blue paradise.
You know I just want the monies so that I can have my revenge, get repaired, etc.
Friday, October 14, 2011
What I Meant by the Comment that Google is Defaming Me With
People will naturally create caste systems. If you want social equality, you have to watch out for this. Kali is essential in free societies, but I already agreed with you--much as it makes the "me" angry, so please stop destroying me. I'm going to take all y'all agents out to lunch. Can we be mature about this? You're trying to prevent me from fulfilling a slot that you've selected for someone else so that they can feed their poverty bunch, and my family can take care of me, or they can exist without me. We can't all rise. It makes it so that we're equal. I know what you're doing but you seem to forget that you already trashed me out. I went and destroyed my credit for you this time.
As for mates not being equal, everyone tries to force me into relationships. They did it young and didn't realize that he wont' stay with me because I'm not his social equal. I was pretty-ish or not ugly. Not really pretty but enough to be deceiving. We all bloom unfortunately. That's why I always wore plain clothes and no makeup. I was hoping my youth would pass fast enough for it not to cause a problem. This caused a lot of problems. I'm a pariah. They will rise later in life and ditch me. The only way I can fight this is to have babies young. And then he will leave me, take the children and declare me insane, which is easy to do if you don't have money. Why do you make us marry so young in a society that uses merit after the marriage term? You should be encouraging them to wait in my opinion. I try to avoid the hobos for children reasons. I try to explain to them why it won't work. My dependence on low skill jobs makes it difficult for me to too. If you did x, you're going to have to accept y. This is why I get so frustrated.
I don't believe in freedom because I'm tired of it. It's another trick. Can we be mature? Jack is from the sun god and special, and he gets to do this while we all have to do that. Can I have some decency?
Can I have my mind back? I promise I won't make any money.
India, do you really want our democracy and to get rid of your caste system? Oh, the frustration.
In truth, if you were superior, a superior would notice you and pull you out. Meanwhile, you're safe and know where you stand. Usually, things like art, music, math and writing are permitted and simply devalued in society. We all want to use our minds.
All of us with any sort of drive to create are systematically destroyed because it's another's survival. We get stuck on repeat or realizations that prevent us from doing anything. Long story short, I don't like the welfare. i like to work. Since all is "paid," and I'm not allowed to have money, I'm not allowed work at anything. This is a horrible way to live.
I'd like to say to google and bing that there are several Kaelas out there and that it's curious how my ranking ends up like that. Shouldn't there be a variety of us when the page pops up. Only 50 people have visited my blog. It really shouldn't be up there in the search. I'm thinking about making it so that I get more hits, but I'm not sure I'm ready yet. It just proves that you're goal was to destroy me. I get dirt on everyone these days. I've learned. I pay attention.
I'm trying to get someone to box Putin so that I can get my brain fixed. That's the only way you get anything. I don't care how he feels, and he doesn't care about me either. He tried to get out of it by calling me low class. Okay, so i'm low class. That doesn't mean anything. Now you've made an appeal, and I'm not going to do emotional crap or profess all my "sins." I have no redeeming qualities. Someone has to make it so that he has to help.
As for mates not being equal, everyone tries to force me into relationships. They did it young and didn't realize that he wont' stay with me because I'm not his social equal. I was pretty-ish or not ugly. Not really pretty but enough to be deceiving. We all bloom unfortunately. That's why I always wore plain clothes and no makeup. I was hoping my youth would pass fast enough for it not to cause a problem. This caused a lot of problems. I'm a pariah. They will rise later in life and ditch me. The only way I can fight this is to have babies young. And then he will leave me, take the children and declare me insane, which is easy to do if you don't have money. Why do you make us marry so young in a society that uses merit after the marriage term? You should be encouraging them to wait in my opinion. I try to avoid the hobos for children reasons. I try to explain to them why it won't work. My dependence on low skill jobs makes it difficult for me to too. If you did x, you're going to have to accept y. This is why I get so frustrated.
I don't believe in freedom because I'm tired of it. It's another trick. Can we be mature? Jack is from the sun god and special, and he gets to do this while we all have to do that. Can I have some decency?
Can I have my mind back? I promise I won't make any money.
India, do you really want our democracy and to get rid of your caste system? Oh, the frustration.
In truth, if you were superior, a superior would notice you and pull you out. Meanwhile, you're safe and know where you stand. Usually, things like art, music, math and writing are permitted and simply devalued in society. We all want to use our minds.
All of us with any sort of drive to create are systematically destroyed because it's another's survival. We get stuck on repeat or realizations that prevent us from doing anything. Long story short, I don't like the welfare. i like to work. Since all is "paid," and I'm not allowed to have money, I'm not allowed work at anything. This is a horrible way to live.
