Because It Hurts to Be Used, Ignored

I don't care about other people, no, because they don't care about me. This is another stupid value that people have.

I know that they use us for their political games, claiming that if we pay the political arena any attention that we're "political" or bad or that we deserve Hell because the others are good kids, they know better than to get involved in politics, but all I did was read the newspaper. I didn't vote because I assumed it was wrong. Now I know that I don't live in a democracy but a facade for human greed, the disease that is bankrupting the world. That greed expends all nations and borders. After all, if the third world countries would stop selling their people and territories out to our nation, they might get somewhere instead of being under corporate watch to be babysat. The political stirs that the CIA cooks up aren't that clever and can be beaten by a watchful eye. I have to keep one at all times, even like this.

Any moron could see that Putin used me to curve on hidden human desires. Bush probably wanted to hurt me for any reason, personal incompetence. I find this is who goes after the special ed kid. It makes you feel like for once you accomplished something, doesn't it? It makes you feel like you have power. I bet you enjoyed watching them gangstalk me. Did you record it? Did you record me running away. Was it cute to see me look for help in all the right places and not finding it. I'm an evil terrorist; I deserved it. I'm a witch! Putin is just banking off of the understandments that govern human desire or demons. You want to see me die because you can do something, kill. That's how you wanted to solve Africa as well. Who would put it aside you doing in your own country, people. It's simple. If we can't deal with them, kill them. How creative of our intelligence services. Why don't you do something for once? All you do is copy the people you find then claim that our slight wealth is freedom. Well, you're about to lose that freedom. Maybe you'll learn who has control then. Maybe it would be a group of barely graduated children with scalar weapons.

It'll be nature.
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I love suffering. It's entertaining. I don't want to be happy. If I would have wanted to be happy, I would have chosen to be so. I want to have my brain fixed. Then I'm going to rip apart the music industry like the notes in "I'm only happy when it rains."

I only smile in the dark. My only comfort is the night gone black.

YOU"LL GET THE MESSAGE BY THE TIME I"M THROUGH.

There are times though, when even I get sick of a particular pattern of treatment, like when I got a lobotomy by my loser government (fix yourself before yu fix me), and it's a loser because it lost space flight. Anyway, I don't like this. Like I told you in the movie, "I want to believe."

Fix me. I'm calling time out in this little game.

And yes, I want to make you politically unstable and overthrow you because I want your stuff. It's simple. That's why I pay attention to politics. Get used to it. Things translate funny in messed up land. The guy with boxer's dementia wants to kill all the ugly people because he's ugly. I want to conquer the world or to hurt you. Putin corrupted me by hurting me that deeply but unlike everyone else and my reprsentative, he didn't ignore me. That other politician is on my death list. I expect at least a greeting card if I address you. He was the representative of Columbia, MO. His name is Blaine Leuekemeyer. You're busy, but you can send an ambiguous greeting card. "Thanks for you input. Together we can build a better community." LOL I know I can't prove they hurt me. I was still injured, and I asked you to prevent it from happening again because I don't have an omnipresent awareness. You now know my opinion on trying to govern with subliminal messages and freedom of speech. Like I said, it's never existed before for nonelites, and it doesnt' now due to social understandings that I didn't know, and you need to make that clear even if you have to ammend something instead of send people to destroy me for my opinion that is a "sin." That's what you do. Don't even lie. If it doesn't serve your agenda or you don't agree, you find a way to secretly destroy your enemy like with Madonna's "A Bedtime Story." You're on my super secret list now for ignoring me. All I want is an ambiguous greeting card because I don't want to hear, "I don't care." Your job is to pretend you care about us so that we don't get all demoarlized while constantly reminding me that there are other people in the world and that I'm not special. You don't want to be Gifford, do you? I'm not joking now. I've developed odd issues with politicians. I will never go to a rally. I dont' trust myself. Maybe you weren't there. Like I said, I'm not educated (and I didn't even realize this--like I wrote the Pentagon, why didn't they hone in on that and tell me to educate myself; I guess I was being too good and staying out of the world), but I didn't get return mail. And I've mailed more than one person. I'm more or less rambling about the general principle. They said you were in, I asked, but I'm not from Columbia usually. Then again, they couldn't even do their times tables. I looked you up, and you are. So you're not off the hook due to my ignorance. I should have mailed Vicky Hartzler though, because we all know that I just secretly want to destroy your thriving marriage with my saucer eyes. I'm only bad because I have "wet" desire like Madonna insists. Nope, that's only Putin. I told them I had a problem. I fellz in love. It's not my fault, I'm convinced. There was something wrong with me. That is totally an ER trap in a moral society.

I'm the corrupt retard like i said. Please give me a job killing defenseless people. I want to see how "weak" they are. You won't be able to prove that I did anything wrong. After all, I'm incompetent. Now I can say anything now because I'm destroyed but I wasn't before. RT is like a deathtrap. The proper opinion there is "I'm not interested because they don't practice what they preach." That's what the zombie tube said. My prior opinion was what is this country that I don't even know existed really up to? They don't teach much about Russia in school. It's the forbidden fruit.

You'd be crazy too if you'd been cheated out of something you worked your whole life for. It was my dream to graduate with a degree. I know trade, but an associates would have done. I was so close.

Well, now that I'm messed up I get food stamps and welfare if I want the. I guess now I can muster one of those attitudes and tell the world I don't give a shit instead of begging for 10 more hours at the local greasy spoon. If only I would have knonw then what I know now.
If they gave me 100 for food, I could be comfortably homeless. I can slowly work my way into public housing. No rose from me. I can say "fuck you" like everyone else now. Thanks for destroying me. Now I can be "strong" like you. One day you'll discover that you're flesh and bone.

