but I'm not. This causes issues in my mind. Stop making me happy. I don't like it. I lose focus, and I want. The latter is the crux of the argument. We disagree due to a conflict of interests. I'm not giving up my half. You've already taken enough from me.
I don't want to be happy. www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5F-xHX1PDE "Break all the rules. And go to Hell with superman and die like a champion." (That's my number 1 antihero song.) Do you guys honestly think you're doing good if I'm evil? You've made me worthless.
I'm not going into "reality." As if anyone knows what that is beyond themselves. It's a club I've never been fond of, and I'm rarely invited to veracity--to tell the truth. The rest of you can justify your sordid, boring lives under the careful watch of safety. Are you wise under the gun? @) that's fine if you are. I'm not, even if I claim it. I'm sick of being threatened. It's gotten boring.
I'm a food stamp queen. Leave me and my future tent alone 'cause we are done. We dont have to do anything. Let me guess, after making me a retard, you're going to accuse me of something else ludicrous and try to fix me some more to steal. The reason I didn't become a productive member of society is obvious. Why don't you fix that instead of my evil mind, Breaking Benjamin. It's obvious.
Again, I won't do anything for you. One doesn't matter, so shut your mouths and leave me and my backthoughts alone. Oh by the way, STOP FREAKING OUT! Nothing is really that big of a deal in civilian affairs. The world will turn tomorrow no matter.
I'm boycotting. I'm just crazy, after all. I'm going to have to ask for seroquel to get down from this unnatural feeling. I can't predict what horrible thing is going to happen to me next. It's over a dollar. Hit me again, and I'll slander people with names and make your slaves unproductive. Plus, i want compensation from those that hurt me. There's a reason for everything. I'm pissed off.
You don't need me anyway ;) "She'll never do anything for you."
She is not dead, and she's not dying. We're not going to wave the gun in my face as an act of desperation. You can just give up. You failed with Miss Rose. Like I said, there are plenty of people that will fall into your trap; they are stupid sheep @). I'm not one of them.
"Meddle" -- Little Boots
That's your lesson.
I'm often sarcastic when I write.
PS I don't mind working at McDonalds unless I'm dumbed down to work there. I liked McDonalds.
Somebody needs to kill me in a bloodbath so that we can at least talk about these weapons. We'll have to get past the facade, but I think it's possible.
I want to be the janitor at Haarp. They're trying to get me self-actualize after they've damaged me and it's not going to happen. I'm injured. What they'll do is find a bunch of specialists to rapid fire questions at me that I couldnt' possibly answer then tell me to accept dirt. i'm okay with that game so long as I can learn because I blow it off. It would be impossible for a rocket scientist to pass what they do because they will ask detailed questions from every subject, but it's okay to be humble. I'm damaged now. I don't think Madonna understands how unfair this is.
I would say that if you didn't want me to hearing voices (schizophrenics that say they're literally hearing them are almost 100% full of shit; some do; when my thyroid kicks it, I have heard things but that's delirium) that you should stop treating me like dirt and dominating me, which has an interesting stress reaction. It's why I'm a sadomasochist or sadistic. I like to be hurt. I don't like to be hurt sexually, but I enjoy pain. Maybe I'm just sadistic. Being happy is torture. I never said those things they accused me of in the sexual way though (I can hear them ask me questions). I hate being happy, and I want revenge. I like my voices because they protect me. I work on them :P They cleared most of them out, which will get me killed later. Nobody likes me, and they all torture me no matter what I do because I am labeled inferior.
Everybody hears voices, btw. It's only when they become third party that it's a problem. Us schizophrenics like split off and have dialogues with ourselves like Gollum. I liked being like that. It's entertaining. Like I said, I hate reality. It's always possessed by another.
I want revenge ;) All demons are human drive. If I have to do this to get back so be it. Please stop making me simple. Nothing is that big of a deal. I'm the one that got away. One doesn't matter.
I'm still mad they didn't help me when I actually needed it, the mind control people. If they would have caught me in the military, life wouldnt be bad now. They tortured me first (incited) and only tried to get my dollar.
I don't want to hurt myself.
I don't want to hurt anyone else.
I'm not hallucinating.
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