Wednesday, May 13, 2020
I'm Done Ranting
Not that I have anything better to do as a thought criminal. Yeah, the special ed schizophrenic chick was a real risk. You are clowns and fools. As a peasant, nothing in my mind will surprise you. Go read some reddit responses before you feel uber cool with your mind-reading technology. Nothing new under the sun. I can't believe you thought I was too smart. lol
Go entertain yourselves with someone else and have no impact nor any helping hand to society. Why would you be corrupt? It only bites you back.
I have to wait for them to be able to fix my brain, which will be in the next five years. Heaven forbid I be productive.
You guys were just picking on me. I'm used to it. One day, I'll have a brain and be able to find ways to contribute. Until then, you can enjoy feeding me.
Saturday, May 9, 2020
On Zee Ground
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ikW4qaGYrnM this is how I feel about schizophrenia. It's annoying. You're focused on making me a zombie while the others want to use it to be creative. I guess those are my negative symptoms.
I won't survive in this wicked world, and you can't save it from burning. It's the human condition. You're just making flesh robots to serve the privileged. It will drag us down.
If you could fix me, even damaging my IQ, why didn't you do it while I had a life, not tortured me, and not spread out all over the internet? So that I can be homeless and suffer for sins when you've made me a happy idiot? You make no sense, a cause of dust.
You can't handle the power, and I should have a say in it. It's my mind.
Now I'm a happy Beetard. I know the 8.5 months of me crying for mercy didn't help. They just made it worse.
You can't help to brag about how good you are, and your purpose, can you? All your goodies... That's why you're going on the ground. All you're going to do is burn me with that crap, the burning you preach about. Why? Do I want it? Of course, but I'm stupid enough to serve your cause as everyone else rationalizes their denial, goodness, and fear.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY I'll keep going like I do. You will never conquer my will. You couldn't even contain a retard nor analyze your threats. Good luck with world peace. It's just world piece, isn't it?
BTW, there have been "immortals" crawling out of ancient civilizations since we began, just like the shaman could read our minds since then. You aren't the all-powerful, have-alls. This isn't new. There's a reason they aren't celebrities nor promising it. I'm sure we'll eventually get life-extensions, but to promise it will have a bad reaction.
I won't survive in this wicked world, and you can't save it from burning. It's the human condition. You're just making flesh robots to serve the privileged. It will drag us down.
If you could fix me, even damaging my IQ, why didn't you do it while I had a life, not tortured me, and not spread out all over the internet? So that I can be homeless and suffer for sins when you've made me a happy idiot? You make no sense, a cause of dust.
You can't handle the power, and I should have a say in it. It's my mind.
Now I'm a happy Beetard. I know the 8.5 months of me crying for mercy didn't help. They just made it worse.
You can't help to brag about how good you are, and your purpose, can you? All your goodies... That's why you're going on the ground. All you're going to do is burn me with that crap, the burning you preach about. Why? Do I want it? Of course, but I'm stupid enough to serve your cause as everyone else rationalizes their denial, goodness, and fear.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY I'll keep going like I do. You will never conquer my will. You couldn't even contain a retard nor analyze your threats. Good luck with world peace. It's just world piece, isn't it?
BTW, there have been "immortals" crawling out of ancient civilizations since we began, just like the shaman could read our minds since then. You aren't the all-powerful, have-alls. This isn't new. There's a reason they aren't celebrities nor promising it. I'm sure we'll eventually get life-extensions, but to promise it will have a bad reaction.
Being Shoved Underwater By Breaking Benjamin
Nope. I still hate all of you.
I want an "I'm sorry" for Virginia. It's cool. I'm trying to humble Putin as well. If you flaunt it, you will be haunted.
You couldn't have just nailed me in the mailroom when I had a life, had to make a big deal out of it and trash me out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtPfrhVtZZo&list=RDgtPfrhVtZZo&start_radio=1 as far as they're concerned X_X, they need a more educated worldview. The world is not ending. It's just another day in paradise and interests. Everyone is fighting battles. You earn money and power by doing good works, not exploiting others for your causes.
https://books.apple.com/us/book/gina-and-the-end-of-the-world/id1331658822 That's why I wrote this book. Gina's world was ending. Kaela's world was ending. Just had to be assholes. So what I'm stupid? That makes me even less worthy of attention. I don't matter, but it's a big deal if someone can profit off of it.
I want an "I'm sorry" for Virginia. It's cool. I'm trying to humble Putin as well. If you flaunt it, you will be haunted.
You couldn't have just nailed me in the mailroom when I had a life, had to make a big deal out of it and trash me out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtPfrhVtZZo&list=RDgtPfrhVtZZo&start_radio=1 as far as they're concerned X_X, they need a more educated worldview. The world is not ending. It's just another day in paradise and interests. Everyone is fighting battles. You earn money and power by doing good works, not exploiting others for your causes.
https://books.apple.com/us/book/gina-and-the-end-of-the-world/id1331658822 That's why I wrote this book. Gina's world was ending. Kaela's world was ending. Just had to be assholes. So what I'm stupid? That makes me even less worthy of attention. I don't matter, but it's a big deal if someone can profit off of it.
Friday, May 8, 2020
Another Poem For Marilyn Manson
Beauty!
And I'm the beast
Sex, sex, sex
Get on your knees
Defeat
Me
Fuck feast.
It took 15 seconds.
And I'm the beast
Sex, sex, sex
Get on your knees
Defeat
Me
Fuck feast.
It took 15 seconds.
Wednesday, May 6, 2020
Zheani Isn't Trashing People Out Like Placebo and Hollywood
She expresses the emotions of many others and helps them to accept and release. She doesn't tell them to cut or hate themselves like what they did to her. She is NOT pollution. We've got baby Evanescence for that, Placebo, and Marilyn Manson. They are pollution with their damn curses.
Tuesday, May 5, 2020
They're All Know-it-Alls or Worshiping Hookers
No one can know everything. You can't walk in 7 billion people's shoes nor see every tree in the forest. I prefer to discuss things and to let the best argument win, not the one error of the other person to justifying bowing to the "all-knowing."
It's like, yeah, I don't understand Calculus, but I know what you're saying. This has nothing to do with Calculus.
And you won't get people to always agree nor be clear. Some have different interests. Others can't perceive reality due to education or intelligence and explain their worlds with folklore and myth. It's cool. Not even Quantum Physicists can understand how something came from nothing. Nothing is unstable, as Kaku says, not nothing. He has his own little myth going on. I'm stupid, so I have a lot of them. A monkey can't learn Calculus, and a human can't explain the beginning of the universe. The closest I can get to explaining it is that one day, a blind, deaf infant drew a circle that lasts forever once created, not knowing what a circle is. I can't get myself to understand it any deeper. The infant comes before the circle, but the circle didn't exist before. Good luck.
Also, it's like how you can't discredit God. He exists in several ways. One, He has followers who believe in Him and create with Him, the idea of God. And then you have the human god: The dominant male of the pack. It gets confused in human reason these days, but if you study other social animals, you'll see it, too. I'm always trying to fuck god. Oh well.
They've decided they can do whatever they want to because they're so smart -- or they're on the floor sucking dicks for goodies.
It's like, yeah, I don't understand Calculus, but I know what you're saying. This has nothing to do with Calculus.
And you won't get people to always agree nor be clear. Some have different interests. Others can't perceive reality due to education or intelligence and explain their worlds with folklore and myth. It's cool. Not even Quantum Physicists can understand how something came from nothing. Nothing is unstable, as Kaku says, not nothing. He has his own little myth going on. I'm stupid, so I have a lot of them. A monkey can't learn Calculus, and a human can't explain the beginning of the universe. The closest I can get to explaining it is that one day, a blind, deaf infant drew a circle that lasts forever once created, not knowing what a circle is. I can't get myself to understand it any deeper. The infant comes before the circle, but the circle didn't exist before. Good luck.
Also, it's like how you can't discredit God. He exists in several ways. One, He has followers who believe in Him and create with Him, the idea of God. And then you have the human god: The dominant male of the pack. It gets confused in human reason these days, but if you study other social animals, you'll see it, too. I'm always trying to fuck god. Oh well.
They've decided they can do whatever they want to because they're so smart -- or they're on the floor sucking dicks for goodies.
Being Aligned With the Garbage Can By the "Pure"
This is what happens to miserable fools who disagree with power! Wah, wah.
It's like, we're all dust in a dream, so it doesn't matter. And your power is an illusion, you miserable fool. Anyone who takes power is in danger. It may be good to be king but heavy is the crown.
Growing up, we played this game, too. I don't deserve anything, so I went into a hallucination, and they had issues with that because I wasn't suffering enough because they weren't suffering enough. yet they're ending suffering. They do these things to demoralize themselves. Prove you're stupid.
They will make me pure and perfect then put me in the gutter and throw a fit about that as well. Why can't you make better decisions!
