So, the looters have their glorious "morals" like Genghis Khan and his horde.
When I'm thin, I'm a whore. When I'm fat, I'm a pig.
Boohoo, I'm crying...
I like to eat, and they should be praising me because it'll kill me quicker. No, they send their subliminal messages to me (don't ask if you don't have an open mind), threats. Who's the one wasting tax dollars now?
I know I have a problem with food. I have an addiction to food.
I know I have a problem...
It's not like I'm not trying. I'm going back on weight watchers. This time, I'm going to follow the program. Hey, last time I did weight watchers, I lost 22 pounds.
As for being on assistance, we've talked about this several times, Breaking Benjamin, Madonna, Bjork, Marilyn Manson and Deathstars. You can do the legal thing and turn me in if you feel I'm abusing the system. You do not have the right to hunt me as an easy kill. Do you like how I made the internet my personal bomb? Ms. Octopus.
Once again, I posted my IQ scores on my blog. I'm obviously impaired. You can look at them, the brain scans, and you can deal with my memory, which was made worse. I'm learning to compensate. Lately, I've been looking at trackers I can put on my stuff, as I spend a good deal of time looking for my keys, phone and retainers.
Instead of killing me, why don't you become a doctor and heal me? That way, you'd get a lot of money to spend on houses and attractive women. You can have my GI bill. That's one loss you don't have to worry about because I can't do it anymore. Yay, for you!
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
Monday, December 19, 2016
The Ruins of the Internet
Thanks to Putin, I experienced the punishment of a enemy spy thanks to his "involvement" with the picture--his great smile. As is typical for Putin, he has not responded to my demands for a settlement. (FSB knows what I want.) I understand that I've said bad things, too. The difference is, and I will use this as an excuse, I had to spread all over the internet to survive or become a bomb, in other words. As for names, and it is an excuse, a good one, no one told me what hearing voices was, and they didn't bother to address anything, just shove pills into my mouth or yelling at me.
So I was scared because schizophrenia is very scary, and, since it's your brain, it affects everything.
My grandmothers saved my life by getting me help instead of letting me continue on with my disease. I understand how hard it must be for homeless people who have no one sane who cares. Ordinary people will abuse me if I don't have a rep a lot of times, like Putin not paying for the destruction of my known universe. They were all over me in Virginia, and I couldn't survive or do anything.
He didn't even save my cat. Do NOT abuse targets' animals or cause them to be homeless or with the corpse of their owner.. The pets have done nothing wrong. For that, he will be eternally unforgiven by me, but he can hand over my life's worth.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7WMebV5qt3s
So I was scared because schizophrenia is very scary, and, since it's your brain, it affects everything.
My grandmothers saved my life by getting me help instead of letting me continue on with my disease. I understand how hard it must be for homeless people who have no one sane who cares. Ordinary people will abuse me if I don't have a rep a lot of times, like Putin not paying for the destruction of my known universe. They were all over me in Virginia, and I couldn't survive or do anything.
He didn't even save my cat. Do NOT abuse targets' animals or cause them to be homeless or with the corpse of their owner.. The pets have done nothing wrong. For that, he will be eternally unforgiven by me, but he can hand over my life's worth.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7WMebV5qt3s
Friday, December 9, 2016
Putin and Trump's Influence on Everyday People
So, while I was stuck in a semi-alive state, feeding on cans of diet coke, Putin decided to make me a target. Like I've said many times before, he pictured me dying on RT.
And they came.
Originally, I'd thought he was my father, and I had weird issues. Nothing the thought machines can't fix.
Be kooky.
Those were my thoughts, and I cloaked my words. My dad and I have had a rocky relationship over the years, and a lot of it has to do with the poison my other family poured on about him. Anyway, it was a big deal (because something might have actually happened on a boring afternoon), and I ended up in a movie and a few songs.
Oh, they're so cool with their death rays. Nature kills us naturally.
I was destroyed by angry people.
Trump did the same thing to her: https://www.yahoo.com/news/trump-turns-his-twitter-attacks-on-private-citizens-raising-concerns-222713161.html
There should be a law against influence.
And they came.
Originally, I'd thought he was my father, and I had weird issues. Nothing the thought machines can't fix.
Be kooky.
Those were my thoughts, and I cloaked my words. My dad and I have had a rocky relationship over the years, and a lot of it has to do with the poison my other family poured on about him. Anyway, it was a big deal (because something might have actually happened on a boring afternoon), and I ended up in a movie and a few songs.
Oh, they're so cool with their death rays. Nature kills us naturally.
I was destroyed by angry people.
Trump did the same thing to her: https://www.yahoo.com/news/trump-turns-his-twitter-attacks-on-private-citizens-raising-concerns-222713161.html
There should be a law against influence.
Thursday, December 1, 2016
How Did I Make It Into the Military?
Well, I had to get a waiver because I have raynauds.
I didn't have much of a background for them to judge, though I do not meet the requirements of the army due to having a LD until I was 16.
I would recommend doing a psych evaluation with an IEP. My mom knew something was wrong with me, but she was unable to do anything.
I didn't lie to get in. They simply didn't ask me if I had any problems other than raynauds. I passed the ASVAB with a score of 76/111. Not stellar. My IQ is around 116. I think the 111 was my IQ, but they didn't factor in age, which gave me a lower score.
The army wasn't too difficult. It was easier to be in than in the regular work world. I used to pull the other females' fire guard shift in BCT because I was used to not getting much sleep.
The other soldiers picked on me a lot because I'm weird, especially then (read my last post--not that anyone does). I did their details and chores to stay in the right.
I was struggling when these random people showed up in my sleep and asked me questions like, "Do you believe in God?" "Do you have a soul?" "Do you want a family?" +insert retard rage about the family-thing+
Then I went to Cuba where I became "psychic." I'm not playing games. My brain went into the toaster at that point, and I ran around Cuba all night to get internet connection, tellin' my tale.
Then the blog.
Then the movie.
Then the songs.
Oh well, I did have fun until things went really bad.
In other news, they're having a hard time recruiting people... They should use gene therapy and just fix newcomers. Be kooky instead...
I didn't have much of a background for them to judge, though I do not meet the requirements of the army due to having a LD until I was 16.
I would recommend doing a psych evaluation with an IEP. My mom knew something was wrong with me, but she was unable to do anything.
I didn't lie to get in. They simply didn't ask me if I had any problems other than raynauds. I passed the ASVAB with a score of 76/111. Not stellar. My IQ is around 116. I think the 111 was my IQ, but they didn't factor in age, which gave me a lower score.
The army wasn't too difficult. It was easier to be in than in the regular work world. I used to pull the other females' fire guard shift in BCT because I was used to not getting much sleep.
The other soldiers picked on me a lot because I'm weird, especially then (read my last post--not that anyone does). I did their details and chores to stay in the right.
I was struggling when these random people showed up in my sleep and asked me questions like, "Do you believe in God?" "Do you have a soul?" "Do you want a family?" +insert retard rage about the family-thing+
Then I went to Cuba where I became "psychic." I'm not playing games. My brain went into the toaster at that point, and I ran around Cuba all night to get internet connection, tellin' my tale.
Then the blog.
Then the movie.
Then the songs.
Oh well, I did have fun until things went really bad.
In other news, they're having a hard time recruiting people... They should use gene therapy and just fix newcomers. Be kooky instead...
Social Graces
Divinity in humans reminds me of a trash can. There's always a foul odor around it. The person inside is dead.
I'm not the best at socializing. Growing up, I stayed to myself and didn't grow much. My role was usually the third wheel or extra on the set.
Be good to your masters.
Someone would yell at me, and I'd retreat immediately then cry for forgiveness. This behavior was reinforced since many of my teachers treated me horribly for having a LD (learning disorder). I should have stood up to them, but, as a child, we often look at authority figures for all the answers.
I didn't - and still don't -- always behave like society wants me to. I have the added problem of the brain surgery, but not tonight.
I've been through some social skills classes with the VA. They kind of helped. I still don't make very good adult friends. I have acquaintances, I guess, but I'm bad at those as well. The doctor noticed this, saying I have a childish understanding of relationships.
I've had to learn many lessons I failed at as a child.
I need to grow more. Also, some people deserve to be told off, if they won't leave you alone. Some people are toxic. Someone else might like them, but they need to stay out of my life.
Oh well.
In some ways, I want to tell society to accept me as I am, but I've hit enough walls and bats, I'm ready to make a deal.
The man wins. Women make babies.
I'm not the best at socializing. Growing up, I stayed to myself and didn't grow much. My role was usually the third wheel or extra on the set.
Be good to your masters.
Someone would yell at me, and I'd retreat immediately then cry for forgiveness. This behavior was reinforced since many of my teachers treated me horribly for having a LD (learning disorder). I should have stood up to them, but, as a child, we often look at authority figures for all the answers.
I didn't - and still don't -- always behave like society wants me to. I have the added problem of the brain surgery, but not tonight.
I've been through some social skills classes with the VA. They kind of helped. I still don't make very good adult friends. I have acquaintances, I guess, but I'm bad at those as well. The doctor noticed this, saying I have a childish understanding of relationships.
I've had to learn many lessons I failed at as a child.
I need to grow more. Also, some people deserve to be told off, if they won't leave you alone. Some people are toxic. Someone else might like them, but they need to stay out of my life.
Oh well.
In some ways, I want to tell society to accept me as I am, but I've hit enough walls and bats, I'm ready to make a deal.
The man wins. Women make babies.
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Annoying People Out of My Head
So, I don't talk to a relative very much. This time, I decided to fight back.
She said plenty of horrible things about me, which is normal for her. She lied and said she was willing to pay for my school. It's like, I feel as though I'm in danger when you're around me, and I doubt you have the money.
I don't want to be under her rule.
Last time I let her into my apartment, she said I assaulted her and threw herself out. I did not. When I was being abused, she ran away. She's a wimp.
Yay.
To the abuse, almost every guilty party who is in my life has changed. If they haven't changed their other habits, they no longer attempt to hold me down. I don't have school teachers telling everyone about my dead uncle and the fact I'm a special girl and need their special help.
She wants to remind me.
I fired my psychologist because talking about what happened to me is more of a bother than a help. It's not like I'll ever get real revenge, nor should I seek it. Anyone who follows me knows it is only enabling to continue to dwell on the horrid things I went through.
Rarely does anyone care about the truth. She is fixated, thinking people let her truth win. And most of it is nonsense.
I can't imagine her raising a child.
She said I wanted to be taken care of, like a child. It's like, yes, I had some issues with that, and I got my wish. I have the rights of a minor child. She said some truth. I used to long for my parents to love me. That's how the Putin thing happened. Daddy. Oh well, I am but a human. I have issues. The world has mountains.
I don't care if you're a hardcore, KGB spy, Putin, you have had rocks thrown at you as well. And I want to fuck you. There's the end of the conversation.
She said plenty of horrible things about me, which is normal for her. She lied and said she was willing to pay for my school. It's like, I feel as though I'm in danger when you're around me, and I doubt you have the money.
I don't want to be under her rule.
Last time I let her into my apartment, she said I assaulted her and threw herself out. I did not. When I was being abused, she ran away. She's a wimp.
Yay.
To the abuse, almost every guilty party who is in my life has changed. If they haven't changed their other habits, they no longer attempt to hold me down. I don't have school teachers telling everyone about my dead uncle and the fact I'm a special girl and need their special help.
She wants to remind me.
I fired my psychologist because talking about what happened to me is more of a bother than a help. It's not like I'll ever get real revenge, nor should I seek it. Anyone who follows me knows it is only enabling to continue to dwell on the horrid things I went through.
Rarely does anyone care about the truth. She is fixated, thinking people let her truth win. And most of it is nonsense.
I can't imagine her raising a child.
She said I wanted to be taken care of, like a child. It's like, yes, I had some issues with that, and I got my wish. I have the rights of a minor child. She said some truth. I used to long for my parents to love me. That's how the Putin thing happened. Daddy. Oh well, I am but a human. I have issues. The world has mountains.
I don't care if you're a hardcore, KGB spy, Putin, you have had rocks thrown at you as well. And I want to fuck you. There's the end of the conversation.
Monday, November 28, 2016
To whom I belong
If you don't know me, and you probably don't, you can see that I have put a lot of effort into survival. I enjoy life these days. I have a new appreciation of it.
Anyway...
Yes, I had to spread all over the internet to survive. I'm not the brightest, but neither is most of the population. They use the old trick of saying that I'm stupid and don't deserve anything. I owe them for being in their presence. Now, I was in special ed, and I can tell you plenty of children who made it through and work. They were protected from what I went into, trying to keep my soul together.
You have no idea what I've been through in many respects. I know I'm unpopular. I've never been popular. People hate me. These psychotronic people use losers like me to broadcast their cases, to make it appear as if I should be at their mercy.
Fuck off and do yourselves.
They spent a while chasing me and making fun of me instead of their "charity." I'm used to that. The final straw, however, soon came when they messed with my mind without permission or a court order. They did it more than once and refuse to pay for the destruction of my soul.
They didn't even bother to hold me down.
There is no accountability. It's like, if you're going to do this slavery thing, you're going to have to have chains of command, like in the army. These people, the psychotroinc people, want to have all the gold without the effort. They expect their servants to do everything for them.
Anger means nothing.
I wish Putin would pay me for what he did, but he's too busy for a peasant. I'm used to that as well, but it irritates me. Madonna could as well.
I love the house on 1343 Hideaway, Galena, MO. I think it's fair.
Anyway...
Yes, I had to spread all over the internet to survive. I'm not the brightest, but neither is most of the population. They use the old trick of saying that I'm stupid and don't deserve anything. I owe them for being in their presence. Now, I was in special ed, and I can tell you plenty of children who made it through and work. They were protected from what I went into, trying to keep my soul together.
You have no idea what I've been through in many respects. I know I'm unpopular. I've never been popular. People hate me. These psychotronic people use losers like me to broadcast their cases, to make it appear as if I should be at their mercy.
Fuck off and do yourselves.
They spent a while chasing me and making fun of me instead of their "charity." I'm used to that. The final straw, however, soon came when they messed with my mind without permission or a court order. They did it more than once and refuse to pay for the destruction of my soul.
They didn't even bother to hold me down.
There is no accountability. It's like, if you're going to do this slavery thing, you're going to have to have chains of command, like in the army. These people, the psychotroinc people, want to have all the gold without the effort. They expect their servants to do everything for them.
Anger means nothing.
I wish Putin would pay me for what he did, but he's too busy for a peasant. I'm used to that as well, but it irritates me. Madonna could as well.
I love the house on 1343 Hideaway, Galena, MO. I think it's fair.
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
Simple Song: Black Tears
Alien humanity,
Don't cry for me
Alien humanity
Do cry for we
See, see, be
Black tears
Bring cancer's immortality
From heaven
We saw such ashes
And human attachments
With filth in our lashes
Call it entrapment
The effects all lasted
See, see, be
Black tears
Bring cancer's immortality
From heaven
Alien humanity,
Don't cry for me
Alien humanity
Do cry for we
See, see, be
Black tears
Bring cancer's immorality
From heaven
Don't drink black tears
They come from mirrors
You are the guilty fears
Voices all hear and I die
Don't cry for me
Alien humanity
Do cry for we
See, see, be
Black tears
Bring cancer's immortality
From heaven
We saw such ashes
And human attachments
With filth in our lashes
Call it entrapment
The effects all lasted
See, see, be
Black tears
Bring cancer's immortality
From heaven
Alien humanity,
Don't cry for me
Alien humanity
Do cry for we
See, see, be
Black tears
Bring cancer's immorality
From heaven
Don't drink black tears
They come from mirrors
You are the guilty fears
Voices all hear and I die
Sunday, November 20, 2016
"The Thinning"
So, someone read my book, "Dawn of the Hives" and changed a few things. I think it is kind of original in most aspects, but yeah. It might just be me. It's hard to sit through that whole book it was so crappy and poorly written.