I'd like to say to google and bing that there are several Kaelas out there and that it's curious how my ranking ends up like that. Shouldn't there be a variety of us when the page pops up. Only 50 people have visited my blog. It really shouldn't be up there in the search. I'm thinking about making it so that I get more hits, but I'm not sure I'm ready yet. It just proves that you're goal was to destroy me. I get dirt on everyone these days. I've learned. I pay attention.
I'm trying to get someone to box Putin so that I can get my brain fixed. That's the only way you get anything. I don't care how he feels, and he doesn't care about me either. He tried to get out of it by calling me low class. Okay, so i'm low class. That doesn't mean anything. Now you've made an appeal, and I'm not going to do emotional crap or profess all my "sins." I have no redeeming qualities. Someone has to make it so that he has to help.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Dog Tricks: Tactics that the Invisible Use
I figured I'd spend some time explaining how they destroy you.
1.) One of their favorite tactics is racism. They pick anything that gives individual people a cause. It's something that you don't have to prove to stand up for, and it's something that "educated" people know, not us invalids or undesirables. A few years ago, I wasn't even discriminate, I hopped around everyone's eggshells and actually gave anyone that was different special privilege. However, they wrote down on my sheet that I "hated people with ugly colors." I was like? I never said that. But you will become everything they say. You get used to this. Later, after a lot of anger, I became discriminate, I believe, which is more or less like a cough you get over. I get really angry. And what makes you so special? I've been uber discriminated against this lifetime. Everytime I hear that bullshit start, I freak. Like my friend said, I'm mad. I also have Jew in me. Find a more hated race. Oh, they'll come at me for that.
2.) Sexual deviance. Ever wanted to make your habits public? I know we've got some closet freaks out there. I like Putin. <3 If it was 1976, you'd have to fight me off with a pole. Celebrity crush. I don't think Mrs. Putina has anything to worry about with me. I be an ugly one. Well, they're going to use any sexual thing against you, even if you're a virgin. I don't see why this is. If you have a problem, you have a problem and you need to deal with it. I'm not sure why our society doesn't have pedophiles openly confess and group together in like a cause-thing. Like, AA, so and so has a problem. My issues were a little different. I'm pretty sure that I'm a sadomasochist due to not having control. Humans submiss to dominance. You end up with self-defeating personality disorder to protect you. All those voices inside your head. I believe in God and things. Iz melted. At the end of the day, I'm just an animal. Now I'm sexually harassing Putin because I'm making unwanted advances. LOL Don't anyone want you but your wife now. Everyone else is just being nice. I'm declaring that I like you in1976. If that version wants to file, then go for it. I don't think that's possible. By the way, a ray with his name raped me. He advanced. hehe
3.) Finding a fault and using it to spin you around to the trash magnet. This is a game that they played growing up too. We all have a fault, and it can be used against a person in everyway. Whenever they start their games, I'm like, I have no redeeming qualities. It'll start out with that I have messy hair and it'll end that I'm Satan's offspring. There's nothing I can do about it but frame myself as having this or that fault. Give them what they want because they outnumber you.
4.) Rumors. They'll say that they have authority somehow and that you're this or that. I was a "whore." I'm used to that one because I 'm a low caste female. Whenever they come at me with that, I call them a whore. They have sex after all. I don't. Whenever i try to do anything, I get framed trying to get with the dominant male, and i'm destroyed socially. We all have crushes. This one got me a few times because I liked a celebrity or something, and i was like, it's true! Nothing they say is true.
5.) Mental illness. She must be crazy. By this point in life, I know I'm insane, but that's not relevant to the discussion. Trying to psychoanalyze me is pointless. Trying to put me in my box. Try to understand me, and keep in mind that we're all children of God. Why do things really happen? I use that line as a joke because we're all delusional, crazy and messed up somehow.
6.) Lying. It's nice if you know what the dominant truth is. Most of us don't even get that advantage. THere is a difference between lying and being a liar, white lies and big deals. I would like to make this clear. There's a conflict of interests with the truth, and it's fucking complicated. Would you always tell the truth? Honestly? No, nobody does. And if they don't lie, they do something just they same, they get quiet. They asked you a question, didn't they? Answer it like i have to. I'm usually protecting something when I don't say or I'm confused. When there are so many lies about me, it's difficult for me to balance them all. There are schisms. My truth is irrelevant. This used to cause great frustration in me. It no longer does. BTW, there is no weapon greater than a man who's known to be honest, however. It makes his lie that much more potent.
7.) Confusion is delusion. Since they are invisible, I can't say for sure that they are doing anything. They will ultimately confuse me into blaming something false and destroy my credibility. The more I try to exist, the more I will reach out, and it will end in me looking uber delusional. I'll lash out and do all sorts of things in this process.
I often get confused between them and me because I often see a cause-effect thing going on, but I think there are solutions to my burdens. One, it's obvious that I need to be circumcised. Why they won't cut out the curse, I don't know. I cannot handle the privilege of sexual selection. Two, we need to bring back slavery and force all the undesirables into it so that they "don't get in on our good." There needs to be a holocaust to get rid of all the Jews. And we need to swear allegiance to the intelligence service that takes care of us, like I need someone on my side that benefits from me being alive, not "she'll never do anything for you." You got that right because you have control and you make the world. That's right; YOU'RE RIGHT!