Forcing me to tell the truth is funny as well. I only lied to them for them, and I dissociated from myself and was sweet. If I tell the truth, then I will continue to nail you with the truth, go figure.
It's like, I can barely read or do anything, so I'll be on aid after an IQ test or if I try. You can make me completely blank, and I'll relearn everything. Stuck on repeat.
What do I want besides a brain (they enjoy my stupidity for their vanity)? I want a token of apology. I want the five million dollars (after taxes) so that I can buy my house. You took from me. I take from your fruit.
It's like, we're all dust in a dream, so it doesn't matter. And your power is an illusion, you miserable fool. Anyone who takes power is in danger. It may be good to be king but heavy is the crown.
Growing up, we played this game, too. I don't deserve anything, so I went into a hallucination, and they had issues with that because I wasn't suffering enough because they weren't suffering enough. yet they're ending suffering. They do these things to demoralize themselves. Prove you're stupid.
They will make me pure and perfect then put me in the gutter and throw a fit about that as well. Why can't you make better decisions!
Forcing me to tell the truth is funny as well. I only lied to them for them, and I dissociated from myself and was sweet. If I tell the truth, then I will continue to nail you with the truth, go figure.
It's like, I can barely read or do anything, so I'll be on aid after an IQ test or if I try. You can make me completely blank, and I'll relearn everything. Stuck on repeat.
What do I want besides a brain (they enjoy my stupidity for their vanity)? I want a token of apology. I want the five million dollars (after taxes) so that I can buy my house. You took from me. I take from your fruit.
Monday, May 4, 2020
Putin Could Say Sorry, But That's Impossible Because of His Ego and Failure to Lead
It's like, I needed help, not that, but he made them all attack me. I couldn't just go to school. Hey, it's watered down. Gotta chase the retard kid. LOL And world peace. He's so full of himself he only thinks about his emotions and ideas, and they all suck his dick for immortality. He picks on people and has no idea what he's doing. He's such a great Christian. Whatever makes him look good, and he's getting old, so he isn't so great.
I was helpless. Abuse of power, but he has no faults. +rolls eyes+
The most powerful man in the world, just like the Kung Fu master was who now works on a wok.
I was helpless. Abuse of power, but he has no faults. +rolls eyes+
The most powerful man in the world, just like the Kung Fu master was who now works on a wok.
Flooded By Bliss -- Still Can't Read or Write or Do Math
God, I had few abilities anyway, but they find new ways to torment me, make life really boring. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0n-Id_xi2z8 "Beetward... as it forges for dog shit." I was abandoned by my spymaster :P He's so jealous of the field. I tease them. I only said that to attract the CIA to look at the music, like really? My friend in Cuba was real, but it only confuses me.
Maybe Putin should say "sorry" and let me have some peace. Nope. Putin will lash out because he's that stupid, which is amazing. Bye, bye. Enjoy your dirt, Christian, let Jesus save you. You couldn't follow his teachings on Earth, so God will forsake you, and you will burn in the fire.
So, I'll keep fighting you. Like with daddy, we can play this game forever.
"You've got to fight to make it through because that will be the death of you." Breaking Benjamin. No will? Let me guess, info from the Dalai Slave Lord again. China kicked your ass. China kicked your ass. Great. You could build robots, you know, but no, we can live in a feudal system of endless Babel Bananas.
Maybe Putin should say "sorry" and let me have some peace. Nope. Putin will lash out because he's that stupid, which is amazing. Bye, bye. Enjoy your dirt, Christian, let Jesus save you. You couldn't follow his teachings on Earth, so God will forsake you, and you will burn in the fire.
So, I'll keep fighting you. Like with daddy, we can play this game forever.
"You've got to fight to make it through because that will be the death of you." Breaking Benjamin. No will? Let me guess, info from the Dalai Slave Lord again. China kicked your ass. China kicked your ass. Great. You could build robots, you know, but no, we can live in a feudal system of endless Babel Bananas.
My Purpose in Life is to Fuck
According to them, I get sex and food. They make so much trash and problems. It's like, that's all you can do, incompetent bastards.
You want to dumb people down when your education system is failing. Plus, trust me, you really don't want to make a bunch of idiots. Us special ed children are so productive and well-adjusted.
Kaela.
Kaela.
Kaela.
You want to demoralize them and make them masochists to deny and screw themselves over, but then you wonder why they're possessed. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7APmRkatEU "I'm Afraid of Americans," too, even myself. It's like, why would I ever want that? Back to worshiping my masters. F off. Here I am, the "Mummy." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY Don't knock it. I'm trying to survive.
You want to make people focus only on sex and masturbation when they end up in poverty or breeding undesirables, which you keep slaughtering.
I know it's sluggishly progressive schizophrenia again, any hobby is a sin. Rot your brain with television, but it makes no sense now, so I can't watch it, just lala.
Look at what happened to them: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHCaIvPN2rY
The indulgence of the agents https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HwELajFteTo
You want to dumb people down when your education system is failing. Plus, trust me, you really don't want to make a bunch of idiots. Us special ed children are so productive and well-adjusted.
Kaela.
Kaela.
Kaela.
You want to demoralize them and make them masochists to deny and screw themselves over, but then you wonder why they're possessed. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7APmRkatEU "I'm Afraid of Americans," too, even myself. It's like, why would I ever want that? Back to worshiping my masters. F off. Here I am, the "Mummy." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY Don't knock it. I'm trying to survive.
You want to make people focus only on sex and masturbation when they end up in poverty or breeding undesirables, which you keep slaughtering.
I know it's sluggishly progressive schizophrenia again, any hobby is a sin. Rot your brain with television, but it makes no sense now, so I can't watch it, just lala.
Look at what happened to them: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHCaIvPN2rY
The indulgence of the agents https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HwELajFteTo
So I Just Went on a Retard Rage Rant Toward Putin--Can't Feel It But Think It
Nothing changes for me. "And all that you ever learned, try to forget. I'll never explain again." -- Madonna Well, I go back to Hell, so I'll learn everything again. We'll all be illiterate for her vanity, but then the US will lose power and be like Mali. Learn a lot from the Dalai Slave Lord? His values sure saved his country. Love and sunshine. I don't like him because we disabled people have bad karma from a previous life. Fuck you. I've done a lot of that meditation in my life, how many ego deaths? Back to Madonna, stupid woman. Spoiled little brat. "Nothing Really Matters" after all. We know who it's all about.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_school_shootings_in_the_United_States not catching them, of course. If you save one person, it's worth it, right? That's the excuse you'll use. I never do anything violent. I talk -- a lot. Of course, the brats will strike first. I'm more likely to blow my brains out than anything else, which I was going to do until they pissed me off. People call us weak or BOOHOO, but there are environments humans aren't meant to survive in, even social ones, and if exposed, they will die.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7APmRkatEU me, too. We want brains, not the death cult. Yes, we look at the stars and get sick of pussies and cars, which we're forced to worship. It's dangerous and annoying. You never know who is going to take you out for the stupidest reasons, especially our vain rich. Not only but many of us are masochists. Keep that self-hate going and punish anything that benefits you. I'm sorry if I offended you, great Lord of Walmart. Anyone at any time can destroy your entire life. Whatever you do, it will be punished in the most extreme way possible. It's like, I should have been put in prison 20 crimes ago--even if I was forced to commit a few with the satellites, but it's a pissing contest with my brain and my life. It's inhumane. It affects everything. I don't have any good moments. We won't put her in prison for disclosing info that's on the internet, but we'll spend an entire year torturing her then wondering why she's insane. People who have dismantled others' bodies and tortured people have more rights than I do. Marilyn Manson was just fishing for reasons. It's like, okay, buddy, I'm sorry if the bad man touched you as a child or whatever happened. It's going to be okay. Just calm down. And it doesn't matter what we do, it's a trap for something. I've wasted ten years of my life on the last fifty.
Back to Putin, the animal sacrifice was not enough, and you should have left the animal alone and used a human. You are going to pay for THAT! Hand it over, bitch. I wish you'd fix my brain. It's like, I work for you, bitch, shut up.
That's another choice thing where I didn't have any hope of beating on my own. Of course, my side makes me out to be a mastermind, just like I did "I Want to Believe." Sure I did all that. The FBI loves to use and blame us. It's like my fixers today. It's already too late, morons. I'm a corpse, and I already did the damage. The only thing you can do to torture me more is to put me in locked-in syndrome.