Sorry, to anyone's eyes that bled through it.
I don't mind really. They did a better job either way.
I'm not a great writer. I have accidentally copied people myself. I had to trash a whole novel because it was like "Occultus" (can't remember how they spelled that). I called it, "Mirror Memory." My angle was that generations had to pay for a ritual sacrifice done by the protagonist's great grandma who had killed a bunch of kids.
The evil great grandma and the children were in the mirror.
Oh well. It's my opinion, and I would never press it, even if it were more obvious. I'm not looking to dig in pockets.
May the best author win!
Don't be insulted that I thought this. I don't consider myself a real author yet. I could be making illusory correlations on a cliché battle ground.
Sorry, to anyone's eyes that bled through it.
I don't mind really. They did a better job either way.
I'm not a great writer. I have accidentally copied people myself. I had to trash a whole novel because it was like "Occultus" (can't remember how they spelled that). I called it, "Mirror Memory." My angle was that generations had to pay for a ritual sacrifice done by the protagonist's great grandma who had killed a bunch of kids.
The evil great grandma and the children were in the mirror.
Oh well. It's my opinion, and I would never press it, even if it were more obvious. I'm not looking to dig in pockets.
May the best author win!
Don't be insulted that I thought this. I don't consider myself a real author yet. I could be making illusory correlations on a cliché battle ground.
Thursday, November 3, 2016
Just Fighting to Fight--The Now-Not-So-Young Warrior
For a long time, I've fought issues like fascism, communism, plain socialism. I liked my tastes to "Brave New World," and I was an avid fighter, like Ms. Katniss. I justified the norm of humanity, the one I know, from "The Giver."
I get pretty far because the zombies are easy to walk around and through.
As I've aged a bit, with a few grey hairs rising, I've realized that my viewpoint is nothing more than paranoia.
Dystopias seem primitive to me now. I can see holes in the usual teeth. They use similar scare tactics. The world didn't end with the invention of a camera. What could a satellite do? Annoy us.
Besides, it's wiser not to bite the apple in the garden. Good luck, celebs! ;)
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I get pretty far because the zombies are easy to walk around and through.
As I've aged a bit, with a few grey hairs rising, I've realized that my viewpoint is nothing more than paranoia.
Dystopias seem primitive to me now. I can see holes in the usual teeth. They use similar scare tactics. The world didn't end with the invention of a camera. What could a satellite do? Annoy us.
Besides, it's wiser not to bite the apple in the garden. Good luck, celebs! ;)
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Wednesday, November 2, 2016
And the Gods Return--Agenda 21
Agenda 21 has been on my mind for a while. Well, it has been since I saw the musical gangs, corrupt Hindu symbols and celebrities oozing over immortality (good luck in this universe). It should be called , "Prolonged life." For example, Allah gives Muslims 1000 years.
Okay, that's nice.
In the United States, we're fed a decent amount of paranoia, especially to the average person, and we incite them. What could us average joes possibly do?
Get a gun.
Save the world.
Movies and books like, "1984" and "The Hunger Games" show us time and again what could happen.
But what could happen? Can we right the wrongs of this world and be efficient?
I wrote a dystopia. It wasn't good, as I am still a tyro after all these years. I put together their arguments, but it was too simple.
Now it's time for me to whine: On a personal note, I am often on the wrong side of the gun. They expect so much of me to justify the kill. I agree to not have children. Can that be enough?
Can I go hide now?
Okay, that's nice.
In the United States, we're fed a decent amount of paranoia, especially to the average person, and we incite them. What could us average joes possibly do?
Get a gun.
Save the world.
Movies and books like, "1984" and "The Hunger Games" show us time and again what could happen.
But what could happen? Can we right the wrongs of this world and be efficient?
I wrote a dystopia. It wasn't good, as I am still a tyro after all these years. I put together their arguments, but it was too simple.
Now it's time for me to whine: On a personal note, I am often on the wrong side of the gun. They expect so much of me to justify the kill. I agree to not have children. Can that be enough?
Can I go hide now?
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
He Has Bling
http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/putin-springs-leaks-of-his-own-as-russian-assange-airs-secrets/ar-AAjrkML?li=BBmkt5R&ocid=spartanntp
While Obama is rockin' it with the rockers, Putin is on the Ritz. We all know, as it is a tactic used in the West to make us jealous of luxury and define ourselves as better -- and some people are.
My grandma made an average salary, but she has helped so many people in her life. She counts her earnings down to the penny.
It's a philosophy on life and what you want to do/can do. Medvedev was right there, but nobody should be desperate.
The economy will naturally move important/relevant jobs around.
There are other incentives. If you teach inner city kids, you sometimes don't have to pay the loans; the system will in the US.
In other news,
I went back to asking Putin for five million dollars (after taxes) and the house in Galena (after taxes) by the lake. I don't need any more or any less.
I'm destroyed. Hence, I made this request.
For me, it's a nice place to stay after all the violence and hunting and pain: psychological, sexual (from machines) and physical abuse. The artists didn't care then. They just kept coming because they think they'll get somewhere from my rotting flesh.
I want to be a red folder.
https://www.trulia.com/property/3226756733-1343-Hideaway-Rd-Galena-MO-65656
While Obama is rockin' it with the rockers, Putin is on the Ritz. We all know, as it is a tactic used in the West to make us jealous of luxury and define ourselves as better -- and some people are.
My grandma made an average salary, but she has helped so many people in her life. She counts her earnings down to the penny.
It's a philosophy on life and what you want to do/can do. Medvedev was right there, but nobody should be desperate.
The economy will naturally move important/relevant jobs around.
There are other incentives. If you teach inner city kids, you sometimes don't have to pay the loans; the system will in the US.
In other news,
I went back to asking Putin for five million dollars (after taxes) and the house in Galena (after taxes) by the lake. I don't need any more or any less.
I'm destroyed. Hence, I made this request.
For me, it's a nice place to stay after all the violence and hunting and pain: psychological, sexual (from machines) and physical abuse. The artists didn't care then. They just kept coming because they think they'll get somewhere from my rotting flesh.
I want to be a red folder.
https://www.trulia.com/property/3226756733-1343-Hideaway-Rd-Galena-MO-65656
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Somatic Hell
I haven't had much to say lately.
I'm still feeling overwhelmed and agitated. Right now, it also feels like I don't have a brain. It's making me nutty. I used to call the ambulance and thought something was wrong with me.
Nope.
I've learned that I need to avoid things that upset me, like mind control. I can't do anything about it, and I'm on their territory. However, I would like to say that I am still mad at them and their "games." Eventually, they'll get tired of being a 50 year old wizard, and they'll see they need to make a better world for their grandkids.
I'm asking for the five million dollars (after taxes) from Putin, Madonna and/or the others. I don't care who pays me. I want to have a nice house and money. I want to be happy and ignore that I mean less to the universe than a piece of comet going toward the sun.
I don't think it's too unreasonable.
This is the house I want: https://www.trulia.com/property/3226756733-1343-Hideaway-Rd-Galena-MO-65656
I'm still feeling overwhelmed and agitated. Right now, it also feels like I don't have a brain. It's making me nutty. I used to call the ambulance and thought something was wrong with me.
Nope.
I've learned that I need to avoid things that upset me, like mind control. I can't do anything about it, and I'm on their territory. However, I would like to say that I am still mad at them and their "games." Eventually, they'll get tired of being a 50 year old wizard, and they'll see they need to make a better world for their grandkids.
I'm asking for the five million dollars (after taxes) from Putin, Madonna and/or the others. I don't care who pays me. I want to have a nice house and money. I want to be happy and ignore that I mean less to the universe than a piece of comet going toward the sun.
I don't think it's too unreasonable.
This is the house I want: https://www.trulia.com/property/3226756733-1343-Hideaway-Rd-Galena-MO-65656
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
Entitlement due to fear
I am disabled. I've gotten a lot of heat for it. People think I feel entitled because I don't work (at the moment). I'm the reason taxes are so high.. lol
It's always the same.
When I was a youth, they would tell us that we wanted "instant gratification" instead of being entitled, as they come up with these labels for the herd.
I've spent a long time soul searching about various labels, and I've come to the conclusion that we're failing many of our youths. They don't know how to behave like adults (yes, I know), and they cling to security.
It's not that they're entitled: they're afraid of what they don't know. They think life should be one, two, three. The reality is that life can be random and/or chaotic. It's not fair. You've got to learn to sail in the wind and accept a little dirt.
You can't predict everything.
We need to teach young adults that they don't have all the answers and that nothing in life is guaranteed.
There are so many poor adaptors these days.
It's always the same.
When I was a youth, they would tell us that we wanted "instant gratification" instead of being entitled, as they come up with these labels for the herd.
I've spent a long time soul searching about various labels, and I've come to the conclusion that we're failing many of our youths. They don't know how to behave like adults (yes, I know), and they cling to security.
It's not that they're entitled: they're afraid of what they don't know. They think life should be one, two, three. The reality is that life can be random and/or chaotic. It's not fair. You've got to learn to sail in the wind and accept a little dirt.
You can't predict everything.
We need to teach young adults that they don't have all the answers and that nothing in life is guaranteed.
There are so many poor adaptors these days.
Thursday, September 1, 2016
I gave up on the five million dollars and house
I spent considerable time trying to get a settlement from Putin. In the early years, it was 50,000 for stem cells. Then I wanted the five million to sustain me.
He's ignored me for the most part. We've had a few brief moments, adding to my "punishment."
Several times, until recent history, I have been in a compromised state. No one would help me, and, like I said, I wasn't in the best shape.
However, time has gone on, and I'm now stable thanks to Nonna and the VA. I still have issues, but we won't get into that.
The people in Russia are in a lot of pain due to our sanctions, and I feel bad for them.
Many people would call me a fool, but I wouldn't want to steal from hungry mouths. They'd come eat my fat ass as revenge.
I know I'm a horrible person for saying this, but that house is wonderful. I wish...
So, if anyone rich wants to hand over the five million dollars (after taxes) or the house (after taxes), feel free ;)
Only a dream destined to fail.
Edit: they have foodstamps now. They're also recovering and regrouping, so they aren't as desperate as we made them out to be.
He's ignored me for the most part. We've had a few brief moments, adding to my "punishment."
Several times, until recent history, I have been in a compromised state. No one would help me, and, like I said, I wasn't in the best shape.
However, time has gone on, and I'm now stable thanks to Nonna and the VA. I still have issues, but we won't get into that.
The people in Russia are in a lot of pain due to our sanctions, and I feel bad for them.
Many people would call me a fool, but I wouldn't want to steal from hungry mouths. They'd come eat my fat ass as revenge.
I know I'm a horrible person for saying this, but that house is wonderful. I wish...
So, if anyone rich wants to hand over the five million dollars (after taxes) or the house (after taxes), feel free ;)
Only a dream destined to fail.
Edit: they have foodstamps now. They're also recovering and regrouping, so they aren't as desperate as we made them out to be.
Thursday, August 11, 2016
In recent news, Medvedev is hiding from the repo man
Meanwhile, Putin is trying to seduce the retard kids to fix the isolation and alienation he's suffered from by not giving up his country.
Get your shit together, guys!
Get your shit together, guys!
Monday, August 8, 2016
Why do they play games?
So, they knew what I was thinking, which I already knew they did. They decided to make a wild world out of me for something that was stupid to begin with: pointless. I try to give them credit and say it was an experiment, but I don't know.
People suck.
I've had many different weapons used on me. From "Jackie's Funeral" Machines of Loving Grace/"Girl" Beck with Putin, to crawling sessions, it's been great. If I get raped one more time by the machines... They are sick people. They play all the horrible things people say about me ("Sally's Song" by Universal Hall Pass), which is why I avoid most people, as most of them hate me. I'm a loser in life's race. I already know. I like the elderly and that's about it. There are a few exceptions.
I feel like they're 9 year old boys talking on walkie-talkies to truck drivers.
Back to Putin... I like how I had five or six voices tell me things as I spilled the beans, like "Big mouth." I was sick of them messing with me, too. MM even got involved--and the movie. Wimps.
I had enough issues. Heaven forbid I show any emotion ever or protect myself. Other battle buddies can say what a man Putin is, but I'm the one they pull all the bull on?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KWegiHSqPHY so sad... let's have a moment of human privacy while I work out my own issues by myself.
Why didn't they, if they were determined, give me the lobotomy/ brain surgery when I was looking at all of Putin's pictures? It's all for the special snowflakes. They waste a lot of money doing that.
Guess what? My C&P was canceled, and I was awarded 100% permanent and total disability. Where were you then? Madonna couldn't be God and stop me from being paid? Breaking Benjamin hasn't killed me? I'm supposed to be a "Work Bitch," (Brittney Spears 2:04), which the crowd will love, as you harness their vanity. Yes, put me in the lowest shithole to justify your horrible lives. Until they fix me, after feeling super special, I won't be doing that much. I am impaired. There's no denying it. I chill with music.
Thanks for trying, VA. The world is against us.
I guess I'm supposed to ask Obama for five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I don't care who does it anymore. I want it. Putin at least faced me a couple of times, and he did some damage though. I am grateful to the VA, but the others are surrounding us all. I want to go into hiding.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQj--Kjn0z8
People suck.
I've had many different weapons used on me. From "Jackie's Funeral" Machines of Loving Grace/"Girl" Beck with Putin, to crawling sessions, it's been great. If I get raped one more time by the machines... They are sick people. They play all the horrible things people say about me ("Sally's Song" by Universal Hall Pass), which is why I avoid most people, as most of them hate me. I'm a loser in life's race. I already know. I like the elderly and that's about it. There are a few exceptions.
I feel like they're 9 year old boys talking on walkie-talkies to truck drivers.
Back to Putin... I like how I had five or six voices tell me things as I spilled the beans, like "Big mouth." I was sick of them messing with me, too. MM even got involved--and the movie. Wimps.
I had enough issues. Heaven forbid I show any emotion ever or protect myself. Other battle buddies can say what a man Putin is, but I'm the one they pull all the bull on?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KWegiHSqPHY so sad... let's have a moment of human privacy while I work out my own issues by myself.
Why didn't they, if they were determined, give me the lobotomy/ brain surgery when I was looking at all of Putin's pictures? It's all for the special snowflakes. They waste a lot of money doing that.
Guess what? My C&P was canceled, and I was awarded 100% permanent and total disability. Where were you then? Madonna couldn't be God and stop me from being paid? Breaking Benjamin hasn't killed me? I'm supposed to be a "Work Bitch," (Brittney Spears 2:04), which the crowd will love, as you harness their vanity. Yes, put me in the lowest shithole to justify your horrible lives. Until they fix me, after feeling super special, I won't be doing that much. I am impaired. There's no denying it. I chill with music.
Thanks for trying, VA. The world is against us.
I guess I'm supposed to ask Obama for five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I don't care who does it anymore. I want it. Putin at least faced me a couple of times, and he did some damage though. I am grateful to the VA, but the others are surrounding us all. I want to go into hiding.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQj--Kjn0z8
Saturday, August 6, 2016
Squashed by Intelligence Agencies and the Vain
If you watch my videos, which you probably don't, you will see that I have a problem with attracting people who want to hurt me, from Putin to Madonna (I'm not even kidding). They usually have these long narratives that mean nothing but, "Shut up and give me the cash."
I was talking to myself, not you, but okay. I've fallen for it. I'm talking to you now.
It's like, nice facelift, and you have made yourself God due to your insecurity. How do you like all the freaks who look to you as a "savior?" I made that mistake. Hey, I was younger.
Don't try to be moral while you're fucking me to make me listen. That act in itself is inhumane. Why not just get rid of free speech? Like taking my paycheck, you seem to only have sneaky power, shadow governments in the mists.