With them, there's often a shift away from executive interests, or what we like to say, boxing fuck.
Putin owes me. i don't care if we "don't get compensation." I want to be worth something, though I refuse to be human.
I hope the bitch dies in the brainwashing show. She thinks she's so special. It's me who's going to kill her, so then I have to give her extra respect and bow to her in life. No, fucking way. She charges too much and doesn't treat me. I don't owe her anything. She came in my environment, she becomes a part of it. She got eaten. If she couldn't PAY for her own security service then she doesn't DESERVE it. Otherwise, it messes up the equality that is necessary for civil society. yes, we're equal, even a doctor to a regular worker. If you had a myopic awareness, you would know why, but we aren't equal to oligarchs. This keeps our balance.
Nobody helped me against Putin. It's okay, I got that. I don't need your help, you worthless sacks of shit. Just make me look delusional. Aw, poor baby. And then after that treatment, what do I turn into? See, how i get screwed? I'm automatically a school shooting doctor killer homewrecker. Only if I do it.
This isn't about the cash--I want to feel like I matter and that they lose, even though you're too pompous of an asshole to privately admit what you did, especially incited. Stockholm syndrome and everything else. I'm not going for the news. I'm going for my sibling's college being paid for and cells. Just hand it over. I matter, dammit. I want to say f you to them all. I need 682,000 dollars. I know that's more than you say you have, but you can get it because it would come out of your intelligence service funds since you did it. You can just put it in trust funds for them, pay off the house and you bring some dead babies over.
Edit: It's been confirmed that they did not manage to destroy my submission process this time. While they hacked my account and "scared" me with a fake blog, "just a question," they didn't get to him first. That's right, bitches. While I didn't make it, this gives me hope. They do things like send things I don't say. My credibility has already been destroyed. I can't ever say I'm not lying or that I'm not in denial. I even get confused and then I'm like, but I shouldn't share that or I should protect myself. They're really good at what they do. I'll give them that. Here's the blog they created right after I made first contact this time http://532003.blogspot.com/
This is war.
Kaela: 1 Intelligence service: 999999999999
We celebrate small victories.
Only they would understand the quotes.
The Power of a Name
The man of the castle
Said he was strong like
The stones of the walls
He then held the might
Everything he says turns
From a word to right
He gobbles the gold
Heaven such a sight
Nothing can inspire
Except his dear light
We learned that day
All was a dark night
1.) One of their favorite tactics is racism. They pick anything that gives individual people a cause. It's something that you don't have to prove to stand up for, and it's something that "educated" people know, not us invalids or undesirables. A few years ago, I wasn't even discriminate, I hopped around everyone's eggshells and actually gave anyone that was different special privilege. However, they wrote down on my sheet that I "hated people with ugly colors." I was like? I never said that. But you will become everything they say. You get used to this. Later, after a lot of anger, I became discriminate, I believe, which is more or less like a cough you get over. I get really angry. And what makes you so special? I've been uber discriminated against this lifetime. Everytime I hear that bullshit start, I freak. Like my friend said, I'm mad. I also have Jew in me. Find a more hated race. Oh, they'll come at me for that.
2.) Sexual deviance. Ever wanted to make your habits public? I know we've got some closet freaks out there. I like Putin. <3 If it was 1976, you'd have to fight me off with a pole. Celebrity crush. I don't think Mrs. Putina has anything to worry about with me. I be an ugly one. Well, they're going to use any sexual thing against you, even if you're a virgin. I don't see why this is. If you have a problem, you have a problem and you need to deal with it. I'm not sure why our society doesn't have pedophiles openly confess and group together in like a cause-thing. Like, AA, so and so has a problem. My issues were a little different. I'm pretty sure that I'm a sadomasochist due to not having control. Humans submiss to dominance. You end up with self-defeating personality disorder to protect you. All those voices inside your head. I believe in God and things. Iz melted. At the end of the day, I'm just an animal. Now I'm sexually harassing Putin because I'm making unwanted advances. LOL Don't anyone want you but your wife now. Everyone else is just being nice. I'm declaring that I like you in1976. If that version wants to file, then go for it. I don't think that's possible. By the way, a ray with his name raped me. He advanced. hehe
3.) Finding a fault and using it to spin you around to the trash magnet. This is a game that they played growing up too. We all have a fault, and it can be used against a person in everyway. Whenever they start their games, I'm like, I have no redeeming qualities. It'll start out with that I have messy hair and it'll end that I'm Satan's offspring. There's nothing I can do about it but frame myself as having this or that fault. Give them what they want because they outnumber you.