PS, I'm not really a sadomasochist, but that's what they try to pin me as with the feeds, or maybe that's what it is LOL (I just want to be circumcised), but still I'm a virgin-ish thing, assaulted with rays and everything else. I figured I'd play their game, and I want it out. You have to hear them. I did ask to be circumcised, however, because they use that against me. You HAVE to hear my feed. I would have never said those things. I said I was going to kill to make way for new life and a bunch of other bizarre statements.

I wish this was public so that there wouldnt' be temptation.

I Want My Brain Fixed

One doesn't matter in a different light. You can fix me.

With them, it's all about control and their queer lines of authority. I don't care. You stole what few opportunities I and then blamed me or cited illogical reasons for my destruction. It's always, it's only fair for me to suffer. If you rose from "nothing," something helped you be it person in aid or loans. Nobody rises alone. I wasn't allowed either. I always have to go through my whiney story of reasons why I had only one option out of HS, join the military. Anyone who tells you different is hiding something. It didn't benefit them for me to succeed. I was too naive to realize that only the self matters. I didn't care about being in, but while I was in, they tried to box me into being a rose. EO. That destroys me. Nowhere in my contract did it say, rose. I read the whole thing. Now they can deny using that term. They do us it. And I'll say that I didn't want to be the welfare queen because that's what getting married or starting a family equals for me. They called me a "whore" to try to box me with one of my fifty thousand male friends. It's a tactic. It's annoying. They should let us be hookers in the army and not suicide us after doing what people will do in those types of environments, though I stayed in the barracks-- I don't have any fancy stories. I just dealt with trash issues. The reason I didn't want to marry is because if anything goes wrong, we'd both be homeless. I was trying to avoid that fate. The army is too shifty for that. We're lower class people. Some people do things blindly. I've been smacked around a lot already.

Growing up I had that damn LD (I could read, and I passed HS without any help and some college, I was overcoming AGAIN, and they came and destroyed me) that allowed everyone control over me and now that I have schizophrenia the control people have over me is even worse. I've grown up with this false sense of control. I have the word "loser" tattooed onto my forehead. While I'm the epitome of trash right now because I've been gangstalked and destroyed by mindless clowns (I hope that paid you well), I don't blame myself. I don't have control. I realize that only money and power matter. I can't get it. So why bother with anything? All that happens when I do anything is that I have to justify being further trash.

What do you do with trash? You burn it, and it goes away.

We should kill disabled people. All they do is use us.

I will never succeed. A moron can see that and use me to look like a King (go Putin--is it cute when I struggle?); it's like standing next to a dog. That's easy to see. I will never get anywhere in life, and I don't care. I just get to watch as people against my interests take control of my life. I remember when they used the microwave hearing thing on me with the orgasm (so that we don't say what it is) that kills you or makes you stupid like Madonna's "A Bedtime Story" -- what do I live in Mali now 'cause I don't want to be like Mali or I would live there. They said, "she'll never do anything for you." You're absolutely right. My mind is completely destroyed now beyond what it was initially. Now that I can't comprehend what I read or understand 100% what's going on around me which I could before and can demonstrate, what a I going to do all day? It gets really boring. That was just, but since I don't have money or power, I'm the fucked up whiney baby. Hear me cry. Wah.

Dead people all around. I don't care about this stupid army paycheck that you tried to kill me for or SSI. I could make more as a prostitute, even ugly now (because I couldn't exercise when I was really dizzy from this TBI and because they forced me to eat a lot in the mental abuse ward; if you weren't crazy to begin with you will be when they get through, man). I'd prefer to be on the streets t living in a group home being drained. It's not like I get any of my money anyway. People control and drain me. These drugs are disabling me further. All I am is water down the drain.

Glad they killed those girls in Pakistan. Fucking bitches. There's a reason for everything.

If one is then we all are
We are all part of one
Parts to one
If one suffers then we all are
Suffering wants wanted
The end is in suffering one
Sufferer suffering us to none
One suffers no one

I'm not dying until all the retards, freaks, geeks, poor die too, however. Let's kill them all so that there's group respect, and I don't have to be oppressed, so we don't have to be oppressed.

Give me a ray. And let me go onto the news. Not letting me on the first time was wrong. I want all the attention in the world because you didn't want it. It makes me feel all slavish. I'll never do anything for you after all.

All I want to do is kill peple to feel powerful, so give me a job watching how "weak" the defenseless are. You aren't going to make me calm. I have to survive. I was programmed with instincts that are still buried deep within. Do another round of hypoxia stupidity, Madonna, Beck, heroes of the trash can that you stand beside. Next to the starving kids, Madonna, you look great, even though your looks are average to ugly and a dead cat could sing better.