I'm the poorboy to beat.
People like me will fill these holes. The ones in power must be having issues with us slaves explaining why something won't work. I could write 1000 pages. I had my mind erased and went right back through the traps.
Once again, if you don't fix the system, this will happen again. Maybe it doesn't matter either way, but you all are so desperate for yourselves.
You have free speech until you don't agree with me.
And, again, Vote for the winner.
I wish I could ponder the stars with soft music, but alas, I was too important.
I was talking to myself, not you, but okay. I've fallen for it. I'm talking to you now.
It's like, nice facelift, and you have made yourself God due to your insecurity. How do you like all the freaks who look to you as a "savior?" I made that mistake. Hey, I was younger.
Don't try to be moral while you're fucking me to make me listen. That act in itself is inhumane. Why not just get rid of free speech? Like taking my paycheck, you seem to only have sneaky power, shadow governments in the mists.
I'm the poorboy to beat.
People like me will fill these holes. The ones in power must be having issues with us slaves explaining why something won't work. I could write 1000 pages. I had my mind erased and went right back through the traps.
Once again, if you don't fix the system, this will happen again. Maybe it doesn't matter either way, but you all are so desperate for yourselves.
You have free speech until you don't agree with me.
And, again, Vote for the winner.
I wish I could ponder the stars with soft music, but alas, I was too important.
Thursday, August 4, 2016
Annoying Functions of My Brain
If you don't know, when I start thinking about Putin, I always get these great lines. I really haven't delved into the porn world, yet I still have the curse. From "expanding my economy" (which I posted without thinking anything sexual), to this:
"Are you going down with the flag, captain?"
"With pride," said the captain.
I've never played a porn dvd. The closest I've come was when I was in St. Louis, and this guy asked me to help him load a video. I didn't know. I got the video, and he watched, having no interest in me. I was like, "Some people."
Also, my brain tries to censor all this political nonsense. From that, I've come to the conclusion, "It's best to vote for the winner."
"Are you going down with the flag, captain?"
"With pride," said the captain.
I've never played a porn dvd. The closest I've come was when I was in St. Louis, and this guy asked me to help him load a video. I didn't know. I got the video, and he watched, having no interest in me. I was like, "Some people."
Also, my brain tries to censor all this political nonsense. From that, I've come to the conclusion, "It's best to vote for the winner."
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Living Life Shattered
I am ashamed of myself, but I'm sure I'll do it again. I can't help it. I float in reality here and there. With medicine, I'm calm.
I still suffer delusions, but they're subtle. Yesterday, I was convinced my cousin knew I was asking Putin for five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I had the feelings of a crowd when there was none.
Sorry, Obama, I don't think you're a "fag." I was scared. Where were they to "care" then? I need to learn to stop lashing out at people regardless. One of the problems is that other people treat me like shit, so I turn around and do similar behavior. I don't always get the hint, "We're done."
After reading myself, yet again, I can see why I got a lobotomy. OMG. Why was I out of the nuthatch then?
I'm still irritated about the way the operation was done. They should take us to hospitals and strap us down. I'm not lying. They all kept doing it at once. Then the 8.5 month headache and release.
Also, Putin didn't need to get involved. I know I was possessed by demons, but he only encouraged them. Plus, he was my hero, and he has so much influence. I'm the going off on the monologues of the antihero.
The house and money would have been nice, but Putin can't face me.
Well, I'm going to go now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xY8Rp4GOPag
I still suffer delusions, but they're subtle. Yesterday, I was convinced my cousin knew I was asking Putin for five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I had the feelings of a crowd when there was none.
Sorry, Obama, I don't think you're a "fag." I was scared. Where were they to "care" then? I need to learn to stop lashing out at people regardless. One of the problems is that other people treat me like shit, so I turn around and do similar behavior. I don't always get the hint, "We're done."
After reading myself, yet again, I can see why I got a lobotomy. OMG. Why was I out of the nuthatch then?
I'm still irritated about the way the operation was done. They should take us to hospitals and strap us down. I'm not lying. They all kept doing it at once. Then the 8.5 month headache and release.
Also, Putin didn't need to get involved. I know I was possessed by demons, but he only encouraged them. Plus, he was my hero, and he has so much influence. I'm the going off on the monologues of the antihero.
The house and money would have been nice, but Putin can't face me.
Well, I'm going to go now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xY8Rp4GOPag
Monday, August 1, 2016
My Firing Squad--Kill the Demons
I had to fight Putin's influence. They went all hardcore after that, the others. I realize there was a guy after me, which is why I had to stay in Virginia, but it was nothing like when Putin posted the picture that not only disturbed me, but it was an extreme form of punishment.
That's when I still thought Putin was my dad/God/husband (kinky, but I was ill, and it wasn't all at once). They have mind control devices, and all they use them for is their own entertainment/gain. They knew what I was thinking. They could have helped correct me.
I had a bunch of the sycophants after me after Putin decided to turn me into a target. One brain surgery would have sufficed. Not only, but they made a big deal about it and hunted me like a dog.
I'm famous--but not allowed.
When is the rule of law going to return to the United States?
http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/bergdahls-lawyers-ask-for-charges-to-be-dropped-over-mccain-comments/ar-BBv7hPd?li=BBmkt5R&ocid=spartanntp
Hopefully, Bergdahl will grow up and act like an adult. He had quite the ego as well (my sin, not like a hotshot, but denying limits about myself, who I am).
That's when I still thought Putin was my dad/God/husband (kinky, but I was ill, and it wasn't all at once). They have mind control devices, and all they use them for is their own entertainment/gain. They knew what I was thinking. They could have helped correct me.
I had a bunch of the sycophants after me after Putin decided to turn me into a target. One brain surgery would have sufficed. Not only, but they made a big deal about it and hunted me like a dog.
I'm famous--but not allowed.
When is the rule of law going to return to the United States?
http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/bergdahls-lawyers-ask-for-charges-to-be-dropped-over-mccain-comments/ar-BBv7hPd?li=BBmkt5R&ocid=spartanntp
Hopefully, Bergdahl will grow up and act like an adult. He had quite the ego as well (my sin, not like a hotshot, but denying limits about myself, who I am).
Sunday, July 31, 2016
Whining On RT, Fooling One's Self and Demons
So, schizophrenia has pretty much ruined me. My mind is shattered, I can't remember things, and I'm a loser at 29: no family, no husband, no job, little education, no dignity.
I have no future. I won't be able to work anywhere with sensitive information, like a doctor's office.
I spread on the internet to survive from Putin's influence. That happened. I have no idea how I offended him. I can only guess. I don't think I deserved all that. It was flamingly obvious I was schizophrenic. I use that to cover some of my sins, but not all. Some of it is me. Some of it is the disease, which has left me a shell of my former self.
I am a shadow. I still like being alive, thank you. I learned that after I almost died a bunch. SAW is real.
Anyway, I know I confuse other people. My brain is weird. It like connects to the dominate awareness and tries to guess actions. Pills stop the reaction. I have a very limited ability to understand various intentions, and it's gotten me into a lot of trouble.
For Putin's involvement, I would like five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I want to hide in peace. I'll shutup then and ponder the world.
I have no future. I won't be able to work anywhere with sensitive information, like a doctor's office.
I spread on the internet to survive from Putin's influence. That happened. I have no idea how I offended him. I can only guess. I don't think I deserved all that. It was flamingly obvious I was schizophrenic. I use that to cover some of my sins, but not all. Some of it is me. Some of it is the disease, which has left me a shell of my former self.
I am a shadow. I still like being alive, thank you. I learned that after I almost died a bunch. SAW is real.
Anyway, I know I confuse other people. My brain is weird. It like connects to the dominate awareness and tries to guess actions. Pills stop the reaction. I have a very limited ability to understand various intentions, and it's gotten me into a lot of trouble.
For Putin's involvement, I would like five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I want to hide in peace. I'll shutup then and ponder the world.
Saturday, July 30, 2016
Vanity, Psycho-Bitch and Declawing Cats
You could say I've had my fifteen minutes of shame.
They're running around us, trying to suck us of our souls and cash. What is wrong with you guys? What happened to you that you feel you need to abuse everyone?
You could play SIMs for your fetish of control. Get those demons out of you, Madonna. Damn, woman. You were quite prissy during your career, but you developed. You people are not letting us sort out our own problems, especially the young.
Everyone is given a card to play. Stay in your lane.
And I'm a person. I mean nothing to you, you say; then why are you up my ass? Digging for something? I've got a few shit diamonds. That's what they told me when I tried to dance at a wedding.
I realize you're getting in our faces to show us who is boss. Do you know what happens with that reaction? You're giving me your demons.
I am going to ignore you and let you fail. It isn't worth my time anymore.
They're running around us, trying to suck us of our souls and cash. What is wrong with you guys? What happened to you that you feel you need to abuse everyone?
You could play SIMs for your fetish of control. Get those demons out of you, Madonna. Damn, woman. You were quite prissy during your career, but you developed. You people are not letting us sort out our own problems, especially the young.
Everyone is given a card to play. Stay in your lane.
And I'm a person. I mean nothing to you, you say; then why are you up my ass? Digging for something? I've got a few shit diamonds. That's what they told me when I tried to dance at a wedding.
I realize you're getting in our faces to show us who is boss. Do you know what happens with that reaction? You're giving me your demons.
I am going to ignore you and let you fail. It isn't worth my time anymore.
The VA
I'm a veteran, and I've received pretty good care from the VA. The only problem we had was when I was having a hard time explaining myself and the head injury was missed (8.5 month headache). They aren't the only ones. I went through several, regular hospitals, and they didn't understand me. It was hard because that was before I was taking medicine. Still, I would like if they would make a manual on listening to mentally ill patients.
I digress. I've noticed the VA receives a lot of heat. Recently, they got into trouble for purchasing artwork. If you go into a VA, you won't see much, just chairs and lab work tickets. It is kind of depressing and adds to the overall stress within because people need some aesthetics, especially sick people.
Most other hospitals are more pleasing to the eye.
I would say that the VA needs to have veterans donate their artwork to various hospitals.
There are some talented people out there who could brighten the place up.
Be creative, people. Lack of money brings creativity a lot of times.
https://www.yahoo.com/gma/report-va-spent-millions-costly-art-veterans-waited-083642343--abc-news-topstories.html
I digress. I've noticed the VA receives a lot of heat. Recently, they got into trouble for purchasing artwork. If you go into a VA, you won't see much, just chairs and lab work tickets. It is kind of depressing and adds to the overall stress within because people need some aesthetics, especially sick people.
Most other hospitals are more pleasing to the eye.
I would say that the VA needs to have veterans donate their artwork to various hospitals.
There are some talented people out there who could brighten the place up.
Be creative, people. Lack of money brings creativity a lot of times.
https://www.yahoo.com/gma/report-va-spent-millions-costly-art-veterans-waited-083642343--abc-news-topstories.html
Friday, July 29, 2016
Snowden's Issues with Authority and Special Snowflake complex Comes again
Ladies and gentlemen, the search is over. We've found our special snowflake God: Edward Snowden.
He wants all the attention of being a top whistleblower. He talks about his assignments, condemns people he's never met, and he thinks he's an expert on many matters above him.
All that attention! Now he's trying to be "moral." He's probably starting to fight himself.
I thought he was okay until I did some research. It's like, "You're even a crappier human than me."
I'll tell you a deal. How about we do a spy switch (I'm not a spy, I joke about it) with me and Snowden. And I still want the frickin' five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I will go visit Russia for a few weeks first, a dream. Putin can redeem himself.
https://www.rt.com/news/353948-snowden-wikileaks-twitter-clash/
He wants all the attention of being a top whistleblower. He talks about his assignments, condemns people he's never met, and he thinks he's an expert on many matters above him.
All that attention! Now he's trying to be "moral." He's probably starting to fight himself.
I thought he was okay until I did some research. It's like, "You're even a crappier human than me."
I'll tell you a deal. How about we do a spy switch (I'm not a spy, I joke about it) with me and Snowden. And I still want the frickin' five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). I will go visit Russia for a few weeks first, a dream. Putin can redeem himself.
https://www.rt.com/news/353948-snowden-wikileaks-twitter-clash/
Thursday, July 28, 2016
Grrness
So youtube is picking suggestions from my thoughts. I sound crazy. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has a problem with this being so in my face. I'm sick of you guys being in my face about crap. It is not a pissing contest about who can hurt me the most.
We don't have human rights. We get it! Have fun like children.
You're screwing everything up because you simply can't handle these weapons. You could have fixed me, and you could still, but you insist on "this," rubbing our heads into dogshit to show who is boss.
Go away.
--Flesh robot out--
For more bitching, check later.
We don't have human rights. We get it! Have fun like children.
You're screwing everything up because you simply can't handle these weapons. You could have fixed me, and you could still, but you insist on "this," rubbing our heads into dogshit to show who is boss.
Go away.
--Flesh robot out--
For more bitching, check later.
Dear President Obama
First off, it's nice to address you. I know you won't hear me. I want to say a few things to the wall in my living room.
I have some questions and concerns.
One, why have you made all of us hate you in the lower classes? Are you trying to distance us from each other? Why, after doing this, are you offended?
I didn't really have a problem with you before, but your tactic is causing me problems, as I am a vulnerable adult (not to whine). These changes you've made affect me faster than other people in society--and are harsher.
People like to hurt me. Get in my face. hahaha (Bjork) You guys have a hard time not abusing this technology, I see.
It's like when I was silenced. You should have asked Putin about that (not that he remembers me), and you would find out that I don't know much. I had a crush on Putin, which led to some terrible floor ends.
I'm a parrot in a shattered reality. Why are you doing that? How come you can't come out and say what you want? All you have to do is have a massacre. That usually makes everyone quiet. They're brave until they get a taste of death.
When you decided to do various operations and punishments, did you even have them bother checking our living conditions? I was starving myself, sick of being chased and freezing. I had a lot of problems to work through while being tortured. It is partly my fault. I haven't been allowed my own emotions and thoughts in life. I exploded with the rage because it felt great.
In conclusion, please find a group for us so that we're not so unspecial (I mean it spelled like that).
I have some questions and concerns.
One, why have you made all of us hate you in the lower classes? Are you trying to distance us from each other? Why, after doing this, are you offended?
I didn't really have a problem with you before, but your tactic is causing me problems, as I am a vulnerable adult (not to whine). These changes you've made affect me faster than other people in society--and are harsher.
People like to hurt me. Get in my face. hahaha (Bjork) You guys have a hard time not abusing this technology, I see.
It's like when I was silenced. You should have asked Putin about that (not that he remembers me), and you would find out that I don't know much. I had a crush on Putin, which led to some terrible floor ends.
I'm a parrot in a shattered reality. Why are you doing that? How come you can't come out and say what you want? All you have to do is have a massacre. That usually makes everyone quiet. They're brave until they get a taste of death.
When you decided to do various operations and punishments, did you even have them bother checking our living conditions? I was starving myself, sick of being chased and freezing. I had a lot of problems to work through while being tortured. It is partly my fault. I haven't been allowed my own emotions and thoughts in life. I exploded with the rage because it felt great.
In conclusion, please find a group for us so that we're not so unspecial (I mean it spelled like that).
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Venting
People have treated me like crap my whole life. wah, wah. I've made the mistake of being too nice and accepting, letting toxic people into my world and live there. I often exaggerate my own worthlessness and don't think anyone is going to notice me. They do at times.
I have to be careful.
Putin had to be a douche bag. He doesn't think about others a lot of the time and does whatever he feels like. He knows nobody cares about us little folk.
I get a little aggressive these days.
I remember when I saw "I Want to Believe." I was like, well, my life is over. Sit in the barracks room. No one will help you.