4.) Rumors. They'll say that they have authority somehow and that you're this or that. I was a "whore." I'm used to that one because I 'm a low caste female. Whenever they come at me with that, I call them a whore. They have sex after all. I don't. Whenever i try to do anything, I get framed trying to get with the dominant male, and i'm destroyed socially. We all have crushes. This one got me a few times because I liked a celebrity or something, and i was like, it's true! Nothing they say is true.
5.) Mental illness. She must be crazy. By this point in life, I know I'm insane, but that's not relevant to the discussion. Trying to psychoanalyze me is pointless. Trying to put me in my box. Try to understand me, and keep in mind that we're all children of God. Why do things really happen? I use that line as a joke because we're all delusional, crazy and messed up somehow.
6.) Lying. It's nice if you know what the dominant truth is. Most of us don't even get that advantage. THere is a difference between lying and being a liar, white lies and big deals. I would like to make this clear. There's a conflict of interests with the truth, and it's fucking complicated. Would you always tell the truth? Honestly? No, nobody does. And if they don't lie, they do something just they same, they get quiet. They asked you a question, didn't they? Answer it like i have to. I'm usually protecting something when I don't say or I'm confused. When there are so many lies about me, it's difficult for me to balance them all. There are schisms. My truth is irrelevant. This used to cause great frustration in me. It no longer does. BTW, there is no weapon greater than a man who's known to be honest, however. It makes his lie that much more potent.
7.) Confusion is delusion. Since they are invisible, I can't say for sure that they are doing anything. They will ultimately confuse me into blaming something false and destroy my credibility. The more I try to exist, the more I will reach out, and it will end in me looking uber delusional. I'll lash out and do all sorts of things in this process.
I often get confused between them and me because I often see a cause-effect thing going on, but I think there are solutions to my burdens. One, it's obvious that I need to be circumcised. Why they won't cut out the curse, I don't know. I cannot handle the privilege of sexual selection. Two, we need to bring back slavery and force all the undesirables into it so that they "don't get in on our good." There needs to be a holocaust to get rid of all the Jews. And we need to swear allegiance to the intelligence service that takes care of us, like I need someone on my side that benefits from me being alive, not "she'll never do anything for you." You got that right because you have control and you make the world. That's right; YOU'RE RIGHT!
With them, there's often a shift away from executive interests, or what we like to say, boxing fuck.
Putin owes me. i don't care if we "don't get compensation." I want to be worth something, though I refuse to be human.
I hope the bitch dies in the brainwashing show. She thinks she's so special. It's me who's going to kill her, so then I have to give her extra respect and bow to her in life. No, fucking way. She charges too much and doesn't treat me. I don't owe her anything. She came in my environment, she becomes a part of it. She got eaten. If she couldn't PAY for her own security service then she doesn't DESERVE it. Otherwise, it messes up the equality that is necessary for civil society. yes, we're equal, even a doctor to a regular worker. If you had a myopic awareness, you would know why, but we aren't equal to oligarchs. This keeps our balance.
Nobody helped me against Putin. It's okay, I got that. I don't need your help, you worthless sacks of shit. Just make me look delusional. Aw, poor baby. And then after that treatment, what do I turn into? See, how i get screwed? I'm automatically a school shooting doctor killer homewrecker. Only if I do it.
This isn't about the cash--I want to feel like I matter and that they lose, even though you're too pompous of an asshole to privately admit what you did, especially incited. Stockholm syndrome and everything else. I'm not going for the news. I'm going for my sibling's college being paid for and cells. Just hand it over. I matter, dammit. I want to say f you to them all. I need 682,000 dollars. I know that's more than you say you have, but you can get it because it would come out of your intelligence service funds since you did it. You can just put it in trust funds for them, pay off the house and you bring some dead babies over.
Edit: It's been confirmed that they did not manage to destroy my submission process this time. While they hacked my account and "scared" me with a fake blog, "just a question," they didn't get to him first. That's right, bitches. While I didn't make it, this gives me hope. They do things like send things I don't say. My credibility has already been destroyed. I can't ever say I'm not lying or that I'm not in denial. I even get confused and then I'm like, but I shouldn't share that or I should protect myself. They're really good at what they do. I'll give them that. Here's the blog they created right after I made first contact this time http://532003.blogspot.com/
This is war.
Kaela: 1 Intelligence service: 999999999999
We celebrate small victories.
Only they would understand the quotes.
The Power of a Name
The man of the castle
Said he was strong like
The stones of the walls
He then held the might
Everything he says turns
From a word to right
He gobbles the gold
Heaven such a sight
Nothing can inspire
Except his dear light
We learned that day
All was a dark night
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Person of Interest -- Brainwashing Shows
So I'm a trash magnet. All invalids are. May we all fall off the cliff together. One and for all.
You've never protected me from any of these "bad" people. Do you know how many people have tried their funny equations on me? their wayward societal programming? A lot and you included. You have some weird inner cause. I just don't get it.