Ah, now you can justify my poverty. Take my pension because I'm a shitbag. I'm a reflection of this society. I guess I'm a product of my environment. I'm burning like brilliant trash because I deserve to suffer. I guess that means that YOU deserve to suffer.
Man, I've been made so incompetent by psychotronic warfare that I'll be in a protected jail cell or institution. Thanks. That's actually appealing after my few years on this planet. I'm not from poverty. I just never get to enjoy anything I have time-wise, and I'm too young to have anything anyway. Not that I ever will if I'm the inferior female. If anything is defined really. Back to poverty. Nobody in this US is in poverty unless you're parents suck that much and don't use the stamps right. And if they do that, you won't rise like me (everyone "stronger" takes all my resources and labels me), and you'll be loving prison like several thousands of you are; beat the system. What, they let one of you rise to oppress the rest of you by telling you to look at them and then in the mirror. Don't bitch, I guess. You get three hots and a cot. Life couldn't be better. It's better than looking in the mirror at impossible, isn't it? (Of course I'm more hurt because God told me that, but he wasn't the first. It frustrates me to the ever why) Or being trapped by people that mess with our basic needs in illogical mannerisms. Mine is education. They trap (they did experiments on me that made me more behind), use (my test scores were average, but they deny children education by saying that they're just special) and denied me what I needed to fit in culturally or sustain myself later. Want to know why my mind is so easy to distort, Madonna? While I was "average" before psychotronic warfare, regular school wasn't important to my needs because I needed to be learning a trade from a young age so that I would eat later. If I was worried more about my food, and not already convinced of my omnidoom, I wouldn't bitch at you. You made me stupid because we didn't agree, and I wasn't stupid before. No matter how much "help" you give me, you're not going to get me into a university, and I'm not going to agree with you, Madonna, because I don't understand you. These issues aren't relevant to me. Why are we competing? i need to be independent and able to function in my "democratic" society to the fullest of my capabilities. A little digress, but it could be a conflict of interests where you wanted to oppress me for some sordid end. Oh, I'm a not funny smart mouth. Now I'm going to be on welfare, in prison or trapped with people that will abuse me for being inferior to them, not their equal, so I'm their bitch. Rays and all. The latter is 100% natural. It's why I isolate and would rather have had a trade so that I didn't have to fight all these odd socioeconomic issues. Putin knows what I understand, all my trash yrealizations. It's why he's got such good cards in the information war. Instead of killing me Pentagon, why don't you figure out his game and play it better? You know I don't like my life because ordinary lives such, and I'm always looking for "superior." You know I want to hurt you. You know I wanna make you cry. Makes me feel better about my sordid life.

Anyway,

Things happen for reasons. Even the most drugged out, out there know why they didn't succeed. Ask any fool. There are two ways to know. Sometimes we get a little weak when we justify. Some sort'of flicker of hope happens. But eventually we stop doing that. I want to do a number with death row inmates, enigma's "The Voice and the Snake." And what happened when I said what was going to happen. Like they said, nothing to bring to the table. Hogs. Now they'll come back and rug their success in my face. I'll kill them. I'm sick of this, only trash end up in broken down trailers. You deserve it because of blah, blah sin. After what I told the machine, I'm not even sure where to begin. I think I needed to be circumcised, made me bad. You know that makes us worship odd things, ideas, right? Satan. LOL It has to do with not having control. There's a stress reaction. I have no future. I'll say it publically since no one at the mental clinic would listen to me when I told them that was my problem. I'm an animal; it's an object. It can be removed. No more anger. No more sadistic thoughts. I bet I made Tom's fifth grade science project mind reader crazy with my evil mind. I bet it exploded and had to go back to kindergarten where it belonged. Obviously, whatever I was thinking could only do so much damage, why hide it? Why not just send a sheriff out to my house with a notice saying that I had an inappropriate feed and need either pills or to be circumcised. Why are you being sneaky squirrels with this technology? Did you honestly think you could save humanity when you first invented the camera to spy on people? Same thing. You're just using it to steal.

No you have to hear mine. I said that I have to kill to make way for new life. That was one of my epic lines. Now anyone with maturity would have realized that I was ill and dealt with it in a different mannerism. I didn't do anything to anyone. I was begging the people at the clinic to fix it. All they want is to push antipsychotics on me because that's all they know. They demoralized me prior by gangstalking and a bunch of other things.

On that note,

God is going to write me a sorry note. It's going to be from the bottom of his heart.
The more abnormal you make me, the more you free me, just remember. I don't have to do anything.

What they did didn't help me because it made it so that I'd "never explain again." I know. Placebo sings the same tune with "Where is My Mind?" You had a collapse and there's nothing in it." Still, everytime I get turned on, there is a bad reaction. It needs to come out. I don't care how trashy I am. I just don't want to bleed to death with a bunch of my Muslim friends. God, I have free medical care. Is it that hard to remove? Or could they just permanently paralyze it? You use it for trashy control of slaves. It's easy to control. Boy, do you like that word. Some people need it to go away. Are you afraid you're going to lose your moral purity over the world?

Please Vladi, give me a job executing prisoners. I just want to watch the defenseless squirm. i'd kill now, but they won't give me any air time since I'm a terrorist. i'd have to do something really twisted to innocent people to get in, and I will get in eventually, if I have to poison an entire city's population. NOt really. Don't ever ignore me. That got me killed. This making me look delusional game then destroying my mind is not clever. You should have heard her, "she tried to get out of it." yeah, that's why I told them in hospital, when I got out and on the blog.

I always play into their hands because they make me bad then justify doing this stuff to us. That's their game. Don't you think I deserve after finding out that I was a sadomasochist? Not that I do anything. I was trying to find a job, but that's been destroyed, so I'll print my oddities here for "attention." Some people just need to be circumcised like I requested (I have an odd reaction to love; it makes me angry), not have their brains removed. They use our emotions against us to their power ends. Meanwhile, what are they doing to other innocent people all over the world?

I didn't hurt anyone :P I didn't even do anything. I get hurt by people. Now since you decided to destroy me for my trashy vision, you have to charity me. Of course, you'll use me to say, this is what happens to people that +insert whatever cliche here+ but then it's you that can become.