C was like, "You're young. You have time." I wish. They won't let me go that easily. It's all about them. It just put me on a bunch of watch lists and inspired people to use me like a piñata. I have to say and do whatever they want, like "Dear Ricky."
I know I'm worthless. I'm 29, I have no skills, I don't work, I have a no husband, I won't have kids, I'm short, I'm fat, I'm ugly, I only have two front teeth. I'm a virgin-ish-thing. Best throw me off the cliff.
Yes, I know. Everyone hates me, which also makes me a target, as I am their sacrificial lamb. I have all the time in the world in the illusion of freedom, but I'm disabled against my original form/inclination. I'm a mechanical animal. As far as being fat goes, it defends me against those who try to partner me with men above my class for themselves, a joke so that they can hunt me.
I'm free range.
My legs are closed forever. They can have the babies. I'm not going to raise a kid to be a flesh zombie. It's not going to happen. If you make me have sex, I will kill anything in me. Thankfully, they've only raped me with machines. They could have been real dirty and forced me on one the bums. Hey, look, something to be thankful for.
BTW, if you've never had those weapons on you, be thankful. They're quite painful and scary. The one that made me crawl everywhere was interesting. The ones that said they were going to rape and kill my own family made it so that I couldn't think. Horrific feeling really.
Peace and love.
I tried to destroy myself fast enough, but doing myself in financially wasn't all they wanted. It's never enough for them.
I have to be careful.
Putin had to be a douche bag. He doesn't think about others a lot of the time and does whatever he feels like. He knows nobody cares about us little folk.
I get a little aggressive these days.
I remember when I saw "I Want to Believe." I was like, well, my life is over. Sit in the barracks room. No one will help you.
C was like, "You're young. You have time." I wish. They won't let me go that easily. It's all about them. It just put me on a bunch of watch lists and inspired people to use me like a piñata. I have to say and do whatever they want, like "Dear Ricky."
I know I'm worthless. I'm 29, I have no skills, I don't work, I have a no husband, I won't have kids, I'm short, I'm fat, I'm ugly, I only have two front teeth. I'm a virgin-ish-thing. Best throw me off the cliff.
Yes, I know. Everyone hates me, which also makes me a target, as I am their sacrificial lamb. I have all the time in the world in the illusion of freedom, but I'm disabled against my original form/inclination. I'm a mechanical animal. As far as being fat goes, it defends me against those who try to partner me with men above my class for themselves, a joke so that they can hunt me.
I'm free range.
My legs are closed forever. They can have the babies. I'm not going to raise a kid to be a flesh zombie. It's not going to happen. If you make me have sex, I will kill anything in me. Thankfully, they've only raped me with machines. They could have been real dirty and forced me on one the bums. Hey, look, something to be thankful for.
BTW, if you've never had those weapons on you, be thankful. They're quite painful and scary. The one that made me crawl everywhere was interesting. The ones that said they were going to rape and kill my own family made it so that I couldn't think. Horrific feeling really.
Peace and love.
I tried to destroy myself fast enough, but doing myself in financially wasn't all they wanted. It's never enough for them.
Tuesday, July 26, 2016
Being Edited By Morons
I had a few issues with them. The girl who was "helping me" was quite unaware of the constants in my life. I go in circles. It's pointless, but I like the rain.
Anyway, I have special rules, too. I wasn't supposed to go out to eat. They would hurt me if I did. I wasn't supposed to go to school. They wanted me to dye my hair blonde.
They punished my voices, and I became married to Putin. I also became ultra corrupt and dead. How I split off from myself was interesting. When they got to my backthoughts, everything started popping up in my reality, like shampoo bottles.
Of course, I got the usual "family values." I will kill anything that starts growing in me. Make your own zombie slaves, like Madonna with her love of peace and freedom.
Use robots? Solar power. No, human flesh. "Nothing Really Matters" Madonna. Did the Dalai Slave Lord bless you with his kindness. Well, I was reincarnated as a demon.
No, I refuse to associate with the human race.
Anyway, I have special rules, too. I wasn't supposed to go out to eat. They would hurt me if I did. I wasn't supposed to go to school. They wanted me to dye my hair blonde.
They punished my voices, and I became married to Putin. I also became ultra corrupt and dead. How I split off from myself was interesting. When they got to my backthoughts, everything started popping up in my reality, like shampoo bottles.
Of course, I got the usual "family values." I will kill anything that starts growing in me. Make your own zombie slaves, like Madonna with her love of peace and freedom.
Use robots? Solar power. No, human flesh. "Nothing Really Matters" Madonna. Did the Dalai Slave Lord bless you with his kindness. Well, I was reincarnated as a demon.
No, I refuse to associate with the human race.
Left Behind
I was a ghost for a while. I simply wander around and ignore everyone. I'm usually depressed, which I like, and I ponder questions at the stars. I like to read and write because it makes me feel accomplished, like I'm saying something.
I find comfort in little things, like cats playing with a stuffed toy, summer rain and a long walk.
I am used quite a bit. Wah, wah, it's why I try to dodge bullets.
I can't fight them all.
Yes, they did mess with my internal organs in St. Louis and Virginia. I went to the ER several times. They also made me hear voices of various "friends." They were trying to get me to kill myself.
I hope Putin is impressed, as his attention made me "special."
For all of it, I want the house on hideaway (after taxes) and the five million dollars (after taxes). Give me a reason to be happy, not a whip.
I find comfort in little things, like cats playing with a stuffed toy, summer rain and a long walk.
I am used quite a bit. Wah, wah, it's why I try to dodge bullets.
I can't fight them all.
Yes, they did mess with my internal organs in St. Louis and Virginia. I went to the ER several times. They also made me hear voices of various "friends." They were trying to get me to kill myself.
I hope Putin is impressed, as his attention made me "special."
For all of it, I want the house on hideaway (after taxes) and the five million dollars (after taxes). Give me a reason to be happy, not a whip.
Purity--Bitching
Some days, I want to kick President Obama in the shins. No disrespect intended. I hope it hurt though.
The upper classes were given weapons to further destroy us. They say it as being good for the world. They're using them to catch caste crashers at the moment--and vulnerable people.
I am now an empty shell. It's like, Bjork, in the real world, here in the US, they'll eat me alive. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cb24kLd459Y
We don't get playground rules. We fail the trap of purity that you have. Fuck off.
No matter what I do, I end up in a trap, or I'm too low to be where I am.
I'm getting teeth this time (2 more visits, and no one can screw it up), and I've collected enough books (at my own, special pace) that I can take another disaster. My life is kind of random, but whatever.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPTK9e8YqIY
You're not Einstein either--any of you.
The upper classes were given weapons to further destroy us. They say it as being good for the world. They're using them to catch caste crashers at the moment--and vulnerable people.
I am now an empty shell. It's like, Bjork, in the real world, here in the US, they'll eat me alive. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cb24kLd459Y
We don't get playground rules. We fail the trap of purity that you have. Fuck off.
No matter what I do, I end up in a trap, or I'm too low to be where I am.
I'm getting teeth this time (2 more visits, and no one can screw it up), and I've collected enough books (at my own, special pace) that I can take another disaster. My life is kind of random, but whatever.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPTK9e8YqIY
You're not Einstein either--any of you.
Useful Idiots, Surface Observations and Putin
I don't know what logical fallacy it is, but I've noticed our politicians abuse it. It's when someone makes a surface observation on something way more complicated.
For example, blacks are the problem because they're violent. Blacks make lower test scores. They're lazy.
All of those are worthless observations. However, if you get a good pig to squeal about it, like I did (and other white workers), you can keep us at odds with one another. We should think a little more.
Do we really want to solve these problems for everyone?
As for myself, I try not to let half-truths and surface observations rob me of the truth. I've spent way too long deceiving myself with self-hatred.
I was a dissident as well. My reason was all the pain people cause me. They aren't a country, but I misinterpreted my feelings, like a lot of people, especially the young.
I've started standing up for myself.
I want Putin to pay me, and yes, I am blaming him for what he did. He needs to man up.
https://www.rt.com/op-edge/353362-putin-media-trump-us-eu-idiots/
One of the more interesting things I've seen on RT were all the people who think Putin is making them spies. Don't forget about the General special ops either, like Bergdahl. I was saving the planet.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBbEnU6Zvos
Monday, July 25, 2016
Strawberrydrink, Fellow Flies and other WTFness..
So, while I was in the military, I met up with a girl on Xanga called, "strawberrydrink." A sergeant had just gone off on me about my hair, which I should have cut off. I have bad hair. Anyway, strawberrydrink added to the stress I was feeling. I lashed out.
I was talking to this guy, and it was one of strawberrydrink's friends. He kept spewing all this garbage at me about how I was oppressed and could only go into the army, and he was a "speshal" speller like me, too. He claimed he was above the common rules of spelling.
Special.
Okay. I've had problems with others like him in those "gifted programs." Take a class on character. I got to hear all about it from them. They were the destined on earth. They wouldn't leave me alone after I went off on them.
So young, so little accomplished.
I said something like, "You don't appreciate the military, the people who died." That was said to me. My hair again...
Of course, the girl who I lashed out at had a few fallen, and she corrected me and said I needed to watch out.
Good luck with me. I will find many a gutter to lay in.
Strawberrydrink said I didn't agree with her feelings of her love of socialism. I didn't say that. I didn't know what socialism was.
I left her a song. She was confused and went away, but she turned me into some gossiper news, and bad things happened--especially with New Jersey. I was giving Putin advice... I was talking to the screen. Those damn, little icons got fiery, especially after the picture.
There is no love.
Back then, I was especially weird because I wasn't socialized properly, and I've been ignored my entire life when not being abused for the most part. I do things. I don't think it matters because I figure people care so little about me.
My ex was like, "You have got to meet people." That's how the blog started. I'm not even going to get into these days. As I've said many times before, I fly to the top with the other bugs looking at the light.
I'm greedy about my desert island these days. I like being alone, left alone.
I was talking to this guy, and it was one of strawberrydrink's friends. He kept spewing all this garbage at me about how I was oppressed and could only go into the army, and he was a "speshal" speller like me, too. He claimed he was above the common rules of spelling.
Special.
Okay. I've had problems with others like him in those "gifted programs." Take a class on character. I got to hear all about it from them. They were the destined on earth. They wouldn't leave me alone after I went off on them.
So young, so little accomplished.
I said something like, "You don't appreciate the military, the people who died." That was said to me. My hair again...
Of course, the girl who I lashed out at had a few fallen, and she corrected me and said I needed to watch out.
Good luck with me. I will find many a gutter to lay in.
Strawberrydrink said I didn't agree with her feelings of her love of socialism. I didn't say that. I didn't know what socialism was.
I left her a song. She was confused and went away, but she turned me into some gossiper news, and bad things happened--especially with New Jersey. I was giving Putin advice... I was talking to the screen. Those damn, little icons got fiery, especially after the picture.
There is no love.
Back then, I was especially weird because I wasn't socialized properly, and I've been ignored my entire life when not being abused for the most part. I do things. I don't think it matters because I figure people care so little about me.
My ex was like, "You have got to meet people." That's how the blog started. I'm not even going to get into these days. As I've said many times before, I fly to the top with the other bugs looking at the light.
I'm greedy about my desert island these days. I like being alone, left alone.
Listening to Top Secrets Grandma Tells Me
So, they have been taping my calls. I only talk in length with my grandma.
She's a ninja. When she dies, she'll vote republican. Dead democracy.
Anyway, I know we're probably being taped for the settlement from Putin I asked for. Putin won't man up. I know our news is controlled, and Putin has immunity, but I was wronged. I'm sick of being the poorboy to beat. I know some of it was my fault. However, a lot wasn't my fault. They can give me what I think is appropriate then leave me alone--and granny, too.
We talked a bit about Putin, and grandma watches the news a lot and sees their view. God could have only have saved me. She was like, "His glances are mean." He's Russian. He's not the only foreigner we've met. My stepmom is Thai, and dad always thinks she's pissed off when she's not. She's using her emotions like a Thai would.
Beep. Beep. Beep. Could you guys stop making noise when you are recording? It's rude. Back into the shadows with y'all!
She's a ninja. When she dies, she'll vote republican. Dead democracy.
Anyway, I know we're probably being taped for the settlement from Putin I asked for. Putin won't man up. I know our news is controlled, and Putin has immunity, but I was wronged. I'm sick of being the poorboy to beat. I know some of it was my fault. However, a lot wasn't my fault. They can give me what I think is appropriate then leave me alone--and granny, too.
We talked a bit about Putin, and grandma watches the news a lot and sees their view. God could have only have saved me. She was like, "His glances are mean." He's Russian. He's not the only foreigner we've met. My stepmom is Thai, and dad always thinks she's pissed off when she's not. She's using her emotions like a Thai would.
Beep. Beep. Beep. Could you guys stop making noise when you are recording? It's rude. Back into the shadows with y'all!
Work as a punishment
I've decided that my country has a decent population of sadomasochists
Roar.
They do things for the pain. It's interesting. I spent some of my worktime watching them compete with scars. Higher bosses love this. I fell for it. I seek forgiveness for my stupidity from myself. I should be spanked.
Joking.
I don't think work is a killer. I don't ever get the best jobs. I usually compromise. I'll work at Waffle House or something, and I will write on the side, and I will read in my freetime.
The psychotronic and family thing cheesed me off good. I am not anchoring myself to the system. Life is hard enough. Plus, my babies have a good chance of being like me. I wouldn't put a person through all that. Not only, but if daddy wanted to be a douche, he could use the kids for his own gain.
You can't trust anyone.
In the end, life is short. Rewards are few. Don't pay for bullshit; get the cow.
Roar.
They do things for the pain. It's interesting. I spent some of my worktime watching them compete with scars. Higher bosses love this. I fell for it. I seek forgiveness for my stupidity from myself. I should be spanked.
Joking.
I don't think work is a killer. I don't ever get the best jobs. I usually compromise. I'll work at Waffle House or something, and I will write on the side, and I will read in my freetime.
The psychotronic and family thing cheesed me off good. I am not anchoring myself to the system. Life is hard enough. Plus, my babies have a good chance of being like me. I wouldn't put a person through all that. Not only, but if daddy wanted to be a douche, he could use the kids for his own gain.
You can't trust anyone.
In the end, life is short. Rewards are few. Don't pay for bullshit; get the cow.
Sunday, July 24, 2016
I'm an adult
Sometimes, I have to remind myself of this, and I do have a choice in my life. The fact that they're all coming at us for "free" brain surgeries is at odds with democracy and ethics. Why do they care what I do? I'm not hurting anyone. I don't owe you anything. To me, you are nothing, Madonna.
Of course, they'll flip this on me. Most people hate me. Real clever. Hope Putin "saw" you.
Okay, if it's such a great operation, why not sell it? We're capitalists.
Meds help.
I wandered around after that head injury (you didn't care then) and confused after the lobotomy (all 8,000 times).
I have gotten a little spunky about this. I'll kick Putin in the shins. Be happy you're taller than me. Unfortunately, I'm stuck with him as my reality. yes, I know he doesn't care for me. It doesn't take 5,000 goons to hit me with rays, selfie time. they should take courses in college about Stockholm syndrome. I guess they're letting just about anyone join the CIA/NSA/FBI. Look at Snowden.
I know he's the president of Russia. However, he made me a massive target, and I want him to pay.
Of course, they'll flip this on me. Most people hate me. Real clever. Hope Putin "saw" you.
Okay, if it's such a great operation, why not sell it? We're capitalists.
Meds help.
I wandered around after that head injury (you didn't care then) and confused after the lobotomy (all 8,000 times).
I have gotten a little spunky about this. I'll kick Putin in the shins. Be happy you're taller than me. Unfortunately, I'm stuck with him as my reality. yes, I know he doesn't care for me. It doesn't take 5,000 goons to hit me with rays, selfie time. they should take courses in college about Stockholm syndrome. I guess they're letting just about anyone join the CIA/NSA/FBI. Look at Snowden.