Bad babysitters, as usual. Completely incompetent. They'll keep blaming me--just take a machine gun to me, just like they let Snowden, Manning, and Assange do the deeds. We're children of God and have to be kept away from the edge. It's your fault, not mine.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWjYsxaBjBI. Jeffrey was treated better than me. It's just because I'm a tard and people have some sort of hatred of us. I've been hunted since the beginning of time. Love and peace -- and world peace through robotic flesh servants for the glorious poor rich people. You will fail. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_q_n_YskNHM you do what you want. When all the retards are lobotomized, there will be world peace.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY&t=80s it's what I do best.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_school_shootings_in_the_United_States not catching them, of course. If you save one person, it's worth it, right? That's the excuse you'll use. I never do anything violent. I talk -- a lot. Of course, the brats will strike first. I'm more likely to blow my brains out than anything else, which I was going to do until they pissed me off. People call us weak or BOOHOO, but there are environments humans aren't meant to survive in, even social ones, and if exposed, they will die.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7APmRkatEU me, too. We want brains, not the death cult. Yes, we look at the stars and get sick of pussies and cars, which we're forced to worship. It's dangerous and annoying. You never know who is going to take you out for the stupidest reasons, especially our vain rich. Not only but many of us are masochists. Keep that self-hate going and punish anything that benefits you. I'm sorry if I offended you, great Lord of Walmart. Anyone at any time can destroy your entire life. Whatever you do, it will be punished in the most extreme way possible. It's like, I should have been put in prison 20 crimes ago--even if I was forced to commit a few with the satellites, but it's a pissing contest with my brain and my life. It's inhumane. It affects everything. I don't have any good moments. We won't put her in prison for disclosing info that's on the internet, but we'll spend an entire year torturing her then wondering why she's insane. People who have dismantled others' bodies and tortured people have more rights than I do. Marilyn Manson was just fishing for reasons. It's like, okay, buddy, I'm sorry if the bad man touched you as a child or whatever happened. It's going to be okay. Just calm down. And it doesn't matter what we do, it's a trap for something. I've wasted ten years of my life on the last fifty.
Back to Putin, the animal sacrifice was not enough, and you should have left the animal alone and used a human. You are going to pay for THAT! Hand it over, bitch. I wish you'd fix my brain. It's like, I work for you, bitch, shut up.
That's another choice thing where I didn't have any hope of beating on my own. Of course, my side makes me out to be a mastermind, just like I did "I Want to Believe." Sure I did all that. The FBI loves to use and blame us. It's like my fixers today. It's already too late, morons. I'm a corpse, and I already did the damage. The only thing you can do to torture me more is to put me in locked-in syndrome.
Bad babysitters, as usual. Completely incompetent. They'll keep blaming me--just take a machine gun to me, just like they let Snowden, Manning, and Assange do the deeds. We're children of God and have to be kept away from the edge. It's your fault, not mine.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWjYsxaBjBI. Jeffrey was treated better than me. It's just because I'm a tard and people have some sort of hatred of us. I've been hunted since the beginning of time. Love and peace -- and world peace through robotic flesh servants for the glorious poor rich people. You will fail. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_q_n_YskNHM you do what you want. When all the retards are lobotomized, there will be world peace.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY&t=80s it's what I do best.
Sunday, May 3, 2020
The Agenda and Excuse They Use -- My Fixers
They aren't going to do it the right way with agenda 2, the lie that sounds good. They might have to actually create enough income for us to not to have to work so many jobs or be under so much stress. I'd get vocational training, real direction, which is impossible now. My IQ is too low. I can't learn much. I've had it tested, so they won't label me retarded but I am. It'll be a decline in function. I failed at McDonald's when I was able, even though they want to put me in my place there. They're only proving their own stupidity. They will stay in their place and never ask for money or immortality, and they'll have CONTROL so long as I'm controlled, which they can't even do. I have a motto for their work, "No pay, no way." We do things upfront now.
I'm going to have to up my meds to deal with the happy feeling. My brain shouldn't be happy. I just took some pills. How to get schizophrenics to take their meds: make them happy idiots.
If they really wanted to do things like agenda 21, they would sterilize me and send me through vocational training, but we have to play all these "happy" games of destruction. If you wanted me to be sane, why torture me for a year in Virginia? You guys make no sense, just like what they want. If you really wanted to help society, it wouldn't be the hero's journey, and you would have nailed me in the mailroom when I still had a life, but oh no, we have to play the psychopath game. It doesn't seem like they can handle the power. How many resources did you waste on me? It shouldn't be personal. It should be for the good of society. yes, I went nutty. My brain betrayed me. I can't help but think. You can say I am too emotional if you want to while YOU ARE FILLED WITH HATRED, IC3PEAK and NOT ACTUALLY PURE NOR EXPERIENCED, ironically. RUSSIA IS GREAT AT DESTROYING ITSELF BY SLAUGHTERING EVERYONE. GIVE US YOUR CHUNK OF ICE AND GAS :P. YOU, BOTH SIDES, CAN'T DO ANYTHING WORSE TO ME. I'M A MECHANICAL ANIMAL. THE ONLY THING THE MORAL 'ARTISTS' CAN DO TO ME NOW IS LOCKED IN SYNDROME. GO AHEAD. YOU WILL FAIL AND BOW TO ME: YOUR FAILURE. Putin is a baby. he may be powerful in his head, but he can't handle it, so he will fall into the dirt. His ego problems are humorous. It's like, what did I ever do to you? Jesus will save you :P. You don't care about anyone but yourself. I KNEW THEY'D TURN ME INTO A FLESH ROBOT. WELCOME TO BEING A BALANCING CORPSE. IT'S MY HONOR.
YOU KNOW WHAT YOU 'MORAL ARTISTS' AND PUTIN SHOULD DO NEXT? TAKE ME AND MY FAMILY TO A ZINDAN, RIP OUT MY EYES AND TONGUE AND LET ME LISTEN TO EVERYONE SCREAMING FOR MERCY WHILE BEING RAPED AND BEATEN. IS THAT SICK ENOUGH? AND WORLD PEACE. I'VE LEARNED THEY VALUE NOTHING, SO THEY'LL DO ANYTHING. FACE YOUR SIN, VLADI. I GUESS YOU'LL HAVE TO WATI FOR JESUS. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KYhU9ujqvss. You're an old man in a graveyard. YES, I MAKE FUN OF YOU AND LAUGH, IC3PEAK. EVERYONE MAKES FUN OF THE RETARD KID. IT'S A CONSTANT IN MY LIFE, PUTIN, MARILYN MANSON AND EVERYONE ELSE.
Rich and pure people often play these games with me because they don't know what they're doing and want power and control. We need to police them. and no, not all rich people are bad, just the ones who exploit and use us for gain. Like Putin was the most powerful person in the world, along with the kung fu master now cooking in a Chinese wok. And he chooses to pick a fight with me for his ego. It's cool. They are my prey. I'm immortal and come in the form of many people. I am your failure. Ancient Chinese chef will make me fight you then get back to business.
We have instincts and mechanisms in our brains that don't care about someone else's opinion, the pure one who says, BOOHOO, and my brain won't stop firing. It annoys me for the most part. I laugh at it. Yes, I was abused, and I know nobody cares about it for worth. I don't even care except to avoid it again. I love my parents even though they have issues, even my dad who has been a pain in the ass. He has good qualities. I just have to watch out. And I like that he works hard, and while he's not an academic, he's good with people, a good manager. His ex-girlfriends made him nuts a few times. He sometimes takes it out on the wrong people. May has helped him stabilize a lot. yes, he abused the shit out of me, but we have to move on, I know. I'm not perfect either. I am responsible for the contact I make with him and be sure to set up boundaries. He really, really wants to be rich and thus gets me into trouble. Okay, buddy, go for it. As for mom, mom is just mom. You'll never get her to do much of anything, and you just have to accept her.
Back to it,
We should set up clinics to edit people. I wish they could handle the power of doing it while we have lives, but they can't.
Yeah, so... Angry asldfjasdjf toward Putin. Not exact meaning. You sacrificed an animal for me. You want to question the internet with my sacrifice. Fucker. You're going to PAY.
"There's so many of us" -- A Perfect Circle. There are so many of us, too, buddies.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0D_dYh5EKc Let's go fuck.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Od3Q6O7HMy8 Go after real problems, not the tard. I think China/North Korea inspires us with regard to the abuse of human rights. Hey, they were poor and had to survive. Welcome to my world. I guess you could argue that the people who received the transplants survived. I think we could grow organs in labs to off-set this.
Anyway,
Do you know what pisses me off about the torture? They made my cat suffer through it, too, when my cat did nothing wrong. He was a loving companion and tried to help me through hard times. There's no excuse for animal abuse. Zero. If you're going to kill the owner, you make sure they find a new home or go to a no-kill shelter.
Freedom of Choice--Never an Excuse--You Always Have a Choice
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W09rrriWtp8 to them.
Anyway,
I recently had a youtube post that called me attractive and said I should date. I'm not attractive. I'm fat and ugly. But that's not the main point.
If I'm not going to get a welfare check, I don't have time to date. Men don't want to stay with me either. I have no money, and I'm not a youth anymore to confuse them. They will disposit in me, and would as a youth, not want to stay, and create issues. I would have to support my baby or rely on government daycare. I'd work 80 hours a week and never see my kid but would have to pay for it, and it's like, um, no.