In the show, this chick goes into a bar, and they protect her. What scumbags. Numerous people tried to rape me, which I'm used to, and then the security service tried to kill me. Could they have helped me? Like, hey, you're attracting attention to yourself (since they wanted to help "her"), or we don't like your spending habits? Like a counseling statement instead of instant death. I was young money. I thought i was rich with 1200. Hehe I got mad when they stalked me and fought back by going into debt. I didn't get to go bankrupt though. That was my goal, but it was impossible for me to go into that much debt. I tried guys. Way to help the youth. I thought you were trying to hurt me, so I was like, I'm going to hurt you too. I was right about your intents. Where's purity then? I hate when you uphold one over another because you give them an impossible advantage. They get more than their lives' earning. The bitch shouldnt have gone to the night club. She dies and that's on her.
Back then, I justified doing what they wanted too. I was looking for a mate to be a rose (I later realized this was death). They destroyed that. I just want to be in a caste system and to end innocent merit if we're going to favor one over another. @ We all know why I'm the scum of the universe. $ And even earning money is bad for me.
Anyway, I don't like these shows because they make my kind look like evil incarnate. Let my people go. I do want to move in with Putin just for protection. LOL I'm joking but Jesus Christ. Could I have any redeeming quality? Have you guys seen my file? I bet it's impressive.
I'm evil.
I must target the successful. Logically, then make me successful. Don't laugh. I know you just want to demoralize me further to do dirt. And I'm not human to them even, so I don't want to hear it. Humans are humble to grass. I am not. I am broken.
They'll say Campbell was good and I was bad. She labeled me a rose, which they've used several times and bullied me while we were in the army. That's fine. That's part of growing up and learning social interaction, but what they do is incite a lot of anger in me then wonder why I spit off. Again, I haven't killed anyone. I've touched one person and that's because she grabbed me and then lied to the police about it and I was honest. I clawed her to make her let go of me. Most of what I do is in self-defense. In HS, I got into a fight with some chick because I was freezing and the combination of the cold and the stress caused some sort of rage in me. I learned this later. But I'm bad because I'm "mean." They have a history to work with, to manipulate. People know to inspire a reaction in me, especially manipulative people and then make me look like the bad guy. Or I'm in their way, or I don't deserve.
She'll destroy me over a boy, and i'll destroy her over a life. Do you really want to weigh causes?
No matter what I say, I haven't done anything. I still think that they should give us the benefit of the doubt until we do something, or it's not fair. If someone honestly kills someone, they might have a reason for it whether it's society's karma (Cain and Abel--I put the bitch's scores up here if we're going to play that game like we do with me; i look up everyone's files when I'm around them because they play bullshit with me) or that that person did something bad. Jack and Jill went up the Hill to fetch a pail of water. Jack fell down and broke his crown because Jill was sick of his bullshit. People are so fucking complicated.
All I do is yell.
It took me a couple weeks with coming to terms that my feeds meant I was a sadomasochist, excuse me. If gays can fuck, then I can be trashy. Plus, I never acted on my thoughts. And even so, what does it matter? All i knew was that thing between my crotch was getting me in trouble and needed to come out. People were using it again. I'm still a virgin. I'm just saying, and I'll say it loud because I'm not allowed in civil society anyway. I am just an animal. I cried it was so embarrassing. Nothing embarrasses me now. bring it on defamers.
I always get labeled as the school shooter because I'm disabled. I'm easy to get to. And since they say that, I become that, even though I was one of the most anxiety filled, scared person on the planet. I'd be the last one. Then let me blow those people to bits and get the invalids the Hell out of there because we don't belong. Do you know what I went through growing up? Do you ever take my emotions into consideration? And if it's always the superior's interest, wasn't I in their way then? I have no tolerance for this facade bullshit anymore.
I like what someone said on my blog, it's all the black autistic peoples' faults. It's a joke.
Usually, they find some fly covered carcass to compare me to, and back when I was younger, I still had hope, and this destroyed me. They never let me develop my gifts. Wahness aside. Who's going to say that I deserve now compared to some kid in school? It's my turn to play that game, isn't it?
Fix my brain.
You've never protected me from any of these "bad" people. Do you know how many people have tried their funny equations on me? their wayward societal programming? A lot and you included. You have some weird inner cause. I just don't get it.
In the show, this chick goes into a bar, and they protect her. What scumbags. Numerous people tried to rape me, which I'm used to, and then the security service tried to kill me. Could they have helped me? Like, hey, you're attracting attention to yourself (since they wanted to help "her"), or we don't like your spending habits? Like a counseling statement instead of instant death. I was young money. I thought i was rich with 1200. Hehe I got mad when they stalked me and fought back by going into debt. I didn't get to go bankrupt though. That was my goal, but it was impossible for me to go into that much debt. I tried guys. Way to help the youth. I thought you were trying to hurt me, so I was like, I'm going to hurt you too. I was right about your intents. Where's purity then? I hate when you uphold one over another because you give them an impossible advantage. They get more than their lives' earning. The bitch shouldnt have gone to the night club. She dies and that's on her.