I want my damn brain fixed. I'm lashing now.

My Brain Feels Like It's Filled With Water

They're making me increasingly simple with every day that passes.

I wish they'd stop punishing me, but they won't.

I'm labeled schizophrenic, so I can't say anything. This isn't schizophrenia. It is the result of psychotronic warfare in our police state. I'm merely having a difficult time explaining it due to their determination to make me mentally retarded. My cognitive functions are at an all time low. I can barely read, and I can't problem solve. I can illustrate that I had these abilities prior to 2011. I call it dementia because it's a decline in mental funciton. Prior to this they gangstalked me so that they could declare me mentally unstable (which are targeted individuals) and gave me a TBI to confuse me. Back then, I didn't know what was going on, and i'm used to having nothing, so I didn't care that they were harassing me for stuff. I received a check from the army, and I'll get basic medical care for the rest of my life because it's service-connected, even if they change my rating. The military only gives you a check for 5 years, and I assumed I would be off of it because I was improving then the mad scientists came in with their fanatical save the world bullshit, labelled me a rose, which is a low caste person trying to escape fate by cheating (their definition of it) and hysterically tried to destroy so that they could justify killing me.

I was fine with working in remedial jobs. I am not okay with them destroying my mind so that I'll work those same jobs. It's their illogical freedom campaign again, and it will rip our society apart. I can barely think in complete sentences let alone do long tasks that require problem-solving. I probably have the mental capability of a 8 or 9 year old child. Why are these pigs allowed to do this to us! It's so unfair, immoral and illogical. Of course, they say that nobody cares about us, which is true until it fucking affects them. The people running this program are like children. Oh, they've got control, so they're kings of the world. And I am an ant. Like I didn't know that. Well, I guess I miss out on a lot like how I'm a "rose." WTF is that. Yes, I betrayed our nation to get back at them. And I will never stop. There will be a school shooting from me yet, or I'll just stab someone to death to prove that i have control. I guess that'll make me feel superior. Not really, but that's what they're doing. Feel in control.

Now I have to care beccause they have interferred with my ability to do anything. While trying to make me illiterate to control me was "clever," I'm starting to have a difficult time understanding what's going on around me, which will get me fired. I need them to stop. They give me hypoxia injuries with a satellite. How can I defend myself? I need piece of shit, slacker Obama to regulate these weapons. I am using my name so that they can look me up later and know what happened to me. It's kind'of like prayer. God heard me once.

Maybe these caste wars will end or they'll put us into real castes to regulate. Things happen for reasons.

yes, I did have a scuff with Putin, and I'm demanding he fix it since he drew inappropriate attention to me. I know he can. Grow up. You're Mr. Office Badass. I know that my side likes to give you lots of power for some reason, but did you have to get involved in my story?

They tried to frame me into hitting on him (because the university kids feel real prestigious about their dating status), which is morally wrong because if I hit on him, that should be an automatic trip to the psych ward. No, I wasn't hitting on him but love is a drug anyway. Young people don't always know better.

I'm sick of this irrepsonsible government based off of "playground" morals trying to save its ass.. You guys are predators, and it won't solve the debt crisis. I keep wandering around and ending up in psych wards for confusion. I won't be on the street long before I get arrested yet again. Prison is expensivve. I've never been, just to the psychic ward where we all know what goes on.

I hope you guys enjoy reading this when I go in and know that you're letting this happen. Want to stick up for me instead of writing a check or putting me in a closet for the rest of my life? Want to stop the higher castes from doing this to pariahs?

I cannot defend myself, so I get emotionally disturbed and sick from their games. Now I don't have emotions, and I"m still pissed at the "saviors" of mankind.

Save yourselves. Oh wait, you can't even do that.

Random: I know that my prior crush allows for distraction, and it was a major tool for their manipulation. While I'd love to jump out of the fantasy that I had with the version of 1976, I don't think I'm ready for a romance with a 59 year old male, and I don't want to be assassinated. Power does not have privileges, burden. Only dumb people want tht type of attention.I'm only asking Putin for help because he's dealt with me before, has money, and knows what they do.

It was clever to pick someone who has a listed mental illness, but it wasn't especially clever. I like how Kathy Heckman refers to them as "Echoes of Idiots.' The only advantage they have is the weapon because their minds are surely more damaged than mine is. No, you have to hear them. I'm Miss Rose. The only person I gave consent to me to alter my mind was Putin because he's actually intelligent (and I want my brain back), and that was after all of this other nonsense took place. They stalked me everywhere. They disordered my house, so then I disordered my house. I tried to play their game. They want the perfect society? Well, then they need to make the perfect social understandings.

Despite the fact that I don't have emotions, I will evetually go postal.
You get what you give.

Simple Plot, "Never Survive"

She watches from her charity pity
She watches at a dollar they stare
She smells like poverty to take
An easy victim, made defenseless
A ghost, a rose, something low
Let us spy and know her fault
Does she redeem herself? No
She knows that they're in control
How can she win against guns?
She sees something in the mess
A velociraptor's coming near
Full of determination's power
He's got tears of cyanide spilling
She's supposed to spin to suicide
As a simpleton under their awesome
Simple plot, never survive, the
The moral man is near to cry

Jerk Putin

Honestly, I've uncovered enough intelligence to deserve stem cells and asylum. I was talking about the burn pit bodies. That's what happens if they catch you. Then they say taht your own killed you. It's kind'of like how they framed me. They do all sorts of things then declare it a moral fault of yours somehow. Kind'of like how they made that group of terrorists. I told them that I'd give them their check back but noooooo.