Plus, I'm in a class with low men. Of course, they'll be mad at me for saying that, and they'll be mad I don't just "find mister right," but I don't have time for that and am not worthy or equal, and I hate social issues. I spent my childhood with them, wah, wah. Not only, but I've been damaged to the point I'm only a sex doll to disposit sperm in, as I said. I talk about myself, not much for conversation. And to be frank with you, I don't trust having children in the US. Not with the weapons. My kid would be stupid and crazy like me and my mate and would be made into a flesh robot or have to suffer like I did.
Fuck off.
You wonder why there are so many disabled people. You breed us. We meet in the psych ward. Oh, baby, baby.
I guess I have a choice in men, that is if one doesn't trap me first, so I pick Putin. I'm evolving.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkVMkcacwUQ I made bad choices. Let's not do them again out of desperation. I'm not going to partner.
I toss and turn with every regret. I'm not leaving logic and reason, Bjork, even if I'm a happy beetard and robot. I'll just die on you due to your bad leadership. Why do you care? That's right, it's all for you, not a real purpose. Your love and kindness is beyond evil. I've had plenty of life lessons, and I don't want to be bored in Hell.
I seek knowledge, not happiness. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0D_dYh5EKc. Mom's been nice lately, did you save her? She can continue to loaf around and never accept responsibility nor change. She won't work. If you did alter her... or if the alcohol finally destroyed her brain... make another beetard? Enjoy her blithe and debts. Wonder if she'll pay taxes this year or have to be bailed out again. Maybe she'll build another store in the middle of nowhere or go to markets and not bother to try to sell her stuff. But at least she'll be happy. Too bad she can't make another ten children she can't afford. More slaves to lobotomize after the pure reject them. I love her, but she has issues and nothing will ever fix them. You have to accept some people for the way they are. If you ever read this, mom, I love you.
These leaders just kind of leave me alone in my hallucination. It's like, whatever, ant. It's mercy and kindness that destroys me because those don't let me become wise and avoid traps nor does it help me survive. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jGEjxmOL6HU. I don't matter enough to be bothered with. If they accidentally kill me, it's no big deal. But Bjork and Madonna will cry about how mean they are. it's like, look what you did to me? Look in the mirror. I'll go back to Hell and be destroyed. You didn't change the system, so I'll be a sheep to the slaughter.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=leopt__ATR0 I'm an angel, btw. I'm going to rip your guys' eyes out when I take over, which is only a fantasy.
The people following and "fixing" me are only proving their own stupidity. They won't get anything either, minus their own hate to motivate.
Saturday, May 2, 2020
Bored? Or Wants to Fail Due to Pressure? Or Something I Don't Understand That's Creepy... Drugs, PR
https://www.rt.com/usa/487635-musk-wipes-tesla-value-freedom/
My dad is kind of passively suicidal (not rich, just middle class, and incited). He'll do dangerous things and become delusional or drink. It's bad because he puts his whole self-worth into it. It becomes a chain to choke him. That's probably why they kill themselves. And it's like, what is the purpose of it? The rat race.
Then so much of the population is on welfare, and it's like, do you really want it all and to turn us all into demons while you slave away for no point but paper? It's only good to wipe your ass with. It's unhealthy to not work but many people can't afford to, can't believe I have to say that. Work is purpose. I just can't handle ten billion jobs and all the new rules. I drown.
It's better to spend the day at the beach than at a five-star hotel.
As far as they go... the greedy, power-hungry ones...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQvEBaLYHJE What they do makes me physically ill, too. it's like, I'm dead, we're dead, stop trying to kill us. I'm in the ground. Enjoy your goodies. They never stop coming. They will save the world by killing me. A clusterfuck of stupidity.
Money is power for creation, but they're eroding us for themselves. Babel bananas. To the ones who work and make things, it's like, congrats, you're competent and create a product for us all, but these power-hungry people are cannibals. Destruction, corruption, and indulgence. Eat me, drink me, bastards, to you, too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aB39OqlJsm4 Pretty much. As they waste time trying to control the chaos they create. We need competent leaders like Porter. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezSm9TLci6M Then what, guys? What are you going to do when we're all dead and crazy? Lobotomize the human race... There are so many of us, too. I don't want to crawl out the ruins of civilization for your vanity. We have better things to do. It's fine. We can play this game all damn day. We will pop out and just say it and fight. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spitVENkpgw Sure you'll tell person a, they'll be rich and immortal. Then you'll tell person b, that the no one but that person knows the answer, like Kaku who believes in democracy but resorts to bedroom surgeries to push his agenda. +rolls eyes+. You'll understand the supernatural when we all pop out to survive https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZpJSo7e2ZQ You couldn't even control me, so that shows your power. It's pretty sad at the end of the day. In fact, it's pathetic. You've made it a pretty sell with world peace and everything. We have demon chicks like this to inspire with the notes of destiny. Yes, you who dare, Lisa Gerrard, arrogant bitch. It never ends. We dance the dances forever, each generation as we leanr more and more. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmebE-TotJU. My inner flame is dead, thanks to these people and the lie of peace. I want to give Putin an erection. There were no Russians at the window, so your machine is bullshit. My big secret is that I want to fuck Putin. I'm working hard for his dick. That's the end of the world apparently. Wahoo, I'm a peasant, nothing will be surprising--or even interesting, but you hunt me and don't do anything productive, no impact, just more welfare recipients and human shells. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zHg4T-ippA. I'm not worth the effort, but since you insist, it will be my honor. I don't understand why you just don't kill me for my money at this point. It's not about the money, it's about world peace +rolls eyes+ What is your actual goal with me? Do you have one? You aren't into love and kindness, nor order and discipline, nor do you take responsibility or even understand what you're doing. You're full of shit without an awareness. I guess I would probably explode everywhere if you killed me. That sucks for you. I'm bored. Time to dance. Teach me another lesson, Lisa Gerrard or IC3PEAK, the pure hookers. I'm very dirty and demoralized. I'm from Hell's fire. I have had some amazing controllers, let me tell you. They lead me to the best places ever. I'm infested by demons you have to defeat without changing my world. It's all my fault I fail. If only I could eat more dirt. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHxunwKQTHE That's who I worship, Kali, and Satan, of course. I don't waste my time with much hope. I'd rather read and ignore all of you. I have NO faith in God, trust me. I waited for years with faith and lies and no one helped me. You guys really cared when I needed help the most. That headache sure hurt. Oh well. It probably is helping me fight your love and sunshine, and piercing me through the chest with agony. I'll never forget that. I was possessed with desperation. Who else would want to suck Putin's dick? He sees a lot of it in Russia. I know our corrupt elites aspire to his level of corruption and sheer stupidity. Sorry about your population decliine. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGJaKeYwOFo When I was defenseless... Of course, it was horrible that I called Amanda a bitch despite the fact she kept lying and was a crappy friend. It's all about Amanda. Spoiled little shit. I should have ditched her a long time ago, but I accepted whoever I could, wouldn't want to leave anyone behind or not be their friend. Oh and speaking of the disabled... Her mother just didn't tell her. She was protected from it. Going to kill her, Invalidy? She had water on the brain as a baby. Anyway, Campbell has some serious demons, and I was scared. I was surrounded and paranoid. Shadow stabbing. Plus, she did some things over Ford. I told her what he did, and she blamed me. Aspen is the only innocent one that I've reacted to. Sorry, they kept comparing us, got a bit jealous. She doesn't even know me, and I barely know her. She never treated me poorly.
In-person, I treat people well, especially when I had emotions. I'm quite polite. I had to show you some things with a few people. Sorry, guys. It's okay for you to do everything to me though and actually cause me harm like Putin did when he made me a target or being edited or when they tried to make me a pedohpile. Heaven forbid I react or deal with issues in my own life without you interfering. Marilyn Manson, you're a bit older than me. We have to catch up. You're destroying youths. You weren't/aren't an angel either. We learn life's lessons. It's a bit difficult now numbed. What did I ever do to you, Putin? Try to survive... Marilyn Manson, you? I will react, and it will be blamed on me solely.
Back to them...
Suck his dick for immorality, but of course, you know your place and would never ask for it. Burning liar. I want it, but they will just use it to make me do stupid things faster, so I'll make fun of them. Enjoy your afterlife, Christian, have faith. It will be soon, Lisa Gerrard and IC3PEAK. You will bow to me in time. I'm your failure. +rolls eyes+ Heaven forbid I read about electrons instead of this. Couldn't leave me alone.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cKEy0BFfQw Just throw it at them, money, money, money. Take it all. Boring and pointless. All we know are tiger eyes for their pleasure. Enjoy desperate people flung at you. You made them that way and are somehow surprised. There's more to life than that and ritual sacrifice.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6mRiAoHo6c I'm not scared. I'm pissed and will do this until I die.
My dad is kind of passively suicidal (not rich, just middle class, and incited). He'll do dangerous things and become delusional or drink. It's bad because he puts his whole self-worth into it. It becomes a chain to choke him. That's probably why they kill themselves. And it's like, what is the purpose of it? The rat race.