I know he's the president of Russia. However, he made me a massive target, and I want him to pay.
My Issue With Putin (Insane Instincts)
I know that I don't have followers, people who care. I know Putin doesn't care about me. I know, but my feelings are not my own.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPkqUX9rqj4 Why did the President of Russia need to harass Miss Rose, the fat peasant woman?
I can't help it. The meds do a little, but I am easy to possess, as I've explained before.
I had some family issues. I also thought Putin was my father/god/husband (switched around). It allowed them to open new wounds. Ask Marilyn Manson.
During the video, along with the picture, caused my side to become a little sadistic. Let's face it. They can't find targets fast enough, and one of their favorite targets are the young and stupid. I was/am both.
People like to hurt me.
They filled me with Putin and then attacked me for it. On a side note, they made my "friends" say horrible things about me, and I lashed out. They told me that Putin wanted me to throw my books off a cliff and kill myself. Then they made me retardeder with "Satan Sex."
No matter what I do, the gun comes up, right? No need for song or dance.
Long story short, the way they did it caused me to develop Stockholm syndrome. That's how they got in and the head banging happened. I thought Putin was God. They also threatened one of my sisters.
They'll do whatever they want to anyway.
Don't try to play the schizophrenia card; you know what they are like.
Can't use anything for a good reason. And, why yes, Putin, I'm trying to get funds from you so that I can have a nice life, too. I've had enough of people. The house is a good enough tomb for me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPkqUX9rqj4 Why did the President of Russia need to harass Miss Rose, the fat peasant woman?
I can't help it. The meds do a little, but I am easy to possess, as I've explained before.
I had some family issues. I also thought Putin was my father/god/husband (switched around). It allowed them to open new wounds. Ask Marilyn Manson.
During the video, along with the picture, caused my side to become a little sadistic. Let's face it. They can't find targets fast enough, and one of their favorite targets are the young and stupid. I was/am both.
People like to hurt me.
They filled me with Putin and then attacked me for it. On a side note, they made my "friends" say horrible things about me, and I lashed out. They told me that Putin wanted me to throw my books off a cliff and kill myself. Then they made me retardeder with "Satan Sex."
No matter what I do, the gun comes up, right? No need for song or dance.
Long story short, the way they did it caused me to develop Stockholm syndrome. That's how they got in and the head banging happened. I thought Putin was God. They also threatened one of my sisters.
They'll do whatever they want to anyway.
Don't try to play the schizophrenia card; you know what they are like.
Can't use anything for a good reason. And, why yes, Putin, I'm trying to get funds from you so that I can have a nice life, too. I've had enough of people. The house is a good enough tomb for me.
Saturday, July 23, 2016
Wealth and what lies under the spell
I know there are probably fancy names for this, but I will bring it forth in my words.
For a long time, I hated wealth or anything eluding to it.
Blue Stahli says we've been, "dominated by all you hated." In a way yes, but our old programmers did it to keep the classes healthy and not abusing one another, like we are now with class warfare. Most humans justify how they're somehow "better." Different places for different faces.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nmn0VVaPwGo
Anyway, a lot of these artists are finding the seeds that were planted and declaring them sins. Unless they fix the system, they'll be in good business.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nlcIKh6sBtc <--she is split, the seeds. Interesting. Leave us alone. Eat yourselves.
Problems...
In my class, I am given enough money to eat. housing, etc... I can't earn much. There's no point in even fighting it. Here comes the gun: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=puu3IvKnSb4 They usually expect me to be some genius, like Einstein. They have a million sins for us.
Signs of wealth often scare me (for above reason), and I used to get triggered around them. People know I'm not going to succeed, so they rub things in my face and make fun of me, like not letting me have a lawsuit against the people who harm me. Do whatever.
A lot of us are going to end up circumcised. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDl9ZMfj6aE
ISIS for you (not joining). To survive.
For a long time, I hated wealth or anything eluding to it.
Blue Stahli says we've been, "dominated by all you hated." In a way yes, but our old programmers did it to keep the classes healthy and not abusing one another, like we are now with class warfare. Most humans justify how they're somehow "better." Different places for different faces.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nmn0VVaPwGo
Anyway, a lot of these artists are finding the seeds that were planted and declaring them sins. Unless they fix the system, they'll be in good business.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nlcIKh6sBtc <--she is split, the seeds. Interesting. Leave us alone. Eat yourselves.
Problems...
In my class, I am given enough money to eat. housing, etc... I can't earn much. There's no point in even fighting it. Here comes the gun: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=puu3IvKnSb4 They usually expect me to be some genius, like Einstein. They have a million sins for us.
Signs of wealth often scare me (for above reason), and I used to get triggered around them. People know I'm not going to succeed, so they rub things in my face and make fun of me, like not letting me have a lawsuit against the people who harm me. Do whatever.
A lot of us are going to end up circumcised. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDl9ZMfj6aE
ISIS for you (not joining). To survive.
Paradise Lost: The Antihero Laughs Again
The goons haven't flooded me as much lately, but a few have still made it through.
Frustrating. So. Frustrating! I can't even feel it like I used to. That is a plus. Many people are so closed minded that they can't handle anything "new" or "different." They also disassociate.
The goons try to use their "keywords" on me or clichés. "It could be worse." It's like, I've had a fucking lobotomy. I couldn't care less about you.
Why did you give me a lobotomy if you're only going to torment me?
WTF?
This place makes no sense.
I guess it sort of does. They try to knock me off the trail of life and hope I end up burning in Hell. Unfortunately for you, I made a deal with myself never to do what I did as a teenager. However, I did make the mistake in Virginia of feeling my own emotions. I had fun.
Annoyingly enough, I'm in the system. I think the worst they could do is to put me behind locked doors. That's the last leverage they have. I suppose they have their loaded guns, too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Oll_ZaE-r8 <-this group really pisses me off. They're all so "special." They could have gotten me at the start and not given me VA benefits because I committed treason (don't laugh, what I said was known, but still; they could have gotten me). They need special help as well, it seems, in competence and human rights.
My helper laughed about the Madonna Video. They're punishing me for wanting to be famous. I had fantasies. Beat that dead horse. It was cool, and it made me feel better, when she said her kids would have been thrilled.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JbcyMFuR6i0 a spell was put on me to keep me happy through the wasteland, but you steal everything.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRaWnd3LJfs Life after Putin blesses you with his "attention." I won't lie. It was something to do. Then I got hurt.
Why do I only talk about myself? I'm venting. I rarely say anything to anyone else.
I hate humans. Good thing their time is ticking away violently.
Frustrating. So. Frustrating! I can't even feel it like I used to. That is a plus. Many people are so closed minded that they can't handle anything "new" or "different." They also disassociate.
The goons try to use their "keywords" on me or clichés. "It could be worse." It's like, I've had a fucking lobotomy. I couldn't care less about you.
Why did you give me a lobotomy if you're only going to torment me?
WTF?
This place makes no sense.
I guess it sort of does. They try to knock me off the trail of life and hope I end up burning in Hell. Unfortunately for you, I made a deal with myself never to do what I did as a teenager. However, I did make the mistake in Virginia of feeling my own emotions. I had fun.
Annoyingly enough, I'm in the system. I think the worst they could do is to put me behind locked doors. That's the last leverage they have. I suppose they have their loaded guns, too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Oll_ZaE-r8 <-this group really pisses me off. They're all so "special." They could have gotten me at the start and not given me VA benefits because I committed treason (don't laugh, what I said was known, but still; they could have gotten me). They need special help as well, it seems, in competence and human rights.
My helper laughed about the Madonna Video. They're punishing me for wanting to be famous. I had fantasies. Beat that dead horse. It was cool, and it made me feel better, when she said her kids would have been thrilled.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JbcyMFuR6i0 a spell was put on me to keep me happy through the wasteland, but you steal everything.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRaWnd3LJfs Life after Putin blesses you with his "attention." I won't lie. It was something to do. Then I got hurt.
Why do I only talk about myself? I'm venting. I rarely say anything to anyone else.
I hate humans. Good thing their time is ticking away violently.
Friday, July 22, 2016
They see a lot of us...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-vYa6XB-SQQ
This woman is going to have a bad night. Hopefully, they won't make it a crusade and keep their hearts where they should be. Yes, she's mad, but she's also human. She could be one of your loved ones.
I remember my days. I have to save the world, beat the four corners of Hell to get back to the paradise in Russia. Bush is talking to the dinosaurs through e8. He must be stopped!
Don't look at me. I'm still suspicious about that.
Hope Putin will pay me five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). He had too much influence to do something like what he did.
This woman is going to have a bad night. Hopefully, they won't make it a crusade and keep their hearts where they should be. Yes, she's mad, but she's also human. She could be one of your loved ones.
I remember my days. I have to save the world, beat the four corners of Hell to get back to the paradise in Russia. Bush is talking to the dinosaurs through e8. He must be stopped!
Don't look at me. I'm still suspicious about that.
Hope Putin will pay me five million dollars (after taxes) and the house on hideaway (after taxes). He had too much influence to do something like what he did.
Wednesday, July 20, 2016
Shattered Thoughts and Awareness
It's weird being like this. My thoughts are shattered along with my beliefs, as I can see it later. Half the time, I don't agree with myself.
I cycle around Putin. Some days my memory tells me he's good. Others, I think he's bad.
Oh well. He didn't have to make me even more of a target.
I really hope that Putin decides to buy the house on hideaway for me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaqyTVguYmI.
I would also like the five million dollars (after taxes for both the house and money).
I cycle around Putin. Some days my memory tells me he's good. Others, I think he's bad.
Oh well. He didn't have to make me even more of a target.
I really hope that Putin decides to buy the house on hideaway for me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaqyTVguYmI.
I would also like the five million dollars (after taxes for both the house and money).
Tuesday, July 19, 2016
Special Rainbows and Snowflakes From Santa
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6tmvloGhuc
It's like when they were all incited by Putin to harm me. A lot of other people said things like, "he's a man. He runs the show."
God protects them, his retarded children.
Also, the video thing got them all excited. Why didn't they stop it? Why didn't they put me in the hospital or do the surgery then? They wanted a rat to play with, like Putin's pets.
I think they have been watching hard propaganda and are losing the sense of their true purpose--who they are and what they do. The army, the CIA, the NSA, FBI and other companies are there to keep the flow of society going.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6tmvloGhuc seems like the KGB realized how special they were. Vain. Remember, Marilyn Manson, like the album. I said it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X9BEjwI5DJg
They aren't movie stars. Life isn't a video game either. It's another boring day here on Earth.
We aren't supermen.
It's like Snowden... At 29, he decided that he is the boss of the CIA/NSA, impressive. I'm a General. Back off, or I'll scratch you with my leg hair.
It's like when they were all incited by Putin to harm me. A lot of other people said things like, "he's a man. He runs the show."
God protects them, his retarded children.
Also, the video thing got them all excited. Why didn't they stop it? Why didn't they put me in the hospital or do the surgery then? They wanted a rat to play with, like Putin's pets.
I think they have been watching hard propaganda and are losing the sense of their true purpose--who they are and what they do. The army, the CIA, the NSA, FBI and other companies are there to keep the flow of society going.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6tmvloGhuc seems like the KGB realized how special they were. Vain. Remember, Marilyn Manson, like the album. I said it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X9BEjwI5DJg
They aren't movie stars. Life isn't a video game either. It's another boring day here on Earth.
We aren't supermen.
It's like Snowden... At 29, he decided that he is the boss of the CIA/NSA, impressive. I'm a General. Back off, or I'll scratch you with my leg hair.
Dear Artists,
First off, I would like to commend your great understanding of brain surgery as well as your ability to undress and grab onto anything "new" to stay relevant.
I'm not here to say all your hope is in vain. Time will show us. How does it look, heroes? I will make my case with you now.
I find the way you conduct business to be very rude. Why is getting a lobotomy a punishment? Some people go crazy or need a break. Do excuse my use of the term "lobotomy." They perform the task in a creative mannerism. Anyway, it's nice to get them all chanting it at us. Placebo took it even farther to include people with "Special Needs." He plays, "memememe" on his guitar.
Unfortunately, children/young people don't understand. We have dreams as well as normal people. We want to have fun, not smother in socioeconomic problems.
We get ditched.
It's quite difficult to compete because I'll "care" about myself. We need to have self-interests, and we need to stand up for ourselves when we're wronged, like other people. I am not your poorboy, Placebo or Bjork.
I understand that we have inconvenient behaviors at times. My schizophrenia pops up, and I can't do much but walk through it. I wanted to write, but my free lobotomy makes it difficult to find meaning in words.
Anything for me: trashed.
I hate you all.
I'm not here to say all your hope is in vain. Time will show us. How does it look, heroes? I will make my case with you now.
I find the way you conduct business to be very rude. Why is getting a lobotomy a punishment? Some people go crazy or need a break. Do excuse my use of the term "lobotomy." They perform the task in a creative mannerism. Anyway, it's nice to get them all chanting it at us. Placebo took it even farther to include people with "Special Needs." He plays, "memememe" on his guitar.
Unfortunately, children/young people don't understand. We have dreams as well as normal people. We want to have fun, not smother in socioeconomic problems.
We get ditched.
It's quite difficult to compete because I'll "care" about myself. We need to have self-interests, and we need to stand up for ourselves when we're wronged, like other people. I am not your poorboy, Placebo or Bjork.
I understand that we have inconvenient behaviors at times. My schizophrenia pops up, and I can't do much but walk through it. I wanted to write, but my free lobotomy makes it difficult to find meaning in words.
Anything for me: trashed.
I hate you all.
Thursday, July 14, 2016
Being "Exceptional" vs "Disposable" NO!
When I was leaving the army, I had a friend who was like, "Well, you're young. You'll find something." She had some great advice for never having had a job before the army.
Sorry, I've been in the dryer a little too long. I may not have wrinkles, but you can't ignore the hole in the pants.
I'll be thrown away.
Whine, snivel, cry, complain!
I have issues with these people as well. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6-2jNiVK86A. They hunt me like a fox. When they do that, I will be in the filter. I won't be allowed to earn anything because fair is fair.
No.
This translates into an annoyance for me. I think good examples are some of the conversations I've had on the internet. One moment, they would say I needed help. The next minute I was "faking it for attention." The money. Their brains don't even work. They deny their own thought processes.
Hence, I'm paranoid. Most people don't have to deal with it: the stupid tests they give me, the aggressive push for inflicting pain, the lack of consideration or respect. They know they don't have to.
No.
They want to hurt me. Have fun! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_fRVtcQq2k
No.
Sorry, I've been in the dryer a little too long. I may not have wrinkles, but you can't ignore the hole in the pants.
I'll be thrown away.
Whine, snivel, cry, complain!
I have issues with these people as well. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6-2jNiVK86A. They hunt me like a fox. When they do that, I will be in the filter. I won't be allowed to earn anything because fair is fair.
No.
This translates into an annoyance for me. I think good examples are some of the conversations I've had on the internet. One moment, they would say I needed help. The next minute I was "faking it for attention." The money. Their brains don't even work. They deny their own thought processes.
Hence, I'm paranoid. Most people don't have to deal with it: the stupid tests they give me, the aggressive push for inflicting pain, the lack of consideration or respect. They know they don't have to.
No.
They want to hurt me. Have fun! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_fRVtcQq2k
No.
What to do with the fragile breath
I feel as though we are rushed in society. This is probably to keep us in line.
Don't think. Fall to simple observations.
I've been given some time to think and work out problems and develop skills beyond throwing feces at my captors.
They cry themselves to sleep, I'm sure.
I know nobody cares. Few people read my blog or watch my videos. Like I said in the last post, I keep going.
The path of the antihero... Hear my cries in the snow where I am buried.
Thanks! Way to help, Putin!