I don't know why they keep it a secret anyway. It's like, it's war nothing more. People would probably accept it better if it was part of their world. I think the peace lovers are only like that because it's their power over their environment.

I'm running out of time.

Want to know some more? Perhaps that's why I was assassinated LOL The informal spy. Honestly, I'm just pissy they framed me, tried to kill me with cyanide.

At the end of the day, the US betrayed me.

BTW, killing us in our sleep with orgasm is not a humane way to go. I don't like love. No, Tatu, I won't love forever. I won't lie either. And you wont' live forever. What gives you the right to dictate my life?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_rX_WL100 I didn't like it. Thus I was raped.

I guess this is a warning to make all you Putin fans wet at the absolute power of corruption.

It's a warning. Pay attention to the world around you because it could happen to you.

Kaela Creighton, Being American Trash

So, while I was going about my business not bothering anyone because I dont talk to anyone, a bunch of yahoos decided to cyanide me to make me lose my wisdom. I guess they want me to the be the super cheap trash whore because that's what it's translated into. I know that's who you're killing. So, thus, you frame me into it.

You know, I had dreams too that weren't respected or anything else. This is because I dont' have power over my environment and labels. Poeple can automatically say this or that and then I become it for some reason. People can do anything they want. We cannot function in the normal world with this label. People can turn us into anything. And it's only fair. I usually did better on tests than the normal people. I'm just quiet. My IQ was 118. It's probably like 60 now because Putin can't keep his mind to himself and we matter. All I said about him was that he could haveth my liver as a joke. That's it and hte fool couldn't even handle that. And in 1976, I would have rayed you.

Putin's arrogance is overwhelming. I'm sorry I couldn't please you to be part of your special world and protected. We're roadside garbage to them, rats. And that's a justification

Having a high gun is the only way you're respected in the world. You've got a satellite, Putin? It won't protect you for the human rage. Still hate you. Though I need your help. I need my brain fixed. It's taken some hits. WHile we have had our issues, and they have weak, failing marriages that get broken up by fat, pig faced peasants (I'm humble in appearance) that must be monitored on every level, I hope you took me saying that you hav beautiful hair as a compliment. I also had a dream about you because I'm a youth, but I'm thinking that was part of the corruption now because it did look fake. Mrs. Putin is actually prettier than me in her 50s. I'm not sucking up, though I would ;) You were a pretty youth too. Don't listen to the court. THey have bland, clean prostitute look going on.

Hey, if nothing else, if my delusions are real, then I am a spy and need to be paid. The CIA is trying to give me fullon dementia as a present, and they can really stop until they learn preventive measures. Honestly, if I could get through, they aren't shit. I think that you should take my incident and use it to embed people. Oh, she has a psychiatric label, which means we can do our business, and she can't say anything. They tortured me growing up. It's the same thing.

The rays they use have a queer smell. Cyanide.

I hate America and everyting she doesn't stand for. Not really, but I'm pissed. If you didn't want me going to school, you shouldn't have put me on that path for survival. Dementia is inhumane. They gave me a bunch of hypoxia injuries too because cyanide simply wasn't enough. I don't think I'm dumb but demented. I'm starting to have a difficult time with my eyesight.

Not that Bush would know. He's lived some pleasant life of anything. He was a terrible soldier and somehow managed to lead the army. You wonder about the state of the nation.

BTW, if I have to marry and be a rose, you'd better tell that to my broken hearted counterpart too, because he fucking leaves me every fucking time for like $2. I was like, I'm a hooker, but then they freaked out about that too. You incompetent bastards. Now Bush is going to do it some more. It means nothing, like you mean nothing. I just bit you.

Humans are amazingly fragile.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAUuXhcxfcI

I want to be of the working class. Now I'm going towards penury. I'm irritated. I don't think one missino would save me there. I just want my brain back so that I can work again. I need stem cells as payment for my imaginary crime.

Hopefully, thjat's true. I don't have a problem being ordinary. I've been good and humbled. I can't function with their hope, however.

Campbell, don't leave the army ;) No, man, I can't even work at Hardees without the spies clogging me.

Kaela Creighton, Village Idiot or Psychotronically destroyed

Well, first off, I never professed to be of great intelligence. I have a gentle, intuitive nature that leads me to meaningful symbols in my own reality. There's a 3 on the garage door and that's the place I started from. I am unable to return to 5. I guess this leads other to assume that I have something that belongs to them, a soul. I do not have anything but an earthly mind that associates moods and memories in a slur of time. They have us all beneath them. I guess any ability is a sin and any profess of happiness is a sin because they are not happy in their worlds. They desire the earth and that's fine. It won't be much longer until they don't have to psychotronically edit us. We'll be autistic robots never to rise so there will no longer be sin. Thank God. Struggling for your desires was tiring and that's what I wanted, what you want, for we are all one. They use a machine to dumb us down. It's a hypoxia injury with sex. It's a horrific feeling, btw. The rich claim it to be better than sex when it isn't. It's like a nightmare I can't escape. How to fill a glass with the memory of desire. All we need to know is to fill a glass, a mindless robot, but with the memory, we're still tortured. You'll have to work on that, Placebo. They are much more advanced than us. The difference was that they cared for each other the entire time. We're bitter with our own corrupted desire. I already told you what God said.

"Nothing Really Matters" Madonna Jesus believed that if you sinned, you needed the object of sin removed. We're so "godly." Why do we not follow His laws?