Then so much of the population is on welfare, and it's like, do you really want it all and to turn us all into demons while you slave away for no point but paper? It's only good to wipe your ass with. It's unhealthy to not work but many people can't afford to, can't believe I have to say that. Work is purpose. I just can't handle ten billion jobs and all the new rules. I drown.
It's better to spend the day at the beach than at a five-star hotel.
As far as they go... the greedy, power-hungry ones...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQvEBaLYHJE What they do makes me physically ill, too. it's like, I'm dead, we're dead, stop trying to kill us. I'm in the ground. Enjoy your goodies. They never stop coming. They will save the world by killing me. A clusterfuck of stupidity.
Money is power for creation, but they're eroding us for themselves. Babel bananas. To the ones who work and make things, it's like, congrats, you're competent and create a product for us all, but these power-hungry people are cannibals. Destruction, corruption, and indulgence. Eat me, drink me, bastards, to you, too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aB39OqlJsm4 Pretty much. As they waste time trying to control the chaos they create. We need competent leaders like Porter. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezSm9TLci6M Then what, guys? What are you going to do when we're all dead and crazy? Lobotomize the human race... There are so many of us, too. I don't want to crawl out the ruins of civilization for your vanity. We have better things to do. It's fine. We can play this game all damn day. We will pop out and just say it and fight. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spitVENkpgw Sure you'll tell person a, they'll be rich and immortal. Then you'll tell person b, that the no one but that person knows the answer, like Kaku who believes in democracy but resorts to bedroom surgeries to push his agenda. +rolls eyes+. You'll understand the supernatural when we all pop out to survive https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZpJSo7e2ZQ You couldn't even control me, so that shows your power. It's pretty sad at the end of the day. In fact, it's pathetic. You've made it a pretty sell with world peace and everything. We have demon chicks like this to inspire with the notes of destiny. Yes, you who dare, Lisa Gerrard, arrogant bitch. It never ends. We dance the dances forever, each generation as we leanr more and more. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmebE-TotJU. My inner flame is dead, thanks to these people and the lie of peace. I want to give Putin an erection. There were no Russians at the window, so your machine is bullshit. My big secret is that I want to fuck Putin. I'm working hard for his dick. That's the end of the world apparently. Wahoo, I'm a peasant, nothing will be surprising--or even interesting, but you hunt me and don't do anything productive, no impact, just more welfare recipients and human shells. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zHg4T-ippA. I'm not worth the effort, but since you insist, it will be my honor. I don't understand why you just don't kill me for my money at this point. It's not about the money, it's about world peace +rolls eyes+ What is your actual goal with me? Do you have one? You aren't into love and kindness, nor order and discipline, nor do you take responsibility or even understand what you're doing. You're full of shit without an awareness. I guess I would probably explode everywhere if you killed me. That sucks for you. I'm bored. Time to dance. Teach me another lesson, Lisa Gerrard or IC3PEAK, the pure hookers. I'm very dirty and demoralized. I'm from Hell's fire. I have had some amazing controllers, let me tell you. They lead me to the best places ever. I'm infested by demons you have to defeat without changing my world. It's all my fault I fail. If only I could eat more dirt. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHxunwKQTHE That's who I worship, Kali, and Satan, of course. I don't waste my time with much hope. I'd rather read and ignore all of you. I have NO faith in God, trust me. I waited for years with faith and lies and no one helped me. You guys really cared when I needed help the most. That headache sure hurt. Oh well. It probably is helping me fight your love and sunshine, and piercing me through the chest with agony. I'll never forget that. I was possessed with desperation. Who else would want to suck Putin's dick? He sees a lot of it in Russia. I know our corrupt elites aspire to his level of corruption and sheer stupidity. Sorry about your population decliine. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGJaKeYwOFo When I was defenseless... Of course, it was horrible that I called Amanda a bitch despite the fact she kept lying and was a crappy friend. It's all about Amanda. Spoiled little shit. I should have ditched her a long time ago, but I accepted whoever I could, wouldn't want to leave anyone behind or not be their friend. Oh and speaking of the disabled... Her mother just didn't tell her. She was protected from it. Going to kill her, Invalidy? She had water on the brain as a baby. Anyway, Campbell has some serious demons, and I was scared. I was surrounded and paranoid. Shadow stabbing. Plus, she did some things over Ford. I told her what he did, and she blamed me. Aspen is the only innocent one that I've reacted to. Sorry, they kept comparing us, got a bit jealous. She doesn't even know me, and I barely know her. She never treated me poorly.
In-person, I treat people well, especially when I had emotions. I'm quite polite. I had to show you some things with a few people. Sorry, guys. It's okay for you to do everything to me though and actually cause me harm like Putin did when he made me a target or being edited or when they tried to make me a pedohpile. Heaven forbid I react or deal with issues in my own life without you interfering. Marilyn Manson, you're a bit older than me. We have to catch up. You're destroying youths. You weren't/aren't an angel either. We learn life's lessons. It's a bit difficult now numbed. What did I ever do to you, Putin? Try to survive... Marilyn Manson, you? I will react, and it will be blamed on me solely.
Back to them...
Suck his dick for immorality, but of course, you know your place and would never ask for it. Burning liar. I want it, but they will just use it to make me do stupid things faster, so I'll make fun of them. Enjoy your afterlife, Christian, have faith. It will be soon, Lisa Gerrard and IC3PEAK. You will bow to me in time. I'm your failure. +rolls eyes+ Heaven forbid I read about electrons instead of this. Couldn't leave me alone.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cKEy0BFfQw Just throw it at them, money, money, money. Take it all. Boring and pointless. All we know are tiger eyes for their pleasure. Enjoy desperate people flung at you. You made them that way and are somehow surprised. There's more to life than that and ritual sacrifice.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6mRiAoHo6c I'm not scared. I'm pissed and will do this until I die.
The Purpose of Humanity
Keep holding onto your wealth, poor rich people, vying for power like everyone else. You want the power, but you don't want the responsibility. You want to sin and not suffer for your sins.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWGNA3u4-Sg this is what life is. We all rise and fall. You go up the highest mountain then turn to dust.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY And guys, this is the last time I'm coming back. I said that last time. It's what I do best even old and nasty. I always end up doing that with monsters, not that I can figure it out or Jessica. I don't see Bjork bothering them, probably sucking their dicks. Do you want to be immortal Bjork and Kaku? Suck harder. It makes them laugh because they'll never give you what you want. You'll do it all for free. I want to be immortal in not-not, but it won't happen, so I won't bother trying or doing anything for you. Just like Six Flags with dad, so sad. I learned my lessons. You shouldn't have abused me so much, and I wouldn't have been so determined. Ask the Muslims what happens if you beat your daughter too much. The bicycle taught me to be stubborn. It's subzero, and I have 11 miles to go. The boys are going to open their car doors on me and scream about how they're going to fuck me side to side with their balls. It's 1 am and mom is too drunk to open the door. I'm coughing, have a fever, and my hands are fully covered with Raynauds. That's a pleasant memory. There's way worse, but it's all lies, lies, lies. I'm a liar. Then I dissociate and deny myself. You could give me the money and house and leave me alone to settle my soul. Until then, I will do nothing for you. I think I'll get a ring and be an honorary wife. You will pay for your sins, damn Christian. Jesus isn't an excuse. Wah, wah. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvf--10EYXw&list=RDL9Wnh0V4HMM&index=4
I attract lots of monsters, just like Putin is a light for scumbags. We all attract something. It's never going to end, so when I can't reason it, I'll die. The world is such a kind place, after all. Let's go to dinner with dad and listen to him. I wonder what they'll think. He will try to rent a space at the hotel. Fortunately, they won't allow us on some levels, but that doesn't mean anything because I'm in the lobby. End him and Harlan is in foster care and May is dead from HIV. Go Thailand's shitty meds for poor people. Work on that, Thailand. She had to be a whore, didn't have much choice, so deal with it. I should have been a whore. I could have earned cash, but they have a problem with that. It's not pure. But I'm bad if I get assistance. I'm mentally disabled, man, I ain't gonna get no good payin job. I guess the only other option is to kill all of the disabled people, which goes against your glorious love and kindness (that only applies to those they deem worthy), especially with Christians. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ppiohVRZ0s. The queer is not the queer. Let me dirty up your mind. I'm detached from society's bs rules.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HrAMuTCS21M&list=RDL9Wnh0V4HMM&index=5 I've got NO mercy. I want what he's got, and he's got a lot. I was confused before, but you make me worship gold, so you're somehow surprised. It usually splits me away from my desire, and I ignore material things as I hate myself and think of spiritual things. Everyone else burns. Shiny boots of leather.
You will fail at the ending of suffering. You're punishing me, so, as usual, you make no sense. Why did you do all that to me if you wanted to help? No awareness, foolish children.