Back then, I justified doing what they wanted too. I was looking for a mate to be a rose (I later realized this was death). They destroyed that. I just want to be in a caste system and to end innocent merit if we're going to favor one over another. @ We all know why I'm the scum of the universe. $ And even earning money is bad for me.
Anyway, I don't like these shows because they make my kind look like evil incarnate. Let my people go. I do want to move in with Putin just for protection. LOL I'm joking but Jesus Christ. Could I have any redeeming quality? Have you guys seen my file? I bet it's impressive.
I'm evil.
I must target the successful. Logically, then make me successful. Don't laugh. I know you just want to demoralize me further to do dirt. And I'm not human to them even, so I don't want to hear it. Humans are humble to grass. I am not. I am broken.
They'll say Campbell was good and I was bad. She labeled me a rose, which they've used several times and bullied me while we were in the army. That's fine. That's part of growing up and learning social interaction, but what they do is incite a lot of anger in me then wonder why I spit off. Again, I haven't killed anyone. I've touched one person and that's because she grabbed me and then lied to the police about it and I was honest. I clawed her to make her let go of me. Most of what I do is in self-defense. In HS, I got into a fight with some chick because I was freezing and the combination of the cold and the stress caused some sort of rage in me. I learned this later. But I'm bad because I'm "mean." They have a history to work with, to manipulate. People know to inspire a reaction in me, especially manipulative people and then make me look like the bad guy. Or I'm in their way, or I don't deserve.
She'll destroy me over a boy, and i'll destroy her over a life. Do you really want to weigh causes?
No matter what I say, I haven't done anything. I still think that they should give us the benefit of the doubt until we do something, or it's not fair. If someone honestly kills someone, they might have a reason for it whether it's society's karma (Cain and Abel--I put the bitch's scores up here if we're going to play that game like we do with me; i look up everyone's files when I'm around them because they play bullshit with me) or that that person did something bad. Jack and Jill went up the Hill to fetch a pail of water. Jack fell down and broke his crown because Jill was sick of his bullshit. People are so fucking complicated.
All I do is yell.
It took me a couple weeks with coming to terms that my feeds meant I was a sadomasochist, excuse me. If gays can fuck, then I can be trashy. Plus, I never acted on my thoughts. And even so, what does it matter? All i knew was that thing between my crotch was getting me in trouble and needed to come out. People were using it again. I'm still a virgin. I'm just saying, and I'll say it loud because I'm not allowed in civil society anyway. I am just an animal. I cried it was so embarrassing. Nothing embarrasses me now. bring it on defamers.
I always get labeled as the school shooter because I'm disabled. I'm easy to get to. And since they say that, I become that, even though I was one of the most anxiety filled, scared person on the planet. I'd be the last one. Then let me blow those people to bits and get the invalids the Hell out of there because we don't belong. Do you know what I went through growing up? Do you ever take my emotions into consideration? And if it's always the superior's interest, wasn't I in their way then? I have no tolerance for this facade bullshit anymore.
I like what someone said on my blog, it's all the black autistic peoples' faults. It's a joke.
Usually, they find some fly covered carcass to compare me to, and back when I was younger, I still had hope, and this destroyed me. They never let me develop my gifts. Wahness aside. Who's going to say that I deserve now compared to some kid in school? It's my turn to play that game, isn't it?
Fix my brain.
DHS Wants to Trash You Out, Baby
So in this crazy universe of cave corpses and street gangs, there's a new kid in town, and he's got a gun. DHS is pimping with new equipment. Is anyone laughing at his power yet?
"I got a gun,' says Billy, "and she still left me."
So while I was minding my own business, trying to enjoy a beer with a few friends, these assholes come running out of nowhere and try to frame me multiple times doing multiple times. The first one was talking to Russia. The second one was trying to date Putin in which a man came running into the bathroom, threw his hand in my face and said, "it's rude, girl." So now you're calling me a rude girl. How rude.
Rude and rude make rudeness.
Eventually, I couldn't take it anymore. I started mocking them on my blog with various crimes which they all jumped up and said, "that's why! That's why!" She's Jewish. Indeed, I have Jewish ancestors. And that matters because? Let's do a you and me and 23. I'm sick of being the only one "exposed." If being Jewish is a sin, then let's kill us all like the invalids. You can't put a penny in a jar for a whole pig.
What do they have you believing in? I hope it isn't yourself.
Anyway, they were looking for a reason, not like you have to look hard. I had "their" money. That's good enough to kill anyone and anyone can understand money. It's a universal language.
They needed a good reason though for their hearts because that's what good folks do, so they trashed me out, ruined me and then blamed me. Of course, since it happened to me, I have to blame myself and say I'm gonna "change" because people change. What a lie. People never change.
I've been trashed out (outer); I'm still me (inner). Quiet, calm, periodically explodes.