I am not anything because i'm in dementia land. A flower is a rock is a slide. I meant what I said after you came and invaded me. Call it suicide, but you wanted a reason anyway. You were fishing for a reason. It's not like it matters. Nothing does in this land of make-believe. Holiday says we're recovering, and you blamed me. I survived, and we're recovering. As far as being a Rose, Placebo, no, I didn't like that. I accepted it for awhile, but it's rude. Then you tried to say that I was blaming Campbell. She's really stupid, and that's why she "sins." I hate that word. She failed journalism school, and they protect her for being weak. This is where I get bitter and say, it's not fair. They then said that I was trying to interfere after she mixed with me. She has the knowledge tht they keep from us, and she spoke to me,which shouldn't be allowed. She had pathetically low test scores in everything and she had been through classes, never worked and was fed because she didn't have starving marks. I was with kids that were severely abused. She was a fucking liar with stretch marks. These are the ones dumbing us down and flipping arguments, that personality hue.

Then they'll say I was jealous or something because her MOS had a good life, and she has the sacred knowledge, which means that her place is protected somehow. And I have to guess a bunch and serve her, which is why I wanted away from her because I was like, oh, shit, we're not equal. Then she forced her way back in to use me again. All I wanted was to go to school, be indepenent and work but they twist us around each other so naturally, I'll kill her. It makes me look like Cain when it's a survival instinct. They damaged me for no reason. They hunted me and destroyed me because I'm a rose, which si why I decided I didn't want to be a rose. Did you see the name, StrawberryRose? I was so depressed. This label means another ticket to Hell.

And Shantelle Campbell was less than me. She failed out of journalism school, had to be recycled, which is sad, and she had lower asvab scores than me (line scores), and she was a bitch, but if I show one sign of anything, man... I don't think I'm better, but if we're using merit to decide the rest of somebody's life, can I get someone intelligent to know all of MY SECRETs? I'd rather have Putin on me. That way, he's not competing with me.

This is where I get bitter and say it's not fair, even though my place is to live in fear and always hate myself but then they went after that too. My shortwave. I almost failed out of engineering school and would have been sent to Hell as a punishment. They don't let us recycle, ro they wouldn't let me. They said it would go on my record and I would do as they desired if I did not complete it. I came in 11/12. That's why I was so far behind in school because any time I made a mistake, they'd destroy me. Everyone in the class said I was crazy. My nickname was "crazy lady." You know, the people who wish to destroy me now should have spied on me then and pulled me uot. That's when my problem started.

In our society, it was discovered that we have a "victim of society" syndrome, so they mock it. The guy they sent after me mocked me while I was drooling on myself. It's a soviet tactic and one of the reasons they collapsed. Humans are fragile, and while you're in tis form, there's no denying being human. No, all I said was that I hated her and wanted her to go away. I figured if I said I wanted to kill her, they'd get the message but apparently not. A lot of people hate me; they don't do that ,nhowever. I just walked into a guy's shop and said I didn't want to be intrusive, which he didn't like because I called hi motu on his emotion before he could feel it, which causes him to disagree, but I'm stupid, so I don't have the right reactions anymore. Anyway, the guy at the shop was mad because I shouldn't use that restroom, but I did regardless. He hates me. I annoyed his daughter being a stranger.

Apparently, I'm not allowed to know their intents which will get me killed by the locals because everything is a sin somehow. So you trashed me out. Was it for them? So that they can defeat something... they waste resources with videos and other vanities. In honesty, back to being a victim, I blame the school system, and there honestly was a fault, stop being manipulative (then they'll call me manipulative). There is no way that we can mix. They make us all psycho. Every LD has some bizarre personality disorder. That's not a stereotype, its' the truth. It goes back to being human. You can't deny being human. No matter what, I'll react liek a human. You'll say you didnt but every situation is different. You either had some real faith that played out or you had soemthing that protected you. But what it's like really is saying that you can walk through fire without being hurt. I can't. Sure, if you had a spacesuit on, you'd be fire, and you can call me weak, but... Then we get into the long justifications that say yoru wealth to buy a spacesuit is strong, and I am weak because I couldn't do the same thing. How clever.

She forced her way to being my friend to use me, like everyone else. I am forced to be the perfect person and everybody's friend which also causes a lot of anxiety because adults aren't designed for that. We are reptiles. Since I'm labelled inferior, I have to serve everyone, so I had like some anxiety problem from Hell and regressed to annoyance. I have voices that hurt me to save me. I don't hear them. They aren't part of schizophrenia, but my mind, and they're right. And they tried to use psychology and say I wanted what they wanted. People just want to hurt me because they die.

What is it with America and only seeing one perspective? America is autistic.

And that death thing is really the biggest problem facing the mortal mind. We wouldn't want more if we didn't need more to survive, so I'm looking forward to them making us all robotic drones. I get tired to fighting illogical assumptions and being targeted for omnidestruction for any reason that simply isn't so. I started to do math for fun, and they came at me. That's what happened to me in school too because they're all broken.

The black heart. That's a good way to end an empire.

Nobody wants their responsibilities unless they're excuses to make up for some fault. It gets complicated. more complicated for a gilr that can't even remember a step or to brush her disgusting teeth. I'm a pariah. I should be treated like an animal, but even that's too good for whatever flaw they unveil. Nothing like covering yourself in filth to hide. Now I just do it because I'm incompetent. This is so that they can be "right" because they're incompetent. My psychic powers are going to tell you what's going to happen. Then they'll throw a fit about that too.