Lately, I've thought of the future. I haven't had a lot of choices in life -- well, good choices. It was so weird to me when someone asked me, "What do you want to do with your life?"
I don't know. I tried the whole indie publishing thing with my novels. I don't think I'm mature enough to write anything worthwhile. I'm not ready.
I do enjoy my textbooks, but I won't get anywhere in academia either. I tend to fall to half-truths. I'm working on that.
But what should I do? I know what I shouldn't do.
I'm sure I'll figure it out. It's good to have choices beyond desperation. It's a new power, and I love it.
Don't think. Fall to simple observations.
I've been given some time to think and work out problems and develop skills beyond throwing feces at my captors.
They cry themselves to sleep, I'm sure.
I know nobody cares. Few people read my blog or watch my videos. Like I said in the last post, I keep going.
The path of the antihero... Hear my cries in the snow where I am buried.
Thanks! Way to help, Putin!
Lately, I've thought of the future. I haven't had a lot of choices in life -- well, good choices. It was so weird to me when someone asked me, "What do you want to do with your life?"
I don't know. I tried the whole indie publishing thing with my novels. I don't think I'm mature enough to write anything worthwhile. I'm not ready.
I do enjoy my textbooks, but I won't get anywhere in academia either. I tend to fall to half-truths. I'm working on that.
But what should I do? I know what I shouldn't do.
I'm sure I'll figure it out. It's good to have choices beyond desperation. It's a new power, and I love it.
Wednesday, July 13, 2016
Special
Being raised in special ed was great. As usual, we were taught things that don't exist and punished me if anything happened. I had to have friends for my IEP. I worked very hard to get rid of the IEP, and I finally did at 16, but I was toast by then. I was behind the other students. See, when you take tests as a special person, your best guess counts, and we'll each pass our papers in and be passed to the next grade.
Everyone knows who is worthless.
Yes, masters. I have issues with submission and dominance. I think they're funny now. When the goons had me in the dark, I thought I was the only one.
Oh well
Nobody likes me. I know. It's because of me. Bye.
If only I could jump higher...
My fatass would create a crater where humanity would drown.
I will be known to the moon.
Even my exboyfriend told me I needed to interact with humanity. Then the trouble with the internet began.
My mom calls me "genius child" because I end up in these situations.
It will be me. It was interesting being split off from myself and have not-not thoughts. How does that even happen?
Then I get into it with Putin (I kid you not), they all attacked me for show. I want that place on hideaway and to hide. I hate humanity.
+Bitct-fit over+
Everyone knows who is worthless.
Yes, masters. I have issues with submission and dominance. I think they're funny now. When the goons had me in the dark, I thought I was the only one.
Oh well
Nobody likes me. I know. It's because of me. Bye.
If only I could jump higher...
My fatass would create a crater where humanity would drown.
I will be known to the moon.
Even my exboyfriend told me I needed to interact with humanity. Then the trouble with the internet began.
My mom calls me "genius child" because I end up in these situations.
It will be me. It was interesting being split off from myself and have not-not thoughts. How does that even happen?
Then I get into it with Putin (I kid you not), they all attacked me for show. I want that place on hideaway and to hide. I hate humanity.
+Bitct-fit over+
Ego Issues
So, I'm not the one to come out and brag about anything. I don't think I'm wonderful. I'm human.
Of course, I make up situations I could be in that are neat and pass the time. After everything, I'm not especially bright--never was. That was part of the problem.
Now I can barely write anything enjoyable. Tell me why they gave me a lobotomy (a type of) and then started up with the things that make me suicidal?
Keep on swimming...
I keep going because I'm like that. In soccer, I usually only played a small portion of the game. I never missed a practice though, not in two years. I got a t-shirt. Honestly, I liked the practice sessions.
I'm strange.
Anyway, we're talking about ego problems. My entire being was dismembered when I was in special ed, and I tried to hide from it. Several teachers enjoyed telling the class that I was special. I probably spoke a few sentences in HS. I mostly walked around in a vague haze.
And I didn't self-actualize. I hid and stayed silent, and my idle mind brought me strife. I'm not good at school. I'm not bad, but my scores aren't predicting a future in academia. Still, I used to carry the books around with me, like I do now. It feed me for a while, my ego. I let it inflate to make up for the sordid reality.
Go to college or fail at life. It's funny, you know I spent years trying to go. I hit the usually blades I love to ignore. Managers tried to sleep with me, my raynauds made winter days especially bad, people paid me little, and they scheduled me to work on my class days.. I rode my bicycle everywhere, which also made me a loser.
I should have at least looked at the knife as it hit me. People didn't call. They didn't want to be around me. I made the wrong kind of friends, like future teachers and doctors. They hang out and post facebook pictures, and they never invite me anywhere. My ego deceived me.
Just like old times... And I didn't see that then. I kept up the fake world and its politeness.
The army and Putin thing was odd. I was losing my mind, and they all attacked me--selfie time. Then, Putin, who I had a crush on, posted the picture of me dying. I felt the walls collapse in on me again. They did horrible things to me.
It's so easy for normal people. Meanwhile, I'll be hit with them all, trying to keep my head above water.
Hopefully, I won't be as deceived again.
I tell myself to "let it go." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGJaKeYwOFo
Of course, I make up situations I could be in that are neat and pass the time. After everything, I'm not especially bright--never was. That was part of the problem.
Now I can barely write anything enjoyable. Tell me why they gave me a lobotomy (a type of) and then started up with the things that make me suicidal?
Keep on swimming...
I keep going because I'm like that. In soccer, I usually only played a small portion of the game. I never missed a practice though, not in two years. I got a t-shirt. Honestly, I liked the practice sessions.
I'm strange.
Anyway, we're talking about ego problems. My entire being was dismembered when I was in special ed, and I tried to hide from it. Several teachers enjoyed telling the class that I was special. I probably spoke a few sentences in HS. I mostly walked around in a vague haze.
And I didn't self-actualize. I hid and stayed silent, and my idle mind brought me strife. I'm not good at school. I'm not bad, but my scores aren't predicting a future in academia. Still, I used to carry the books around with me, like I do now. It feed me for a while, my ego. I let it inflate to make up for the sordid reality.
Go to college or fail at life. It's funny, you know I spent years trying to go. I hit the usually blades I love to ignore. Managers tried to sleep with me, my raynauds made winter days especially bad, people paid me little, and they scheduled me to work on my class days.. I rode my bicycle everywhere, which also made me a loser.
I should have at least looked at the knife as it hit me. People didn't call. They didn't want to be around me. I made the wrong kind of friends, like future teachers and doctors. They hang out and post facebook pictures, and they never invite me anywhere. My ego deceived me.
Just like old times... And I didn't see that then. I kept up the fake world and its politeness.
The army and Putin thing was odd. I was losing my mind, and they all attacked me--selfie time. Then, Putin, who I had a crush on, posted the picture of me dying. I felt the walls collapse in on me again. They did horrible things to me.
It's so easy for normal people. Meanwhile, I'll be hit with them all, trying to keep my head above water.
Hopefully, I won't be as deceived again.
I tell myself to "let it go." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGJaKeYwOFo
Wednesday, July 6, 2016
Extorting Money From Russia
Let's face it. I've been on RT a while, trying to get a settlement from Putin.
Now I'm blocked.
He knows what he did--and didn't.
It started out like a whale in a net. I needed help after he highlighted the first time. He attracted a bunch of sycophants. It morphed when they all attacked me. Putin made it worse with "Buffy."
Don't get me wrong.
Of course, the goons labeled me as "extorting funds." I am not doing anything illegal. They blocked me after that, so I couldn't have my say in the matter.
Typical behavior from someone who avoids responsibility.
They fight the truth. In the end, that's all anything can ever be: the truth.
Dear Hillary Clinton, I now understand why you have to be tough with the Russians. They make an inch a mile.
Now I'm blocked.
He knows what he did--and didn't.
It started out like a whale in a net. I needed help after he highlighted the first time. He attracted a bunch of sycophants. It morphed when they all attacked me. Putin made it worse with "Buffy."
Don't get me wrong.
Of course, the goons labeled me as "extorting funds." I am not doing anything illegal. They blocked me after that, so I couldn't have my say in the matter.
Typical behavior from someone who avoids responsibility.
They fight the truth. In the end, that's all anything can ever be: the truth.
Dear Hillary Clinton, I now understand why you have to be tough with the Russians. They make an inch a mile.
Sunday, June 19, 2016
Innocent Noor--Creighton, Master of Spies
https://www.yahoo.com/gma/former-teacher-orlando-nightclub-gunmans-wife-had-difficultly-152304236--abc-news-topstories.html
I feel bad for her, but she did know it was wrong, as she tried to talk him out of killing people. Being in special ed doesn't get you off the hook. Now, she might have had a hard time with loyalties, and she didn't want to betray a person who was close to her, but she knew.
Same here.
When I committed treason (real special information +rolls eyes+), I knew it was "wrong," but I was mad at their taunting and chasing. Arrest me, damn play ground bullies!
I attract these kinds of things (I've been through the gutter), having been in special ed myself. We're isolated.
She probably liked the attention her husband gave her and didn't think it through.
Who knows what her family really was like to her.
I went blind and got voices. I will say that while I was deranged and insane in Virginia, I had a blast. So much energy. I don't know how I did all that. YAHOOOOOOOOO!
I should have stood up for myself, but it's hard when you're a child because you don't have the facts, and you have no power. I didn't understand I was different either, and I became tangled in reality.
As for the army, they tested for a developmental disorder. I take the test like a schizophrenic (as usual). Yes, they made it worse. Princess Creighton isn't army material. I did have fun while I was in though. I think I spent most of my time in training and details (I was volunteered for them every time).
I would like to add that my problem is being able to pull things up in the moment. Given more time, I am as good or better (yes) than normal people.
My fault, but...
I'm a little annoyed with my relatives, as they made it very hard for me starting out. I had a more fragile future, and, of course, it was shattered.
I tried so hard to avoid that.
Oh well.
Then this guy comes and screws it up even more: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HClZwFNNMKs
I feel bad for her, but she did know it was wrong, as she tried to talk him out of killing people. Being in special ed doesn't get you off the hook. Now, she might have had a hard time with loyalties, and she didn't want to betray a person who was close to her, but she knew.
Same here.
When I committed treason (real special information +rolls eyes+), I knew it was "wrong," but I was mad at their taunting and chasing. Arrest me, damn play ground bullies!
I attract these kinds of things (I've been through the gutter), having been in special ed myself. We're isolated.
She probably liked the attention her husband gave her and didn't think it through.
Who knows what her family really was like to her.
I went blind and got voices. I will say that while I was deranged and insane in Virginia, I had a blast. So much energy. I don't know how I did all that. YAHOOOOOOOOO!
I should have stood up for myself, but it's hard when you're a child because you don't have the facts, and you have no power. I didn't understand I was different either, and I became tangled in reality.
As for the army, they tested for a developmental disorder. I take the test like a schizophrenic (as usual). Yes, they made it worse. Princess Creighton isn't army material. I did have fun while I was in though. I think I spent most of my time in training and details (I was volunteered for them every time).
I would like to add that my problem is being able to pull things up in the moment. Given more time, I am as good or better (yes) than normal people.
My fault, but...
I'm a little annoyed with my relatives, as they made it very hard for me starting out. I had a more fragile future, and, of course, it was shattered.
I tried so hard to avoid that.
Oh well.
Then this guy comes and screws it up even more: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HClZwFNNMKs
Friday, June 17, 2016
Rich Bit*h
I've thought about this a long time. It's something that's been a frequent problem in my life on lesser levels.
From Putin to Brittney Spears, I've been flashed -- and not just by their moons.
I've gotten to the point where I don't deal with it the same way that I used to. I used to feel angst and lashed out a bit. It was suppressed jealousy. They know this and turn the tide onto me to distract from their own lives.
I can see their point, too, the rich kids. When I was in the army, my dad sent me packages of stuff that made the others jealous, and I must be rich when I'm not. Get away from me, right?
I come from the middle class. It's like, you guys have a huge advantage of me, the poor do. I had two options. It was either letting my generous grandma mortgage her house or go into the service.
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Anyway, back to riches go, it would be nice to have that house on hideaway, so I could work on my novels (crappy still) and have a nice view and life.
Oh well. I need to stay away from RT. I have to keep telling myself you don't have to give in to toxic lives.
Also, yes, I was abused, especially by the education system and then other things... It's stupid, but they try to use it to make me look bad. Officers, Generals and everyone who encounters a lot of people (woman at the bar guessed it too) see it over and over again.
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From Putin to Brittney Spears, I've been flashed -- and not just by their moons.
I've gotten to the point where I don't deal with it the same way that I used to. I used to feel angst and lashed out a bit. It was suppressed jealousy. They know this and turn the tide onto me to distract from their own lives.
I can see their point, too, the rich kids. When I was in the army, my dad sent me packages of stuff that made the others jealous, and I must be rich when I'm not. Get away from me, right?
I come from the middle class. It's like, you guys have a huge advantage of me, the poor do. I had two options. It was either letting my generous grandma mortgage her house or go into the service.
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Anyway, back to riches go, it would be nice to have that house on hideaway, so I could work on my novels (crappy still) and have a nice view and life.
Oh well. I need to stay away from RT. I have to keep telling myself you don't have to give in to toxic lives.
Also, yes, I was abused, especially by the education system and then other things... It's stupid, but they try to use it to make me look bad. Officers, Generals and everyone who encounters a lot of people (woman at the bar guessed it too) see it over and over again.
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Sunday, June 5, 2016
They Went Straight Into It
... and they still do again and again.
Don't hate on all the Russians. Apparently, all spies need to be in special ed as well.
With the last goon, it was like, "Do you not realize what you've done by posting that information? It will cause a chant riot from the people. Snowden's words will be shown to be true."
They, the people, spread it, and the goon looked guilty as sin after his comments. Of course, they're used to being in blind control, the goons in the US.
They've been complacent for a long time.
The Russians' mistake was giving me too much love, and I drown in emotion. Few people like me, and I know I'm not a 10 in any way, shape or form.
I think they were concerned about me possibly committing suicide, a wasted effort above true caring (or they would have helped me with that headache).
So, I went everywhere and am in a few songs and a movie.
I figured it out, attempting to call the FBI at one point, and they hung up on me. Fuck you, too, for not helping me with all that.
Good thing I don't pay taxes. It would be a waste of money for me with these people.
http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2016/06/05/the-russian-spy-run-by-dumb-and-dumber.html
Don't hate on all the Russians. Apparently, all spies need to be in special ed as well.
With the last goon, it was like, "Do you not realize what you've done by posting that information? It will cause a chant riot from the people. Snowden's words will be shown to be true."
They, the people, spread it, and the goon looked guilty as sin after his comments. Of course, they're used to being in blind control, the goons in the US.
They've been complacent for a long time.
The Russians' mistake was giving me too much love, and I drown in emotion. Few people like me, and I know I'm not a 10 in any way, shape or form.
I think they were concerned about me possibly committing suicide, a wasted effort above true caring (or they would have helped me with that headache).
So, I went everywhere and am in a few songs and a movie.
I figured it out, attempting to call the FBI at one point, and they hung up on me. Fuck you, too, for not helping me with all that.
Good thing I don't pay taxes. It would be a waste of money for me with these people.
http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2016/06/05/the-russian-spy-run-by-dumb-and-dumber.html
Friday, May 20, 2016
Annoying Putin--And Forced Living
Putin's goons said Putin won't pay attention to me because I have no influence. Yes, I know Putin is a whore in that regard, constantly trying to use mediocre artists to boost his image, make us look corrupt.
We didn't even invite him into our tent during the Olympics. I'm starting to see why we're so tough on Russia. Asshole.