Who am I committing absolution to this week?
What delusion is all I am?
Anyway, here's an article I found funny: http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/A60098-2005Feb28.html I'm not upholding Putin, just saying. Was the cyanide from you, pumpkin pie?
They don't "fire" you. They create conditions that lead to you being fired or your death. I always get trashed out then I have to accept dirt. It's their favorite game. Now all the yahoos, since i had to make myself visible, come rushing in with their "just a question" or anything. I call you guys elves. You're like magical little creatures that work behind the scenes and since you're magical, none of us can say anything.
"The elves have landed."
Can I just be "fired" and banned from anything else as a punishment like wearing an "A?" Can we be adults? You got fired becaue you didn't uphold our invisible ideology with your psychic powers.
I have zero redeeming qualities. They destroyed all of me. All the "good" or ideals that I believed it.
I'm never allowed to rise. Like I would have anyway. The fact that I'm known on a list actually gives me a benefit.
"I got a gun,' says Billy, "and she still left me."
So while I was minding my own business, trying to enjoy a beer with a few friends, these assholes come running out of nowhere and try to frame me multiple times doing multiple times. The first one was talking to Russia. The second one was trying to date Putin in which a man came running into the bathroom, threw his hand in my face and said, "it's rude, girl." So now you're calling me a rude girl. How rude.
Rude and rude make rudeness.
Eventually, I couldn't take it anymore. I started mocking them on my blog with various crimes which they all jumped up and said, "that's why! That's why!" She's Jewish. Indeed, I have Jewish ancestors. And that matters because? Let's do a you and me and 23. I'm sick of being the only one "exposed." If being Jewish is a sin, then let's kill us all like the invalids. You can't put a penny in a jar for a whole pig.
What do they have you believing in? I hope it isn't yourself.
Anyway, they were looking for a reason, not like you have to look hard. I had "their" money. That's good enough to kill anyone and anyone can understand money. It's a universal language.
They needed a good reason though for their hearts because that's what good folks do, so they trashed me out, ruined me and then blamed me. Of course, since it happened to me, I have to blame myself and say I'm gonna "change" because people change. What a lie. People never change.
I've been trashed out (outer); I'm still me (inner). Quiet, calm, periodically explodes.
Who am I committing absolution to this week?
What delusion is all I am?
Anyway, here's an article I found funny: http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/A60098-2005Feb28.html I'm not upholding Putin, just saying. Was the cyanide from you, pumpkin pie?
They don't "fire" you. They create conditions that lead to you being fired or your death. I always get trashed out then I have to accept dirt. It's their favorite game. Now all the yahoos, since i had to make myself visible, come rushing in with their "just a question" or anything. I call you guys elves. You're like magical little creatures that work behind the scenes and since you're magical, none of us can say anything.
"The elves have landed."
Can I just be "fired" and banned from anything else as a punishment like wearing an "A?" Can we be adults? You got fired becaue you didn't uphold our invisible ideology with your psychic powers.
I have zero redeeming qualities. They destroyed all of me. All the "good" or ideals that I believed it.
I'm never allowed to rise. Like I would have anyway. The fact that I'm known on a list actually gives me a benefit.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Now You're Messing With the Borg
I'm almost a borg. I have all sorts of equipment that I am attached to, even as I sleep. However, some of my devices have ceased to function. My ipod has stopped working along with a clock that both were right next to my head. Oh well, I still seem to be improving. I do lose my train of thought a lot still and have memory problems, however.
"She's trying to get in on our good," they said a few months back.
Look, I'm trashed out and trapped in the worthless caste. Can't you guys be done? What do you have to prove now? Who is buying your weapons to use against me? What do they have to prove? I'm guessing it's just because they can. Oh, the power. +rolls eyes+ Are we even competing?
Aren't the reasons I'm trashed out so obvious? Please generalize with them. It's all my fault. Feel good about your own justifications; you are better. I don't care so long as the programming goes on.
Nobody cares. I obviously don't matter. That's the blessing of having so many humans on the planet. They can feel powerful and in control of me but really, they aren't in truth. There are bigger fish to fry. All humans should commit themselves to better things, but they're a worthless species that likes adaptive preference. As far as my attackers, all you guys in the puddles are really visible though. Such big fish with big teeth flopping around like clowns. Sometimes, only a minnow belongs where a shark tries to go. I can't believe you viewed me as a threat. What are security services coming to these days? Don't tell me that they're upholding the CIA's standard, "I don't believe in aliens." What a closed-minded individual. Not only, but I want the CIA to take alien threats seriously. I'm concerned for my wellbeing. No, I didn't threaten the CIA. I asked them about their procedures for aliens.
All and all, I would suggest that they get out of our faces and keep their delusional nonsense to themselves. Only a child would have an awareness that small to think that they could influence the entire world or that their dog tricks aren't easy to see. Boo, I see you.