I've had a life where I don't believe in mistakes and I believe in single place for people and that they know who they are. I believe in one error, and you're dead. That's how they've forced me to live for years. But they're somehow chosen children, like Putin, and it's like, no shit you're going to succeed, and I'm going to have to hide. I have to guess at their gay ass games and watch all their videos so I know how to react while they're taunting me. Then they have a problem with me hiding or knowing when they're the ones that put the stimuli out there. You can't make humans live like this. You're lucky in that most people have busy lives so they don't pay attention. They force me to because I'm a in "box" where I have to be bad and fail.

They've got America to the point where you could 13 ghost people. I mean, you could seriously start playing those games.

Time to badass inspire you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnckTdoKXFg I hate the way you think you're real. Now they've gotten so complacent that they've developed families with their children's dreams. I can't wait until us "monsters" gain control. From what I'm hearing we are. Drools. Make them all retarded, guy. Loo, Putin had two kids and a wife and he went on vacation. He's not allowed. He must be punished.

"Good god you're coming up with reasons. Good god, you're dragging it out." Make me slur and drool because you can't get to him.

She made an error, let me kill her. Then they'll flip it onto me because I'm the "baby." I have no control, so I'm all sexed out and overexposed then they novacaine me. I want to eat her. Yes, indeed, I am flesh and bone and all alone. I think it's funny when the lowly fight back. It's like, congrats, rat, you just killed yourself. What they did was isolate and taunt me until I got confused. Then they leave me all alone and drained to feel terrible because they do.

I just abuse anyone I can to make up for my black heart. That's how you destroy an empire. And that's how the ancient God decided to end the world. I already said what he said, but you'll say it's of "Satan," Katun. Katun is the blind female. Now they're trying to make us blind or eternally young.

The rose knows its own reasons, the deep epidemic of deep -- the last thing the poor man has.

The truth is I am imperfect, so I won't marry. And being the type of worker I am, I can't anyway because I don't make enough. I don't even make minimum wage when I'm out there, and I get movde around all of the time. Then they'll use that to force me with another retard because they've made me socially that low and the retard and I will only partner to destroy me at work, and we'll have retard children that my memory will remember and watch suffer. And we'll be on that damn check that shouldn't exist because if you can't work, you should die. Look what it creates. I'm not dying until you come up with some logic. Don't flip that argument on me. I'm only talking to myself which will get me killed because social animals can't handle this type of stress, but that's okay. It's what makes me ill.

You're all like somehow magically not human. And that's your power because we react like humans. Most of you couldn't survive my life. You'd shatter into little bits because people care for you, or you think they do, and that's where it gets interesting. They only care while they're wrapped into you. When that rug is pulled, and you have no control, OMG. It's hilarious because you'll try anything to survive, and you'll be "good" or "right" and they'll flip your around, which is kind'of fun. I remember the first time I went to the asylum. I was so messed up that a purple dot was a hamburger.

now you guys are all like "right" or afraid of authority because you want to be "good", and you think they care for you if you're good, so you'll serve them, so you would never write the things I do, but if you're me, it doesn't matter. Now they've made me even more special in their quest because I have to be wrong. I made grammatial errors, but really there's probably some tiny detail that I've somehow missed. I do that because I'm bad. It's even harder now that I've been made retarded. Because in the balance of the universe, retards should exist. That's good for you.

2012 is party hardy, and it's what we want because God broke our hearts. They can't numb us all because it's "illogical." We want to hurt. I love to hurt myself, not a lot, just enough to be punished (accepted because that's my "good"). And placebo framed my caste into liking it be superior. And now the ones they numbed in their wayward agenda are burdens. You can't stop time.

Russia does have some morals banning emos, and they don't frame us with music. That damn @ means that you must be "mad." (or horny -- same region, trust me on brain stuff, I've been hti enough to know. Emotions are in the back.)

Even the ramblings make sense if you can pay attention and aren't an egocentric pig -- young.

"Don't be perfect." I have no choice. It's convenient that you are allowed to make errors. Look at me. I'm an error.

"We'd like to know a little more about you for our files, we'd like to help you help yourself. (Just get me a razor because that's what YOU want because YOU are competing with me somehow). look around you, all you see are sympathic eyes. (I'm trapped; I must kill). Here's to you, Mrs. Robinson, Jesus loves you more than you will know. God bless you, Mrs. Robinson, heaven holds a place for those who pray. Hiding in a little hiding place where nobody ever goes. Cupcakes. It's a little secret. Anyway you look at this you lose."

Dear God, get me out of America. It's evil. It produces nothing.

Kaela Creighton, Putin, Why, because you don't know and they want

If it is then it can be something else.

I don't understand why people have always picked on me so. I'm of average intelligence, or I was, and I'm of average body, or I was.

I guess the new fads are moral flaws. They're simplistic, ritualistic algorithms that keep us down and someone else up. Why dont' you just say, "never up," and we'll never try? I never tried, and I wrote so , so you can't justify a sin as another with me.

I love laws and police officers.

I guess I lie because I don't know the truth, which puts me at a serious disadvantage but I wrote everything. I also can't form long-term thoughts. I'm still hoping that Putin will hear and fix me. I have like a mild form of dementia now. Sometimes, I become disoriented. I am not enjoying my life. They had no right, and you sir made me a target. I can find 100 twins on the internet that haven't been messed with. I did nothing wrong to President Bush or President Obama. I liked President Bush and I felt a moderate degree of sympathy for the state of President Obama. I wasn't blaming President Bush. I was just satying that times were hard. I was not using any name to promote. I'm begging Putin. Like RT, I shouldn't have to beg him because he owes. Last night, in dementia land between, he was listening to classical music, but he wouldn't open the door for me. If it's wht I was thinking about, I think about dinosaurs most of the time for some reason.