I can't believe I have to waste my time with you. I had better things to do than play this game yet again. Learning lessons only life can teach. I walk everywhere. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWGmyEPJHRQ
Here's another pure one to kill me for my experience. ICEPEAK. She's as pure as a piece of shit and as clear as a baboon in a Calculus class. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTTwGqeNdlE. Otherwise, she wouldn't want to kill people like that instead of help them. Let me guess... another Christian. Christians aren't all bad, don't get me wrong. These people like Putin don't practice what they preach. Oh, help me, help me, dad. Bow, buddy.
Here are the people who want to be worshiped. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZYSiWHW8V0. It wastes time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HdZlAt1IyyA he'll probably give me a dollar for a soda, the old man, and leave me to wander along. I wander around and need dollars. Meanwhile, DEATHSTARS is going to save the world by denying me then killing me. Are you going to see me, DEATHSTARS? Are you going to hear me cry? They have no awareness.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWGNA3u4-Sg this is what life is. We all rise and fall. You go up the highest mountain then turn to dust.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY And guys, this is the last time I'm coming back. I said that last time. It's what I do best even old and nasty. I always end up doing that with monsters, not that I can figure it out or Jessica. I don't see Bjork bothering them, probably sucking their dicks. Do you want to be immortal Bjork and Kaku? Suck harder. It makes them laugh because they'll never give you what you want. You'll do it all for free. I want to be immortal in not-not, but it won't happen, so I won't bother trying or doing anything for you. Just like Six Flags with dad, so sad. I learned my lessons. You shouldn't have abused me so much, and I wouldn't have been so determined. Ask the Muslims what happens if you beat your daughter too much. The bicycle taught me to be stubborn. It's subzero, and I have 11 miles to go. The boys are going to open their car doors on me and scream about how they're going to fuck me side to side with their balls. It's 1 am and mom is too drunk to open the door. I'm coughing, have a fever, and my hands are fully covered with Raynauds. That's a pleasant memory. There's way worse, but it's all lies, lies, lies. I'm a liar. Then I dissociate and deny myself. You could give me the money and house and leave me alone to settle my soul. Until then, I will do nothing for you. I think I'll get a ring and be an honorary wife. You will pay for your sins, damn Christian. Jesus isn't an excuse. Wah, wah. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvf--10EYXw&list=RDL9Wnh0V4HMM&index=4
I attract lots of monsters, just like Putin is a light for scumbags. We all attract something. It's never going to end, so when I can't reason it, I'll die. The world is such a kind place, after all. Let's go to dinner with dad and listen to him. I wonder what they'll think. He will try to rent a space at the hotel. Fortunately, they won't allow us on some levels, but that doesn't mean anything because I'm in the lobby. End him and Harlan is in foster care and May is dead from HIV. Go Thailand's shitty meds for poor people. Work on that, Thailand. She had to be a whore, didn't have much choice, so deal with it. I should have been a whore. I could have earned cash, but they have a problem with that. It's not pure. But I'm bad if I get assistance. I'm mentally disabled, man, I ain't gonna get no good payin job. I guess the only other option is to kill all of the disabled people, which goes against your glorious love and kindness (that only applies to those they deem worthy), especially with Christians. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ppiohVRZ0s. The queer is not the queer. Let me dirty up your mind. I'm detached from society's bs rules.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HrAMuTCS21M&list=RDL9Wnh0V4HMM&index=5 I've got NO mercy. I want what he's got, and he's got a lot. I was confused before, but you make me worship gold, so you're somehow surprised. It usually splits me away from my desire, and I ignore material things as I hate myself and think of spiritual things. Everyone else burns. Shiny boots of leather.
You will fail at the ending of suffering. You're punishing me, so, as usual, you make no sense. Why did you do all that to me if you wanted to help? No awareness, foolish children.
I can't believe I have to waste my time with you. I had better things to do than play this game yet again. Learning lessons only life can teach. I walk everywhere. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWGmyEPJHRQ
Here's another pure one to kill me for my experience. ICEPEAK. She's as pure as a piece of shit and as clear as a baboon in a Calculus class. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTTwGqeNdlE. Otherwise, she wouldn't want to kill people like that instead of help them. Let me guess... another Christian. Christians aren't all bad, don't get me wrong. These people like Putin don't practice what they preach. Oh, help me, help me, dad. Bow, buddy.
Here are the people who want to be worshiped. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZYSiWHW8V0. It wastes time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HdZlAt1IyyA he'll probably give me a dollar for a soda, the old man, and leave me to wander along. I wander around and need dollars. Meanwhile, DEATHSTARS is going to save the world by denying me then killing me. Are you going to see me, DEATHSTARS? Are you going to hear me cry? They have no awareness.
Crowd Control
The masses are usually inspiring. Get your pitchforks. It's like, wow, you guys really screw yourselves over with blind hate. They believe in dust and haikus because a lot of them can't understand or can't because what they believe makes their worlds. They fear reality like nothing else, especially Americans. Cry and throw a temper tantrum. Yes, you are so served.
I have unpopular opinions for the most part. Sometimes, I unleash them. I just think society is improperly dressed at the moment. Like I said, no matter how much Bjork makes me "clear," I won't get what the scientists are saying, not that I'm totally stupid, just retarded. I have interests and see my survival, and Bjork isn't educated nor a scientist/neurosurgeon and is incompetent. They all want power without having to be responsible. Oh, Porter, let's ask her some questions. Kaku is a theoretical physicist and politician, not an expert on psychology nor neurosurgery. Let Porter nail him, too. What the fuck are you actually saying?
I should have some rights as is part of the social contract of being governed in a society. We have a representative government for a reason. Kaku is bypassing this while standing up for democracy. Burn, bitch. You can have the goodies and your vision. Just stay away from me.
Now it's even harder to think. They try to make me dissociate and deny myself. I did before, and I was such, "a nice, stupid girl" like what F said to me in the army. Fuck Campbell then ask me on a date after saying that, you scumbag. Then she throws a fit and blames me, but I am judged.
I usually just wander around, but they wouldn't leave me alone. Anyway, you have to condition a population with understandings, not demonic dreams, not-not, and rage. This is getting really special.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhLrgAQWYUc&t=229s this is me. I've survived a lot. Bring it on. We can be badass like this trailer to describe what we survive. Survival has been difficult. It's not like lobotomizing me is going to end it. I'll be on the street with the pimps and whores, prison, or back fighting poor rich people with dad while he says whatever, knows so much, is so kind, and leads me well. I was such a happy child. I've ended that trick. I told my doctor, so you can't force us back together. Everyone in my family knows what he does when not on Facebook. I'm having a vision of a cliff and a car going off of it. He's learned how to be manipulative because he's so stupid. He's dumber than I was and has ego issues because of it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvAHNc5QpTo you've invoked the immortals with your dust. You can't dull us all. Raiden can't die. And you can't kill the will to survive, not even with braindamage.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY. But I must have him @_@. I'd fuck him for a night if I could. He should let go of his body and mind. He wanted to be a spy, after all. Let him have some time in the field. Then he might calm down a bit. He will bow to me in time, even if it isn't me for his abuse of power while you guys will have no real impact. You couldn't even control me, but you will continue in your pissing contest while everyone continues on. You don't things happen for reasons, do you?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9Wnh0V4HMM "Sleep to Dream." I've never been so insulted in my whole life.. You've got your head in the clouds. Putin can't let me talk because of how he abuses his power and the reaction. He can't rule. That's why he has a chunk of ice and a failing population. Boohoo.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S3dRhnt-oK0 Torture scene. This is mild compared to Christmas in Virginia with my abusive "husband." Then you send people to put their hands in my face. It's like, well, Marilyn Manson has me on the floor. "Apple of Sodom" Marilyn Manson. Blood everywhere, lots of kinky sex with machines, threats to my family if I don't hurt myself, psychotronic weapons, and gang stalking, brain daamge, Satan sex or try to turn me into a pedophile. Snowden will save the world no matter what you do to me. No, I don't think he will, but they can't even stop simple breaches and just blame others for their incompetence.
I look forward to the best night of my life. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlznpxNGFGQ
We're slaves. Only me and the other vulnerable. Real challenges. Well, then I need someone to tell me what to do every minute of the day, feed me, let me sleep, pick my mate, tell me when to have sex and babies, and protect me and make sure I can function for a purpose. Go to some of my places and meet all the random baby-makers, drug addicts, and leeches. You change nothing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txBfhpm1jI0. Burn me for that desire, too, okay? As if there isn't any more to life than masturbation. Can I just fuck him? I know I'm gross, but no one else has been there -- minus machines, so I'm clean. I don't know about him, but I'll tich for awhile. It's just sex. I know that's all Bjork can do and screech. She's entertaining for a while but ends up annoying and attention-seeking instead of talented. Like Madonna, she's past her prime. At one point, she was an artist, but now she's just a politician who likes to show her genitals. That's not empowering. It's gross and makes me a thing instead of a respected wife, mother (adopted children), etc. I guess if I'm only going to dream about sex though, Putin can be a spy for a night. Sorry, buddy. There's more to life than that, despite them being obsessed with their genitals.