Sure, you'll get away with messing with undesirables for awhile (and you're really saving the world by messing with those that aren't even in society), but eventually the normal people will wake up and stop your corruption as it will involve them.
I like when people take justice into their own hands the best. I enjoyed cyanide really. Why does everyone feel like they're right is the ultimate right? or that they have the right.
Oh, well, it takes a world. We all die and decay, fade. Do whatever makes you feel like you. Does it fulfill? I won't cramp your style. Boo Boring.
A few of you are cute. You do things like call my relatives, like that'll make a difference. Then you try to destroy my possibility of work. That's forever gone with both cognitive dysfunction and other things. I have no hope. Then you attack anything I try to get published by marking it up, calling the people beforehand and telling them things about me, which haven't I trashed myself out enough with this blog? That was my last attempt to pull myself out of the gutter. It takes me a long time to come up with anything coherent. This time, I went the sneaky way about it but didn't win. Edit: Apparently, I did because you guys didn't manage to contact him before me. Thus, preventing me from even getting a submission in. That's been verified. I'm going to talk to him before you can but that destroyed my chances--because it is rude. All and all, you just annoy me. It's like a game of runaround. That gives me hope though. It means that it's not always a 100% destruction.
It would be nice if people would just stay in their lanes, but this isn't possible. When I didn't have a blog, I was an uber target. Now I'm a target for stupid lay people. I'm a pariah. I prefer you guys truly. The elites are still using you and other things to "harm" me. Screw yourselves over. But you're my number one problem at the moment. Oh Lordy, Bill's got a shotgun. Remember, you have to frame me into attacking you and make it look like self-defense.
A lesson is not worth learning
If he never learns it twice
You can try a third time to teach
but if the pupil is so gripped
He'll practice what you truly preach
"She's trying to get in on our good," they said a few months back.
Look, I'm trashed out and trapped in the worthless caste. Can't you guys be done? What do you have to prove now? Who is buying your weapons to use against me? What do they have to prove? I'm guessing it's just because they can. Oh, the power. +rolls eyes+ Are we even competing?
Aren't the reasons I'm trashed out so obvious? Please generalize with them. It's all my fault. Feel good about your own justifications; you are better. I don't care so long as the programming goes on.
Nobody cares. I obviously don't matter. That's the blessing of having so many humans on the planet. They can feel powerful and in control of me but really, they aren't in truth. There are bigger fish to fry. All humans should commit themselves to better things, but they're a worthless species that likes adaptive preference. As far as my attackers, all you guys in the puddles are really visible though. Such big fish with big teeth flopping around like clowns. Sometimes, only a minnow belongs where a shark tries to go. I can't believe you viewed me as a threat. What are security services coming to these days? Don't tell me that they're upholding the CIA's standard, "I don't believe in aliens." What a closed-minded individual. Not only, but I want the CIA to take alien threats seriously. I'm concerned for my wellbeing. No, I didn't threaten the CIA. I asked them about their procedures for aliens.
All and all, I would suggest that they get out of our faces and keep their delusional nonsense to themselves. Only a child would have an awareness that small to think that they could influence the entire world or that their dog tricks aren't easy to see. Boo, I see you.
Sure, you'll get away with messing with undesirables for awhile (and you're really saving the world by messing with those that aren't even in society), but eventually the normal people will wake up and stop your corruption as it will involve them.
I like when people take justice into their own hands the best. I enjoyed cyanide really. Why does everyone feel like they're right is the ultimate right? or that they have the right.
Oh, well, it takes a world. We all die and decay, fade. Do whatever makes you feel like you. Does it fulfill? I won't cramp your style. Boo Boring.
A few of you are cute. You do things like call my relatives, like that'll make a difference. Then you try to destroy my possibility of work. That's forever gone with both cognitive dysfunction and other things. I have no hope. Then you attack anything I try to get published by marking it up, calling the people beforehand and telling them things about me, which haven't I trashed myself out enough with this blog? That was my last attempt to pull myself out of the gutter. It takes me a long time to come up with anything coherent. This time, I went the sneaky way about it but didn't win. Edit: Apparently, I did because you guys didn't manage to contact him before me. Thus, preventing me from even getting a submission in. That's been verified. I'm going to talk to him before you can but that destroyed my chances--because it is rude. All and all, you just annoy me. It's like a game of runaround. That gives me hope though. It means that it's not always a 100% destruction.
It would be nice if people would just stay in their lanes, but this isn't possible. When I didn't have a blog, I was an uber target. Now I'm a target for stupid lay people. I'm a pariah. I prefer you guys truly. The elites are still using you and other things to "harm" me. Screw yourselves over. But you're my number one problem at the moment. Oh Lordy, Bill's got a shotgun. Remember, you have to frame me into attacking you and make it look like self-defense.
A lesson is not worth learning
If he never learns it twice
You can try a third time to teach
but if the pupil is so gripped
He'll practice what you truly preach
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