Kaela Creighton, Putin

I don't know how\ to make paragraphs on this blog-thing. Either that or it's not letting me make paragraphs to frame me into being schizophrenic again because my other blogs have paragraphs. If you need clarity, ask me. If you have any iq, you can make out my etchings just like you understand what this word is itme. Anyway, I did nothing wrong. I said you were attractive, but I hated you so. They made me confess, and I was like, no, I need to have it cut out before the philistine use it to harm the slave. If they want to play that game, and my side does, then we can play that game all day long. They can leave Africa alone. By the rules, I wasn't trying to break up your happy home, so I didnt need to be cyanided. To anyone who reads--if you still can, if you have an affair you can be killed or if you have0_0 for someone that matters. It's a trap for all the shortwaves out there. (That's also a target.) You know it's sweet to say, "he's attractive" or "he's a man" and you don't mean it but they'll come running if you're poor, so it's best to say something like, "I'm into girls." Being queer will keep you out of trouble. Next, I'm special. I'm not part of the game. People put me in it to distract. You had no right to make me a target. If you wanted to shoot me, hotshot, you should have paid to have it done. You just wanted to be all cool and badass and it resulted in my inhumane treatment. Such as the treatment implicated in "Love without sound" White noise. So that's a fun psychotronic warfare weapon that kills you for your love. Well, I didn't love until I was loved. Then it was a bitter marriage, trust me. We DESERVE to know the rules. IF a purple dot is a sandstone a green man will pop out of Antarctica. Get used to my diction. My limbic system is scrambled to mock schizophrenia. I'm lucid. I just have a difficult time communicating.

I want to donate my body to science

It's a sacrifice. God said the answer is within misaligned dreams, devil's details I looked up so I guess Putin made me retarded. Shortly after my blog, he decided to send an orgasm ray into my head. I don't have the cognitive ability to really instigate thought, and I think he's funny because we're all of the eternal night. Where do you think you're getting with that, buddy? We're all rats on a wheel, to go, show something? What do you have? Dusty dreams and tears of desire. I did not look up. Liar, liar, pants on fire, and my brain is probably completely destroyed because kids got guns. Wahoo. You guys have some gay party and feel the power of "to believe." Another ordinary day passes in the boredom of this age. I have no fear. There's nothing left. :P

Kaela Creighton: Dear Mr. Putin -- Retard scribbles=:( The internet is flooded with them, don't be offended.

Hi, I'm sorry that we've had our differences. I didnt mean to offend you or President Bush. I was delusional at the time. I thought you were the god Indra, and I was joking about the liver. The university children attacked me first, and I was the victim of a setup because I have that damn label. Anyway, I was wondering if you'd have mercy on my soul and repair the decline. I can't live like this. It isn't me. I have had heart tests and heart markers. It isn't me. They are using scalar weapons to dumb us down. Man, I was already stupid, which reflects their cognitive ability and the organizational capabilities of our intelligence service, but now I'm in the twilight zone. I need help. I know that i'm going out on a limb here because your country suffers from poverty, corruption, greed and that you probably laugh at the fact that the beggar American wants help (I like to annoy people), but if you could find it in your soulless heart to get me out of declin e land, perhaps as a single act of human kindness in the void of the world, I would appreciate it. This is worse than being dead. Can I go to a research lab? PS Don't mind my lashing. I'm in agony.

PS-AD-UPDATE I called it that because that's what a decline is, but I'll just call it a change in status since I live with dementia patients, but you call retards that too apparently if they become retarded from an auto accident or something. I have been dumbed down or made retarded, and I'm going to get a battery of tests to show them, even though they can't do anything. My abilities severely waned during this time period. The stem cells made it better. Not that anyone cares, but if you would have known what I was going through... I was scared. All I could feel was dizzy or I had perceptions like I was floating another odd things. I was being sarcastic in this post. Putin HATES me. I was trying to prevent him from killing me by posting this up because it would look bad. I tried to frame a few other people hoping that their drones would conspire and stop my death to prevent defaming. That girl was trying to kill me. I didn't know who she came from, but she went away. I was ill during this post and a few others, physically. Nobody would believe me.

I tried to sacrifice myself for everyone but as usual, they took the wood away :(

I still say Putin owes me stem cells for the picture and/or the bar or pay the traitor (I did it via youtube, and I did it after they attacked me). YouTube is the last place you'd think you'd find me, the spy, but I have style. The media wouldn't give me any credit. I should be shot formally, but they won't do it the right way. They'll creepy crawl after me in the night. I'm sorry, but I bit back. They've been stalking me for awhile--and I was innocent. I'm not delusional. It's so they could steal that dollar. I don't care. I'm doomed. All and all, I'm not okay.

I need some more and nerve growth. I'm requesting compensation. If he killed me, I was going to make a mess, which I'm good at. My abilities were going down and I wanted the government to know in case it helped people in the future. My doctor is requesting a battery of tests now so that I can show them, even though he thinks I have schizophrenia.

I don't think this is freedom of speech to the one that complained. It's messed up that I'm allowed to violate myself so, but that's part of being an adult in a free country ;) (not so free.) It goes against civil society. If I had my personality, which they killed, I;d behave differently. I'm skiddish.