I know you had a hard time with me marrying. First, they expect me to just sleep with them or at work and in the army. Part of the reason, too, is that I'm not seen as equal in society, and I've been told how horrible I am my whole life, so I'm terrified to have kids. Much of my family didn't exactly set a great example, and I didn't want to be trapped. It's so boring. I don't make much money when I work. I'm afraid to have children and not being able to provide for them, heaven forbid they go through what I did, and I can't count on my partner to provide due to the guys in my league. Taste in men. I'm supposed to be a submissive rose when my partner can run off without being slaughtered. BTW, speaking of mistakes in the army, X missed a movement and went AWOL (more than once) but was not hunted by Breaking Benjamin. Like I've said many times, you have to let some things go in the army because it's a high-stress environment, and stress will cause people to crack and do dumb, yet entertaining, things. I attract all the psychotronic people because I'm easy to get to and vulnerable.
They usually use sex against me, which is why I want to be circumcised to take away their power. I'll start that game with several sisters. Sex, like eating, applies to most people. I fuck myself. It's a trick. I dream of more than that. Another trick is for the rich to try to make me worship their crap, how great they are, and say I'm undeserving and worthless. I'm like, yeah, that's true, and stop going for material things because it's theirs and death. It burns me. I have to hate myself and always remember my many faults. Blue Stahli. I get sick of being demoralized, fuck you, too. Get away from me.. Then when I have nothing because I'm allowed nothing, Rob Zombie comes, or I can't be homeless in my hallucination because of Bjork.
I have unpopular opinions for the most part. Sometimes, I unleash them. I just think society is improperly dressed at the moment. Like I said, no matter how much Bjork makes me "clear," I won't get what the scientists are saying, not that I'm totally stupid, just retarded. I have interests and see my survival, and Bjork isn't educated nor a scientist/neurosurgeon and is incompetent. They all want power without having to be responsible. Oh, Porter, let's ask her some questions. Kaku is a theoretical physicist and politician, not an expert on psychology nor neurosurgery. Let Porter nail him, too. What the fuck are you actually saying?
I should have some rights as is part of the social contract of being governed in a society. We have a representative government for a reason. Kaku is bypassing this while standing up for democracy. Burn, bitch. You can have the goodies and your vision. Just stay away from me.
Now it's even harder to think. They try to make me dissociate and deny myself. I did before, and I was such, "a nice, stupid girl" like what F said to me in the army. Fuck Campbell then ask me on a date after saying that, you scumbag. Then she throws a fit and blames me, but I am judged.
I usually just wander around, but they wouldn't leave me alone. Anyway, you have to condition a population with understandings, not demonic dreams, not-not, and rage. This is getting really special.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhLrgAQWYUc&t=229s this is me. I've survived a lot. Bring it on. We can be badass like this trailer to describe what we survive. Survival has been difficult. It's not like lobotomizing me is going to end it. I'll be on the street with the pimps and whores, prison, or back fighting poor rich people with dad while he says whatever, knows so much, is so kind, and leads me well. I was such a happy child. I've ended that trick. I told my doctor, so you can't force us back together. Everyone in my family knows what he does when not on Facebook. I'm having a vision of a cliff and a car going off of it. He's learned how to be manipulative because he's so stupid. He's dumber than I was and has ego issues because of it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvAHNc5QpTo you've invoked the immortals with your dust. You can't dull us all. Raiden can't die. And you can't kill the will to survive, not even with braindamage.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyZ-saoiIzY. But I must have him @_@. I'd fuck him for a night if I could. He should let go of his body and mind. He wanted to be a spy, after all. Let him have some time in the field. Then he might calm down a bit. He will bow to me in time, even if it isn't me for his abuse of power while you guys will have no real impact. You couldn't even control me, but you will continue in your pissing contest while everyone continues on. You don't things happen for reasons, do you?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9Wnh0V4HMM "Sleep to Dream." I've never been so insulted in my whole life.. You've got your head in the clouds. Putin can't let me talk because of how he abuses his power and the reaction. He can't rule. That's why he has a chunk of ice and a failing population. Boohoo.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S3dRhnt-oK0 Torture scene. This is mild compared to Christmas in Virginia with my abusive "husband." Then you send people to put their hands in my face. It's like, well, Marilyn Manson has me on the floor. "Apple of Sodom" Marilyn Manson. Blood everywhere, lots of kinky sex with machines, threats to my family if I don't hurt myself, psychotronic weapons, and gang stalking, brain daamge, Satan sex or try to turn me into a pedophile. Snowden will save the world no matter what you do to me. No, I don't think he will, but they can't even stop simple breaches and just blame others for their incompetence.
I look forward to the best night of my life. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlznpxNGFGQ
We're slaves. Only me and the other vulnerable. Real challenges. Well, then I need someone to tell me what to do every minute of the day, feed me, let me sleep, pick my mate, tell me when to have sex and babies, and protect me and make sure I can function for a purpose. Go to some of my places and meet all the random baby-makers, drug addicts, and leeches. You change nothing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txBfhpm1jI0. Burn me for that desire, too, okay? As if there isn't any more to life than masturbation. Can I just fuck him? I know I'm gross, but no one else has been there -- minus machines, so I'm clean. I don't know about him, but I'll tich for awhile. It's just sex. I know that's all Bjork can do and screech. She's entertaining for a while but ends up annoying and attention-seeking instead of talented. Like Madonna, she's past her prime. At one point, she was an artist, but now she's just a politician who likes to show her genitals. That's not empowering. It's gross and makes me a thing instead of a respected wife, mother (adopted children), etc. I guess if I'm only going to dream about sex though, Putin can be a spy for a night. Sorry, buddy. There's more to life than that, despite them being obsessed with their genitals.
I know you had a hard time with me marrying. First, they expect me to just sleep with them or at work and in the army. Part of the reason, too, is that I'm not seen as equal in society, and I've been told how horrible I am my whole life, so I'm terrified to have kids. Much of my family didn't exactly set a great example, and I didn't want to be trapped. It's so boring. I don't make much money when I work. I'm afraid to have children and not being able to provide for them, heaven forbid they go through what I did, and I can't count on my partner to provide due to the guys in my league. Taste in men. I'm supposed to be a submissive rose when my partner can run off without being slaughtered. BTW, speaking of mistakes in the army, X missed a movement and went AWOL (more than once) but was not hunted by Breaking Benjamin. Like I've said many times, you have to let some things go in the army because it's a high-stress environment, and stress will cause people to crack and do dumb, yet entertaining, things. I attract all the psychotronic people because I'm easy to get to and vulnerable.
They usually use sex against me, which is why I want to be circumcised to take away their power. I'll start that game with several sisters. Sex, like eating, applies to most people. I fuck myself. It's a trick. I dream of more than that. Another trick is for the rich to try to make me worship their crap, how great they are, and say I'm undeserving and worthless. I'm like, yeah, that's true, and stop going for material things because it's theirs and death. It burns me. I have to hate myself and always remember my many faults. Blue Stahli. I get sick of being demoralized, fuck you, too. Get away from me.. Then when I have nothing because I'm allowed nothing, Rob Zombie comes, or I can't be homeless in my hallucination because of Bjork.
Mindless Submission to Males
Like I said, I attract a lot of things. I'm fairly oppressed and modern values don't apply to me, so don't show me your genitals, Bjork, because that merely makes me get attacked even more for being a whore because I like your music or whatever excuse they look for. It makes me an object, too. While I'm a rose in my place, my thorn runs away and leaves me, but it's okay for him to do that, and I have to work like 3 billion jobs in Hell for my offspring. I'd rather be a wife and adopt. You don't want my babies. You didn't want me.
In other news.
Liking Putin results in me having to be circumcised, or I have @_@ eyes, oh, who's a virgin? Putin is an evil, sick man, I know. He has a great PR team but no sense of humanity, a worthless thug. He likes to hurt people with his inferiority, little man syndrome. Do you want out in the field, Putin? You can come over here and sit all damn day.
Back to ranting...
In the army, they labeled me a whore, so I couldn't date anyone and a line to my barracks door with all the horny males. It's difficult to marry one due to the job and how children are shunned and pregnant women are harassed, which is pretty much every female. It's like 10 to 1. The males often won't listen or bully us. Strong women make it through, the few the proud, but a lot of my sisters are having serious issues.
Back to Islam...
I'll have to wear a cover when I bloom because of the jealousy of other women and the fact men want a sign to know I'm different, to hide me from the others who want to rape me or I'll blush (fear) or they'll compete with me at work when I bloom. I have lost jobs and had issues in the army because I wouldn't sleep with them. They used it to destroy me and even used Putin.
Men want to put me in my place and make me submissive, which I used to be brainless because there are no excuses and no thoughts for people like me.