I was highlighted by the man, Putin, and it destroyed me, as he has influence. He sure had time to do that, but I can't be a little red folder on his desk, hoping to get a settlement so that I can have a life as well.
I want to hide in peace.
Also...
Wanting their stuff is now a sin. We have saucer eyes... They always seem to have saucer eyes for my welfare.
If you don't know, they have this whole insane religion serving the elites, so we are helping their causes.
Well, off to my work.
We didn't even invite him into our tent during the Olympics. I'm starting to see why we're so tough on Russia. Asshole.
I was highlighted by the man, Putin, and it destroyed me, as he has influence. He sure had time to do that, but I can't be a little red folder on his desk, hoping to get a settlement so that I can have a life as well.
I want to hide in peace.
Also...
Wanting their stuff is now a sin. We have saucer eyes... They always seem to have saucer eyes for my welfare.
If you don't know, they have this whole insane religion serving the elites, so we are helping their causes.
Well, off to my work.
Friday, April 15, 2016
The Problems with Spies
So, as a pariah, a former person of special ed, and relative who are bipolar, I have run into several spies and other odds and ends, like security people.
Escort me to sanity instead.
It would be okay if the spies were not after blood and full of themselves. They want the kill though, the glory.
It's like my limp in Virginia. I have an old injury on the right side. Don't bother to investigate.
hahaha, like humping the floor, it's so funny. Snowden said he would shoot people in the balls if they did what he did. Another inflated ego. Of course, they've designed it so that if we try to think about the system or things that actually happen. It's hard for an ordinary person, solo, to pick apart the civilization/time periods. They work off feeding lines and scraps of thoughts that say other words.
And yes, I do become jealous of the 20 years, the rose and such. I will somehow come out the lowest when they do that, and I got tired of it. It's like, "I can't survive." Plus, it bothers me that my life has to be so hard and governed by a million people who push me against my interests.
Fuck you.
People like to rub their success in my face. It's like, I know why I'm low, and I'm not going any lower. I do not serve you, as you do not serve me.
I want nice things, too. I don't want to have babies or a family because I have to support myself in my random life. Most of the jobs I get suck, or they don't pay enough. I know children latch us into the system, and that's why they want the retarded babies, to enslave me.
I'm not doing that anymore.
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Escort me to sanity instead.
It would be okay if the spies were not after blood and full of themselves. They want the kill though, the glory.
It's like my limp in Virginia. I have an old injury on the right side. Don't bother to investigate.
hahaha, like humping the floor, it's so funny. Snowden said he would shoot people in the balls if they did what he did. Another inflated ego. Of course, they've designed it so that if we try to think about the system or things that actually happen. It's hard for an ordinary person, solo, to pick apart the civilization/time periods. They work off feeding lines and scraps of thoughts that say other words.
And yes, I do become jealous of the 20 years, the rose and such. I will somehow come out the lowest when they do that, and I got tired of it. It's like, "I can't survive." Plus, it bothers me that my life has to be so hard and governed by a million people who push me against my interests.
Fuck you.
People like to rub their success in my face. It's like, I know why I'm low, and I'm not going any lower. I do not serve you, as you do not serve me.
I want nice things, too. I don't want to have babies or a family because I have to support myself in my random life. Most of the jobs I get suck, or they don't pay enough. I know children latch us into the system, and that's why they want the retarded babies, to enslave me.
I'm not doing that anymore.
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Thursday, April 14, 2016
Problems In Russia: Putin's Q & A
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Well, Putin's only going to get his standard one hour of sleep a night.
Anyway, I agree with him on several points.
I don't think the United States is special/ exceptional. We have problems, and some of them are bothering me... Why do I have to be killed for collecting aid, Breaking Benjamin? Some moral flaw? A crush on president?
We know the real reason.
In the US, we're seeing a breakdown of law. People are coming in and trying to take over. They are using popular opinions to gain movement. The usual suspects have been caught. They are class crashers, like young women, welfare recipients, old people, the disabled.
And we're now "slaves." They aren't brave enough to come out and demand it just yet. They grow bolder by the day.
Nobody cares. They can't hear them.
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Beck pretty much comes out and says it.
Yes, I'm still on my crusade to get five million dollars from Putin (after taxes) and the house (after taxes). I'm going to hide. I give up.
Galena, MO 656561343 Hideaway Rd,
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Well, Putin's only going to get his standard one hour of sleep a night.
Anyway, I agree with him on several points.
I don't think the United States is special/ exceptional. We have problems, and some of them are bothering me... Why do I have to be killed for collecting aid, Breaking Benjamin? Some moral flaw? A crush on president?
We know the real reason.
In the US, we're seeing a breakdown of law. People are coming in and trying to take over. They are using popular opinions to gain movement. The usual suspects have been caught. They are class crashers, like young women, welfare recipients, old people, the disabled.
And we're now "slaves." They aren't brave enough to come out and demand it just yet. They grow bolder by the day.
Nobody cares. They can't hear them.
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Beck pretty much comes out and says it.
Yes, I'm still on my crusade to get five million dollars from Putin (after taxes) and the house (after taxes). I'm going to hide. I give up.
Galena, MO 656561343 Hideaway Rd,
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Monday, April 11, 2016
Another Loser Treated Like a Human
http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/us-navy-officer-charged-with-spying-possibly-for-china-taiwan/ar-BBrBubh?ocid=spartanntp
That's ridiculous. I know I was hurt because of Putin, no trials or anything. Putin made me a thing of worth for the sycophants to dine on. I was going about my pariah business, and he put a bomb in my view. For that, I want the five million dollars (after taxes) and the house (after taxes). I want to live here:
1343 Hideaway RdGalena, MO 65656
That's ridiculous. I know I was hurt because of Putin, no trials or anything. Putin made me a thing of worth for the sycophants to dine on. I was going about my pariah business, and he put a bomb in my view. For that, I want the five million dollars (after taxes) and the house (after taxes). I want to live here:
1343 Hideaway RdGalena, MO 65656
Please send me a sign. I know that you've probably forgotten me by now, Putin, but I remember, as it has destroyed my life. I don't think I'm being too unreasonable.
Buy it today! Change the trulia to sold. I won't bother you again.
Sunday, April 10, 2016
Damage Control
So, I've picked out the house I want and am still trying to get it from Putin along with the five million dollars (after taxes for both).
I'm hoping someone has or will standup for me regarding this.
He'll probably never hear me or give me some lame excuse to free himself though. He attracted them all to me, and I'm sure they wanted to advertise their "cures."
They hurt my remaining brain. Yes, my IQ is still 116, but the scores are completely different, and I have major memory problems. A monkey did better on the tower test.
Not only, but I had a headache for 8.5 months that they ignored. It's all about them though.
Back to the music, my dears...
They are a bunched bananas (a term for elementary soccer players).
I'm not saying I didn't have problems. I know I went mental. However, it would be nice if they'd set up clinics for us. Maybe then they'd do it only once or have a system so that we don't end up touched by too many angels.
By the way, Latuda and Fluphenazine are wonderful.
I'm hoping someone has or will standup for me regarding this.
He'll probably never hear me or give me some lame excuse to free himself though. He attracted them all to me, and I'm sure they wanted to advertise their "cures."
They hurt my remaining brain. Yes, my IQ is still 116, but the scores are completely different, and I have major memory problems. A monkey did better on the tower test.
Not only, but I had a headache for 8.5 months that they ignored. It's all about them though.
Back to the music, my dears...
They are a bunched bananas (a term for elementary soccer players).
I'm not saying I didn't have problems. I know I went mental. However, it would be nice if they'd set up clinics for us. Maybe then they'd do it only once or have a system so that we don't end up touched by too many angels.
By the way, Latuda and Fluphenazine are wonderful.
Sunday, April 3, 2016
The Lost Agent
So, I'm back from my walk. I have a bit of a sunburn now. My skin has changed a lot these past few years. It's become darker, and my eyes are even changing to green from their lovely blue.
Alas, was everything meant to be taken?
Anyway, here is an ex-CIA agent who spilled the beans.
https://www.rt.com/news/338276-cia-plan-topple-assad/
What's his future to be?
To respond to another comment on the article:
As for shifting blame to Obama, I don't think the author is faking it on purpose. Another general told Obama that Russia was a threat to security, and Obama laughed him off. Later, other leadership stated what the general had.
Power wars...
Alas, was everything meant to be taken?
Anyway, here is an ex-CIA agent who spilled the beans.
https://www.rt.com/news/338276-cia-plan-topple-assad/
What's his future to be?
To respond to another comment on the article:
As for shifting blame to Obama, I don't think the author is faking it on purpose. Another general told Obama that Russia was a threat to security, and Obama laughed him off. Later, other leadership stated what the general had.
Power wars...
Friday, April 1, 2016
For the Love of Putin
It's probably fake, but I'll speak as if it's true.
http://www.esquire.com/news-politics/news/a43502/wendi-deng-vladimir-putin-dating-rumors/
Ladies, we must discuss a few things.
One, you can't date/marry Putin if you are foreign. They crafted that law before my broken-heart. I had a fantasy of dating Putin in his 1976 version.
Two, he's an ex-spy.
Sad notes...
All must be ruined when it comes to my heart. He made me explode. Not even self-hatred and apathy could save me.
They tried to kill me for Putin, as he made it a big deal.
I know.
Putin made me a target, yes, which was his goal, I'm sure.
I wish he'd pay me for destroying me--and my youth. I don't even do that to my hobo suitors. They get a coke at the least.
Tuesday, March 8, 2016
Slave Wage and Choices
I've seen this happen many times. People think they're too good for a position, or it's unfair they have to work longer hours due to having two jobs. They aren't the only ones. I have relatives who make over 100,000 a year, and they work way more than 40 hours a week.
It is what it is.
I know some of the stressors. My employers often took advantage of me, and one even cut my hours when I refused to be his girlfriend.
I've been through the mill in regards to work.
However, I've learned things don't have to be that way.
There are plenty of programs for the homeless, as well as for those who are down on their luck.
They will train you, help you.
You wouldn't have to worry about student loans because you'd get Pell Grants and other help.
http://www.vox.com/2016/3/8/11173304/homeless-in-america
Personally, I've decided to chill through my life. My ultimate dream is working as a janitor at the library or to work at Barnes and Noble.
It is what it is.
I know some of the stressors. My employers often took advantage of me, and one even cut my hours when I refused to be his girlfriend.
I've been through the mill in regards to work.
However, I've learned things don't have to be that way.
There are plenty of programs for the homeless, as well as for those who are down on their luck.
They will train you, help you.
You wouldn't have to worry about student loans because you'd get Pell Grants and other help.
http://www.vox.com/2016/3/8/11173304/homeless-in-america
Personally, I've decided to chill through my life. My ultimate dream is working as a janitor at the library or to work at Barnes and Noble.
Sunday, March 6, 2016
Not Really
I couldn't think for a long time. I kind of worked off feeding lines rather than reality.
Anyway, in my HS, there was something for everyone. The gifted could take honors classes as well as AP classes. The slow could take remedial classes of the same subjects as the honors classes, just watered down.
Not only was there that, but people could go into a trade at 16 and spend half of the day at OTC (technical community college). Also, the kids who were good at science and math got to go to a boarding school and complete two years of college.
I went into a work program my senior year and went to OTC.
I've seen on my videos that I've forgotten this. Yes, I'm missing huge amounts of my past-simply erased. I guess I'm like them all and on a secret mission. Why must I be a cliché?
In other news, I got to be in a movie. I got to be in a movie as well as a few songs. :P Ready for my close up, joking.
https://www.rt.com/op-edge/334733-education-mediocrity-rugby-feelings-compassion/
Anyway, in my HS, there was something for everyone. The gifted could take honors classes as well as AP classes. The slow could take remedial classes of the same subjects as the honors classes, just watered down.
Not only was there that, but people could go into a trade at 16 and spend half of the day at OTC (technical community college). Also, the kids who were good at science and math got to go to a boarding school and complete two years of college.
I went into a work program my senior year and went to OTC.
I've seen on my videos that I've forgotten this. Yes, I'm missing huge amounts of my past-simply erased. I guess I'm like them all and on a secret mission. Why must I be a cliché?
In other news, I got to be in a movie. I got to be in a movie as well as a few songs. :P Ready for my close up, joking.
https://www.rt.com/op-edge/334733-education-mediocrity-rugby-feelings-compassion/
Wednesday, March 2, 2016
Waking the Dead
As a ghost/dog/dragon/kitten/rose, I will tell you the privilege I've had with the lobotomy. Sometimes, I whine too much, I'll admit. Why me? Tis my creed.
I have these grandiose delusions that I used to be super smart, which isn't the case. Also, I've always struggled with spelling due to the fact I was taught to read by sight.
Oh well.
Back to the lobotomy...
Without it, I'd probably be dead, and it might have worked if they could have restrained me or taken me to a hospital when I was really bad off. Instead, they chased me around and punished me. They sent the "fallen" after me along with other toys. I lived next to Langley, and they were all fired up from Putin's attention. I suppose he wants to destroy my life, too. Too late. Someone beat you to it, Vladi.
That's the disclaimer.
Now, I have a problem where I am not able to hold a steady opinion. My memory is shot. I will tell you the sky is purple when it is blue the next day. I'm not lying, not on purpose. It's just the way my brain works at the moment. I'm also aware that I have to look up words like "loom." Remember what Madonna says, "Words.. they've gone out, lost their meaning. I don't function anymore." Okay, that was deadly for the only thing I like doing: writing. I have some luck.
Just have to work harder.
And I also wonder if it was her place to "save" me? Her little goons left me after that. Nobody would say anything about the 8.5 month long headache either.
Thanks for caring... That's what you said. Get out of my section of Hell and fuck each other on your yachts and planes.
Full of shitness, right? Putin can sell a few watches and give me the house plus the five million (both after taxes).
They're destroying the fun and glory of Hell.
I have these grandiose delusions that I used to be super smart, which isn't the case. Also, I've always struggled with spelling due to the fact I was taught to read by sight.
Oh well.
Back to the lobotomy...
Without it, I'd probably be dead, and it might have worked if they could have restrained me or taken me to a hospital when I was really bad off. Instead, they chased me around and punished me. They sent the "fallen" after me along with other toys. I lived next to Langley, and they were all fired up from Putin's attention. I suppose he wants to destroy my life, too. Too late. Someone beat you to it, Vladi.
That's the disclaimer.
Now, I have a problem where I am not able to hold a steady opinion. My memory is shot. I will tell you the sky is purple when it is blue the next day. I'm not lying, not on purpose. It's just the way my brain works at the moment. I'm also aware that I have to look up words like "loom." Remember what Madonna says, "Words.. they've gone out, lost their meaning. I don't function anymore." Okay, that was deadly for the only thing I like doing: writing. I have some luck.
Just have to work harder.
And I also wonder if it was her place to "save" me? Her little goons left me after that. Nobody would say anything about the 8.5 month long headache either.
Thanks for caring... That's what you said. Get out of my section of Hell and fuck each other on your yachts and planes.
Full of shitness, right? Putin can sell a few watches and give me the house plus the five million (both after taxes).
They're destroying the fun and glory of Hell.
Sunday, February 28, 2016
It wasn't Putin
They came and told me in their arrogant voices that they'd killed Putin. Most people joke about my fascination with Putin.
I'm a groupie.
He's my boytoy, bitches. Not that he feels the same way. He blocked me, all my accounts, my cookies and my IP address. I will find another way, eventually.
Anyway, I wish they'd, my side, be more careful and stop taking selfies or telling jokes about formal matters or exaggerating them. The article below is a disgrace as well.
They are like little children in a candy store who steal gum and think they're badass. It's a job.
This is why I'm not okay with the whole psychotronic weapons-thing as it is now. They can't manage even the simplest tasks. I bet their attempt at world peace successful for about five minutes and a hypnotizing song... I wish they'd regulate these weapons. I've been through the mill. Don't believe me? Look at my Shakira painting time-wise. What a piece of crap that man was.
The day, the music died, yeah.
We really need to be taken to hospitals for those operations.
https://www.rt.com/news/333908-mh370-blame-putin-conspiracy/
I'm a groupie.
He's my boytoy, bitches. Not that he feels the same way. He blocked me, all my accounts, my cookies and my IP address. I will find another way, eventually.
Anyway, I wish they'd, my side, be more careful and stop taking selfies or telling jokes about formal matters or exaggerating them. The article below is a disgrace as well.
They are like little children in a candy store who steal gum and think they're badass. It's a job.
This is why I'm not okay with the whole psychotronic weapons-thing as it is now. They can't manage even the simplest tasks. I bet their attempt at world peace successful for about five minutes and a hypnotizing song... I wish they'd regulate these weapons. I've been through the mill. Don't believe me? Look at my Shakira painting time-wise. What a piece of crap that man was.
The day, the music died, yeah.
We really need to be taken to hospitals for those operations.
https://www.rt.com/news/333908-mh370-blame-putin-conspiracy/
Friday, February 26, 2016
When We Are Blind
So, we were all born yesterday. There are things we ought to know.
On a side note, I can't believe he decided to ruin their lives for having a different opinion. Educate them.
http://www.newsweek.com/russia-world-putin-yanukovych-ukraine-maidan-430639?rx=us
He does explain at times, I'llsay.
Still, he was offended and matters, makes a big deal out of people who can't put reality together.
As a younger youth, I had to deal with that as well, however. I think the world would be a better place if they'd explain the various classes and normal political moods in school, and money and its meaning, not the liberal garbage we often get nor MTV, the trash especially in the lower levels.
Meat and fire.
The Koran does explain various rewards for work, but that won't work the same way in all societies.
At least they tried.
I am called, and used as, a dissident, which is annoying. I do this thing where I dissociate from reality, and I can even have conversations with myself if I keep a notebook. No, it's not DID. It's that my mind is no longer whole and working right.
I can't hold an opinion very well. lol
Anyway, I would still like five million dollars (after taxes) and the house (after taxes) for Putin's "attention." I'm not that bad, Putin.
As for my destroyed world, it always is. I have no power in my reality, and I'm easy to get to.
I danced this time and did some damage. I hate being pathetic and helpless.
They can only push me so low.
On a side note, I can't believe he decided to ruin their lives for having a different opinion. Educate them.
http://www.newsweek.com/russia-world-putin-yanukovych-ukraine-maidan-430639?rx=us
He does explain at times, I'llsay.
Still, he was offended and matters, makes a big deal out of people who can't put reality together.
As a younger youth, I had to deal with that as well, however. I think the world would be a better place if they'd explain the various classes and normal political moods in school, and money and its meaning, not the liberal garbage we often get nor MTV, the trash especially in the lower levels.
Meat and fire.
The Koran does explain various rewards for work, but that won't work the same way in all societies.
At least they tried.
I am called, and used as, a dissident, which is annoying. I do this thing where I dissociate from reality, and I can even have conversations with myself if I keep a notebook. No, it's not DID. It's that my mind is no longer whole and working right.
I can't hold an opinion very well. lol
Anyway, I would still like five million dollars (after taxes) and the house (after taxes) for Putin's "attention." I'm not that bad, Putin.
As for my destroyed world, it always is. I have no power in my reality, and I'm easy to get to.
I danced this time and did some damage. I hate being pathetic and helpless.
They can only push me so low.
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
Pay the Slave the Fee for the Crippling Beating
I'm still annoyed that they helped wreck my brain over such stupid assumptions. I was insane, young and dumb. Tell me you all had it figured out at 21. You should have seen my medical chart when I left the army.
They could have turned on the heat if nothing else. Maybe not stalk me.
I wish Putin would pay me for attracting so much attention to me. It's so funny to see the "special" kids flop like fish. I won't bore anyone with further details on that.
Writing is the only vocation/hobby I had. It's fitting that Madonna causes words to "lose their meaning." I'm struggling with the assholes now. Putin couldn't help himself either. He saw a weak person and went for the kill. This attracted all the little gangs.
We can't sue them. They're all immune somehow, which is like tenure.
To Madonna, though she is too vain to hear me, what would you think if someone ripped out your vocal chords? I know you all have insurance on your legs. It's a big deal to some of us when words lose their meaning.
If I'm a slave, then the Bible says you have to take care of me for the injury you caused. Can I just have the house and five million dollars (after taxes for both)?
I'll go frolic in my delusions.
Hey, I'm part of the entitled generation. Bring it on!
They could have turned on the heat if nothing else. Maybe not stalk me.
I wish Putin would pay me for attracting so much attention to me. It's so funny to see the "special" kids flop like fish. I won't bore anyone with further details on that.
Writing is the only vocation/hobby I had. It's fitting that Madonna causes words to "lose their meaning." I'm struggling with the assholes now. Putin couldn't help himself either. He saw a weak person and went for the kill. This attracted all the little gangs.
We can't sue them. They're all immune somehow, which is like tenure.
To Madonna, though she is too vain to hear me, what would you think if someone ripped out your vocal chords? I know you all have insurance on your legs. It's a big deal to some of us when words lose their meaning.
If I'm a slave, then the Bible says you have to take care of me for the injury you caused. Can I just have the house and five million dollars (after taxes for both)?
I'll go frolic in my delusions.
Hey, I'm part of the entitled generation. Bring it on!
Childhood Stress: Future Mess Bergdahl
I've talked with my grandma about this issue. She was raised in a calm, loving environment. She turned out normal, and she's a healthy, wise, goodhearted person.
She likes to talk to people, and she has learned a lot about struggles people face from abuse to neglect.
We've both noted that it has a profound influence on individuals. Studies have shown changes in the brain after abuse and neglect. It becomes organic.
I was tormented by the school system and a few other things. Many parents of special needs children know this. Well, they do if they care for their children. One dad even went as far as putting a hidden camera on his son. It's unbelievable.
As a child, I was in constant stress and pain. After the military pulled the final straw, I went insane. It wasn't as big a deal as they made it out to be. One percent of the population is schizophrenic.
Anyway, I read an article about Bergdahl's release and his "strained" family life growing up. He's looking for approval in all the wrong places. I did the same thing with Putin. We're walking clichés. In fact, I bet that general he was after had Bergdahl's number after hearing about him. Another one? When you work with a lot of people, you see patterns of behavior. "Why" is known. No big mystery. No big deal. Nothing to hide. Something to work on. Waiting for the next one.
Cry and go to your safe place and rip the room to pieces. Curse instinct and get a job. Have kids. Then you'll have something to worry about.
I'm not saying that all people fall victim due to their pasts. It's more or less that people who have been abused and/or neglected show certain behaviors more often, and it's like clock work. Boring.
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/02/17/us/long-after-bergdahls-release-his-hometown-is-still-under-siege.html?_r=0 He was "strained."
She likes to talk to people, and she has learned a lot about struggles people face from abuse to neglect.
We've both noted that it has a profound influence on individuals. Studies have shown changes in the brain after abuse and neglect. It becomes organic.
I was tormented by the school system and a few other things. Many parents of special needs children know this. Well, they do if they care for their children. One dad even went as far as putting a hidden camera on his son. It's unbelievable.
As a child, I was in constant stress and pain. After the military pulled the final straw, I went insane. It wasn't as big a deal as they made it out to be. One percent of the population is schizophrenic.
Anyway, I read an article about Bergdahl's release and his "strained" family life growing up. He's looking for approval in all the wrong places. I did the same thing with Putin. We're walking clichés. In fact, I bet that general he was after had Bergdahl's number after hearing about him. Another one? When you work with a lot of people, you see patterns of behavior. "Why" is known. No big mystery. No big deal. Nothing to hide. Something to work on. Waiting for the next one.
Cry and go to your safe place and rip the room to pieces. Curse instinct and get a job. Have kids. Then you'll have something to worry about.
I'm not saying that all people fall victim due to their pasts. It's more or less that people who have been abused and/or neglected show certain behaviors more often, and it's like clock work. Boring.
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/02/17/us/long-after-bergdahls-release-his-hometown-is-still-under-siege.html?_r=0 He was "strained."
Monday, February 1, 2016
The UN turned down Michael Brown's family
They sure mean what they say... it is widespread. Yes, Michael was a criminal, but what else was there for him?
http://nationalreport.net/un-dismisses-michael-brown-case-will-intervening-matter/
https://www.rt.com/usa/330934-un-recommends-usa-reparations-slavery/ They can say this all they want to, and they know it, because they know they won't be accountable for their words, pretty words.
meanwhile, I'll keep fighting that damn, spoiled middle class band (+cough+ Breaking Benjamin) that tries to torment me and keep me on my white girl's leash. I don't love you. It's a note eat note world.
I've been violated in ways that are insane. It annoys me--the games they play. I just hope there was a purpose for it. I think I might have been an experiment. Weird stuff occurred. Right before it all started, they asked me two questions 1.) Do you want a family? 2.) Do you have a soul? I said "no" and "I don't know." Oh well. I still would have picked that over a family, however. A child from me would be a crime against humanity.
Lesson learned: I don't have a soul. Thanks everyone for clearing that up with lots of torture.
Thursday, January 28, 2016
Wounded Paychecks
The VA has helped me a lot. I am grateful to them. I realize that not every organization is perfect. If I develop dementia, I will file a 1511 though. The doctors kept playing telephone, and I didn't get help for my head injury. I even had a heart murmur. That pressure hurt, Putin! I couldn't call a patient advocate because one.) I didn't know what that was and 2.)I was often delirious. Organs come from outer space.
Well, I should stop whining about that, and yes, part of it was my fault with the floor but not the cyanide nor lobotomy. The reason why we should go to hospitals, Madonna, is because it should be official, not done again and again, and they should make sure there aren't medical problems, like magical cyanide. Maybe your cures work. However, mine was botched, and I wouldn't know. Nice of you to try...
Anyway, many charities do this: https://www.rt.com/usa/330518-wounded-warrior-project-donations/. People like Gates and Zuckerberg are taking advantage of charities as well. I think they should be regulated by the government and branded authentic.
Well, I should stop whining about that, and yes, part of it was my fault with the floor but not the cyanide nor lobotomy. The reason why we should go to hospitals, Madonna, is because it should be official, not done again and again, and they should make sure there aren't medical problems, like magical cyanide. Maybe your cures work. However, mine was botched, and I wouldn't know. Nice of you to try...
Anyway, many charities do this: https://www.rt.com/usa/330518-wounded-warrior-project-donations/. People like Gates and Zuckerberg are taking advantage of charities as well. I think they should be regulated by the government and branded authentic.
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
Because they rent this stuff, giving access to it during time in office
I could use a present, like Bjork received. How about a brain?
I did a good job!
Trust me, nobody would want my delusions, and I was punished for them. I sit as an inner voice fighting them all with the help of antipsychotics. It's like, OMG, that's not me. They had complete control a few times, however, like during my trig class. I drove that teacher nuts.
Anyway...
Corruption? Look at our music. I'm not saying Russia isn't to blame with Tatu after that forty dollars, but we have our own special issues...
http://www.news.com.au/lifestyle/real-life/news-life/vladimir-putins-secret-fortune-billiondollar-palace-and-superyacht-paid-for-with-state-funds/news-story/c80ff2427c4a056a29835ca3fdee11cc
I think elites owning that stuff is as stupid as our jealousy. Some of them deserve private pools and places because their status makes it impossible to mix with ordinary people. I can just go to the courtyard if I want to swim, or I could move closer to an indoor pool. No big deal.
I did kind of want that house though. Oh well.
They want us to be jealous for themselves, like what was in the video "Ultranumb" by Blue Stahli or whatever. I do grow tired of being dominated by people and whatever they've got. I'm supposed to work for it all, like I could have it in "Work Bitch." There's no point. I'm sure I will work small jobs, but I will NEVER, ever let what happened to me as a teenager occur again. I will not have children. I will stay single. I will have a good life free of force.
Life doesn't have to be that hard.
I did a good job!
Trust me, nobody would want my delusions, and I was punished for them. I sit as an inner voice fighting them all with the help of antipsychotics. It's like, OMG, that's not me. They had complete control a few times, however, like during my trig class. I drove that teacher nuts.
Anyway...
Corruption? Look at our music. I'm not saying Russia isn't to blame with Tatu after that forty dollars, but we have our own special issues...
http://www.news.com.au/lifestyle/real-life/news-life/vladimir-putins-secret-fortune-billiondollar-palace-and-superyacht-paid-for-with-state-funds/news-story/c80ff2427c4a056a29835ca3fdee11cc
I think elites owning that stuff is as stupid as our jealousy. Some of them deserve private pools and places because their status makes it impossible to mix with ordinary people. I can just go to the courtyard if I want to swim, or I could move closer to an indoor pool. No big deal.
I did kind of want that house though. Oh well.
They want us to be jealous for themselves, like what was in the video "Ultranumb" by Blue Stahli or whatever. I do grow tired of being dominated by people and whatever they've got. I'm supposed to work for it all, like I could have it in "Work Bitch." There's no point. I'm sure I will work small jobs, but I will NEVER, ever let what happened to me as a teenager occur again. I will not have children. I will stay single. I will have a good life free of force.
Life doesn't have to be that hard.
Comrade Creighton: Another Crime
If you know me, and you don't, then you know that for a long time I supported communism - or said odd things, not even knowing its true definitions. It was "serve your enemy" syndrome. That's also why many people comment on RT. It's our pathetic way of getting revenge.
Poor targets. Keeps the FBI earning their paychecks. They should volunteer at a homeless shelter or something.
I can't believe they took me due to my surface words--another attack. During Occupy Wall Street, a Russian, from communism's time, told people the reality of the situation, and they didn't believe him because they hate their lives. I will say he was better educated than most. A lot of people from the Soviet Union are highly educated and clever.
Anyway, they don't bother to ask us questions to check our comprehension of matters. Heaven forbid they know anything about us before they kill. Like Lisa Gerrard's "Sleep," we are told they're truth machines, even when they lie. Who was at the window?
Kill, kill, kill. The police will get all the black people, and they'll get us wilting roses by our crushes and fragmented ideologies. Many people believe odd things. They scribble in peace on the internet. ;oihkjlhkjhkj
They also called me an elitist.
I'm quite an amazing evil, very powerful. I tend to attract a lot of crap.
https://www.rt.com/usa/330325-cia-ufo-declassified-files/ as for this, I'm offended! I asked for something, and I was yelled at. Bitch, it's not like you had anything better to do. I realize you don't work for the people now. Go kill a cancer patient with Breaking Benjamin.
Poor targets. Keeps the FBI earning their paychecks. They should volunteer at a homeless shelter or something.
I can't believe they took me due to my surface words--another attack. During Occupy Wall Street, a Russian, from communism's time, told people the reality of the situation, and they didn't believe him because they hate their lives. I will say he was better educated than most. A lot of people from the Soviet Union are highly educated and clever.
Anyway, they don't bother to ask us questions to check our comprehension of matters. Heaven forbid they know anything about us before they kill. Like Lisa Gerrard's "Sleep," we are told they're truth machines, even when they lie. Who was at the window?
Kill, kill, kill. The police will get all the black people, and they'll get us wilting roses by our crushes and fragmented ideologies. Many people believe odd things. They scribble in peace on the internet. ;oihkjlhkjhkj
They also called me an elitist.
I'm quite an amazing evil, very powerful. I tend to attract a lot of crap.
https://www.rt.com/usa/330325-cia-ufo-declassified-files/ as for this, I'm offended! I asked for something, and I was yelled at. Bitch, it's not like you had anything better to do. I realize you don't work for the people now. Go kill a cancer patient with Breaking Benjamin.
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