I'm pretty much a Muslim in my beliefs because of where I am in society, a slave. No, I'm not going to convert, just explain why things happen. Why do you think they had to do that? I'm not free, so stop insulting me with my great choices.
I have to obey everyone without question, especially males like my father, or I'm seen as bad. I love my father, but I have to set boundaries because he doesn't understand and is selfish. I love to do what he says because he can be charming, but then bad things happen to me, like having to join the army when I was poor (on my own due to disability) and vulnerable and attracted there just what I attract everywhere else. I will be abused. He didn't want me to leave him and go into the army, and I was slapped. Thanks to him, I had no choice. He clings to me with his borderline personality disorder. There are consequences, sorry, dad, send me the cat backpack.
If I have to be submissive to a man, it will be my stepfather. He understands and is kind. My ex was a lot like Quincy. Unfortunately, my relationship with X revolved around not having sex. Oh well, I'm such a gold digger. lol.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6tDdjOmsCY&list=RDY6tDdjOmsCY&start_radio=1 boohoo annoys me. I don't care about interpersonal relationships, boring as Hell. They use these issues to say I don't matter and to rip me apart if they think I value myself. Many people cry over spilled milk, but if I show emotion, it's over. And if I don't cry like I should, it's over. Hook me up to a computer and shut up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vy2F1XCKE50 my hero. let her think about what they're doing. Minus what Britney Spears (above the law with the bubbler) said, the offices I called were useful unlike Putin and those who want to have all the goodies and rule like him. Do you want my check? Do you want to fuck me? Go ahead. I learned a lot in sparrow school and my zindan. It's okay, Putin can have his chunk of ice. We'll probably get it soon enough because you are a moron (angry words, no offense, Russian people). Anyway, they directed me to services for disabled people and recommended I get adult behavioral health help, not have my brain destroyed.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0D_dYh5EKc. this was me. I hate being happy, and I hate them. Now I'm stuck fighting them forever.
In other news.
Liking Putin results in me having to be circumcised, or I have @_@ eyes, oh, who's a virgin? Putin is an evil, sick man, I know. He has a great PR team but no sense of humanity, a worthless thug. He likes to hurt people with his inferiority, little man syndrome. Do you want out in the field, Putin? You can come over here and sit all damn day.
Back to ranting...
In the army, they labeled me a whore, so I couldn't date anyone and a line to my barracks door with all the horny males. It's difficult to marry one due to the job and how children are shunned and pregnant women are harassed, which is pretty much every female. It's like 10 to 1. The males often won't listen or bully us. Strong women make it through, the few the proud, but a lot of my sisters are having serious issues.
Back to Islam...
I'll have to wear a cover when I bloom because of the jealousy of other women and the fact men want a sign to know I'm different, to hide me from the others who want to rape me or I'll blush (fear) or they'll compete with me at work when I bloom. I have lost jobs and had issues in the army because I wouldn't sleep with them. They used it to destroy me and even used Putin.
Men want to put me in my place and make me submissive, which I used to be brainless because there are no excuses and no thoughts for people like me.
I'm pretty much a Muslim in my beliefs because of where I am in society, a slave. No, I'm not going to convert, just explain why things happen. Why do you think they had to do that? I'm not free, so stop insulting me with my great choices.
I have to obey everyone without question, especially males like my father, or I'm seen as bad. I love my father, but I have to set boundaries because he doesn't understand and is selfish. I love to do what he says because he can be charming, but then bad things happen to me, like having to join the army when I was poor (on my own due to disability) and vulnerable and attracted there just what I attract everywhere else. I will be abused. He didn't want me to leave him and go into the army, and I was slapped. Thanks to him, I had no choice. He clings to me with his borderline personality disorder. There are consequences, sorry, dad, send me the cat backpack.
If I have to be submissive to a man, it will be my stepfather. He understands and is kind. My ex was a lot like Quincy. Unfortunately, my relationship with X revolved around not having sex. Oh well, I'm such a gold digger. lol.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6tDdjOmsCY&list=RDY6tDdjOmsCY&start_radio=1 boohoo annoys me. I don't care about interpersonal relationships, boring as Hell. They use these issues to say I don't matter and to rip me apart if they think I value myself. Many people cry over spilled milk, but if I show emotion, it's over. And if I don't cry like I should, it's over. Hook me up to a computer and shut up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vy2F1XCKE50 my hero. let her think about what they're doing. Minus what Britney Spears (above the law with the bubbler) said, the offices I called were useful unlike Putin and those who want to have all the goodies and rule like him. Do you want my check? Do you want to fuck me? Go ahead. I learned a lot in sparrow school and my zindan. It's okay, Putin can have his chunk of ice. We'll probably get it soon enough because you are a moron (angry words, no offense, Russian people). Anyway, they directed me to services for disabled people and recommended I get adult behavioral health help, not have my brain destroyed.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0D_dYh5EKc. this was me. I hate being happy, and I hate them. Now I'm stuck fighting them forever.
Friday, May 1, 2020
If I'm Not a Bitch, There Will be World Peace
Honestly, I'm usually nice and live in my hallucination because no one wants to be around me no matter what I do. I have to be careful about not offending them or annoying them. I've spent years asking why and blaming myself. If only I could have a friend who wouldn't leave me in my world for themselves. It doesn't happen. I have many lessons to learn.
I'm speshal.
I can guess at my real sins. I don't earn money. I have no status. I don't like sex and drugs, my peers' habits, so I play alone. They're useful. Although, I'm considering drugs due to this state. Anything to escape. It's not like my brain can get much worse. Not really. I wouldn't give them the satisfaction. They can keep beating my corpse. YOU STILL SUCK! Snowden was your fault. 911 was your fault. Manning was your fault. I was your fault. Assange is really your fault. Let him go.
You've gone too far this time. I don't want to be happy, Bjork. I want you to settle with me. Give me all the crap you used to demoralize me, to make me worship you and eat dirt to your deserving glory. All of you. Blue Stahli. There's more to life than your candy and making me angry with domination. I wanted to go to school (CC), get a job, and have a house. I'm not going to be less than my best to justify your candy cane world. I don't want you near me with your diseases. Let me go to prison where we won't compete. You can suck it all you want. Bjork only wants us to fuck. She can do herself all day long for a million years. Live forever, just away from me, please. I'm not going to worship you.
Plus, I'm not allowed to be happy, even if I could work. I have to be punished for various things, like not having an education or making errors. I have to know what my boss wants, which I can't sense and the happy retard can't calculate. I can't count change very well.
I'm nearly illiterate now and dumbed down as if I were ever smart. I can type like I speak. Those are connected. I'm sure they'll cut more connections like pulling wings off of a butterfly. Hahaha to me. No one will hire me and others will continue to attack me for being on assistance because I'm the sacrifice to make them justify their own Hells. Be self-sufficient in dire poverty. You too can dig through the trash. Be proud of your work. And Bjork still has 45 million dollars but wants power she hasn't ever earned. Sorry, chick, you'll end without an impact, same as me in the dirt.
Since I'm ignorant, people will try to take advantage of me, so I have to avoid them. I'm back to my hallucination. You tried to take that from me, but you can't.
I'm speshal.
I can guess at my real sins. I don't earn money. I have no status. I don't like sex and drugs, my peers' habits, so I play alone. They're useful. Although, I'm considering drugs due to this state. Anything to escape. It's not like my brain can get much worse. Not really. I wouldn't give them the satisfaction. They can keep beating my corpse. YOU STILL SUCK! Snowden was your fault. 911 was your fault. Manning was your fault. I was your fault. Assange is really your fault. Let him go.
You've gone too far this time. I don't want to be happy, Bjork. I want you to settle with me. Give me all the crap you used to demoralize me, to make me worship you and eat dirt to your deserving glory. All of you. Blue Stahli. There's more to life than your candy and making me angry with domination. I wanted to go to school (CC), get a job, and have a house. I'm not going to be less than my best to justify your candy cane world. I don't want you near me with your diseases. Let me go to prison where we won't compete. You can suck it all you want. Bjork only wants us to fuck. She can do herself all day long for a million years. Live forever, just away from me, please. I'm not going to worship you.
Plus, I'm not allowed to be happy, even if I could work. I have to be punished for various things, like not having an education or making errors. I have to know what my boss wants, which I can't sense and the happy retard can't calculate. I can't count change very well.
I'm nearly illiterate now and dumbed down as if I were ever smart. I can type like I speak. Those are connected. I'm sure they'll cut more connections like pulling wings off of a butterfly. Hahaha to me. No one will hire me and others will continue to attack me for being on assistance because I'm the sacrifice to make them justify their own Hells. Be self-sufficient in dire poverty. You too can dig through the trash. Be proud of your work. And Bjork still has 45 million dollars but wants power she hasn't ever earned. Sorry, chick, you'll end without an impact, same as me in the dirt.
Since I'm ignorant, people will try to take advantage of me, so I have to avoid them. I'm back to my hallucination. You tried to take that from me, but you can't.
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